I wrote this as a reply to one of the posts, but decided to post as a new post than a reply.
The post was if I have forgiven Virat or not after yesterday's episode. Below is my answer. The reason for this post is to say how am I feeling and what am I expecting from the characters as an audience.
To answer the question whether I have forgiven him or not "Who am I to forgive Virat?"
If the question is if I am still upset with Virat, then please do read the below.
As an audience, I was upset with the character but I am not as upset as I was, since days have passed by and I am just an audience. I am still upset with him, I have written what I am feeling or have been feeling for a long time now.
I feel sad and upset whenever a character has to go through pain. It could be Virat or Sai or Aai or Devi Tai or anyone. It has also been Pakhi in the past until she started to act vile.
I felt bad for Virat from the holi sequence till the time he started to act mad after reaching the house, till the time he had behaved disrespectfully towards Usha Maushi. I could see his pain many times even when he was fighting with Sai but that was only until he had ousted Sai and Usha Maushi from the house. Until he had closed the door on their face.
I obviously felt very bad for Sai and Usha Maushi when Virat did that. I was very upset and disappointed with Virat.
But, at the same time, I felt bad for him when Pakhi insisted on having food with him right acter he had ousted Sai from the house. I felt bad that she didn't give him the time he needed to stay alone, he had acted inhumane, so against his usual self, was also worried about his sister, but she didn't let him reflect on his actions, she didn't think he needed space. She was such a selfish person who was only interested in having food the way he used to have with Sai. She had not even thought about Sai once, two women were ousted from the house and she was least bothered.
She also was making Virat uncomfortable and kept insisting that she had food in their room.
So, at that point of time, I felt bad for Virat.
I felt bad for him yesterday too, that many in his family didn't bother about his pain or hurt. They didn't care that he was feeling guilty, have to stay away from his wife who has refused to return to his life, and that he was feeling miserable. They were mocking at his state than feeling sorry for him. I felt sorry for Virat, the son.
This is how I feel, as an audience I can get upset or angry, I can also feel bad or sorry for the character.
Sai went behind Virat's back and got his sister married.
I was upset with Sai too, since Virat was hoping to confess his feelings and spend time with her, but she never let him know of her plans.
My disappointment on Sai came down when she became the victim.
I am not as upset with Sai as I initially was since days have passed by and also because Sai's and Virat's actions can never be compared. Again, I am just an audience, below are my thoughts about Sai's actions.
As per the story, Virat has not brought up what Sai did because he is guilty right now, he doesn't want to defend himself in anyway. All that he wants is for Sai to forgive him and return to his house. Ever since he visited Gadchirolli, he has understood that he has hurt her self respect too and that she needs time to heel, she needs time to come out of what he had done to her.
If it was anyone else and not Virat, the person would also be made to think that these might not have happened if his wife had shared her plans with him.
Yes, she had her reasons for it, it is proved that his family members were plotting to separate Devi and Pulkit, so he can think that Sai took this decision trying to save Devi and Pulkit's marriage. But that would have been a mixed emotion.
One can think that way, also think that she could have tried talking to him and they both could have done something about it together.
One can say that Virat might not have trusted Sai, but did Sai even try or did she wait?
It could be that Virat's nature that played a part for Sai to take this decision without involving him. He wouldn't have believed her or he would have got influenced by his family members easily and might have fought with Sai.
I can think these as an audience, but if I have to think as Virat or any other character in the place of Virat, the question holds true as to why couldn't Sai wait and that would have led to another argument.
If Virat was not in guilt or if he was a person who was stuck to past, is not looking at how to fix the issue now, he would have thought that she could have also waited to show the college documents once the college opened, brought the whole truth out for him or let him investigate and then both could have got Devi married.
What I mean to say in the above is, people like Virat might have realised their mistake, they might apologise, there are one set of people who would ignore or neglect whatever Sai did thinking that he had failed to give Sai the confidence to share the plan with him.
There could be another set of people who would have apologised but even then held back the bitterness thinking why she couldn't have shared and would have thought of various reasons as to why it even had to come to this position. They might be wrong, might feel guilty but even then would think these. It is quite natural.
This only shows one thing, I was also moved by this, that Virat feels that he is at fault, he was wrong and he should only apologise and seek forgiveness and has no rights to even open his mouth.
The only time Virat felt like correcting Sai was when she had brought up Pakhi, he wanted to clear that Pakhi wasn't special for him like how Sai thinks but he thought that in the position he was in, he shouldn't be justifying his actions or defending himself.
"Yeh sach nahi hai Sai, par aaj mein ek shabd nahi kahoonga kyunki galti aaj meri hai"
She might have said stop acting like a mahaan, it was natural for her to have felt that way in the position she was in, but as an audience, I was happy, that he chose not to speak anything in his defense.
