Chapter 77
He was wondering why she never stopped him for anything else, but stopped him from kissing her at the end. They had been together for the past 7-8months. And still she wouldn't let him kiss her. Engaged for more than half of that time on top of that. Even when he was teasing her about getting close to her again in toronto, then why did she move her hand. What made her so hessitant or scared?
Khushi: as what you want to ask.
He smiled, she always knew what he was thinking. Or whenever he had a question in his mind or heart.
Arnav: how do you know that i want to ask something.
Khushi: bas, pata hai.
She smiled. Arnav cleared his throat. He was a
Arnav: voh, main.. Umm..
Arnav was lost for words. He didnt know what to say, or how to say it. He wanted to be direct with her, but didnt want to at the same time. The questions in his mind were too specific. Khushi could sense his hessitation.
Khushi :game khailain.
Aranv was confused.
Khushi: 20 questions.
Arnav sighed and nodded.
Khushi: is it something to do with us?
Aranv: yes.
Khushi: is it about last night?
Arnav: yes
Khushi: is it relating to our ummm...ahem.
Arnav: closeness
Khushi: is it something that you feel...
Arnav: confused
Khushi was surprised why he felt confused. What was he confused about.
Khushi: confused about your emotions?
Arnav: no
Khushi: confused about your... Umm.. Actions?
Arnav: no.
She was stumped, and he was hessitant. Should he ask her, should he not ask her. Yes, they were close, yes they were to be married, and yes they said that they would not keep secrets or hide anything from each other. But, sometimes, you had to figure out your own emotions and thought before anyone else can help you with them.
All of a sudden, Arnav put his head up, and started to push his shoulder up. Again and again.
Khushi got up and looked at him, questioningly.
Khushi: kya howa.
Arnav: look behind us. Akashs car is coming up.
Khushis at up straight and looked down, or to the side. Arnav changed lanes so he could let akashs car pass by. Akash sped up his car, and arnav waved at him. Khushi looked down, while given a very small and gentle smile. She didnt want to look at anyone. Her arnav was stressed about something, and there was no way that she could not be worried about that.
Arnavs phone rang. It was akash.
Akash: Hey bhai, we needed to take a stop over. Coffee and filling up some gas. Are you two going to join us,, or.. akailay.. akailay..hmmmm.
Arnav chuckled.
Arnav: akaaash,,,
Aranv looked at khushi, she slightly tilted her head, looked at him and smiled. She nodded while blinking her eyes approvingly. Yes, she wanted to talk to aranv, but right now may not have been the time.
Arnav: we will follow you. Lead the way.
They hung up the phone. Both khushi and arnav sighed.
They all pulled into the nearest gas station and diner. The girls went in to order lunch while the guys filled up the gas in their cars. The girls sat down at the round table and the guys joined them. Khushi smiled and kept on looking down from time to time. Arnav just smiled and sat beside her. Akash sat beside anjali, and payal sat between khushi and anjali.
Anjali: so khushi, how as the ride over to here so far. Hmmm
She asked with a cheeky smile on her face. Khushi just smiled and looked down.
Arnav: it was peaceful anjali, since you were not there.
Payal and everyone started to laugh. Anajali made a frown, but smiled at the end.
They all tried to bother khushi and arnav, but both of them just smiled and sighed. They knew their siblings were not going to stop. After a little while, arnav recieved a message from his mom asking where they were.
Arnav: Mom messaged asking us to come home, we should be going. Chalain khushi.
She gulped. Did he just ask khushi to go alone with him in front of everyone? She stopped breathing for a second. With her eyes Wide opened, she gulped and then slowly and quietly caught her breath.
Akash: khushi would looooovvveeee you go with youuuuuuuuuu bhai. Right khushi..
Khushi looked up at akash with a straight face. He just grinned. He winked at her reminding the you and the youth rapid fire that they did in Toronto. Khushi just sighed and shook her head.
Payal: khushi, go, i will meet you at home. Goooooo.
Payal pushed khushi and she got up and quietly, silently, with her gaze lowered followed arnav to his car. Aranv opened the door for her and she went and sat down. Arnav went to his side, and drove away.
Anjali: akash lets go, we need to catch up to them.
Akash and payal just hit their heads with their hands, anajli was still in high school, and apparently extremely immature.
Khushi: apnay aisay kyon kaha?
Khushi looked down, lips a bit frowned and a bit sad.
Arnav: kaisay?
