OS2: Someday
(Disclaimer: All characters in this write-up are imaginary & purely fictitious)
When I saw you I fell in love, and you smiled because you knew.
-William Shakespeare
I know you know, Just the way you know I know too.
& the best part is when we both pretend to not know,
Just coz we don't know why we know.
-Me
He pulled her closer to him in the heat of the moment
His proximity was too much for her to bear
They both began breathing heavily,
Her heartbeat drumming against her chest
This was it...finally it was about to happen...their first kiss.
Her eyesight was jumping in & out of focus
Paving the audacious path from his eyes to his lips & back to his eyes
Waiting...hoping...wanting...
His eyes were intense like he could see through her soul
Like a world didn't exist for him beyond her
Like she was all he ever wanted to see...ever wanted to touch
...all that he had craved for all his life
He was slowly closing the distance between them
His long locks of hair breezing towards her...tickling her forehead
His breath heavy...like a sedative... mingling with her senses...
His grip tightening around her waist...pulling her closer to the warmth of his body...
They had gotten this far before...but then he would snap out of it and distance himself immediately
And every fibre in her body would crave for him to come back...to close in the space between them...
She was ready...She had always been for him...and she knew she would always be...
But he had inhibitions...she didn't know why...He would always pull away...
What was he afraid of??
She knew the intensity of his feelings for her...
She knew the way she affected him at times
Her mere touch would make him jump out of his skin & he would immediately put some distance between them
She knew the way he looked at her lips
She knew exactly what he was thinking at those moments
Thinking how sweet her raspberry lipstick might taste
She knew the way his breathing would go erratic every single time she came too close
Like a tornado fuelling a wildfire in her body
She knew the fervour in his firm grip that held her fragile frame so close to him
Like he would never let go of her
She knew how much she mattered to him at times
The way he would breathe her in...
Like she was his oxygen...vital...like his life depended on her...She knew...
It was all there...all happening again...in that moment...now...
She was hoping...praying...he wouldn't come to his senses
That he wouldn't hold back...
"Not this time please...Dont hold back..."
"I need you, I love you, don't you get it...? I love you sooo much...Please don't hold back "she was screaming on the inside
But frozen on the outside...captivated in him...waiting...wanting...dizzily drowning in him
Her mind was fogging, heady with his intoxicating breath
His eyes were fixated on her parted lips... now trembling under his passionate gaze...
...Anticipating the tingling sensation that would run through the course of her being with the first soft touch of his lips...
He was moving in... Coming closer and closer...this was it...she couldn't take it any more...
...her eyes closed of their own accord...and she lifted her face closer to him..Surrendering...
CUT
The director yelled...
In a flash of a second he had moved away from her...
Taking every inch of her soul with him
Leaving her bereft
She opened her eyes quickly, turned her back to him and hastily gestured towards her make-up dada for touch-up... reeling from the inertia of the moment...acclimatising herself to the void now present between them...
The director was applauding them for the shot that they has just given
But it was all incoherent rambling for her...
The moment had passed...
What was she thinking? How could she let herself get so carried away?
She knew the scene...She knew the nuances...she knew the lines
That moment was never going to go beyond that
It's just an act...it always was... and it will always be...she knew that too...
Senseless fiction...Epitomising her emotions...Leaving her incomplete...always
A frown had appeared on her face
His conversation with the director had ended, and the scene had turned out to be perfect
He started moving away from her...holding his lines for the next group scene...
She too took her script and started to feign memorizing while walking away from him
"Vrushika? "He called out to her...
She turned around to look at him with a frown
His eyes were glinting with some unnamed emotion...
"Group dance rehearsals after shoot. Come on time, or else!" He teased, making a playful punching gesture in the air towards her with his fist
...but stopped mid-way, assessed her expressions and immediately his face lit up with a mysterious, triumphant yet innocent smile...
And she came alive once again...
Mirroring his innocence and smiling thoughtlessly back at him...
"Make-up queen!"he teased
"Shut up... you know taking off this makeup takes time" she retorted, punching him for real in his arm
"Why would I know? I don't want to know" he grimaced, smiling at her with twinkling eyes, and walked away towards his vanity...with a slight bounce in his steps
Leaving her smiling & hoping...
Hoping against all hope...
That maybe just maybe... someday... he would know what these moments of intertwining reality and fiction really meant to her...
Maybe just maybe... someday ...he would know that he is the one...
Maybe just maybe... someday... he would see how much she loves him...
Maybe just maybe...Shantanu...Someday...that moment would complete itself for real...
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