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Hola sweeties!!!! A quick OS on how our Chandini feels when she discovers that Advay is Dev and her confusions.
LAUT AAYA DEV
Placing her suitcase on the floor and taking slow steps, Chandini reached out to Advay who was busy taking off his jacket. Not able to control her overwhelming emotions, she ran and hugged him by his back caressing her cheeks on his back as if seeping in her Dev's existence. Advay froze at her touch and turning around immediately detangled them. He gave her a questioning look as he could decipher something was wrong.
"Dev" she whispered and he looked at her shocked. Touching his cheeks lovingly and with tears in her eyes, she said
Mere vishwaas khokhla nahi tha Dev, tum laut aaye Dev. Sabne mujhse kaha ki tum iss duniya mei nahi rahe, par mera yaqeen pakka tha Dev, pata tha mujhe tum apni Chandini ke liye waapas aaoge. Mere 16 saal ka intezaar khatam ho gaya aaj. Tum nahi jaante kitni minnato ke baad tumse mulaaqat hui hai. Nahi pata tumhe, ki tumhaari waapsi ke liye har jagah mannatein maangi thi maine. Tumhaari salaamti ke liye anginat duaaein ki hai. Naa jaane tumhaari yaad mei rote hue kitni raate kaati hai. Inn 16 saalo mei tumhaari tasveer tak bun chuki hu apne khwaabo mei. Waada kiya tha na ke mera saath kabhi nhi chhodoge, fir kyu door chale gaye the. Aise bhi koi karta hai kya. Kaha kaha nhi dhundha tumhe...hamaari school, Ganga ghat, Sangam, hamaari gupt milne ki jagah, Shivji ka puraana mandir...par tum kahi nhi mile. Kuch nhi bhooli Dev...tumhaara mujhe miss badbad bulaana, meri hifaazat karna, bado ko aap kehte hai, karele ka halwa. Yaad hai woh kaala patthar jis par tumne ham dono ka naam likha tha, woh abhi mujhe jeene ki aur aage badhne ki shakti deta hai Dev. Ek baar mujhe yeh bataana zaroori nhi samjha ki tum Dev ho. Ek baar keh dete, mai bina koi sawaal kiye tumhaari ho jaati. Tumhe bachpan se pata hai ki Chandini sirf aur sirf uske Dev ki hai. Mai tumhaari thi, hu aur hamesha tumhaari hi rahungi. Mujh par haq sirf aur sirf tumhaara hai Dev kisi aur ka nahi. Koi Advay Singh Raizada ka bhi nahi.
(My faith wasn't hollow Dev, you finally returned. Everyone used to say that you were dead, but I never believed them because I knew you wil come back for your Chandini. My wait of 16 long years has ended today. You don't know how much I have begged Him to make me atleast meet you once. You don't know how much I had wished for your return. I have prayed innumerable times for your safety. I have passed sleepless nights just rememering you. In these 16 years, I have even woven your picture in my dreams. You had promised to stay with me forever, then why did you leave me alone. Who does this? I searched everywhere...our school, Ganges ghat, Sangam, our secret hideout, the old Shiv temple..but failed to find you. I haven't forgotten anything Dev...you calling me Miss Badbad, your protectivness, you addreas elders as aap. I have that black stone in which you engraved our names. It still gives me the strength to live and go ahead with my life. You didn't consider it important to inform me that you are Dev. Atleast once you could have told me, I would have become yours without questioning you. You knew it from childhood that Chandini only and only belongs to Dev. I was, is and will always be only yours. Only Dev has right on his Chandini and no one else. Not evem some Advay Singh Raizada.)
As she said, his name she looked at him horrified and jerked him away, continuously muttering
"Yeh Dev nahi ho sakta. Yeh mera Dev hai hi nahi"
(You can't be my Dev. You are not my Dev)
With that she exited the room, her heart confused as to whether this man in front of her was really her Dev.
Woh Dev jo khush mizaaji tha, aaj itna patthar dil aur kathor kaise ho gaya
Woh Dev jo hamesha mere chehre pe muskuraahat dekhne ki khwaaish rakhta tha, aaj sirf dard dekhna chahta hai
Woh Dev jo dusro ko hasaata tha, khud hasna bhool gaya hai
Woh Dev jo har musibat se mujhe bachaata tha, aaj kyu itne keher dhaa raha hai
Woh Dev jise mera rona kabhi manzoor nhi tha, aaj mere aasu dekhke usse mazaa aa raha hai
Woh Dev jo mujhe kabhi takleef mei nhi dekh sakta tha, aaj khud mujhe marz de raha hai
Woh Dev jo meri ek chhoti si chot se tilmila uthta tha, aaj mujhe gehre zakhm de raha hai
Woh Dev jisne mujhse saath rehne ke waade kiye the, khud mujhe apni zindagi se door kar raha hai
Woh Dev jo mera sabse acha dost tha, aaj sirf naam ka pati aur dushman bankar reh gaya hai
Yeh Dev nahi, Advay hai. Mera Dev kabhi aisa nhi tha. Woh badal gaya hai, kahi kho gaya hai
(That Dev who was vivacious by nature, is now a stone hearted and ruthless person)
(That Dev who always wished to see a smile on my face, today only wishes to see pain on my face)
(That Dev who used to make everyone laugh, has himself lost his laughter)
(That Dev who used to always protect me from any problem, is now responsible for creating havoc in my life)
(That Dev who couldn't see me crying at all, now takes immense joy in seeing my tears)
(That Dev who could never see me in agony, is now torturing my soul)
(That Dev who used to grieve even when I got a small injury, is now giving me really deep wounds)
(That Dev who had promised that we would always be together, is now hell bent on throwing me out of his life)
(That Dev who was my best friend, is now just my namesake husband and an enemy)
(He is not Dev, He is Advay. My Dev was never like this. My Dev has changed, I lost him)
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Here is the 14th OS of Ehsaas Series.
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