I give up, I'm always going...?

To be an ugly, fat thing. I don't want to live anymore. I'm 13, I weigh 180 pounds, and I'm 5'7. Yeah. I wish I was dead. It's impossible for me to lose weight. I've been on a strict diet, and exercise for a month now. I've lost 2 pounds. Yay! Just Kidding. I'm never going to be that skinny person I've been dreaming of, for about 3- 5 years now. I'm never going to be able to stand, hands on hips, and have my hand wrap around my waist. Not lay practically flat. I don't run around people, because I'm embarrassed about how fat I am. The clothes I wear, I wear 2 sizes to big. I like baggy, even though it makes me look bigger. (I didn't know that was possible.) I'm a hippo. My sister calls me fat, my 'friends' call me fat. I know I'm fat. I've attempted suicide 2 times before. I hate being me. I don't look in the mirror often, because I hate what I see. I can't go out and buy things, because of my age. I know my parents wont get me anything. So i'm screwed. I cry about this all the time. I'm crying now, because I hate me. I just want to be skinny, and pretty. I'm refusing to eat, because that's what I've been reduced to. Anorexics always lose a lot of weight. Perfect.

Hye dear,
i can understand dear but its not your fault its our body structure some times it happens that our body become fat but doesnt mean that u get so much upset or cry all the time b'coz other makes coment on u.
But i can understand dat how it feels when someone coments and makes fun on something which is not in our control.
u are 13 and u r in school only may be ur classmates makes that coments But dear action speaks better than words try to concentrate on your study once u are best in that everyone will be silent.
Now coming to ur prob dear u must consult a doctor your excess weight is may b'coz of thyroid or some probs and dieting can never be solution.
U are just 13 dear u are young several talents are hidden in u try to explore yourself forget others,
your Dad Mom are there who care for u so why are u thinking for others
smile dear.
And never say dat u are giving up.
Everyone on dis earth have some problem.and dats why we say life is a challenge except it.
Good luck

Jhonvomer,

Anorexia is a clinical disorder and not something to be envious about. Please think of yourself as blessed to not have it. The thing about fitness is that you need to view it as more of a means to an end rather than the end itself. Exercising should be about feeling good and remaining healthy rather than just losing weight.

You are not the only one with this problem. I had many image issues when I was younger as well and went through the whole phase of thinking life was a horror show. Sadly, this is something that's become all too normal in an age where the perfect body has been classified as a one-size-fits-all hallmark.

You've got a very good height, so I'd suggest you (please) stick to realistic weight loss goals. Not everyone can lose 5-7 kilos in a month, so you shouldn't give up after losing 2 pounds. Have you consulted a doctor to rule out any hormonal problems? If not, I suggest you do. Even if you haven't got any issues, try having a personal trainer around so that you can enjoy flexible routines that won't stop your weight loss progress.

Also, please do not starve. Starving only makes you gain weight over time, because your body goes into 'emergency storage mode' each time you refuse to give it the food you need to sustain itself. What this means is that whatever little you do eat will get stored in the form of fat. You will also have health problems in the long run if you keep starving yourself.

If gymming isn't your thing, try walking, cycling, or swimming- basically anything you love and makes you feel good. As for other people calling you fat: they are drones who believe teens are supposed to be skinny as a pole and make their day by mocking others about their appearance. Focus on your positives and look up to people like Beth Ditto and Adele when it comes to feeling good about your body!

Everyone is built differently. You must know that. Be comfortable in your own skin, because once you do that, everyone around you will know you don't care. Their jibes will no longer hurt you.

Stay strong and keep your chin up. If there's anything bothering you, please do not hesitate to PM. You aren't alone.