In Love with My Psychologist: SS (Short Story) Chapter 7 (pg. 15)

I can still remember him just as though everything happened yesterday. Looking at the peaceful view of the waves creeping up against the shore, oh how I wish I could be as peaceful at those waves and listening to "Tujhe bula diya ho" on repeat was not helping my situation whatsoever. It's been five years now why can't I forget him? I questioned myself repeatedly as a tear rolled down my cheek, he doesn't give a damn about Mehak why should you care about him and he's probably happily married to Shruti now with three adorable kids running around him. I smiled as I envisioned him playing with his children.

I suddenly snapped out of my depressing thoughts as Sonal, my secretary and best friend knocked on my door. "Mehak here's Mr. Hassan's case, he wants to meet with you tomorrow for a session, should I make an appointment." I quickly dried my tears and turned to Sonal with my bright bubbly smile and tried to reply in my chirpy voice "Sure! Call him and ask him if 1 o' clock tomorrow afternoon would be an appropriate time for him to come in" Sadly I couldn't hide my pain from Sonal, she quietly sat on my sofa and gave me a disapproving look "Mehak why are you crying?" I looked at her with a confused look on my face trying to hide my shock that she had figured out I was crying, even though I shouldn't have been, since Sonal and I have been best friends for as long as I can remeber "what? Crying and me? No way Sonal!" Sonal stared at me "You know you were crying Mehak what's the problem yaar?" I looked at her with a defeated look on my face, there's no point hiding it Sonal knew everything, I just hated myself for being in such a vulnerable state even after five years "arre kuch nahin yaar, I just remembered somethings that's all" Sonal came closer to me and hugged me "You were thinking about Shaurya won't you?" I gazed at the floor embarrassed and not the blushing kind of embarrassed but the kind of embarrassed you feel when you feel completely conquered by life's strange games. "Mehak it has been five years now and you're still thinking about Shaurya? When was the last time you went out on a date?" I rolled my eyes at her and sighed "last week" She was suddenly more interested "and what's the problem? Is he not nice" I inhaled deeply "He was too boring, he couldn't have a proper conversation and he kept staring at my chest" Sonal hit her forehead and exhaled deeply "Sigh! Men! You know Mr. Hassan seems to have an interest in you, he calls frequently just to have an appointment" I was most disgusted with her suggestion he was my client for God's sake "chi! Sonal that's so unprofessional, plus he was recently divorced his ex-wife was a total bombshell too how can I compete with that?"She grabbed my shoulders and gave me a comforting look "Yaar you're a beautiful person inside out, how can, he not be interested, you have three degrees and now you have your own private practice how could he not be interested? And you know what? I'm happy you and Shaurya parted ways for good all he ever did was string you along, took advantage of your feelings for him and completely lowered your self-esteem" I stared at my window as I contemplated her words. Sonal understood my silence "Just think about it Mehak, anyway can I leave a little early Mohit is taking me out on a date this evening?" I turned to her with a naughty wink and a devilish grin "Sure, have fun but not too much we don't want you having any more kids." Sonal playfully slapped my shoulder and said laughing at my silly comment "tu bhi na, you'll never change". I looked at her and smiled "you know I won't" and with that Sonal left I picked up my Mr. Hassan's file, closed up my office and headed home.

PAST

I had just finished cleaning the kitchen, when I noticed we had visitors downstairs in our newly built bar, that Jeevan Chachu had recently put up for rent, I quickly hurried down the stairs to have a look at the new investors that had taken quite an interest in our small and simple bar. As I reached the door and shyly peeped into bar area to have a look at the investor. Unfortunately the young and handsome investor's eyes met mine and I started blushing like a complete fool. Just then Kanta Chachi called out to me "Mehak beta, please come here" I slowly walked toward her with my gaze fixed on the floor still feeling the investor's lustrous gaze on me "Beta, this is Mr. Shaurya Khanna, he is interested in renting our bar" I mustered up all my courage and gave a my usual bubbly smile as I offered him my hand "Hi, I'm Mehak, nice to meet you" He shook my hand not taking his eyes off me "Likewise Ms. Sharma" I felt my heart skip a beat and I my eyes were on the floor again. What's with this Khanna Saab anyway? Why is he looking at me like that? And why are you blushing Mehak, you have a boyfriend who loves you dearly, I inwardly chided myself. Jeevan Chachu showed up turning toward me "Mehak beta, have you finished your studies?" I looked at him most innocently "I just have one chapter to read again and I'm finished for the night" he gave me a stern look "go upstairs and finish that chapter, your Chachi and I will be up shortly" I quietly obeyed my Chacha and slowly walked away from Kanta Chachi's side as I heard that weirdo Khanna quietly chuckle as I left. As soon as I reached upstairs I heard my WhatsApp go off was my painfully boring boyfriend Ajay "Hey babe!" I quickly replied "Hey", he replied with "what are you doing? I miss you" I replied to him "nothing, I miss you too" he took about half an hour to reply "okay babe well I'm going to bed, had a long day today, good night sweet dreams, love you" I dejectedly reply with a "okay sleep well, love you too" There was a time when Ajay and I had hopelessly love each other, we were together for one year and a few months, everything was going well until Ajay bought his ex-girlfriend/best friend Nehal to meet at the club he had taken me for my birthday a few months ago. That's when everything started going south he would randomly bring her up in conversations and tell me whenever she messaged him to say "hi" it never really bothered me until he bought to the club to meet us or rather him for my birthday. I felt like utter crap after that incident, I had never confronted him about it because I didn't want him thinking that I was crazy or jealous and ever since then I felt the communication and passion diminishing between us. I just stayed with him because my family had known him, and they had liked him, they even had hopes of us marrying after I complete my degree and I didn't want to disappoint them nor hurt my beloved Ajay.

Just then Kanta Chachi came upstairs slightly intoxicated because of the glass of wine she had with Jeevan Chachu and weirdo Khanna, she looked at me with a smile "puttar you know voh Khanna? The investor?" I looked at her baffled "haan what happened to him?" she smiled again "he was asking about you?" I was shocked "Asking about me? But why?" he smiled and walked to her room as she said " I don't know, but you should feel proud that such a big business man like Shaurya Khanna has taken an interest in you, maybe he thinks you're pretty and of good character" Unknowingly I blushed until I realised that I was thinking about him I mentally chided myself stop thinking about him Mehak you have boyfriend, anything between you and that investor would be impossible he probably has dozens of girls at his beck and call anyway, and with that thought I went to sleep.