Chapter-16
Back from office, Rohan loosen his tie in an almost frustration, hearing from Anji, that Mrs. Chapman has sent both the kids back to Ashutosh and Nidhi... "But why Anji? Why did you advocate to this before Mrs. Chapman???!!!", Rohan was livid as well helpless at the same time...
"Because the children need their parents!!!", this time Anji too was a determined soul... She felt the urgent need to put her back straight if she needed to restore peace at both the ends. And thus she did not mind arguing her dear husband, even on the conditions that it is going to lead to some hot arguments soon...
Rohan looked even more irritated on hearing Anji's comment... "Aah! And what are we to them? Some babysitting organisation or something?", Rohan was sarcastic... But Anji had all the patience in the world at that moment to deal even with her husband's frustrated as well sarcastic comments...
"Rohan, we do make parents... May be good parents... But that does not make us force upon the two kids to be parenting them, just because we think we can be good parents!!!", Anji tried to answer Rohan in the best possible manner she could. And to her comment, Rohan rose his hands up in the air, as in giving up, and then ran a frustrated hand through his already messed up hair. He felt like he could give his wife a good piece of his mind. But yelling on her meant to be putting on more emotional burdens on her after all she was already dealing with. And so he decided to take it with his entire cool and explain her, a little more politely... "Look Anji, I know you are being very good enough to your sister and her husband, but just think it that way that children are not the one who chooses their parents. One lives with the parent that the fate gives, until they are capable enough to take care of themselves... And when the fate can give us the children by some way or the other, why do you want to lose with the slimmest of the chances to get at least one of the children from Mr. Mathur and Nidhi?"
Rohan although was trying to be calm and lovable to Anji, she sensed the egomania in this man, who was her husband. Beyond all the love and adoration, she felt a strong loathe for this man for a moment, she was livid. The anger and volume in her tone was sharply saying so- "WE ARE NOT THEIR PARENTS!!!"...
Rohan was taken aback with this tone. Anji was always a very calm and soft person, he never expected her to yell on top of her lungs... Rohan's eyebrows furrowed in an unsuppressed anger, at her tone. He looked dangerously at her, and came as close as a breath away from her, and held her firmly by both her arms... She could feel his anger with the tight grip on her that in a way was hurting... She thought to keep mum as she knew it's his turn for the outburst. And yes! Indeed he was about to burst out. But on a contrary his voice became steely cold, and very low, as if he was whispering, only for her to hear...-"You know what? I know it perfectly well that we are not their parents. I had tried my best to be a father to Aryan, but he simply refuses to accept me, after he had accepted Mr. Mathur... I know it perfectly well that Wendy, although an orphan, has already found her parents in Nidhi and Mr. Mathur, and wouldn't accept us anymore, until Nidhi and Mr. Mathur abandon her, and we know it surely, they would never do that... I know all of it... But what you don't understand is, where I could adopt any other kid, I am still taking up all the abuses of the world for being the most insensitive person, a bad ex-husband, an incapable father, a villain and what not; Just to fulfil your only wish... your wish to have my flesh and blood... Even when Nidhi refused to give Aryan, you still were ready to take in Wendy, although, she isn't my flesh and blood, yet I was ready to take her, because you still were happy with it... What do you think? I don't see your half hearted requests on adopting any little baby from any of the orphanages? I know it perfectly well for whom those requests are made... They are just made to fish out your sister and her husband out of this who are suffering to be separated from their children. And on the contrary your own heart breaks at the thought... I KNOW ALL OF IT!!! I have no interest to be an egoistic, self centred man, who would go around my ex, and snatch away her baby just because I want to..."
