I Love You (Part A)
Was she so ignorant towards him? Was she disloyal towards her marriage? When all she did was running back of Anurag from starting of marriage when she promised him her unwavering loyalty as only deal for this marriage to happen... Was she being unfair towards Mr Bajaj because when Anurag was married to Komalika, she burned in jealousy because she couldn't see Anurag with anyone else, at that time they both were not even married but here she is married to Mr Bajaj yet he always allowed her freedom to make choices and allowed her to take care of Anurag even though he knows that accident was not fatal yet he never showed his anger because she can remember what Anurag has said the minute he gained conscious Did Mr Bajaj allow you to come near me Prerana because no matter what a husband can never bear his wife being close or taking care of her past lover, at that time she didn't give any thought or had any impact on her of those words but now when she thinks about all these things she can see how much it affects her husband by her closeness to Anurag.
What if the deal was never present in between them and she met with her husband under normal circumstances, will her behaviour and stance will be the same towards him. No, it will never be, because that time she will try to behave civilly with him at the start relationship trying to understand him but he made her sacrifice her love for Anurag to protect him but still, he is the same person, she is frustrated with the thoughts that are roaming in her mind about her husband.
Another side is Anurag, who claims to love her yet he always comes close to her on every instance always choosing to hurt her by reminding her that she left him even though she did that to protect of course he doesn't know that but if he claims that he loves her then he should have realized how much she is hurting because of his behaviour and now he is claiming that the chunri that fell on them, her broken mangalsutra from Kuki's hand and they doing aarti of Durga Maa's accidentally are the signs of her union and broken deal of her marriage yet she couldn't find the truthfulness and peace in those claims and now these conflict thoughts started after what happened yesterday night.
Previous Night:
She was pacing the room length in their bedroom because her husband didn't come to room to sleep which is unusual if he doesn't have any office work which is making her restless because from the time Anurag started to get obsessed with the idea of getting her back at any cost, staging his own accident made her detached her from him making her relationship with her husband evolve into a new bond a step ahead. At last she decided to see what is stopping her husband to come to room, with this determination she moved to study and when she entered inside she was frozen in her place seeing the state of her husband, he was sitting on couch and facing a lady's portrait and the lady in the photo was beautiful and her smile was full of love and innocence.
"Maa, I'm sorry because I disappointed you by making Prerana separating her from Mr Basu and made her sacrifice her love but Maa I was desperate to give my daughter and your granddaughter a mother's love for which she is craving for and now Kuki is now evolving into beautiful human being under her mother's love and involvement Maa but I'm guilty that I gave so much pain too Prerana because of which she lost her family too and now I'm unable to live with this guilt anymore and other side I can't let Prerana go from Kuki and my life Maa because like Kuki even I'm addicted to Prerana's love, care and concern of course love is not present in her heart for me because the love she has in her heart is only for Mr Basu and I feel jealous of him because he is lucky to get her love while I'm jinxed because whom ever I love they leave me, first it was you Maa and then Menaka left me but if Prerana leaves me I will be consumed by insanity but I can't let her leave in this farce marriage because of my selfishness and love for my Kuki but even I can't let her chose too just to cause her more pain, please Maa tell Prerana to not to leave me and then the accident that was staged by me on first day of Navaratri, that someone tried to lit fire on me was done by me but I was desperate to gain her care and affection for which I was craving, I really Love Prerana Maa, please tell her to not to leave me and go, I promise I will try to mend my ways of dealing with people, I love You Prerana," Rishab mumbled making her Prerana stumble in shock and surprise.
She is angry at him for risking his life at the same time confused too because she should be angry that he tried to blame the accident on Anurag but she is more concerned of his health and life, then how can he love him when he knows that she can only give him her loyalty but not love because she loves Anurag but the feelings for Anurag are looking like long lost love and the dream of having a happy family with him to be a lost dream for her which is not causing her pain in her heart anymore.
But what would be the life will be like if Kuki will not be with her or in her life anymore? Can she leave without her daughter, who introduced her to motherhood who first called her Maa, who first gave her right to be a mother. She thought and closed her eyes imagining a life without Kuki only to open her eyes next second because Kuki is more important to her even more than the unborn baby but what about her husband who was nothing but a good person in the sense of husband, who protected her from the wrath of KakiMaa and caught her when she was thrown out of hospital, who comforted her with his words and knows what to and how to console her when she is feeling hurt due to the poisonous words that were spewed at her by her own family and the person she loved. She never realized that she became so dependent on her husband who was present with her in shadows to support her as husband, a friend and a companion yet she couldn't come to any conclusion regarding her feelings which frustrated her to no end and she just sighed and closed her eyes praying to Durga Maa to show her right path and retired to bed and for the night she decided to sleep with her daughter but not before making Rishab sleeping comfortably on couch and placing comforter on him.
She was surrounded by white mist and she couldn't understand what is happening but suddenly the mist got cleared showing her the clear view of her surroundings, she was standing in the middle of a road with huge and large trees surrounding the area and when she turned back she can see Anurag standing in the middle of the road and stood there spreading his arms wide inviting her into his embrace and she started to run towards but she stopped abruptly because she can see another figure standing few feet behind him with a small painful smile playing on his lips which made her heart twist in pain because she can recognize the person anywhere because he is her husband.
she started to walk towards her husband slowly but suddenly she looked at him in horror because a car was speeding towards him in full force and before the car crashed into him his last whisper that echoed in her ears was
"I Love You Prerana and You are Free" This thought scared and she started to run towards her husband but stopped suddenly because she was faced with her father.
"Baba" Prerana called softly which made Rajesh Sharma smile at his daughter's voice which was filled with love and innocence.
"Priyu beta, I think now you know what you feel about your husband, without you realizing or knowing you fell in love with that person who stood as pillar of strength when you needed it, who was always taking care of your comfort and safety as a father that does, who gave you enough freedom to choose the correct and right path in your life as guide and mentor and Priyu I always wanted that type of husband for you, your marriage may happen under different circumstances but you can't deny that he is best husband one can get or dream of and I know you love him but the guilt that you did wrong with Anurag is stopping to you to accept those feelings but never deny your own happiness Priyu for other which lies in Rishab," Rajesh said surprising Prerana but she can feel the love she has for husband evolving in her heart like waves.
"Thank you for showing me the right way Baba," Prerana said and she can feel warmth and love from her father spreading towards her when he placed his hand on her head to bless which made her eyes tear up but she is starting vanish from the dream and waking up but the last words of her father echoed in her ears.
"Priyu, I approve Rishab as my son-in-law and your husband while Kuki is my granddaughter," with that Prerana opened her eyes to see Kuki sleeping peacefully with an innocent pout playing on her lips while placing her head on Prerana's chest and clutching her mother tightly.
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