Chapter 1
Shiv is due back any moment but gauri more lost in something else is in a world of her own. Having found one of her own audition tapes lying amongst her old things gauri takes a listen. Listening to her own voice..her music which was her dream gauri starts swaying of in a world of her own. Where she had all the success of a singer where she was known for the beauty of her voice. Dreaming of being what was now an old dream gauri had lost track of realitly. Having been awaken by the sudden noise of the bedroom door opening . gauri shakes back into reality. In a hussle she switches off the tape ...taking it out of the player she puts it into the sidetable drawer and as shiv enters..seems to look as if she was waiting for him. "aap aagayey..?" with a certain lightness to her voice gauri seems happy to see her husband. Taking his blazer..she aims to walk off to attend the routine of fetching her husbands tea..providing for him his change of clothes but a certain grasp at her wrist dosnt let her do that... turning back in some embarrassment and a little nervousness gauri takes a courageous glance up at her husband yet fails to keep the eye contact. As handsome as ever..the charm the looks everything was all a signature of shiv kapoor. Smiling with that certain sparkle in his eyes that made gauri blush.. "kaha jaa rahin ho gauri.." gauri taking a glance up only begins to explain. "woah mein aapke leighyey.." but is silence by shiv.. "gauri mein hamare leighyey kuch laaya hoon.." gauri confused by her husbands exitment and even that sort of extra sparkle he carried today questions.. "ji?" shiv pulling out a certain book from behind his back shows it with a big grin on his face...reading the title out loud.. "HOW TO BE THE WORDS BEST MUM AND DAD!" smiling uncontrollably shiv seems over the top happy yet gauri expression fails into a more of a sadness. The truth was that they had been trying for so long..but 3 years later and shiv was still as enthusiastic. Sensing a distort moment from his wife... "mein jaanta hoon ke ...ham abhi tak toe mama papa nahin hai magar... im sure ke agar tum isitar muje dekhti jaaongi toe..mein aapne aap ko rokh rahin paaonga..." blushing incredibly ..gauri falls for her husband's charm....... lying amongst satin sheets, the presence of shiv next to her asleep gauri like everyother time shy's away at the situation. Yet this time it wasn't just the feeling of embarrassment or fear of what shivs interaction would be like once awake..gauri felt something different. ..maybe her husband's dream of his own family was due to come true.
.............the next morning and as shiv has a morning off from work he decides to carry out all his work from home. Sitting in front of the laptop 6:30 am and he had already started his work.. yet when he sees gauri have a sudden change of nature he feels wary. As gauri walks out of the restroom looking extremely upset to what she was earlier in the morning. It is clear to shiv that she is hiding her worries from him..yet shiv just lets it be. Watching gauri all lost...having bought his morning tea twice..not having spoken to him once nor shown interest in any of his conversations shiv knows that there is something wrong. Just watching silently he tries to make something out ..but as gauri walks in. Carrying shivs bath towel for he had not yet taken a shower and instead jumped to his paper work..gauri walking up to his desk hands him a towel asking ever s o politely for him to take his shower and he accepts. Noticing gauris lost expression he simply takes the towel figuring sometimes its better to leave distress to aid its self. Walking into the washroom he throws his towel on the rail and heads for the basin yet when doing so his eyes happen to fall on the waste paper bin. Seeing an pregnancy test amonst all the waste shiv pulls it out. His eyes set on the word "negative" which sinks his heart. Gauri had been though it again..and as always she had kept it to herself. Walking out of the washroom..shiv opens the door and taking one step out..gauris attention is drawn towards him. "kya hua??? Aaap.. kya paani nahin aaraha hai..ek minuite mein kaka ko abhi.." unkown to everything gauri seems to take everything lighting covering up as per usual yet as gauri tries to walk away thinking that that the problem was the shower shiv stops her from behind... "gauri..ek baar keh kar dekhti muje.." hearing shivs words gauri knew that he was now aware turning around to see that moist expression.. gauris emotion lets loose as she sinks into shivs chest..