Khushi: why did you say lets go khushi, infront of everyone like that. It doesnt look nice aranv.
Arnav just sighed. He wanted to be with her alone, and spend time with her alone, and she was always thinking about what others would say, culturally acceptablebehaviour, and what not. He was a patient person, especially when it came to khushi, but after such a long time of being together, it started to get to him a bit. He didnt know what to say to her, and what he should or should not do anymore. They were close, very very close, but their hearts, minds and some what body. Arnav desired to be closer, more open, more accepting of their relationship. He was worried that he will have to leave soon, and once they returned to campus, then they will be busy with their finals. Why was she not understanding that time for them was crucial. Maybe he was just upset that he had to leave for a couple of years and stay without her. He just didnt know exactly what was wrong. How could he tell her?
Arnav: sorry, i didnt realize that you wouldnt like it.
Khushi was bit shocked by his response. He always knew her, but him saying this was troublesome for her. She remembered how before they had their stop, she was trying to figure out what arnav was worried about.
Khushi sighed, she looked at him. He was upset, clearly very upset. But he would not say it to her. She sighed. She intertwined her hands with his, and placed the head onto hisshoulder. They needed their silence, that was their comfort zone. Khushi closed her eyes. After a long time arnav spoke.
Arnav: khushi, can i ask you something.
Khushi: hmmm. Poochiyeh.
Arnav: no its ok. Maybe later.
Khushi got her head up and looked at him. Hejust looked forward, turned his head, gave a small smile and then looked back at the road.
Arnav: can i ask you something.
Khushi: poochiyeh...
Arnav: is something wrong or bothering you...
Khushi sighed. She didnt know what to say.
Khushi: arnav, voh. Is it ok, if we talk about it when we leave for Toronto tomorrow. I just want to stay like this right now. Is that ok?
He leaned his head against hers and sighed.
Arnav: ok.
Somethingwas definetly wrong, with the both of them. They both had some things in their minds and hearts, and were not able to figure it out. Maybe a realization,maybe a doubt, maybe lack of reassurance, maybe a lack of confidence. No idea. They both knew that they had to first figure it out themselves.
Khushis fell asleep on his shoulder. A small and quick nap. They arrived at khushis house, luckily Akashs and them were not there it.
Arnav turned off the car and brought his driving hand around and slowly tilted his body towards her, making sure not to let her head fall of his shoulder. He raised his head a little bit. He fanned his fingers around her neck, and made sure that the thumb wasinfront of her ear so he could support her. He gently placed a tender kiss on her forehead. Khushis eyes will still closed. They felt someone watching them, he felt as if someone took a picture. He looked around, She tightly shut her eyes and then slowly started to open them. She realized that they reached home. She sat back up.
She looked at him and smiled. He smiled back.
Khushi: ghar agaya.
Arnav sighed and nodded his head.
Arnav: let me help you get your stuff.
Khushi smiled and they both got out of the car.
Arnav got her bags and khushi went to the door. She rang the door bell. Arnav was walking up with her bag.
Garima opened the door. Her mother had a huge smile on her face. Khushi and Aranv both smiled back at her, and today, they together touched garimas feet. While touching her feet, they both turned their heads slightly to look towards each other. They both smiled. Garima placed her hands on their heads. They stood up.
Garima: Aur kaun kaun aya hai? Where is everyone else.
Khushi and arnav both gulped. Oh crap, why didnt they wait for someone. Shoot, what would they say and do. Khushi looked down, while arnav sucked his lips in and was about to say something.
Payal: Main bhi hoon. Khushi, your fiance just got you bag, and completely forgot mines. Not fair na. You see this amma, sirf apna apna.
Arnav and khushi both sighed of relief. Garima started to laugh.
Garima: dont bother my son, Anjali. He is the elder son of this family. When you get married, then your husband will carry yours. Okay. Why dont you guys come in.
Aranv: its ok amma. I have to get home and pack.Leaving for Toronto tomorrow morning.
Garima: Tomorrow, oh ok. I thought you had two more days until your classes started or your reading week was over.
Arnav: yes Amma, but it takes a long time to travel and then rest out from the long drive. That is why.
Garima: Ok. We didnt know, we got khushi her airline ticket for tomorrow night. Why dont you just fly as well.
Khushi looked down and widened her eyes. She was going to Toronto alone. Without Aranv. She sighed. Aranv just smiled and looked at Garima.
