Zinia (her thoughts):
Zindagi main baaz dafa yeh nahin pata chalta ke hum kissi cheez ko pah kar khush the yeh phir kho kar?... jaise mujhe yeh nahin pata chala ke jo main chahti thi, jab woh mere saath hua toh phir bhi mujhe saari dunia khaali kyun lag rahi hai?.. yeh jo khaalipan mere andar aagaya hai, uski waja kya hai? kya chobees ghante uske aane wale messages ka aik dum se ghayab hojana? ya phir mere msgs ka jawaab na dena? ya calls ke uss silsiley ka khatam ho jana jo mujhe yeh yaad dilata tha ke kissi ki zindagi mere wujood ke beghair incomplete hai. Jo bhi hai, main ussay miss kar rahi hoon, aur uski fazool aur ahmakana baaton ko ..uske saath bemaqsad footpath par chalne ko...aur un tamam pamper karne waali cheezon ko, jo uss se pehle kissi ne bhi mere liye nahin ki thi.
Lekin achi baat yeh thi, ke usse pehle se inkaar kar ke main kamzkam apni nazaron mein kissi had tak kuch izzat-e-nafs rakhne mein qabil hogayi. Woh pehle inkaar kardeta.. toh shayad dobara aaine ke saamne kara hojana mushkil hojata mere liye. Jo bhi tha..mujhe uski aadat hogayi thi...aur shayad, mohabbat bhi. - Malaal (by Umera Ahmed)
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