.............. It had always been harsh for gauri..for her world was her husband. His every wish was for her something that she took onto herself. It was his dream to have a family and she was letting him down. Those were the feelings that came from within. Never having thought about what she wanted her husband was always the most dominant factor for gauri and on that basis uknown to shiv she takes a visit to the doctor....
11.30pm that night and In the surroundings of shiv and gauris bedroom and the ambience is tense...for standing face to face with each other gauris expression fumes whilst shivs seated position at the edge of the bed seems upset, in distress. Taking the moment in silence shiv deals with his sorrows in peace his expression creases to show sorrow in silence whilst for gauri becomes an angry emotion. The characteristic of speaking up in front of shiv was unknown to gauri yet the emotion had provoked it today.
"Har baar aisa hota hai, haar baar aap ek umeed karte hai aur phir woh umeed tut jaati hai." Amongst uncontrollable tears gauri tries her best to get her feelings across. Standing amongst what was a cold sensation of sadness in the room she was talking to her husband, her husband who seemed to be sitting in a stern silence while her tears her emotion was burning.
"Aap ne kabhi mere bare mein socha hai!."that comment provoked shivs attention..looking towards gauri he tried to think of a time when he didn't think about her. Looking at her..her sadness, more distort than ever she was speaking her mind ..for today she had broken her breach of what she thought was a sign of respect. Never did she allow herself to raise her voice or even expression in the presence of shiv yet today she was doing just that and the emotion ..and anger that was flowing within her eyes told shiv that what she was saying was from the heart. Listing in silence shiv carried his own distress under a more calm mannerism."Aap ka yey khwaaab..magar mere kya" looking at gauri more deeply shiv was surprised to hear that in all these years she couldn't share this with him" Aapki patni bankar is ghar mein aayee..jaisa aap chahteh the meine wohi kiya. Nahin kabhi skiayad ke nahin aap ke samne sahir hone diyey ke muje kitna dard hota hai....Dard hota hai yey soch kar ke meine aapse shadi kar ke pyaar toe paaliya Aap meri zindagi toe ban gayey par mere sappne unka kya. Har baar aapke tute sapne nahin hote mere bhi kuch saapne ne the jo bhikar gayey.." taken by suprise his wife was in so much distress and pain shiv felt guilty this was something that was unknown to him until now. Maybe somewhere he had failed as a husband he had overlooked her feelings? Her dreams..falling into a sense of silent tears shiv watches gauri walk out of the room having broken down. In distress as to gauris feelings, what had just happened led shiv to think upon himself as a husband. Picking up the piece of paper that had crashed his hopes yet unveiled gauris feelings shiv looks over it.
Medical test report
City hospital / Dr Mehta/ 05 October 2009
Patient: Mrs Gauri Kapoor
Blood type: B
Test Result: Infertile
..............next morning, reflecting at her own deeds. Gauri felt somewhat ashamed of herself. How was she to face him?. Walking towards the bedroom door with reluctance, the cup of tea in her hand a little out of balance the reality of how she had behaved with her husband had broken its self to gauri. All those things she had said..most of them without thought. For someone who had the uttermost respect for their husband gauri was one never to behave in such away for someone who had always been hesitant even in her husbands presence shed strayed her own boundaries. 5 years of that love, respect she had gained from shiv maybe last night let all of that down. What must he think of her?. Nervous as to whatever the interaction would be like gauri felt an urge to avoid the situation yet the guilt that filled her within was dying to make an apology. For things she had inclined for the way she had behaved everything she had done was out of character and now that she felt more herself a worry began to fill her as she approached the door. Knocking on the face of a very conventional wooden door gauri waited a few seconds. Pushing the door open ever so silently she took a look into the room before making her advance. Looking down from the entrance of the room her eyes were faced with what was her husbands presence amongst all the