Arnav: Actually, I need my car there, and there are two more people also going back with me. My dorm mate and his finace.
Arnav made sure not to say Mintas name. He didnt want Garima to catch onto the double couples thing that was going on inToronto.
Arnav: I should be going amma, thank you for letting your bahu and daughter come with us.
Garima and Arnav hugged and he left.
Arnav, akash and Anjali reached back home. MM was pleased to see all her children. They all hugged her and started to tell her all about the things that they got to do there.
Anjali: Mom, it was sooo much fun. You should have come as well. You know, there was this one time, on the first day, when akash bothered bhai about something, and then bhai started to run after akash.
Aranvs eyes widened.
Arnav: Anjali... Pyari behna... Shut up..
Aranv gave her the glare. but she just pointed her tongue out at him and smiled. He looked down embarressed. Akash started to laugh.
Akash: No, tell her what happened.
Anjali: Bhai was chasing Akash, and then akash ran and hid behind khushi, bhai wasnt able to stop himself and fell right ontop of her. Hahaha. Mom it was soo funny. Both of them were red. You should have seen it.
Arnav put his hands over his face for a moment and slid them down.
He kept looking down and scratched the back of his neck .
Arnav: acutally mom, it was by accident. I swear. It was all akash fault. I didnt know that this would happen.
Everyone was laughing.
MM: Stop bothering my son you two. Okay. Arnav will tell me everything that happened, alone, afterwards. So i can also tease him.
Arnav chuckled and hugged his mom.
Arnav: You are the best, you know that right.
MM: I know.
Arnav took a deep breath and sighed. His mother felt something wrong but didnt say anything because of Anjali andAaksh. They all went upstairs. Arnav started to pack for his trip back,while Akash and Anajli started to unpack from their trip. MM came into Arnavs room with a cup of chai and a small bowl with oil. Arnav smiled looking at the chai and raised his eyebrows when he saw the bowl with oil. That was the hair oil bowl. Man arnav hated it, but would only do it becuase his mom would love to apply it to his head. It would definetly relax him, but the smell would get to him.
MM: Sit down infront of me, drink you chai and let me put this on.
Arnav scrunched his face.
MM: No, mothers orders. Sit.
He sighed, smiled and obliged. MM started to apply the oil. Gently rubbing and massaging her sons head. He put the chai to the side and just closed his eyes, enjoying his mothers care for him.
MM: Arnav, i know you are engaged, and you have your own personal life, but is something wrong. I am a mother and can sense it. I can be your best friend as well. If you want.
Arnav chuckled. How did his mother always know.
Arnav: Its nothing ma. Dont worry.
MM: Arnav, did you guys fight again. Always fighting in the beginning of your relationship is not a good sign.
Arnav: No no Mom. Dont worry. We didnt fight. I am just... I dont know. I just cant explain it.
He sighed. MM just kept on massaging his head. Very gently and slowly, his mother tried to help relax his mind.
Arnav: Mom, can i ask you a question?
MM: pucho.
Arnav: what can. I mean. Some times i feel that khushi is, not necessarily scared, no, but hessitant?
Mm: hessitant, in terms of?
MM had her eye brow raised, but tried not to change anything so arnav didnt get stressed and would talk.
Arnav: hessitant, in terms of.. Umm... Just us. I guess. Its not like what you think mom. Trust us. You know her, and me as well. We dont do anything like that. But just hessitant in owning up to our relationship sometimes.
Mm just listened. She wanted to give arnav his time to speak and explain what he is feeling.
Arnav: I mean, well, put it this way. During the trip right now, i mean we are engaged right. And we had just our siblings, but even then she would not even come and sit beside me at times.
MM smiled.
Mm: Arnav, you know her better than I do. Is she the same in Toronto?
Arnav: Yes, sometimes, I guess.
MM: Arnav, give her time.
Arnav: mom, I did. But, i have to leave in three weeks, for such a long time. I mean, we wont get to spend any time together. Am I wrong to hope this?
MM stayed quiet for a minute, then she softly started to press her hands on his head.
MM: You are not wrong Arnav, from your perspective. But maybe, she has a different perspective. Did you ever try to talk to her about it?
Arnav: I did, It did make a difference, but, Sometimes Mom.... I feel that........ She is scared of something. No idea.
MM: Scared, from what?
Arnav: Me?
MM: You?
ArnaV: I dont know. It sometimes seems as if she is scared of me, or ...
