Suprabhat Bhagininno! 🌻🌻🌻
Of all the spashthas needed, at least two have been served today. Thank God Bappa for small mercies!
So Virat has at least opened the closet to let out one demon and face it. Spashthly serving: Mujhe tumhara sach nahi pata Pakhi, lekin mera sach yahi hai ki tum mere bade ki wife ho aur meri dost. Isse jyada mere mann me tumhare liye koi aur feelings nahin hai
Virat Chavan ki zabaan se ek spashth sentence sunn na is consolation enough. Expecting him to speak more than one sentence of spashtha in one day is too much umeed so I am going to wait...
Now, as we discussed yesterday, this apology was going to meet the reaction that was exactly served by Ved-lagleli-vahini or she would have lied and covered up but I think it's now in the open -- she has actually reinforced what Sai has spoken and I don't doubt that Virat has registered it.
The moment he uttered the words - "Sai ko Lagta hai hum ek doosre se pyaar karte Hain... Wo kehti hai ki tum Apna pyaar Kisi se chhupaati Nahi ho aur mera tumhare liye jo pyaar hai usse main Apne Dil me Daba Kar rakhta hoon hua..." -- it was a definite apology right from the words spoken, to the tone and the expressions -- the awkwardness at the very thought of Sai making such insinuation visible. It was an apology for the words that Sai spoke and also the regret that Sai has felt that way.. 'is there something that you think I have done wrong that she thinks so and so I am sorry you had to hear this from her in her moment of anger at me...'
Now Vahini wasn't ready for the sach Ka Saamna -- she was neither ready to accept that she has a past with Virat when Sai opened the can of worms in front of the family, nor is she ready to accept the truth that she herself proclaimed in a loud voice for the display of susheelta.
It is evident -- PP is extremely aware and very conscious about her mask. In her private space, she's ready to let go of the mask and reveal her actual mind to Virat to tell him what she still feels for him, to blame him for a decision she took, not he --to manipulate and guilt trip him for his decisions and to once again express her utter disenchantment for life's way...
Right from "Toh Kya ye sach hai" with her hopeful eyes to her hysterical "I am lonely", PP's delusional nature is very evident and also comprehensible now. She is officially in a state of psychosis -- some one who is unable to distinguish facts from imagination and unwilling to accept the truth.
I think apart from the final take down of PP, which will perhaps happen only when Samrat returns, today's exchange between Virat and PP should be among the momentous moments of the show (Two minutes silence for Samrat's photo... Uski awaaz Hoti toh wo kya kehta? 🙄 Wo kis baat pe hasta, kis baat pe hairan hota... Kis baat par apna sar fodta... Kis baat par in dono Ka sar deewar se patakta...😑). In order to be able to move on from here to make or break his relationship with Sai, it is essential to first address this subject. While it is far from being completely concluded, it is at least a step in the direction. And the clarity from Virat, conveyed to Vahini in clear words -- but without the use of the word 'Vahini' -- is a significant development for Virat's personal emotional realisation of where he stands.
He did not appear one bit guilty about saying what he said, "I don't have any more feelings for you except the fact that you are my brother's wife and (therefore) my good friend. And there will never be a any more space for you in my life than this..." Not "best friend" as Vahini wants to cover up her lust with. Because being 'best' is different from being 'one of the others'. It is noteworthy that even when she mentioned the broken vaada, he had no guilt or memory of it. (Can't thank the makers enough for doing away with that annoying ghisa pita tape that skips itself in exact 10 seconds 😅)
Vahini's need to speak spashth on Virat's face was an eye opener for him -- it was visible that he was taking his moment to process this new information that he was blissfully ignorant about the reality that PP is indeed living in her delusional world. I still don't think he has entirely understood her 'loneliness' but her confession will definitely make him see things from a perspective once the emotional storm inside him in regards to the status of his marriage has calmed down...
