Joker. (2019)
I can't sleep.. was a powerful experience watching it.. unable to bring myself out of the feeling this movie has given me..
So much to say about it, but IDK where to begin or what to say.
Joaquin's performance wasn't a performance.. he lived it..
I may be feeling this intensely about the film because I love such characters like Arthur..
When I movie ended and it was time to get up and walk out I felt like maybe I was going to burst into tears, and walking out among people I felt really weird.. even hearing people laugh during the film felt strange, the film created something surreal... to be seated among so many watching this film. Was an emotional experience too, some moments in the movie had me dewy-eyed.. IDK if it's just my experience but I felt some sort of catharsis..I think I am going crazy lol..
One of the most powerful acting performances ever. There's plenty of scenes that just had me staring at the screen in awe and disbelief looking at Joaquin's face and his *being* ....I want to experience that again.. One scene that stood out the most, was a scene from somewhere in the beginning of the movie, where he just smiles almost looking our way.. for a while, and there's complete silence. Thank God for the director who shot that scene... there's many scene where you feel the intensity of Joaquin's gaze.. how does this happen.. I want to relive those moments. And, what a performance.. every second of it, it's not a 'performance.' Some scenes where he just silently watches unable to respond to the insensitivity of people... what can I say.
So, what's this movie about.. IDK if I can explain it now.. it's about a lot of things, but basically it's how how there's no sign of heart anywhere.. Joker is a depressed man, who wants nothing more than just people to have basic courtesy, an acknowledgement of his simple right to a dignified treatment, for people to listen to each other.. simplest things and instead is constantly rewarded with discrimination, animosity, bullying, rejection.. there's rejection everywhere.
There's a scene where he comes back home, and he tries to dance with his mother.. he tells her a couple of times to just dance with him, but her mind/heart is elsewhere, she's not in the here and now, and she talks about a letter he has to post, rather than spending a couple of seconds just with him, heart to heart ..just a simple dance..
That's such a beautiful profound scene, that we all face in day to day lives.. maybe very simple, but makes a lot of difference.
These are the kind of little things that Joker wanted, but never gets.. simplest of human interaction where they just say simple things with heart to each other. Instead, he sees a world that's full of commotion...
And, he's not mentally fit, he has some problems and is dependent on multiple medications for his mental health... where does world have place for them? Such people are rejected and isolated farther more.. who is saner one? Joker does asks something along the lines of how are people brought in here (the mental asylum).. really how? what is sanity?
Joker laughs at what is not funny while watching comedy scenes.. and honestly, if you listen and watch the stand-up comedy, there's nothing to laugh about even though a lot people burst into laughter, and he ironically laughs when nobody's laughing.
Almost everything about this film is ironical, painfully ironical.. it's thought-provoking, provoked my own emotions lol.. I loved this movie.. I felt so many things, have a lot to say about this film.. but IDK how.. I want to watch it again. Is it just Phoenix's performance or is the film also so good.. IDK, but it made a huge impact on me.
Cinematography is good.. the color yellow is a dominant aesthetic in the film, Joker is seen wearing a yellow jacket and there's always some yellow background or lighting. Yellow color stands for poverty, poor health, mental disturbance, psychosis of some sort.. and there's always something yellow near Joker. And, in most scenes, some little thing in red, which perhaps represents the blood he's going to shed... until he actually starts doing it, and dons a red suit..
I have some questions... I wonder why he becomes so violent, although I understand it, still... I'd have loved it if he kept smiling.
Oh and the ending scene where he takes blood from his injured mouth and wipes it over his make-up.. woah, his blood has finally come out to blend in with his mask, he has become the mask and is no more hiding under it..
So many such metaphorical scenes.. like, there's a scene that I think encapsulates one of the major theme of this film - that all people are hiding beneath masks and all people are equally dark.. and that scene is where Joker wearing a clown mask over his make-up is chased by cops into a subway covered in graffiti art, and most of the commuters are seen wearing clown masks. I loved that scene.
Loved the film, I still have so much so say but it'll just be lengthening my already confused messy rambling... I guess theater does make us respond too dramatically to films :p ..anyway, I loved the experience of watching it.. it may not even be half as good as my post may make it seem.. but if anything, Joaquin Phoenix's performance is going to touch you deeply.










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