surroundings of the room the wooden antique look floor, bed which took central feature and the washroom that cornered off the room there was a strong almost aisle type space which led from the entrance of the room to where shiv was standing which looked to be of some distance from gauri . Standing with his back to her, shiv was very up to his own personality. As expected shiv was dressed in the white shirt gauri had prepared for him the day before..with that personal touch of having his sleeves folded up neatly shiv carried his hands in his pockets. Seemingly looking out of the window yet gauri knew that he was aware of her presence. Still with that hesitance of approaching, gauri parted her glance from shiv and took her steps into the room. fairly slowly walking across the room the sound of her footsteps were audible but as she got to that close distance to shiv, stopped placing the cup of tea at the side table she was just about to string her words together but shiv had already got there.without Turing to face her it was as if he was watching her reflection in the glass. "kya baat hai gauri..aaj mujse kuch zyada hein nazre churari ho?" his words light yet they overlooked everything for gauri and added to her feelings. turning around to face her as per usual gauri was swept away with that face to face interaction and even more so today she dropped her gaze. Shivs expression was as content as ever yet he watched a deep worry even fear take account as she spoke to him..searching the floor with her sight as to avoid him. "woah kal raat jo mujse galti hue..muje aapse aise paish nahin aana chayey tha.. meri naadaangi samaj kar..muje maaf kareedijyey." Shiv watched with an ease to his expression, he knew his wife very well for the littlest things there was a need to apologise and this for her wasn't a small matter. Watching over the way regret was spread over her downcast expression shiv took his words with meaning. "tumse koi galti nahin huee hai gauri..hah kal raat tumari baton ne muje dard sarur phochayay.." for gauri she was drowning in sheer guilt, the first time she had caused something that had led to his type of conversation. Feeling the guilt for being the cause of her husband's pain a hatred for herself begins to arise inside but as she listens in silence.
"Jasbaat mein aakar tume joe sahir kiya use muje aisaas hua ke shaayad mein appne pati hone ki simadari puri tara se nahin nibha payay.." gauri feeling worried that shiv was taking things the wrong ways denies his comment to the full with her expression. For her shi v had been everything she would have never said that he had not lived up to his responsibilities. Yet gauris want to interrupt died out as shiv insisted on saying his part.
"In paach salon mein tume appne dil ki baat kabhi nahin baatye mujse. And gauri knew that was true. She had the longing for what she always dreamed for yet could never tell shiv. "Yeh kabhi naahin kaha ke tum apna sapna pura karna chahti ho. Ek baar keh de ti gauri ke tume appna career rakhna hai." Looking at the presence of his wife. Shiv felt guilty for having overlooked her dreams all these years, an unsure, worried upset figure that was his wife couldn't talk to him about her dreams and that hurt shiv. All these years and time upon time he had conveyed what his hopes were, what his dreams were..he wanted to grow his business empire which he did..he wanted all those additional things from his wife.love..her attention, her care and even when he had asked for a child she had devoted herself to his wishes. Trying time and time again hoping to fulfil his dreams and not once did she refuse nor sate her feelings an maybe he had broken her. only if he had paid more attention to what she wanted, he should have known by nature gauri was one to hide her feelings, her personality very passive he should have been able to read her feelings yet he had failed to do so. Watching gauris hidden expression her eyes glazed over with tears to come. "maine ek faisla leighyay hai" seeming very composed about it shiv turned his back to gauri maybe so the moment for gauri was not as intense. Lifting her gaze having sensed shiv turn away gauri came to face with shivs back...his posture very difined as usual he spoke as gauri watched from behind him. "mein chahta hoon ke ham ek saal ke leighyey appne aapne raaste jayey." Gauri having an instant reaction of sadness with the thought of shivs wishes her words seem pleading.
