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I don't know. I feel very sad and...
..And humiliated.
Arnavji, why did you do this? How dare you?
You are mine and only mine. You should tease me only and not others.
How dare you to tease that Sheetal?
How could you be so comfortable with her?
Here, I am trying my best to make you happy but you found happiness by teasing her of losing the game with you?
Here, I am making sure you, you should be happy because of me but now, she comes and ruins it.
Something happens in my heart, Arnavji, to know you actually share memories with her.
I couldn't console the heart.
Mr. Arnav Singh Raizada, you are mine and only mine.
You shouldn't share anything with others.
And... And.. in the basketball match, you ogled at her when she entered the court and removed her jacket, didn't you?
You moved your eyes off her when she was doing all the stunts and that's why am leaving you.
If not, if not...
I want to go to my mom's place and sleep. No more than that, I just want you to cuddle me and cry in your arms until my heart feels lighter.
But it's just getting heavier and heavier, Arnavji. Why is it paining so much?
How could you? I am here waiting for your one glance and there, you are happily reminiscing your college days with her and her son.
I can't stop myself from feeling the pain.
It pains so much to see you so distant from me.
That's why, I am writing this letter. If I have to say all this in person, I would have only cried or shouted at you without saying what I wanted to say.
If you don't feel for me anymore, just say it or write it on the backside of the letter, I will leave.
I know you might be thinking I am overreacting but Arnavji, what can I do?
I love you and I feel possessive of you. Sometimes, it's ok but Sheetal is living under the same roof and you are very happy around her while ignoring me here, how will I stop feeling bad and jealous?
You know why someone feels jealous? In most cases, it's because we feel unsecured that the person will leave us and that's where starts the jealousy.
Please Arnavji, in my jealousy if I hurt you please forgive me but dont be away from me.
I miss our talks, I miss the way you tease, I miss you cuddling me on bed, I miss you.
I still feel the pain for you but I also feel the love forever in my heart.
Khushi Kumari Gupta Singh Raizada
Reading the letter in his hands, his heart ached more. How could he be so ignorant of her?
When did they get so distant that until she voices he couldn't understand her feelings?
Whenever he found her sad or jealous of Sheetal, he thought she is childish and will soon understand him.
She is too young and how can he expect her to be mature?
So he thought, she will get over as time passes.
No, how could he ignore the pain when he thought shyam and Khushi are in affair?
How could he forget his behaviour then?
He should have understood her when he underwent the same but no, he went on to give her more pain.
Crumpling the paper, he whispered, 'I am sorry Khushi.'
Not bothering to even wipe off the tears, he rushed out of the room in search of his wife.
He knew she would be on terrace talking with their parents and their ma.
As expected, he found her silently gazing up the sky.
'Khushi...' he called out slowly unable to speak.
Turning around, she engulfed him in a hug and started crying her heart out.
'Sh..shsh.. I am sorry Khushi. Please forgive me. Please Khushi, don't cry. I can't bear your tears..'
Even Arnav started crying.
After few minutes, Arnav broke the hug and cupped her face.
'Khushi... Look at me...'
She refused.
'Please...'
She finally looked at him which made his heart to ache for her state.
' I am sorry Khushi. I don't know many things Khushi. If you feel am ignoring you and not listening to you, you have all the right to give a slap and ask me to listen you. You are the most important for me. I know I make lot of mistakes. And even in future I will make. But don't leave me. Please correct me. If I don't listen, as I said, give me a slap but don't leave me. I am sorry. I love you Khushi. Don't ever think of any one else. I was angry on you. Infact, I was just being cordial to others. I am sorry Khushi. In the basketball match, I didn't want you to get hurt. I am so protective of you dear. I don't want anything to happen to you.
I now understand, how much sad you would have been when you saw us playing together.
I have always been like this Khushi. I never thought about others. I don't want to hide anything about my past with Sheetal that's why I said it you.
I never acted keeping in other's reaction but in your case I was being careful and not to do that but I finally ended up doing that right?
In the end, I didn't think about you. I am sorry Khushi. I was angry on you for doing the DNA test.
Anger always blinds my rational thoughts. I won't repeat this Khushi. I am sorry. Sorry.'
He continued saying sorry holding her face, while she continued sobbing.
'Even I am sorry Arnavji. I trust you but the way things happening around me made me take the test. I felt bad to know, that there are others in your past but I understood I am your present and your future and I am sorry for realising it too late.
I know am crazy, kiddish but Mr. Raizada, don't forget you are stuck with me forever...'
After hearing her last words, he chuckled and kissed her forehead.
In a relation, there will be times when you feel unwanted, hurt, pain. During the times of hardship, instead of avoiding or ignoring, try talking with each other. Sit and talk.
Ninety percent of the problems crops due to lack of proper communication or proper way of letting the other person know what you feel.
You clear out your misunderstanding, then the love you feel will be more beautiful than before.
Right now, Arnav and Khushi understood that. What about you?
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