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Heyyy what's up! It's time for an OS. Before reading it, I would request to all to be a bit open minded! It's not the usual one. From where I got the idea, that will be revealed at the end (as usual).
Yearning
"Happy Anniversary, sweet heart" he kissed me on my forehead, crushing me into a bear hug! I really had no idea, why it always felt so special! Might be, there was some connection between my forehead and heart! I chuckled!
"What's so funny! "
"Mmm nothing! " I looked upto his face, finding him, smiling sheepishly!
"What?? "
"Sometimes I feel like I am hugging an infant! " he laughed!
"Oyeee hello, I am taller than the average girls around okay! And secondly it's not my fault that you are this gigantic! " I pouted!
He swiftly pecked on my lips "And it's so cute that you are this tiny! I love it, you know why? " he pulled me in his arms and put one of his hand on my head, securing it on his chest, "because, you can hear my heart beat like this! If you were taller, then..." he nodded!
I smiled "You and your logic! "
"Hmmm! But I love you! " he asked squeezing me more into his body!
"I love you too. "
"More than anybody? "
"Yes, more than anybody! "
My Shravan had become like this! On every little step, every little moment, he just needed to be assured that I loved him, that too from past ten years! I sighed!
"So what's the plan? " I asked, shoving all the thoughts aside!
"We will go for a dinner, then a long drive what say...just you and me! " he smiled.
"But Shravan, we need to ask our family too no! What if they already have planned something!"
"I don't care, we are going to celebrate, but only me and you! " his features got hard.
"Shravan... Please... "
"You care more about them? Am I not important to you? "
Sensing his restlessness "Of course you are Shravan, and they are too, because they are your family! "
He barked a laugh "My family... Yeah I know! My mother left me because of her own reasons, my father lied to me because of his own reasons! They didn't really think about me! Did they? "
"Shravan it's been two years...please, what ever be the reason, we are together right! Please... Stop thinking all this! "
"That's why, I don't need anybody apart from you! Simple! It was your wish that we should stay with our family, so I did! It was your wish that I should forgive my parents, and I am trying, trying hard, I am talking to them normally right! I behave properly right! But don't expect anything more than this. " again giving a soft peck on my forehead, "Chalo, I should be going by now, I am already late! I'll collect you from PCT. Okay! "
We went for dinner, much to family's dismay! I ought to remind them about what Dr Khanna the psychiatrist had said about Shravan! We couldn't afford another nervous breakdown. It had been a miracle that Shravan was still able to cope with the situation! But he wasn't fully recovered.
"So...let's go for a drive.. " he said, finishing the desert!
"Okay..."
"Sumo.. " he paused looking at me "Aren't you happy? "
"Why wouldn't I be? "
"You still thinking about the family! " he said the word family in so much distastefully that it felt like a swear word!
"Not at all Shravan! It's you who matters to me! "
"More than anybody? "
"Yes, more than anybody! "
He laughed his boyish careless laugh! These were the times when I could see glimpses of my old Chashmish Shravan!
It was almost three at the night, I woke up with a jolt, feeling uncomfortable! As if something burning in my chest, abdomen and back! I felt sudden urge to throw up! I tried to move, but Shravan's arms tighten around me!
"Shravan... Shravan... "
"Hmm.. Sumo, stop moving! " he mumbled.
"Shravan.. Please leave me please!" I almost shouted!
"What... What happened.. Sumo... " he looked disoriented!
"Need to go to washroom now! Let me go or I'll throw up on you! "
"What you are... Okay okay.. "
He held my hair while I vomited vigorously! Miraculously it felt much soother after it!
"You okay.. "
"Yeah..must be the heart burn.. .. Sorry that you had to see this.. " I mumbled, feeling dead tired!
"Please Sumo.. " he scooped me in his arms and placed me in the bed, enveloping me into him. I dozed off immediately!
"Suman beta... " Maa shook my shoulder lightly!
