THE LOGIC ! - LUSTING OR LOVING !
“ That's enough kabir ! what was that ?” Pooja tried to talk some sense into him.
He remained unfazed. Eyes on road.
“ look !You have been acting strange since last week ! I didn’t complain. But this is limit. What was that?”
No reaction.
“I have tried everything. If there is some problem. You have to speak up. But this behavior of yours…….” She trailed off
No reaction.
“you know !I am planning to enroll in cryptography course. May then I can understand your army codes.”
She tried to be funny – failing bad.
No reaction.
“ kabeer ! I am talking to you. Avoiding me won’t do anygo-“
“ Pooja “
FINALLY ! pooja thanked the almighty.
Kabir interrupted in between. His voice was low but confident.
Pooja stopped immediately. She was dying to hear his voice.
Since last three days he only spoke when absolutely necessary and that too only to otherpeople.
She didn't even receive that. But she knew she has no right to complain or feel hurt.
But as a wife she has a right to share his problems. she will not give up.
He breathed heavily. Eyes never leaving the road.
“ I am driving. Please shut up so we can reach home in single piece.” -
Pooja stared at him. No ! that was not a joke. She was dumbfounded at his statement.
“That’s it! enough is enough ! yes she cares for him but not at the cost of her self respect. She can take care of him in other ways as well. It’s just a simple condition – no communication – then so be it. It is what it is.”
She made up her mind.
If he doesn't want to talk to her. She doesn’t care as well. She will not make any effort from this moment.
If he can do whatever he wants – so can her.
Taking deep breathes she closed her eyes. She remembered all the good things kabir has done for her.
She convinced herself that he is still that nice person. And he don’t deserve to be killed like his father.
She smiled to herself. And then she turned on the radio :
The song tuned in :
Aaj phirtum pe pyaar aya hai………..
“ wow ! I love this song ”
Pooja Exclaimed in excitement and looked out of the window.
Immediately her mood becomes light. The soft and cold wind was flowing through her hair and she closed her eyes feeling the scenery outside.
“ tooteto toote teri bahon mein ese ….shakhon se patte behaya….. –”
She started singing and humming from time to time. Her voice was soft yet sexy. SONG EFFECT
“bikhreto bhikhre aur simte tumhi me …… tuhi mera sab le gaya…….”
kabir’s mind played the video of the song for him.
And his heart adviced that each word out of pooja’s mouth was meant for him.
But he knew better than that.
He was going gaga.
He knew it’s only his imagination. She doesn't have the slightest idea of his salacity.
He sent a silent prayer to the god’s above to take him home as soon as possible and end his misery.
“ na fikarna sharaammmm….. na lih- ”
“NA LIHAAAAJ…. EK BAR AAAYYYY-“
She opened her eyes hearing her own voice echoing in the car.
She turned and found kabir’s hand retreating from radio.
She gaped at kabir.
“ my fav lines !! ” - she whispered sadly.
“ I hate that song” - kabir replied not believing his own words.
She turned on the radio without heeding any attention to him. The song was already over.
She changed the channel and smiling again listening melody and assume her previous position - looking outside the window.
It was an item song this time.
“ kundimat khatkao raja….seedha andar aao ra-“
Pooja was ready for this already. She simply turned on the radio again and waited.
“ aao raja…” - her voice more husky than the singer’s.
Kabir shifted uncomfortably.
He switch it off again.
She turned it on again.
Off
On
Off
On
Off
On
Off
On
Channel changed.
“so friends, look at the climate outside……”
She glanced at kabir frowning.
He didn't move this time.
“ so this is for all the love bird out there enjoying the weather ….. cause everybody falls in love …”
Kabir’s grip tightened on wheel just like every other muscle in his body.
But this stupid RJ is far better than pooja’s seducing voice.
Kabir closed and opened his eyes frequently to shook off those indecent thoughts.
He needs to control himself. This is wrong.
The poor girl has no idea.
She is worried for -- HIM.
And he --for her.
He needs to protect her.
keep her safe.
Safe From him.
Lately he had grown hypersentive capabilities. He is now a - POOJA DETECTING DEVICE.
He can sense her.
When she enters in his vicinity – he feels goosebumps.
God ! He can even smell her. Jasmine and strawberries. HMmmmmmmm.
And his heartbeat rises again.
A simple touch lights up fire and can set his hormones racing.
She had no idea what effect she is causing on him.
As a matter of fact, he , himself had no idea.
And now he is turned on again - because she is singing those obscene songs.
This is the latest development. He didn’t know he was capable of being aroused by someone's voice.
In fact he started to think that it’s not his problem. It’s actually hers.
Her existing is enough to seduce him.
He wondered if Pooja had any idea about her seducing skills.
Amma told him she was in love.
He shrugged it off as a joke.
But he wanted to be 100% sure - lest he be forcing her into marriage while her heart belongs to someone else.
He needed to test her.
So he started observing her. Little more than usual. And thenfamily members started thinking otherwise.
He remembered he had to give a tough speech to jay when he started pushing him onto her.
It is all because of that.
It was plainly platonic in the beginning.
He started liking her like a friend.
But then one day everything changed.
As if a ghost inside him rose from a long sleep.
And now that ghost is hungry – the never ending appetite.
Kabir felt his body tightening. He remembered her reaction.
when it all started.
She frozed under his fingers.
His body refused to obey his orders. He felt so guilty.
Poor women never said anything.
He felt so perverted.
He has been touching her unnecessarily since then - against his own will – defying any logic.
How can he tell her that?
How can he-share his problem with the PROBLEM HERSELF?!
“ Pooja stay away from me because I am going insane.
Fervid.
I can attack you any time and might just eatyou up …RAW. “
Kabir practiced mentally.
Is he even allowed to confess like that.
Legally?
How debauched that sound -- even to himself. He felt compunction.
So he did what's best for both of them.
He needed to maintain his distance. And he did.
he can never hurt her.
She is confused for now but soon she will get habitual.
And he will become ---- BETTER!
He is just besotted with her.
That’s all.
Vague Physical attraction.
Moderate physical attraction.
Nothing less.
Nothing more.
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now this was second last update. i'll try to post earlier skipped chapter. not promising anything.
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