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ye sab share kiya tha kisi se main ne, 1 eyse insaan ko jis ko hum dono ka pata hai,

onhon ne kaha ansar band kar do ye sab, tum har time os ki yadon me rehte ho to kese nikal sakoge,

ye ho nahi sakta, july se oct tak main gayeb raha, main ne WA open nahi kiya lekin wo sab batain meri yadon me is tarhan se hain ke mujhe har pal yaad hai.. pagal ho chuka hoon na is liye, bus fark itna hai ke jab bina WA dekhe wo sab batain yaad ati hain to or feel hota hai, dard feel hota hai, or jab WA pe dekh kar on yadon ko yaad karta hoon to eysa lagta hai jese kuch galat hova he nahi, eysa lagta hai jese zindagi khubsurat hai, bus ye samjh lo main 2015 me chala jata hoon. mujhe ye ehsaas he nahi hota ke itna kuch ho chuka hai. to wo sab yaad karna meri addat nahi hai. main jo bus sans le raha hoon ye shayed on yadon ki waja se he hai, warna mere paas jeene ka reason to hai he nahi koi.. ager koi insaan mujh se ye yadain cheen le to ye sans bhe chalna band ho jayegi,

main jab zarorat se zeyada beemar ho jaon wo to phir doc he dekhte hain, lekin wese jab thora bohot ho jaon to os ki waja se he theek hota hoon, ya to yadon se ya dreams me a kar wo theek kar deti hai mujhe,

to main ne on se keh diya tha ke ye mere liye na mumkin hai ke main on yadon ka na dekhon, to onhon ne kaha ok dekho lekin os se thora door raho wo tumhain or dukh degi jese ye diya, lol

abhe is baat pe main kya kahon, main to kabhe paas tha he nahi os naagin ke, jab tha to wo as toy tha, main bus on ka khilona tha jo on ke timepaas karne ke kaam ata tha, paas to main tab hota jab wo dil se mujhe chahti :P

chalo koi nahi. pyaar na sahi ye sab to mila mujhe,

30 saal ki zindagi to gayi, baki ki jitni hai guzar he jayegi eyse he mout ka wait karte karte, or is zindagi se kuch maang bhe nahi sakta main. bohot kuch mil geya ye sab kafi hai na, nend nahi ati mujhe, sakoon nahi hai mere paas, khushi nahi hai mere paas, dard hai , yesab kafi hai or kya chahiye mujhe,

or agar dosra janam hova to main apne dil ko strong bana ke aaon ga, kiyon ke is duniya main bus wohi jeene ke kabil hai jis ka dil pathar jesa ho, warna mere jese logon ki okaat 1 tissue paper jesi hai, use kiya, dil laga kar khela or phir phenk diya,

is se acha tha na ke mujh me insaniyat 0% hoti, dil mera pathar ka hota, phir dekhta main os naagin ko kese khelti meri zindagi ke sath,!

Mama ne bhe bohot koshish ki thi, wo har pal kehti thin ansar tum strong ban jao jese ho ye duniya jeene nahi degi,or main on se keh deta tha ap ho na mere paas baki sab ki parwa nhi mujhe. wo kehti thin main ne hamesha nahi rehna tumhare sath, to main keh deta tha its ok, tab a jayegi meri zindagi me koi jo Ap ki jaga sambhal legi or mujhe rone nahi degi life me,

galat tha main....

khud se zeyada bharosa kar betha tha na, phir saza na milti to kya hota or,

kaha karta tha main os ko ke mujhe dukh na diya karo mera dil 2 saal ke bache jesa weak hai,

ye baat maloom thi os ko, or turst me aj bhe yaa hogi os.

or bhe 1 baat kehta tha os ko, ke khud ka kheyal rakhna or mera bhe...

nahi rakh sakti thi mera kheyal to bhe problem nahi thi, kam se kam ye dukh to na deti jo de diya os ne mujhe jo meri akhri sans tak rahega.. 1% bhe care na karti, bus 2 kadam sath to chal leti mere, mujhe bus or kuch chahiye he nahi tha zindagi se. kiyon ke zindagi he wohi thi meri.

or aj bhe mere dil me meri family to hai but on ki yaad mujhe nahi ati, or aye bhe kese, naagin ko yaad kiye bina 10 minutes to guzare nahi jate, to baki log kese yaad ayein mujhe,

2013 me tha, acha lag raha tha sab, bus ye mesg dikh geya jis ne dimaag kharab kar diya mera,

game khelne ja raha hoon main, lol dimaag kharab hai abhe warna os ki or bohot tareef kar doon ga main,

eyse me game bhe nahi kheli jati kya karon.

jab dard ho bohot zeyada to kuch nahi hota, or abhe to dard ke sath gussa bhe hai to kuch nahi hoga mujh se abhe,

kahan main 1st ata tha or abhe 8 kills or 25 deaths,!

main chala. itni si baton se he pain start ho geya mujhe. is se pehle kuch ho jaye jana chahiye,

pyaar ki hamare bus itni si kahani hai,

tum bichar gaye or hum bikhar gaye..

tum mile nahi or hum kisi or ke hove nahi

ey muhabat tu sharm se doob mar,

tu ek insaan ko mera na kar saki...💔

meri ankhon ko surakh dekh kar kehte hain log,

lagta hai tera pyaar tujhe rulata bohot hai,