Adhyayan - it takes a man to admit he has made an error of judgement and move on. Whatever your motives for attacking your ex girlfriend it has not had the desired impact. You wanted to hurt her for the pain you think she caused you? Dont bother. She is already hurting. Which person makes a habit of running after maried men without any moral compunctions? A person who is inviting pain into their life thats who.
Are you bitter she saw success in her career and you didnt? Dont be. Success depends on many things. But mostly karma. She mst hv earned it. Just as you earned the good fortune of hving been born with a silver spoon and not having to worry about your livelihood.
Its painful to see you seeking approval from strangers on social media. Why do you need their approval? Who are they? They are disempowering you if you are getting your sense of self worth and validation by their well dones.
You are bothered by what you see as failure in your career front? You tried. YOu did good in your first film. There are many immensely talented people who didnt make it. They are not termed failures. They didnt succeed in the career field. But a person is much more than a career, yaar. When a person turns to crime, hurting others for the sake of hurting, murder, thievery, embezzlement..ends up on the streets homeless doing drugs, maybe that is failure. How the heck are you a failure?
You can idulge your love for acting in so many ways.Do smaller films. Learn other aspects of filmmaking. Or do something unrelated to films if you hv the interest. Bas. Dont let bitterness over something happened years ago block you.
I read your dad Shekhar Suman had a spiritual experience and saw your elder brother who died and he said he was watchingover you all. How can someone who knows this life is not all there is, be so rooted in this journey and take everything so seriously? Just get over this whole thing, put it behind you...talk with someone who has expertise in this field, if you feel you havent got it out of your system and then honestly move on. Youre 26, you hv the home support, youve been burned and learned from that..time to let the past go and move in a direction without negativity.