He sighed, how was he to tell his mother that he seemed that khushi was scared of his touch or him going further in their relationship. How come she allowed for some stuff and not others. And why would she always say its ok, doesnt she herself want to get more physically involved with him? Or did she not? Why did arnav always have to make the physical advances towards her? Questions that started off with a simple kiss or no kiss, were now developed further down into more general deep rooted questions.
MM: I don’t think she is scared, she is the shy type, remember. That is what you liked about her first. Right?
Arnav: No, Mom. Its not shyness, its scared. I know when she is shy, and when she is not. This is not shy.
MM: Arnav, i have seen the way khushi looks at you, or becomes shy when something about you is mentioned. Beta, she loves you. Truly loves you, and you love her. I know you always have since you were kids. Maybe she is just scared because of the new relationship that you two share. Before was different, now it different.
Arnav: Mom, Sometimes i think that she doesnt trust me. That is why she is scared.
MM: Arnav, her trust can be shown in her actions.
Arnav: I know mom, that is why i am concerned.
Arnav started to think, does she not trust me near her, does she not trust that he can control himself or he will not do anything that she is not comfortable with? Does she not trust him, or does she just say that she trusts him?
MM sighed, she knew the problem was a bit deeper than she thought. She also noticed his hessitation to talk openly.
MM: Arnav, just keep one thing in mind, trust is like a little seed. You first plant it, by earning it. Then you water it and take care of it. Then it grows. It takes time Arnav, sometimes it can take a lifetime. Talk to her about it. Never ever let something like this get too deep into your relationship, it is never good for the future.
Arnav just sighed. He knew what his mother was trying to explain tohim.
Arnav: Thanks mom. He smiled and MM smiled as well.
MM: If you feel better now, then maybe I can help you finish you packing.
Arnav: No no. I am done. Just have two things left to put in. I want to carry less, I have a lot to bring back as well, right. Just a matter of three or four more weeks.
MM: Ok, I have to go and check what your two nosey and annoying siblings are up to. Hope they didn’t bother you too much on this trip.
Arnav just laughed.
Arnav: Bother, no no Mom. They were a pain!
MM smiled and playfully hit Arnavs head from the back. He laughed while his head bounced back.
MM left and Aranv finished his packing. He got a message from Tom that they needed to talk to him and Khushi on the way back. Arnav told him that Khushi will be taking a flight back and its just him and them.
Early next morning, Arnav picked up Tom and Minta. He noticed a difference in them. They seemed a bit worried, but happy. He didn’t know what to make of it. They began their journey back. They stopped at a hotel near the border to take a nights rest. Tom and Minta went over to Arnavs room. Arnav looked at them curiously. He let them in. They all sat down. Tom and Minta didn’t know where to begin.
Tom: Umm. Arnav, I kind, no wait, we kind of needed a favour from you. It is a big big favour. Considering how much Minta and I have done for the two of you. We were hoping….ahem…
He stopped talking. There was a moment of silence. Arnav looked atthe both of them.
Arnav: guys just say it. Anything for you guys. Just say it.
Minta started to explain the situation that they were in. Arnav was left in shock. He was still taking in what they just said to him.
Arnav: Minta, you do know khushi right. She will never agree to this. She will be very very mad and upset. She wont say yes. She just wont.
Tom: No she wont. We will all explain this to her. Come on Man, we just need you to agree. That is it. If you agree, then she will also agree. She never goes against you or anything you say.
Arnav: I know her. but, do you two realize that she might even think that I had something to do with this. You are not understanding khushi. If she is asked to do this, she will flip, she might even leave me. I am not joking. I am very very serious over here.
Minta: No she wont Arnav, she loves you. She wont go against you.
Arnav: for this she will. For sure! You do remember how hard it was for her to open up about me and her right. You do know that right? You two were there.
Arnav looked at minta with a straight face. Are you serious is all he could think of saying to her. Both of their best friends just put them into a very vey tough position.
Tom: Okay okay. Lets not worry about khushi right now. What do you say? Do you have any objection? Can you please please help us out with this. Please.
Tom and Minta both looked at aranv with pleading eyes and folded their hands.
He held his head and placed his elbows on his knees. He took a deep deep breath. This just made things a million times worse than they already were.
Precap: Its a birthday special from Freezie Di. I will be posting the next chapter update today itself. In the mean time, guess what the favour is. I mentioned a problem, right. I choose the path and the problem is here. Good luck!
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Edited by freezie - 6 years ago
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