Being so absorbed in the conversation, none of the two did realised when Rohan had left that strong grip, and when that painfully tight grip went into a loving mans caresses... He slowly shook her shoulders in his caresses emphasising on his next words- "It's just for you Anji... Only for you... I can't see that lost and heartbroken look of yours Anji... I can't"
Anji just gave a meek smile to him. What so ever, she loved this man... He wouldn't stop caring for her... Rohan had sent her to the washroom to get fresh, while he chose to have a bath in the washroom in the hall... When he was about to go in his bedroom to join Anji after the bath, his eyes fell on the dining table... The food was laid, and two covered plates were kept... Gosh! She had been waiting for her at the dinner, and in an emergency to meet a client he had his dinner at a restaurant, and here, it 11 PM, and his wife is still hungry... Rohan felt guilty, thus, he made a plate for her, and went back to the room... When Anji came out of the washroom, though she looked fresh, but an inevitable sadness yet was present on her face... seeing him sitting on the couch with the plate of food for her on the coffee table, made her change her way to the dressing table. She simply didn't feel like eating... Something that was running in her mind was just not letting her eat... She knew it would be very hard to convince Rohan for what she wanted. And Rohan saw her conflict. She was combing her hair, but by the look of it, if she combed that way, it would take days for her to fully comb her hair. And thus, Rohan took her comb, and he combed her long tresses... and then pulled her by her hand making her sit on the couch, and made a loaf of the chapatti with some vegetable with it, bringing it to her mouth... But Anji was just unable to take, and turned her face the other way. Rohan knew, there are still some more things to be talked... Atleast from her side, and thus he kept the loaf back on the plate and made her face him again...
"What is it Anji that your mind is conflicting at?", Rohan asked as lovingly as he could... And Anji too thought is over to keep playing hide and seek with him and come to the point.
"I want something from you.", her clogged up throat finally gave some voice. Rohan knew she felt like crying, and thus did not want to delay anything she wanted.
"And that is?" asked Rohan urgently.
"I still want our flesh and blood"
Rohan sighed... Hadn't they talked about that enough earlier... And he voiced the same words to her too... But was shocked to hear her next words...
"I am not talking about Aryan and Wendy, Rohan!..."
The flesh and blood concept flew out the window when he heard Aryan's name again, and his thoughts went to Nidhi's unborn child. And he was horrified at the thought of asking Nidhi for that baby...
"Don't tell me Anji... you... You want Nidhi's unborn child when it borns..."
Anji was flushed as well as horrified as him at his statement...
"Are you out of your mind Rohan... I said OUR flesh and blood... yours and mine..."
And suddenly her words sank in his brain, and he was flushed too... and he immidiately mumbled- "I am sorry!", But then again the words sank into him... How would he get their flesh and blood?', he was too confused at her words, and thus sat down on his knees before her holding her hands in his... "How... How can we get our flesh and blood Anji?", the clogging in his throat with emotions was just impossible to miss... He was just hoping heart in heart that somehow there is any technique that she could hold a baby in her uterus for the whole 9 months, that for long she was unable to, and was the reason behind her being motherless... He just hoped that some miracle happened and her weak uterus is now strong enough to bear the baby... But his hope broke with a huge shock with her words- "We can take help of a surrogate mother."
Rohan's grip on hands loosened as he tried to ask her again, if he heard her wrong- "Wh... What... Did you just say?" and Anji again this time a bit hesitantly said it again... Rohan felt incredulous... and left her hands with a jerk and turned his face to a side in his incredulity... "You... You mean, I'm gonna have to have another..." Rohan was unable to even contemplate the entire scenario... He felt filthy... And Anji was right there at his rescue...
"No-no! No Rohan, there are medical techniques to implant your... in her... without you doing..." Anji tried her best to let him know the gist of the information she wanted to share, without being too explicit... It was not any ordinary conversation about their sex life she was talking about after all...
Rohan still could not believe what she was saying... and he felt extremely angry at that to which he was just seething, and finally shouted- "Anji, I'm not dying to be a father to anybody and everybody... I just was bearing all that because you wanted Aryan and Wendy... But surrogacy and all, What bull shit???!!! How has that baby to be OUR FLESH AND BLOOD???"... Rohan was actually seething in anger...
Anji then went back to her cupboard and brought a file out... Looked like one from some medical clinic... She spoke, "See, I went to this maternity centre... They told me an option about the Surrogacy... The surrogate mother's identity shall be anonymous for the world. They would take my fertilized eggs and your sperms and implanted in her womb... Just like she's lending her womb to us for these nine months..."
Rohan did not say anything, and Anji seeing his silence, had tears in her eyes, waiting for his response...
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