"Meri galti ki etni badi saza de rahe muje..appne aap se dur kar rahe hai .." a mixture of sadness and sense of worry gauris sadness is shown in her voice along with a plea for forgiveness but having taken his words with a differed meaning shiv corrects gauri breaking that barrier of having turned his back to her..he turns around and the reaction on his face tells is more readable that his words. "Saza nahin de raha" His words strong to get his point across he oversees gauris emotion as he speaks yet realises taking a glance the extent of emotion that was involved. Softening his words towards the end he feels gauris pain yet defers from it knowing that reading too much into it he would also melt seeing her tears. "..nahin mein tume appne aap se dur kar raha hoon mein." shiv comes to face with a tearful expression of his wife. He tries to explain but still keeps a very composed distance from her to make sure he dosnt melt away too much, make sure his intentions are not swayed. "pyaar karta hoon tume aur yeh chahta hoon ke tum apna har sapna pura karo, mein yeh nahin chahta ke mere vajese tumara koi sapna pura naa ho." His words meaningful in everyway gauris expression and feeling inside showed an opposition to what shiv was saying but brining that explanation to her lips gauri found hard and even trying failed whilst shiv carried on. "mein jaanta hoon ke aaj tak tumne mere haar faisle ka maan rakha hai..aur aaj bhi aisa hein karongee. Yehi mera failsla hai. Ek saal tak ham dono appne aapne raaste jayeyenge... aur nahin ek dusre se milenge." Gauris face somewhat distort at shivs decision and the way he had difined that they were not to meet she didn't know what to make of it..was he keeping her away as a way of showing his disappointment? And how would she live without him?? Breaking into silent tears ones that could be sensed by shiv..shiv took an almost direct approach stepping closer looking into gauris expression with a collectiveness only shiv kapoor could have. "yeh paanch sal sabit karte hai gauri ke..hamne saath mein pyaar toe paliyay..parivar rishte paayey magar saath rehkar appne sapne kho diya.meri vajese tumne sapna choridiya gauri aur mein chahta hoon ke tum apna sapna pura karo." Gauri finding it difficult to deal filled with emotion lets her tears run before walking away....
Later on in that day as reality takes phase nothing of that devastation remains on gauris expression. In the surroundings of her bedroom standing in front of the mirror she carries out her touch ups...looking as simplistically beautiful as ever even the simplest of looks...a deep green saari..loose hair and a natural glow look stunning on gauri.reinforcing the strength of the of her sindoor marking on her forehead she applies a little extra sindhoor. Looking at herself in content at the mangalsutra and all that symbolism of her husband gauri feels a certain peace. Moving across the room behind her on the bed open lay a suitcase which clearly was topped by all her clothes and then her previous wedding portrait. Sipping it up gauri takes a glance up to find dadi at the entrance of her room. Smiling at her presence gauri is about to invite her in yet dadi gets her words in first. "jaarahin ho gauri..??" dadis eyes filled with an affection that wanted to stop gauri. Gauri walking the length of the room stops at dadi..Smiling at the motherly expression, gauri knows exactly what dadi is thinking. "aap janta hai aur phir bhi pooch rahe hai." .....Walking out of her room having consoled dadi..gauri and dadi walking alongside each other towards the staircase of the house gauri tries to fit in everything she can about shivs needs.