So Virat is officially caught between "aaj bhi akeli hoon" wife and "main bohat akeli hoon" vahini, who doesn't know "kab tak akeli rahungi"... Call it his insensitivity or his need to reinforce the fact to her, but Virat really thinks only Samrat can drive away this 'loneliness' that vahini feels. It is actually not a wrong belief but it is placed in his notion that she's a willing partner in her marriage with Samrat. She is not. That is a fact Virat is unwilling to see despite it being so evident. So for Patralekha, the 'pata nahi kab tak akeli rahungi' is not a thought connected to Samrat at all but Virat's instinct is to feel bad and move in to assure her about Samrat's return, especially after Sai -- the only one who gives him that hope -- has begun to speak like everyone else about the improbable return of Vahini's 'khushiyaan'.
PP stops him right there -- she knows what is the next sentence he's going to speak. It has to be, "Aisa Nahin hai Pakhi. Tum dekhna Samrat ke aane ke baad Tumhari khushiyaan bhi laut aayengi"... She knows that and it is not what she wants to hear at that moment. Not from the man she's still pining for.
Brings me back to her delusional state. What she thrives on is guilt tripping Virat for the decisions that were actually hers:
"For what all will you say sorry? You erase your feelings for smeone and get away with a sorry? Will you say sorry for meeting me at the yoga camp? Will you say sorry for entering my life? Will you say sorry for disappearing from my life? Will you say sorry for reappearing? Sorry for marrying me off to your brother or sorry for marrying Sai?"
I know it is debatable and a lot of people think that it was his bhankas vaada that pushed her to marrying Samrat but my question is this: Would she have called off the wedding even if Virat had not given her the vaada?
The other day, most of us agreed that she wouldn't have. Because, he had originally left the choice to her after refusing to stand up for their 'love' and telling her in front of her parents, "I hope you will continue with your decision to marry Samrat. Aaj Sangeet hai, mujhe ummeed hai tum aaogi" and she came , dressed in all finery, dancing in Samrat's arms with the aim of inducing jealously for her obsession and expecting him to burn in the fury he should feel about her being in another man's arms... she did not mind that closeness with Samrat so long as she could see Virat suffering for rejecting her. Would she have not married Samrat in vengeance even if there was no vaada?
She would have. And she would have been the vamp without a mask from day one -- manipulating the family against any choices Virat would still eventually make. In a way, his vaada gave her the mask she could wear to be in his good books to continue to make him believe in her susheelta and maturity and her goodness where there wasn't really any. This woman hasn't said one sincere prayer for Samrat's return even as a human being -- but she has prayed for Virat to be given to her, spoke superficially about how she feels bad for the family and even prayed for Sai's success so that she can get out of the house.
Her decision to marry Samrat was hers because she assumed Virat had 'disappeared', which she accused him of today. About her question of him being sorry for marrying Sai, she's obviously blissfully unaware that he's already said it to the Dil Ke acche Ghar ke bade that he does not regret his decision at all -- but 2.30am ko Virat Ka suicide hallucinate Karne wali vahini ko koi kaise jagaye!? 🤷😑
Today, Virat's admission that he has no more feelings for her except the 'good friendship' that he should have with her on account of their acquaintance and her marriage to his older brother has taken her mask off. She will not be able to display her 'dosti' anymore because she just revealed that there is none.
The most interesting dialogue is :
"Tumhare is faisle ne teen teen zindagiyaan barbad Kar di Hain Virat..." 🤔🤔🤔
I am thinking thrice 🙊 mujhe toh laga tha I'm the one who hates math but Mallika-e-Maturity is missing out on the Fourth leg of the square they are in -- square one. This is not a triangle any more... Who is the third one? Sai or Samrat? Or is it Sai because Samrat toh "aayega bhi Nahi"? 😰 But does she think of Sai? May be she thinks of Sai more than she thinks of Samrat actually because Sai is always on her mind... That question is making me restless 😅 someone please tell me the answer to this geometry question.
