Crazy. That's how people describe me, be it strangers or friends and I completely agree with them. After all, which sane person would come to India in search of a boy whom he doesn't know anything about and only has a small photo of? Me, Kabir, apparently. I have grown up with my mother and she has never told me anything about our family, about her home in India, about relatives, but she always used to cry bitterly when seeing this photo - I want to understand this pain of hers. I want to know about my roots. Questions that have been bothering me since childhood, I want the answers to them. But, oh, dear God, how could I have known that my life would change this drastically on my journey? Curse you, Kabira, for having too soft a heart! Otherwise, I would have ignored the ugly heartbreak of Nisha Gangwal- but I can't see anyone crying, especially beautiful girls. And there, my problems started - a trip that had us running from goons and at the end, married. Now, there's the re-marriage for her family.
I do say that it's a joke. I don't take it seriously but... I could have left this whole mess behind, run away simply. I couldn't. Icare too much- for Nisha. For her family. My heart is not ready to leave her - and I have to understand, yet, why that is so.
Nisha Gangwal is no kite that whoever hold her, she belongs to him. I don't let anyone rule my life - it is mine and I have every right to live it according to my own wishes. Maybe that's the reason why I clash many a times with my grandfather.
Only for my family am I ready to compromise because there's nothing more important to me than them. My parents are my support and my strength, my cousins the best friends anyone could wish for- I would take every pain of the world for them but never would I allow them to see my pain or do the same for me. If not for our family, whom do we live for, after all? They accept us as we are. Mine accepts my tomboyish attire, as people call it- I say I am just different than most girls and there's nothing wrong with that.
Before Viraj Singh Rathore, I never expected to fall in love nor to change as I changed; to feel more comfortable with whom I am. And before him, I never knew how painful it was to suffer heartbreak, especially for the first time, or how hard it was to move on. I thought I might never overcome this phase of my life but... how often does happen what we think? Because I have never imagined someone like Kabir to enter my world- Kabir with his stupid jokes. Kabir with his unexpected understanding of me and my feelings. Kabir who has taken it up himself to make me smile and overcome my broken heart.
I don't know what life has planned for us but I believe that, even if our marriage was accidental, there's a deeper meaning behind why it happened. And maybe, I will get the chance to explore that meaning.
AnKat/MisHri
They say that the day of our wedding is (one of) the most important days in our lives. A marriage changes everything. A marriage means responsibility. Growing up. A marriage means sharing your life with someone else. Your dreams and fears. Your wishes and concerns. Your joys and your sadness. Everything.
But what exactly does marriage mean? Has love to be a fundamental part of a relationship before entering marriage? Or is there more to it?
Your partner has to be your friend, first. Loving someone doesn't mean that we'll automatically be open with them, that we'll be able to share our innermost thoughts and feelings with them- it is more often so that if we love someone, we want to impress them. We want to be special for them. And in order to be so, we might tend to hide our weaknesses and fears from them.
But a friend? A friend is a support, someone who knows everything about us. Someone whom we don't need to impress because they already know what there is to know about us- good things and bad things.
What is more ideal than for us loving an amazing friend?
And love... sometimes, we love someone but that someone doesn't love us back. Should we wait for them when there's someone else we know will keep us happy? Marry the one who loves you not the one whom you love. Because the one who loves us will always try their hardest to keep us happy whereas there's no guarantee that the one we love, will love us back.
Of course, ideal is it to have both happen: Love and being loved in return.
But apart from love marriages, there are also arranged ones. Are they less happy because there had been no love beforehand? Not always - these people might not love each other but they agree willingly to marry and love might develop afterwards. Just like there's no certainty that a marriage with love as its foundation will be successful, there's never a certainty that a marriage which started without love will be unsuccessful.
And Nisha-Kabir's marriage might not have been willing, it was accidental - but they did it to save a life. For many, this marriage is not valid even though all rituals have been done and yes, if both of them don't want to, they don't have to stay together. But religiously seen, they are married and they agreed for a re-marriage on their own accord, which is no joke, at all. There's no love, yet, they plan to part ways after three months, but there's no guarantee that that will happen. That their marriage is doomed to fail- a marriage that started with the selfless act to save a life, how can it be doomed?
Destiny doesn't play these games with us out of fun - there's always a reason behind everything that happens to us.
Mangalyam Tantunane Naam, Mam Jeevan Hetu Naam
Kanthe Bhagna Nishu Bhage, Twam Jeev Sharda Shatam
O Humdum Suniyo Re
O Janiyaa Suniyo Re
O Janiyaa... Shaam Ko Khidki Se Chori Chori Nange Paaon Chand Aayega
Ohhh... Suniyo Re
Ohhh... Janiyaa Re
Ohhh... Suniyo Re
Ohhh... Janiyaa Re
Mangalyam Tantunane Naam, Mam Jeevan Hetu Naam
Kanthe Bhagna Nishu Bhage, Twam Jeev Sharda Shatam
Mangalyam Tantunane Naam, Mam Jeevan Hetu Naam
Hey Mangalyam Mangalyam
Kanthe Bhagna Nishu Bhage, Twam Jeev Sharda Shatam
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