chap 29 and 30
No doubt it was painful but i liked how u portrayed it ...the pain in Raghu is obvious and he wanted to say sorry to her that was so heart touching and i loved how Ajjji said that ...wo maan jayegi ...that was a huge assurance to Raghu ...and he needed that very badlyThx yaar... all i can say that thus is just the beginning of his passion, his junnon for antara...😉Ruksana is truely a gd friend of Antara. so Antara's apple cookies itne pasand hai Raghu ko ...loved it ...kab yeh din ayega ki Antara khud apni hathon se Raghu ko khila de woh bhi pyar se ...i was in dilemma ...kya wo din sach mein kabhi bhi ayega ????
Pampu tu naa mere koo bare ache ideas de jati hain kabhi kabhi,, which i can actually use in FF😳😉i wish badly that day arrives in Raghu and ANtara's life.After the dark night the sun shows of... just like that after the sadness happiness surely reach in every people's life baki kaa aap samajh loo..😛Oh my god ...what is happening with this girl ...she calmed herself and tried to be happy with whatever she had left in her life ...the pious soul went to temple ...gave away her laddus to the children that she was taking for Bappa ...and what did Bappa do ???? Bappa made her give Prasad to the very odd aweful evil man of her life...the man standing in front of her in a queue calmly and patiently spreading his palm towards her to accept prasad from her . this was a turning point i think in both of their life. Antara had no option left but had to give him the holy Prasad ...Bappa is giving indication to her ...poor girl u need to give away urself to this hard harsh mysterious man whatever might be the situation ...this man is hell bent to get forgiveness from you...he wants more ...he loves u with his soul ...ur destiny is entwined with him girl...u hv no other option left but forgive him and live ur life and let him live...and u wll realise one day u love him more than anything in this world...True words ji.. beautiful analysis of situation...👏bravo Riyu 👏👏👏 ...loved the updates to the core ...its deep enigmatic and beautiful...waiting for the next part most eagerly ...ur Pampy Vampy is waiting dear ...😃
Chapter 31
"Itna bhi naa ruth jao tum humse
Kahin manate huye sari umar naa lag jayein"
Raghu's POV
"Dekh bappa... mere koo pata hain apun see locha hoo gaya..." I sighed looking towards bappa's idol just some inches away standing at the sanctum of temple and looking back towards me like always. The temple premise was not much crowded in early morning. Some people were scattered here and there. Pandit jii was busy in doing artis. Ajji used to say that bappa had solution for each and everyone's problem. So whenever I got into problems I always used to visit at the temple situated just at the outside of our basti. As usual I was there with my problems to ask some solution from him.
"Par uss yedi koo bhi too thora bahut batana chahiye tha..." I again start my talk with bappa, "Arey mere koo kaise pata hoga kii uskey sath bhi..." My complaining words stopped at that moment as I remembered her lifeless face while she was revealing her very truth of her life to mili, being orphan, being all alone in the huge world. Again I felt that huge pinch inside my heart. I sighed long for get over that feeling. Damn!! If I came to know just once! "Bappa... iss time locha kuch jyada hii bara hoo gaya... Apun koo pata hain... Nahin kahena chahiye tha woo sab... Par apun kya karta... Arey aisi harkat karti hain kii apun kaa dimag khisak jata hain... Aur apna dimag khisak jata hain too tu jaanti hain ki apna zuban control out hoo jata hain... Abb iss key liye too tu apun koo kuch nahi kahe sakta... Kyun ki yee gussa tune hii mere koo diya hain... Too iss mein puri galti apun kii nahin hain... Thori galti uss yedi kaa bhi hain... Aur tub hi apun kee sath barobar kaa hissedaar hain... Right?!" I asked looking towards bappa's silent face. As usual he didn't answered and stood still. I didn't know how ajji got indication everytime seeing bappa's silent face. she was expert in bappa's face reader. I should bring her with me. Ajji might translate between bappa and me. "Dekh bappa, mere koo pata hain tu aise statue ban kee hii khara rahega... Direct mere see too baat nahin karega... Too jaldi see koi signal de de aur apun kee bheje pe koi idea laga dee ki yedi see mafi kaise mangoon... Aur thora jaldi bhejna yaar... Kyun ki jitna time barega... Madam kaa gussa bhi aur barega... Iss liye quick service dene kaa... Samajh gaya?!" I asked bappa with hopeful voice and tried to detect if there was some indication in his silent face. But nope, there was nothing!! Seemed like bappa would be busy with some issue or there might be some connection failure between the communication system of heaven and earth and my prayer didn't reached to him. "Kya yaar bappa.. ab kya mere koo bhi line mein khara rakhega kya?!" I said in quite irritated voice. Pandit ji came out from the sanctum after arti. "Arey raghu beta tum yahan? Ajji nahin ai tumhare sath?!" Pandit jii asked smiling towards me. I gave a little smile to him, "Nahin.. woo nahin ayi abhi... Par bahut jald ayegi..." I informed pandit ji. Pandit jii was asking about ajji's health and I was asking about pandit ji's whereabouts. At that moment I suddenly felt a small breeze hit me and I felt some unknown shiver in my spine. All of a sudden my all nerve got excited due to unknown feeling. it was not out of fear, out of worry, but like a positive vibe which signaled me that something good was going to happen.
