I kept silent since you were gone, I said Nothing, I did not want to become a joke again, you remember I told you about vinnie's death, she was gone and I wrote it out and grief infront of everyone, they made me a joke, they laughed at me and the day I met you, i stopped doing so. Destiny made us friends, we met somehow when I joined EBI forum and You were supper active there, it was tough year when I lost her in 2015, you came in my life and made me come out of that pain, the day we become friends, I stopped panning down my pains for losing her.
We become close friends, shared life experience, You were there listening to me and I was there listening to you, you were in pain of losing your sister and I was there to listen to you to hear you, we shared happiness and pain, I am happy we met and I am sad you gone.
I wouldn't say anything even Now, i might have remained silent and not walk back to facebook as I lost my accounts there, I am here after 10 months and that is for you, you mummy reminded me of you, when you would tell me Ron please wahan jaa yahan jaa aur yeh likh woh likh, you used to do that and last Friday your mummy said to me that Ron please write for her, If she wouldn't say that I might have remained silent and said Nothing as My earlier experience was not so good, when I said and people couldn't understand and well.. that was it, i would have remained silent but since she requested I decided to pan it out.
I did not forget your birthday, how can I forget it, the 27th august, i used to make special thread for you, i used to make that thread and it took you a year to respond to all wishes from friends. (main kitna dat lagati tujhe, ke aray itna time kon lagata and u used to say Arey pura sal enjoy karne de). How can I forget the day I had birthday and you sang for me happy birthday to you.. it was special and unique gift which I am always grateful to.
We shared many memories, when you would discuss in any topic with others and ask me to come and see what they say and I had to come and support you. uff kya zamana tha woh bhi. I didn't know you will not stay, who knew you would be gone forever, who knew, I didn't know but I know we all are here and tomorrow we don't know what happens.
I do care allot,
when I had problems to sleep and you would tell me stories, sometimes tooooo long that I fell asleep, or when U called me and shared things shared life, maybe I knew more then any
other friend knew, maybe, but I am happy you listened to my advice and adopted those as well. this year was a difficult one as since it started I had to deal with personal issues, I closed shaanseforums but your memories from it are still in my hands, who knows if I decide to re alive that forum again.. no one came so it went offline. facebook was gone too so I stopped chatting daily, we did share here and there but that's life.
I do miss you always and pray that where ever you are, you are happy now because somewhere it was your wish and it was accepted, Hopping that you get a better life and more happier one.
Life is tough, losing you is hard, I don't know if you would read this but for aunty it was important to know that we love you and we should tell you this.
I have allot to say But will keep it short this time.
Rest in peace.
Love,
Ron
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