"Maa..." I tried to get up and my head spin, "wohhh head rush! "
"Easy beta.. Easy! "
"Sorry, actually not feeling well! "
"I know! Shravan told me! " she paused "Beta, I have called Dr Mishra! She will be here any moment! Okay... "
"Okay.. "
"Congratulations Mrs Malhotra, you are pregnant! " she told me after the kit showed positive!
"Really? "
The feeling of me and Shravan having a child was something, I didn't expect! It was overwhelming! I didn't know, what to do, should I smile or cry! I never felt anything like this!
"Kya baat hai Sumo, hasi ruk nahin rahi hai haan..." Pushkar hugged me "Congratulations! "
Everyone congratulated me! So much happiness around me, "But where is Shravan? " I asked!
"Oye puttar wahan kyun khada hai.. Etthe aa! Baap banne wala hai! Aur aise khada hai! " Lalaji laughed, "Chalo ji chalo abhi in donon ko akella chod dete hai! "
Shravan sat near me, but there was a glint in his eyes! He took my hands into his, "How are you feeling now? Better? " his voice sounded so cut off!
"Hmmm... " I nodded.
"Good.. Take rest then.. Okay? I am in the study! "
"Shravan... You are not happy!" I asked him but it sounded like a statement!
"I am very happy Sumo! Our first child! Why wouldn't I be happy! " he tried to smile, but it didn't reach to his eyes!
"Sach bolo Shravan.. You are not happy that I am pregnant! "
"Of course I am! I told you no? Now just take rest! I have to prepare for my next hearing, okay? Call me if you need anything! " he kissed on my forehead and headed towards the study.
All the happiness, all the excitement, just swept away! Why was he behaving like this!
I was waiting for Shravan! I needed to talk to him! He behaved abnormally in the morning, then he went to office, not even talking to me properly! "Why! Damn it! Why! "
I might have fallen asleep, while waiting for him! Then suddenly I felt a feather touch on my stomach, and a soft whisper! I opened my eyes slightly! It's him!
"Hey, little one.. " he whispered, "Papa here! How are you in there? All okay? "
Ohhh! He was drunk!
"Yeah, I am good.. I am good! " he nodded!
What was he upto! I stayed still, feigning! I really needed to know, what was he thinking!
"No no... I am happy baby...but a little sad too! " he mumbled "You know, you could have come a little later right? Now your Mum, my Sumo will only care about you! She will love you more than me! " he sighed!
This was the reason! Ohh my poor Shravan!
"But I love you, don't think that I won't love you! You know, I got your Mum after eleven years! Yes eleven long years! Yearning of eleven years! But what did I get in return? Only two years! Now you are here! " he sighed again "It's okay, may be.. I am.. What's the word.. Yes.. I am overreacting! But please... Don't tell anything to your Mum haan? It's a secret between father and daughter okay.. Now goodnight sweetheart! Goodnight! "
Daughter..hmm! But was this the only reason! Didn't seem so!
"Good morning... "
"Good morning... Ahhh mera sar! " he crunched his eyes, shoving his hand in his already disheveled hair!
"Hmmm... Isi liye nimbu pani! Pi lo.. "
He looked at me, and smiled! "How are you feeling? "
"Fine.. " I paused "Shravan.."
"Hmmm"
"Tum khush nahin ho na? "
"Kisne kaha? "
"Nahin, mujhe laga! "
"I am very happy!"
"Why are you lying Shravan? "
His eyes flickered, not giving away any information, he masked his emotions in anger! He was always so good at it!
"Pagal ho gayi ho! Kya bole jaa rahi ho! " he got up from the bed "I am getting late! So keep your nonsense to yourself! "
"Tumhe gussa kyun aa raha hai Shravan? Because I am telling the truth right? You don't want this baby right? Tell me Shravan, tell me! "
I knew this would break his resolve, and it did!