I got that tender feeling in my heart whenever she was near to me.
Automatically my head twitched towards the entrance of temple. There she was, just some three or four stair steps below from the temple premise, as usual wearing just her simple attire and shining with all her purity. I couldn't stop myself admitting in mind that the parrot green anarkali suit really complemented her beautifully. She looked just like the newly breed fresh, pure green leaf of spring glittering in the morning sun. With her kind heartwarming smile, she was talking to those little beggar kids who was seen around the temple area most of the times, claiming prasads from visitors. "Arey antara bitiya!" I heard pandit ji's voice from my side. His voice broke my trance a bit but still I didn't move my eyes from her. At past, I felt awkward while I stared towards her all silently for long. But as the time was passed, the awkwardness was gone to my surprise. I didn't feel awkward or confused anymore. I didn't force myself from look away from her, as I knew that I couldn't. Strange was that, I didn't know how I developed such careless nature towards her. But seriously, seeing antara in front of my eyes melted something inside me and I felt a very strange and yet tender and warm feeling.
As if my eyes were drinking her visually and quenching its thirst.
I could hear the conversation between antara and those kids. Those kids were urging for food as usual. Antara was offering them money but they refused out of some fear. I saw her thoughtful eyes for a quite while and then she looked towards the packet of sweets in her hand. She might have fetched Prasad for temple. After a small pause I saw her handing over that packet to those kids. The kids grinned and jumped in happiness. Their happy smile reflected in their eyes. as those kids ran down with happiness her gentle eyes followed them. Her gesture caused to appear a crooked but gentle smile in my lips. Somehow I knew that she would give away her prasad to those kids. She was kind hearted person and someone who was ready to offer her everything for other's wellbeing. I sighed. Would she be kind enough to forgive me just like that?! My mind was not sure but my heart really hoped for.
As I saw antara coming upstairs I quickly moved at a side and hid myself behind the huge column from where I could keep an eye on her. She reached at the temple premises and smiled to pandit ji. They both were having formal talks while pandit ji asked her about those sweets which she gave away to kids. She looked a bit worried and guilty. She said that those kids were hungry and she couldn't see them unhappy and offered those prasad's laddos to them. She asked pandit ji if he was upset with her act. That time she really looked like an innocent little girl and I couldn't afford to smirk at her innocence. She was really different kind of person and I had to admit that she was damn interesting to me sometimes. As pandit ji assured her that he was not angry, the gentle smile was back on her face. Pandit ji went to fetch prasad for her. She stood silently looking straight towards bappa's idol. She smiled and closed her eyes joining her hands. I followed her each and every single posture. I saw her lips were parted into a little but cute smile and sometimes mumbling. I desperately wished if I could hear the silent prayer of her heart. I never urged to know something that badly. Each and every moment I was getting more and more curious for her. There was always restlessness in me on those days. Last night ruksana revealed so many unknown thoughts about antara to us. But still I felt like I just came to know just a bit about her.
A little breeze ruffled antara's hair as her smile increased. Again that racing of heartbits started under my chest and at that time I was not confused like always or more than that I didn't cared. The scene almost spell bounded me literally. Her single gesture was mesmerizing, drenched with divine purity.