Waise, for the honesty which she couldn't hide today, it is commendable how she covered up the entire can of worms that Sai had spilled yesterday by speaking of bumping into her 'yoga camp wala best friend' at her haldi ceremony with Samrat, conveniently leaving out the "we need this chance" gidgidaoing she did with him at the haldi, begging him to fight for their possible marriage... What a contrast-- Sai was able to walk out with her head held high (but with a broken heart) after reminding him that she never fell on his feet begging him to marry her.
And this is the woman who began by calling Sai's truth "behudgi" when Virat first entered her room and she had her 'mask' on.
The second installment of the interaction was interesting -- her attempt to brush aside her honest outburst under the guise of being 'Sai ki badtameezi se pareshaan' and showing the 'care'. The plate fell again to the ground -- shattered into pieces -- and this time it was accompanied by a remorseless "Accha hua gir gayi"...
Although it is understood that Virat is seething in anger and breathing in the air of the constant instigation from everyone around him while Sai is still not in his visual space, it is problematic that he thinks he was "teaching Sai tameez" when PP stopped him. Was it a justification for the hand holding or was it sarcastically said to her face? What happened to the pang of guilt he felt when Ashwini had broken his stupor and his tears rolled down when he met Sai's eyes -- just realising that the "man" inside him had used force on his "wife"... Is his memory loss so rapid? Please tell me he was being only sarcastic to respond to her taunt about his wife even in her absence...
He walked away from the room but his "new degree of taana marna" comment was not enough especially since it was followed up by an almost similar response that he tried to offer Sai when she had her outburst about PP's behaviour that night and he almost wanted to say, "I objected to it"... But here, it wasn't even about Vahini to begin with so why the need to explain "tameez sikha raha tha"... There was a definite resentment for PP at the end when he walked out of the room but if he still continues to treat them on the same platform, it will be unacceptable.
PP's need to taunt Sai -- even in her absence-- at every step is soon going to be the reason for own undoing. Because while she may feel that they often" succeed in guilt tripping Virat as does the entire Makad Sena in instigating him and he indeed changes his behavior towards Sai as a result, the success at creating a rift between the navra baiko will always come with a price— the one that the guilt inducers cannot see. The more often you try to guilt trip someone successfully, it also adds the strong feelings of resentment toward the manipulators.
The reason why guilt trips succeed despite the resentment is because it is used most often in close family relationships that have strong feelings affection between the manipulators and the person at the receiving end. If there wasn't a feeling of care the the resentment and anger at getting manipulated would override the guilt and make them resist the manipulation. Soon, Virat will find himself there when the masks slip and the affection diminishes... But what all the manipulation and giving in to the guilt and covering it up with masculine ego will do is to slowly inject the poison into his relationship with Sai. Their relationship needs an antidote.
Bhavani's need to push Patralekha on Virat has been reinforced today. She played so well on three occasions since the Ladakh meltdown that left vahini completely unmasked in front of almost the entire family -- Bhavani for PP to serve tea to Virat, stopped her from changing the subject of the argument to Sai's joining in the trip by shutting her up for the first time and then immediately joining to gang up on Sai before she could speak something more that could be indisputable... And now that things are pretty much open, allowing her to take the meal-- PP was more than willing despite the fake refusal. The look she handed out to Ashwini before walking away with the plate cannot be missed -- it was a challenge thrown at the mother: Try as you may, my venom will not spare your son and his marriage...
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Frankly, I couldn't connect with Sai at all today. Right from her picking up this morning fight with the family without using tactical approach to find the truth to almost antagonising the person who she wanted to meet just based on her assumption and her disappointment was too unreal. She didn't even show civility towards the woman who she first met. What if her notion of this being the same Pulkit was actually wrong? How would she justify this rude behaviour towards the professor and his 'wife' just because her hope that he was the same man was dashed? I found it too exaggerated that she had to sulk and be outright curt to the professor and decline the lunch and walk out without even offering basic greetings or finding out the truth despite not seeing any photos of the 'wife' in the living room space...