Not many who actually makes mistakes, apologises without trying to get defensive or trying to justify their actions. It happens involuntarily and Virat had been sensible enough to know that he shouldn't be speaking anything when he is at fault, after whatever he had done, the only thing he should do is seek her forgiveness, which is what he did.
To me, this act of his spoke a lot more than anything in this whole track, be it his confrontation with Pakhi or his family before he went to GC or after he returned from GC.
I am still upset with what Virat did to Sai and Usha Maushi. I want to see what he does, how he tries to get her to forgive. I also want to see how he behaves in future and if he would be repeating his mistakes.
Whatever happened in the latest episode might sound good and impressive, but that was something Virat should have done long back. He did, to some extent on the day of Mahashivratri.
But to me, whatever happened yesterday should have happened irrespective of whether Sai returned with him or not. Only because Sai didn't return with him, did he even behave that way or talk to Kaku that way. What would he have done otherwise?
I am upset that Virat never apologised to Usha Maushi, I am not sure if it was the CVs fault.
I am upset that Virat realised his mistake only after getting to know the truth, he should have realised that ousting two women was wrong much earlier. But since he is just a fictional character and I am an audience, I don't have anything more to think on this now, I can only wait to see how he behaves in the future.
Sai might also forgive and return to him, but I would want to see what he does in the future.
I am looking forward to some good moments between the couple, hope that brings them closer emotionally as well and helps them to strengthen their relationship.
I am looking forward to see progress in both.
Major changes that I want to see in Sai
Sai is a a very nice girl, she has not done huge damages like Virat has (hand holding episode, food denial and ousting), but she has also hurt him emotionally many times.
I want to see how considerate she becomes towards Virat and his feelings.
I don't want her to hurt him without even caring how he would be feeling by acting indifferently.
I want her to apologise to Virat to have hidden about Devi's marriage from him.
If she wants to stay away from him, she needs to find a better way, make herself strong and stay away without being harsh or rude to him. Her raised walls doesn't mean hurting Virat through harsh and piercing words.
She needs to try to understand Virat, whether she understands his emotions for her or not.
Try to differentiate Virat's action towards Pakhi and towards herself. Try to make some sense out of it rather than blindly believing that he loves only Pakhi. I am aware of why she stops herself from thinking that way, but I want to see some improvement in her in trying to make sense out of Virat's actions and behavior towards her.
Behave with him or act affectionate towards him like how she has been with Aai or Devi Tai or Shivani Bua or Mohit.
She likes Virat more than any of these people, but is not showing it in her actions towards him, she has to start openly expressing her care, concern and affection for Virat, otherwise it would be emotionally taxing for Virat.
Major changes that I want to see in Virat :
And in Virat, I want to see how he deals with his family when they behave rudely or in an unfair manner with Sai. He needs to correct them whenever they are wrong.
I want to see how he stops Pakhi from taunting or troubling Sai. He shouldn't let Pakhi question Sai or question anything related to their relationship.
I don't want him to answer to Pakhi about why he did certain things for Sai or explain to her about anything wrt Sai.
I want to see how he acts when he gets upset with Sai or when he grows angry. I want to see him controlling his anger and handling things in a matured way.
I want him to stop taking so much liberty on Sai by shouting at her much more than his family members. Just because he can be himself with Sai, doesn't give him rights to behave extremely rude with Sai. He has to keep a check on his actions.
I want to see if he realises his mistakes on his own without someone else have to point it out to him. As @sukri said, even on the day he had refused food to Sai, he realised it only after Aai spoke to him.
I want to see consistency in his behavior, not get influenced by the words of Pakhi or his family members once Sai returns home.
I don't want him to bring Pakhi in between him and Sai in anyway, he is not an advocate for Pakhi and must remember that.
I also don't want Virat to get sympathetic towards Pakhi more than what is required, use his Aai or someone else to help Pakhi rather than volunteering himself to help her. He needs to understand that there are many people in the house and Pakhi has got parents and friends and not just him to be able to support Pakhi when she is in trouble or when she is upset.
No point in staying silent or getting emotional if Sai confronts him about Pakhi again.
What I want as an audience are these, but we all know that the characterization and the script is already in place. We have no control over it.
If they are going to follow what was in the original, I can only watch as much as I can. I can analyse and criticize characters when the story progresses, even though I am aware of the future plot.
Just felt like sharing how I am feeling as an audience.
Can we please try to see this post as a tool to understand the characters, the current track. Can I also please request not to comment by criticising any character harshly? I understand that some of you might be upset with the track and the characters, but we should all wait and watch for the story to unfold. Some have expectations about the upcoming track and are excited to watch their journey too. I have expressed what my expectations are and will wait to see if any of these happens.
@idkwhattoput my answer to your post. My thoughts which I felt like expressing after your post.
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