"Haan nahin chahta! What will you do? Bolo... What can you do? Nothing! " he shouted, "Kuch kar sakti ho? Haan? "
"Kya chahte ho Shravan? You want me to abort my.. " I couldn't finish, my eyes welled up, and I closed my eyes, to free those water!
"Kuch to bolo Shravan " I opened my eyes, and he was gone! He was just gone!
I caressed my belly, "Sorry baby, that's your Papa! Don't worry he will come around! But what if he doesn't, what am I going to do with you! "
It had been three days, Shravan was still not easy with me! Sometimes he became very caring, and sometimes aloofness surrounded him!
"Aise kab tak chalega! "
"Matlab? "
"Matlab aise kab tak! Tum kya sach mein itne pareshan ho Shravan? "
"Offo Suman.. Please.. Don't start this again please! " he got up from the bed and rushed towards washroom!
"Shravan.. " suddenly my head spun, all I could do was to sit at the edge of the bed!
So much dark! I wiggled! Shravan hand was around me, holding my stomach securely!
"Shravan.. Shravan.."
"Haan...oh. tumhe honsh aa gaya? " he sighed!
"Honsh? "
"Yes you were unconscious for almost eighteen hours! " he put the light on "I was scared you know, Dr said stress ki wajah se... Ufff"
"Hmmm"
"Sumo... I am sorry! The way I reacted, I am really sorry! " he mumbled.
"Why Shravan, why! " I really wanted to know from his mouth!
"I was scared, really scared Sumo! " he tighten his arm around me.
"Me too! "
"I.. I was not ready to share you with anyone! I needed you to be only mine! " he sighed heavily, as if he was confessing a sin! "This news, just made me little jealous Sumo! I got you after eleven years! I just wanted, your world to start and end with me! "
"It still does Shravan...it still does! " ohhh my poor lost boy Shravan!
"Not anymore Sumo... Not anymore! It's quite natural though! "
"You know, why this baby is so special for me, because it's yours, flesh of your flesh! I don't have much choice of not loving it! By the way, you said you were...that means you are not afraid anymore? "
"Seeing you lying like that on the floor, almost life less, I thought I lost you and the baby! " he rested his other arm on his forehead "Will you trust me if I say I would do anything to make you two secure!"
"Of course I do, Shravan! But you weren't thinking of this only right! There must be more! "
"I don't know Sumo! Do you think I'll be a good father? " he looked at me!
"You'll be the best! " I smiled, "Overprotective father, who would do anything to make his child happy! "
"You think so? "
"I know! "
"But what if I become like my parents! Akhir mere andar khoon to unhi ka hai! "
"Main hoon na! Do you think I'll let you do anything horrible to our baby! "
He laughed, "True! "
"Heyyy my baby.. .here... " he placed a tether in our six months old baby, Samaira's mouth! No one would believe, that this was the same Shravan Malhotra, who was afraid to be a father! Samaira's birth had changed Shravan in many ways! He had forgiven his parents, he was more cordial with them, sometimes they even chat! He had become more and more confident about his surroundings.
"What?? " he asked suddenly! I wasn't aware that he was looking at me! I blushed!
"Nothing, main soch rahi thi... That you don't love me anymore, you only love your daughter! " I pouted.
"Look who is talking sammy, your Mum is j! " he cooed Samaira.
"Yes I am.. " I went to sit by their side.
" Meri sammy ki jagah meri life mein koi nahin le sakta.. Tum bhi nahin, samjhi... My princess! " Samaira grabbed his hair, giggling!
So this is it! Actually don't even know kya likkha hai! Hope you people will not get angry! It's a bit boring one! But still give it a read! Will wait for your comments and messages.
Now from where I got the idea! My sister-in-law is pregnant for second time! And her four years old son (my nephew) is very worried that now everyone will love the baby! And he has learned this from one of his friends!
P. S. Thank you all for wishing me good health! Specially my T baby! Tinna.. Love you baby!
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