His likes dislikes even a list of things that had to be paid attention to whilst on the other hand only some length away downstairs shiv fails to see gauri and dadi making their way down and shiv as per personality is occupied by a task and as always its something for his family, his wife. In the presence of shashank shiv seems to be explaining himself in detail. With the upmost charm of his personality a hint of worry and a touch of authority shiv speaks to shashank. Shashank who was now a successful professional in the music world yet his basis was kapoor industries . the foundation of his carreer was shivs causticity and even today he remained his part time career at kapoor industries for hed never really found that music manger break of his but now was his chance. "shashank mein chahta hoon ke tum gauri ka khyal rakho..ek music manger ki tara aur ek dost ki tara please. Uske har saroorat ke leighyey, finance sabkuch mein doonga sirf uska khyal rakha." Shiv looking meaning ful of his everyword shashank reassures him, handing him a certain document that confirmed that gauri would be his artist for a year..shiv takes a read of the document and signs it. Watching over shiv shashank comments. "tum fikar maat karo shiv mein gauri ko ek singing sensation banadoonga." Shiv content with shashashank with a sense of trust finishes signing off and just as he does so the glance up from the paper work and he sees gauri..gauri making her way down the staircase with her suitcase pulled alongside her shiv realises that what he had intended was taking place. Not upset nor regretful shiv wanted just this, he as a husband wanted his wife to fufil her dreams and this was the way. His expression lost in his wife for seconds first the attraction towards her, secondly the love..the feeling of situation. As she stopped steps away from him and shiv was lost looking at her..both dadi and shashank had took into account that it was a husband and wife moment they were interrupting and took leave. Standing parallel to each other shiv looking over his wife and gauri finding the courage within takes a glance up to shiv. Showing that certain devotion in her eyes shiv sees nothing but acceptance of his decision. With this soft silence...and as comforting shivs words "apna khyal rakhna gauri.." looking into gauris eyes shivs tone emphasised the feeling of parting from her and gauri could sense it.. smiling with a hint of emotion gauri replies in a loving sense... aap bhi.. to which shiv nods a yes and watches gauri take a few steps closer..reaching as to take her husbands blessings she slowly walks away having done so walking away the length in defined steps with her back to shiv...gauris tears begin to develop but she walks away knowing how fortunate she was to have a husband like shiv, knowing that he was thinking of her and in a years time she would be back in his presence yet the thought of reunion mixed with the thought of separation leading gauri to walk out and shiv letting her do so...silently watching.
....in the surroundings of anupams flat.. contemarary yet with ease, more like a lounge than home. The modern coffee table in the centre of the room holds two cups of coffee and sitting in front of them is anupam. As cheery and light as ever he listens to shiv.. shiv whom standing at the window of the flat had been speaking with his back to anupam and now that he had finished he waited for anupam...who taking hold of his mug of coffee first takes his intake of caffeine before saying anything. Shiv turning around waits.. "vaise gauri is very lucky to have a husband like you." That wasn't what shiv had asked, "toe tume kya lagta hai meine theek kiya?" that was more the point to which anupam answered. "hah theek kiya...magar kya tum gauri se dur rehpaonge.." but then after having said that anupam regretted it. The look in shivs eyes was faithful...he was shiv kapoor and if anyone came with that strength of tolerance than it was him. Anupam began to understand that shiv was right.maybe if shiv hadn't insisted on no interaction between the two of them then it was possible that like the last 5 years gauris feelings..her dreams would be overlooked again. Anupam knew how good a person his friend was but he was also an persona that was untouchable. His love for gauri showed every second and yet he phased the fact that he had taken such an harsh approach. All for his love. Anupam agreed and more so being of the creative profeshion saw it as affection at its highest but there was one thing that annoyed anupam. "tumne shashank ko kyun gauri ki simidari di ?" shiv knew what anupam thought about shashank, he didn't trust him. "muje laga ke woh sahi insaan, hai..gauri ko profeshionaly ek artist ki tara madat karenga aur woh use jaanti bhi hai." Anupam didn't look to impressed. Shiv noticed this and added.."vaise tume gauri ka khyal rakhne ne se kisne roka hai." Having saying it like a hint shiv retreats to drinking his coffee whilst taking a view at the scenery out of the window."vaise shiv..is ek saal mein gauri toe appna singer hone ka sapna pura karengi magar tum kya karne wale ho?"That was a question, turning around to face anupam it was as if shiv had an intrigued sense to what he could do. "soch raha hoon ke agar shiv kapoor businessman shiv kapoor nahin hota toe kya hota..?".
Precap: A year passes, distanced from one and other and in two different worlds of there own. Shiv and gauri reunite?
Edited by jagrutid - 15 years ago
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