Sun rahi hoon sudh budh khokey.. koi main kahani.. poori kahani hain ya kisey hain pata..Main to kisiki hokey ye bhi naa jani.. ruth hain ye do pal ki ya raheygi sadaa
As D bore witness to the murky reality surrounding her.. I couldn't help but feel bad at one thing.. more than ever.. how her innocence had been abused by one and all.. in the name of protecting her.. how everyone had somehow assumed right over her life.. her right to information about it.. I couldnt help but wanna go hug her.. when her whole motive behind finding out VOs truth was to save Sabina from the impending danger in her life... gosh girl are you for real.. watch out your own house of dreams is dangling at the edge..
the first revelation came through the identity of VOs real wife.. and before she cld piece the puzzle.. a symbolic darkness surrounded her aura.. and the very embodiment of her affection.. came and knocked over her glass house.. which SHATTERED without a trace of noise..
today her relationship died a silent death.. coz it was stripped of the one thing tht kept her going.. HOPE.. that may be one day.. things could change. wld change.. in spite of her own dreams on fire.. she couldn't help but feel bad about the misery.. the man she loved lived in.. (a misery I felt was self-inflicted)... going by her voice of empathy.. towards VVs misery.. made me choke..
this is a girl who had more reasons to give up on hope for light and positivity in life.. a sense of emptiness since childhood.. longing for her mother.. but being her mother's daughter gave her this strength to revel in the little joys of life.. to embrace it to the fullest.. to spread happiness.. to love without barriers and expectation.. to never have any conditions from life.. every time she weaved some dream.. whether it was regarding her marriage.. or her footing in the business world.. Life only taught her its not practical and hence unreal.. and all D did was to LEARN.. coz she is a voracious learner..
Harmoni once mentioned.. how if life gave D lime.. she made a lemonade..
ek pedh humne pyar ka milke lagaya tha kabhi..aatey the jo phal to thik tha..
woh na phale to na sahi..
kuch na huye to na sahi.. na bane to na sahi.. na miley to na sahi.. na rahe to na sahi..
aye zindagi.. humne pukara tumhe.. socha sawara tumhe..
par tumko acha na laga.. koi vaada sachcha na laga..
everytime Life wanted sadistic pleasure in seeing her mope in her misery.. she only jumped back with her spirit.. and played on.. by the rules.. not losing her strength and passive resilience to keep building more hope.. elsewhere.. and IN the deal thrown at her..
tum roothi ho ye sochkar.. tumko manayenge magar..
ab humse roothi teri ye nazar..
kar na hasey na sahi.. na banaey to na sahi.. na miley to na sahi.. kuch na rahey to na sahi
she made peace with in a imperfect matrimonial situation.. and even weaved a dream in her imperfect marriage.. with the hope tht 2 incomplete individuals with their own past baggage cld still make a perfect combination..
Tum rasta mein ajnabee, lagta tha kyun yeh har ghadi.
Aadhe adhure geet ki, ek tum kadi ek main kadi.
Tumhe dekh ke lagta tha ye, tum ho bane mere vaaste,
Milna hi tha humko magar, Hum na mile to na sahi,
but her inherent nature of not crowding or demanding love from her loved ones.. prevailed.. much to the insistence of Baa and Sabina.. she never did demand rights and attention from her partner.. coz thts not in her nature.. she has only learnt to adjust around what she gets.. so now tht her lil sand castle was washed away leaving no trace.. what does she expect from life..
as usual NOTHING😛.. I doubt she will sit and cry for the unfairness meted out to her.. by everyone in the domesticity by stripping her of the right to make an informed decision.. she wld not make bones about it.. in turn making people look even small.. she will try to go talk to the object of her partner's affection. .trying to advocate his cause and question her on his behalf.. (although I wish she didn't).. I doubt she will blame misfortune for herself..
har gham har ek aasoo humey apna banana aa gaya..
har haal main haur daur main humey muskurana aa gaya..
All such is nice.. thts D.. as unreal as it may be.. just coz she has always had less expectations from life.. but that hasnt stopped her from weaving her little dreams.. and yet again.. I just hope this incident wont change tht resilient fighting spirit in her.. she wld take this revelation as a LIFE LESSON. .and look at the bigger picture. .OTHER things in life.. for HERSELF.. and for her LOVED ONES.. I would wish she wld just invest herself more in business.. not change her attitude towards V as in not empathize towards him.. and just carry on her friendship with LIFE.. coz one day its gonna value her trust.. her faith.. and give her the dues.. till then..
gham hain bhi to rukna nahi.. jeena hain to jhukna hain..
ye zindagi koi khushi.. ab na bhi de to na sahi..
ho zindagi.. har ek rastey se.. humne pukara tumhe.. socha sawaara tumhe..
An Ode to the resilient SPIRIT of D.. just a little roadblock that she will overcome with pride.. and with a mentor like IMV.. there is no dearth of direction and focus in her life😉
P.S. A big thank you to VV for proclaiming.. he cld never love D.. Well buddy.. the sample you have shown of the man you become in LOVE.. she is better off without being at the receiving end of it.. the day you can smile in love and fondly reminisce it in strength and sorrow.. we shall talk..😃 .. otherwise..
tum na mile to NA SAHI
Edited by sonali.19281 - 13 years ago
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