What happened with her actually?! Was her parents' loss was so brutal that made a kind, gentle heart like her into a mourning wounded soul?! A girl who was full of life, suddenly changed into a quite and hard like iron?!
The air which bypassed her, floated towards me and embraced. In impulse, my eyes closed. Even the air seemed containing her aroma within it. I inhaled deep and took that smell inside. God knows why I was doing all those odd crazy acts?! At first I felt irritated, confused and angry on myself but as if like, it had become natural to me. I didn't even bother if her presence made me act oddly. I slowly opened my eyes and found her standing at the same posture and same position. It didn't help rather than increasing my little smile a bit. I saw pandit ji coming and she called her. Antara opened her wide hazel startling. Pandit ji told her to distribute the bhog to the visitors and also keep some for her own. She nodded and went to distribute prasads. For the whole moment I was thinking that how I would confront her?! It was not easy to face her after everything happened between us. She was surely mad at me and I didn't want her to do something reckless out of her anger. As she started to distribute the prasad I stood on the line. She was busy and didn't notice me at all. My nerve vibrated more and more as she reached near. And at last when she reached at my front my breath was almost stopped. Still she was not aware that the person standing at her front was me. Her concentrated was on the pot on her hand. As I stretched my palm at her front she also forward her hand.
Just some few inches above my palm her hand froze all of a sudden. I observed her face as her eyes widened all of a sudden. With those wide eyes as she observed every inch of my palm I felt the huge shock washed over her expression and eyes. I stood there silent waiting for her outburst or any reaction. I saw her chicks getting pale slowly. I didn't know how long she stayed motionless in that same posture gazing my palm. The whole moment I was not at all breathing and trying to detect what's going on her mind.
At last she lifted her face and met my eyes.
Rather than anger or disappointment which I expected there was a huge shock and amusement in her hazel eyeballs. She really didn't expect me there. I thought that I would say sorry at the instant she would come to me and solve the matter. She was standing at my very front and still I was unable to say a single thing. Her pale chicks dropped more color as she gazed silently to me. I saw the pain reflecting in her eyes just like before. There was not anger like always but only the eternal sadness and emptiness which actually showed that how much she was hurt and upset with me. All of a sudden she removed her eyes from mine and looked here and there aimlessly. She also took back her hand slowly without giving me prasad. I thought that she would burst on me, accuse me for hurting her but the silent response made it more difficult.
"Itni jaldi mafi too nahin dene wali tu mere koo ..." I started clearing my throat as she looked back to me with confused frown. "Abhi kee liye yee prasad to de de..." I said indicating towards prasad. She didn't replied and noticed me with her narrow gaze. The hardness and attitude was back in her expression. I couldn't afford to smirk. I prefer that attitude queen rather than the sad broken antara. Looking silently towards me for a while with her hard gaze she at last gave me prasad avoiding touching me anyhow. She moved forward and completed her work giving prasad to remaining people. finishing her work she joined her hand for the last time to bappa. Taking the remaining prasad with her, she turned showing me her back and moved towards the stairs. I knew she was avoiding me. Weeping my lips with hanky tied around my wrist, I followed her with confident steps. She somehow understood that I was following her. she increased her speed as well as me. At that moment the accident happened. The steps were a bit slippery as someone spilled water there. I saw antara's feet suddenly slipped on the steps. With a small scream her body lost balance and was about to fall. I had already started to run towards her and before she fell I managed to catch her hand and saved the fall.