At moments of her impulsive impoliteness, she does come across as immature and badtameez. Her retorts to Pulkit were rude and imprudent and her acknowledging that Virat had a problem with her coming to his house was rude as well 🙄. If she went with the sole idea of validating that he was the same Pulkit without considering that he could be someone else, it was stupid. But even after she confirmed that he was the same Pulkit because he stayed in Chavan niwas and knowing well that he has been emotional twice at the mention of his 'wife' and "Devyani" and the knowledge that Devyani has mentioned that a baby was snatched away, Sai's behaviour was totally foolhardy.
And what is even more surprising is that she herself is a girl who grew up without a mother and in the care of another woman whom her father had sheltered as a sister... Bhool gayi that Usha maushi meri maa jaisi hai? Just because the girl addresses this woman as 'Maa'?
This happened because of her wrong decisions and her need to rebel and do things her way. She should have taken up this subject of investigation at a calmer time. She was not in the frame of mind to think because she had stressed herself in the fight she should have avoided and expended all her energy in the outburst at Virat because she didn't want to explain for the 50th time why she wanted to visit the professor alone. She had a thought of regret at her own actions of the morning.... Of course, she also has to be restless because let's face it -- Virat's reactions matter to her. He makes up a large part of her mental space and dheeth as they both are about expressing their feelings, she is in a state of upheaval because she knows the fight is unresolved. She may have burst out after reaching the breaking point and wants the answers either way but it is true that in the depths of her heart she would want things to be resolved. There is no denying that she wants to be the 'willing wife' to a 'willing husband'..
So if it is really about Devyani and helping her, Sai should have used strategy. Her choice of the day to visit the Tai-ka-probable-pati was wrong -- not because it was Sunday but because she was not in the best frame of minds to even be alert -- the storm inside her about her own marriage has not calmed down. She mixed the two issues in her moment of anger and vulnerability, made the wrong moves, compromised the support that Aai (and even Virat) was giving her, antagonised the already wicked pack of wolves, spoke truths that need to be spoken but caused damage to her relationship with her husband and refused to let go of her ego just like him, she walked out without turning to look back but should be prepared for more drama that will follow once she's back and in an even sulking mood because of the disappointment she felt at Pulkit's...
I now feel, had she chosen a day when things were normal between Virat and her and expressed to Virat the need to visit her professor for something important, he would have probably even driven her himself happily to Pulkit's house.. but then anger makes your brain cells to numb... I wonder how will she apologise to Pulkit for this.
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Mohit actor banega? Sai has influenced him? That was too fast but although I strongly agree with the advise of following passion, I don't deny that this guy needs to know aate daal Ka bhaav not for Karishma but for himself. He can definitely pursue his acting but he does come across as grossly irresponsible and insensitive to his wife'sr reason to push him to giving up on his dreams. But anyhow, tomorrow night be his day to show his acting chops on the screen so let's see....
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Have you been guilt tripped in manipulating relationships? How do you fight it? It is true that the mild poison that guilt trips begin with, potentially turn into toxicity in the long term that causes significant strain and emotional distance in any relationship that one actually has with the guilt inducer. One could be patient or confront and explain to the guilt inducer -- and setting stern boundaries. What would be your pick?
Pick also the soul brews for the day -- coffee ☕ ☕☕ or tea 🍵🍵🍵 -- black, white or grey? Or will it be green: the colour of the season of spring of the new or is it the colour of envy that can orchestrate the opening of the flood gates of self destruction. Take your pick.
Baaki, hugs 🤗🤗🤗 and pyaar ❤️❤️❤️ toh free flowing hai -- and still freely available. So Dil mein daba Kar mat rakhna... Kehne ki ho Dil mein koi baat, mujhse Kaho 😃🤗🥰
In anticipation of what is awaited, aabhar 🙏🙏
Aale,
♥️J
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