With a deep breath she composed herself and looked behind. When she found that I was her savior her eyes widened again in utter shock. I smirked and twitched my neck a bit keeping my eyes on her face. The incident reminded me of the day we met. She also saved me from falling in the houseboats stare just like I did at that instant. "Abb issey ahesaan mein mat gin naa.. Apun nee bas jaisa ka yaisa kiya... woo english mein bole too pay back... Samjhi?!" as I stated those words still holding her hand irritation appeared in her facial expression. She flinched back her hand forcefully from mine with full attitude. I sighed and took back my empty hand which didn't hold her small tender wrist anymore. "Kya hain?! Mera picha kyun kar rahe hoo?!" she asked in harsh tone. "woo bole too..." I waved my hand in confusion that what to say, "Woo bappa mere koo signal de raha tha ki... Raghunath yee larki girne wali hain... Jaa jaa kee ussey gir nee see bacha!! Warna agar teri payar mein mocha a jati naa too tere koo mazburan doctor kee pass jana parta.. aur tera purse bhi thora halka hoo jata... too apun nee tere sath sath there paise bhi thore bacha diye." I said in flow. Antar gauzed me with confusion, as well as irritation. She gave me aa whatever look and said, "Sorry mr!! Tumhare bakwas sun nee kee liye mere pass bilkul time nahin hain.. So please spare me for now!!" she turned back and again moved down the step. "Oye!!!..." I called her from behind but she rather increased her speed. I looked here and there and the slope walls on the both sides of the stares got into my view. Without wasting a moment I rushed and jumped on the walls. Antara was five steps away from me but I slipped on the slope walls and reached at the bottom much before than her and when she finally stepped down immediately caught her. She threw me hardened gaze as I stood covering her way. "Time nahin hain too time nikal le..." I stated to her harshly yet desperately, "Tere koo yee sab mazak lag raha hain naa... Par apun mazak nahin kar raha hain..." I stated directly looking to her eyes. she was angry as well as confused. "Iss liye bas do min chup chap idhar khara rahein aur apun ki baat sun lee... Fir jidhar bhi jana hain tu jane kee liye free hain." I said in single breath. her frown curled into more annoyance. "Kyun yee sab tamasha kar rahe hoo? Abb kahene aur sun nee kee liye bacha kya hain?! Sab kuch too khatam hoo gaya hain!" her last sentence really hit hard. I saw the immense pain flickering in between the anger in her hazel while she stated her last word. It didn't help at all but increased my guilt for hurting her. "Eee..." I greeted my teeth, my head was boiling up again due to the guilt rose. "Apun tere koo nautanki wala dikhta hain kya joo idhar subha subha mandir kee samne tamasha karega?! Dekh yaar apun idhar tere koo bas woo... Sorry kahene koo ayya tha.." I took a deep breath and stated the word. Her eyes widened in shock as she heard the word. she continued to stare at my face silently for a long pause as if she heard something unbelievable from my mouth. I continued to gaze at her expression sheepishly to detect that she would forgive me or not. She seemed numb from my apology. I never found that kind of reaction from anyone while saying sorry. After a long moment she suddenly laughed a bit. but I knew that the laugh was not out of happiness. That was a sarcastic laugh, because I could clearly detect the moist at the corner of her eyes. "Tum mujhe sorry kahe rahe hoo?!!!..." her voice was broken as well as mocking as she said those words. "Haan woo..." I scratched my head, "woo apun koo... Arey mere koo kya pata tha ki tere maa aur papa woo off hoo gaye hain..." I stated sheepishly not able to found what to say. Her sarcastic laugh stopped abruptly. The moist and pain was more visible in her eyes. I understood that it would be hard for me to solve the issue. Her wide numb eyes observed me silently for a while then slowly in low voice she stated, "Kya kahan tumne?!... Mere momma pappa... Off hoo gaye?!" her voice was trembling bad while she said those words. I could clearly detect the alert sign from her voice and I felt like something wrong was going to happen. Suddenly she moved a bit closer and grabbed my collar. I was shocked and faced her eyes full with fiery rage, as well as moist. Her behavior shocked me like hell.
"Off hoo gaye woo log?!!...Bas off hoo gaye naa??!... SAMAJHTEY KYA HO TUM MUJEH HAAN?!!" she screamed like mad making me dumb. I noticed the tears which were floating down her chicks. She jerked my collar and looked straight inside my eyes with a gaze which was enough to burn anyone. "Insaan ki zindagi hain...Koi tubelight nahin jissey jab chahein switch on kar doo too jal gaya aur swtich of hoo gaya to bandh hoo gaya... Joo gaye hain woo mere apne the... Mere sabkuch the woo log... Meri duniya the woo... Aur unke naa hone see meri poori zindagi mein bas andhera hain... jissey koi bhi switch on kar kee roshni nahin de sakta..." tears streamed down vigorously from her eyes at that moment and she broke out completely at that moment. Clutching my collar she just sobbed lowering her gaze. She bit her lips hard to control herself but it didn't work at all. On the other hand, I witnessed everything silently. The pain she was hiding so carefully inside suddenly came out at that moment in front of me. I didn't know what to say her, but seeing her in that state literally shook me. I felt the pinch so painfully in my heart. I didn't know why I wanted to scold her for not telling me about the tragedy happened to her. Then at least I wouldn't say those harsh words to her which hurt her that much. I didn't know why I was feeling mad inside seeing her tears.
There were not much people around in the morning but still those random scattered visitors were looking towards us. "Hoo gaya?!!... Nikal li bharas?!" I asked in a composed voice and she looked up throwing me hard gaze with her moist eyes. "Dekh..." I looked around and said, "Idhar logon koo live picture nahin dikhana hain too pahele apney asoon poch le... aur fir mere pee jitna charna hain char le... apun aaj total ready hoo kee ayya hain teri missile hajam karne kee liye... Chal suru hoo jaa..." I said folding my sleves, "bas jab teri gusse kaa ballon puri tarah se fat jayein.. tab apun kii sorry accept kar lena.." I said. She looked silently towards me for a while and again that sarcastic smile appeared in her face. "Kya kahoon tumhe?! Main iss halat mein bhi nahin hoon ki kissi see sikayad kar sakoon... Aur kiss sey sikayad karoon?! Tumsey?!!... Tum logo nee too mere..." She stopped all of a sudden as if like forcing herself to stop. The unfinished word of her again made me restless. "humlogon nee kya... Kya kahene jaa rahi thi tu?!" I asked eagerly. She bit her lips again and let go of my collar at last. Her teary eyes were again moving here and there avoiding my gaze. I sighed and said, "Mtalab apun koo maffi nahin milegi... Kyun?!" I asked folding my hands. Giving a smirk she looked towards me throwing that burning gaze, sucking a breath she said, "Agar tumhe sach mein pata chalta kii tumne kitni chot diye hain.. too tum yun mere saamne khare hoo kee mujhse mafi nahin mang pate..." I gulped hard at her words. "Humesha sirf sorry kahe dene see sabkuch thik nahin hoo jata... Kuch galti kee liye koi mafi nahin hoti... Koi mafi nahin!!" her harsh words rang on my ear as we both silently looked into each other's eyes. After some moment she looked away from me and moved forward. I smirked as she went at my back and suddenly I turned back and called her.
"OYEEE!!!! MISSCALL!!" I made it really loud to reach to her ear.
Her feet stopped abruptly. She turned back to me with another doze of shock in her face. I smirked looking at her facial expression. "What did u just said?!!" she asked with all confused tone. "arey kuch too bulana parega naa tujhe... antara to nahin bula sakta.. mana kar diya tune... iss liye Miss Antara Kaul kaa... woo kya bole too haan.. short mein... Miss Kaul... bariya hain naa..." I asked folding my hand. She sighed hard to compose herself. I slowly moved near her as her confused frown kept intact to my face. I chuckled seeing her hard glance, "Too misscall... Itna gussa larkion kee liye acha nahin hota... too apne gusse pe thora saa control karne kaa... warna kab tu gusse see ek din pressure cooker ke tarah fat jayegi.." I said in sarcastic way. she fumed and avoided my gaze turning sidewise. "Oye... aise mooh mat bana... aaj tu joo mere pee itna chillayi naa... yee sab tu kar payi kyun kiii apun nee tere koo karne diya... warna tere koo chup kara nee mein mere koo ek min bhi nahin lagta... yee too tu jaan ti hain... hain naa... miss call!!" as I said with another chuckle her jaw hardened more. She was not going to mend soon I guess. I sighed and let out a hanky from my pocket. I caught her hand and handed that over to her. She looked towards me in confusion. "Aur haan... Office jane see pahele apna thobra thik kar le naa... sukhi ghass jaisi lag rahi hain... office kee log samajh nahin payega ki tu misscall hain yaa serial ki heroine!" Her eyes widened more as I said those sarcastic words. I left her and turned away to cross the road whistling. I could feel her confused gaze on me.
Strange, if someone even dared to raise voice in front of me like antara did then that person would not be able to return unharmed but her words didn't matter to me at all. Something was changing in me and that change was so huge that might change my world someday.
Dedicated to someone without whom i don't know if i will ever be able to gain the courage to cont this story.. thx my vampy dear.🤗
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