REALIZATION OF LOVEPART- 46To say that Viren was shocked would be an understatement. One glance at Nivi completely shook him. Her face went white as chalk completely blank devoid of any color and emotion. Her fists clutching his shirt's collar had a tight grip on him. After staring at him for a fair amount of time, Nivi spoke in a low yet full of warning voice, "tell me what should I do to make you believe that I love you? Just tell me Viren."
Viren was about to say something when Nivedita shouted at him "JUST TELL ME DAMMIT!!!!!!" Viren gulped completely scared to see her like this. He brought his hands forward to place them on Nivi's shoulder when she pushed him away from her using all her strength. Viren stumbled a bit, took few steps back to balance himself. He stared at Nivi in disbelief. This was worst than he ever imagined. Nivi turned away from him, her body shook a bit as she started crying silently. Once again her life dragged her back from happiness which broke her heart completely. Everyone was right, she is a manhoos.
Nivi started sobbing silently. A muffled sob escaped from Nivi's mouth. Unable to hold herself back anymore, she fell on the couch with a loud thud, her body giving up. Tears flowed down continuously from her eyes. She started sobbing loudly. On the other hand, Nivi response made him think deeply once again. Lost in his own thoughts, tears formed in his eyes clouding his vision. Continuous sobs from Nivi broke his trance. He blinked his eyes few times, tears fell from his eyes. It took few minutes to understand the scenario playing in front of him. To him, Nivi looked like a lost person. A lump formed in his throat and a sharp pain was felt in his heart. He cannot see her breaking down like this. He took few steps, knelt before her on the floor, looking up at her. He cupped her face, wiping the tears with his thumb. He whispered "I just want the best for you Nivi. I don't want you to compromise on anything because of me. If you want to leave me, I will not stop you. I want you to be happy."
Nivi stared at him with wide eyes shining with tears. She spoke in a broken voice "you want me to be happy right? " Viren nodded unable to say anything. Nivi touched his hands and caught them gently in between her hands. She stared at him and replied in a pleading voice "then include me in your life, Viren. I want to be with you at every phase of your life as your life partner. I want you to reciprocate my love. You are my everything. Give me back my husband who loved me crazily, Viren. Give him back to me. I need his support to move on in my life." Viren stood up freeing his hand from her grip. He pulled his hairs furiously. He was angry with himself. His Nivi was in tears just because of him. He buried his face in his hands and spoke "I want to love you back, Nivi. You are the one whom I loved always with all my heart. But the guilt of forced marriage is eating me. The way you are suffering after our marriage makes me feel that I shouldn't have married you in the first place. This guilt haunts me, kills me.
Viren closed his eyes and spoke "sometimes I feel it would have been better if you would have got married to Sid. He was your love and you would have led much more happier life than this. I wish I wouldn't have ever came back in your life." Viren looked up at Nivi who looked shocked. He stood up and went near her. He touched her face hesitating a bit and called out "Nivi !!!!!"
Nivi jerked his hand away and stood up on her feet next moment. Before Viren could understand anything, Nivi caught his collar once again and yelled "why can't you understand that I NEVER LOVED SIDDHARTH. It was an infatuation, nothing else. He was my best friend. I liked his humble behaviour and got attracted to him. But what HE did? HE DITCHED ME. I wouldn't have ever married a guy without a spine and courage to support truth. I MARRIED YOU ON MY WILL. YOU NEVER FORCED ME. You gave me a choice and I accepted it. I agree with the answer that I gave you earlier. I wouldn't have married you if I didn't wanted to save di's marriage."
Nivi's expressions softened a bit as she spoke "Marrying you was the decision I took under pressure I accept that but it was the only decision I took in my life and never regretted it ever. I felt proud whenever I thought that I am your wife. I agree that our marriage was a bit kind of forced but how can you expect me to trust a guy whom I knew from barely 10-15 days when your own cousin broke my trust and your own family tried to insult my dadi and papa? All the time when I met you before we became friends, you always replied very rudely to me. Only later I realized that you behaved like that only because I was trying to portray myself as a weak person in front of everyone and you wanted me to fight back with anyone who tried to misbehave with me. You are my life partner in every sense Viren." Nivi cupped his face looking straight into his eyes "You always supported me, always fought with everyone for me and I always saw how much you love me in your eyes. How can you expect me to not love you back Viren? "
Holding his hands gently, she whispered "I want to live my life with you. Without you, my life mean nothing to me. Please don't do this ever again with me. But if the guilt of forced marriage isn't letting you live in peace, then I am ready to marry you again. This time with my wish to be with you not for saving anyone's marriage. Please don't push me away from yourself. I can't live without you." Happy tears flowing from his eyes, Viren squeezed Nivi's hand lightly, his heart jumping with joy. He spoke in a serious voice "think again Nivi. Do you really want to spent the rest of your life with me?" "Of course yes Viren. But why you wanted me to think again?" Nivi replied in a hurt voice. "Because after today even if you want to go away from my life, I will not let you go." Viren replied laughing a bit. He engulfed Nivi in a tight embrace feeling relieved. Nivi smiled while resting her head on his chest, listening his heart beat. He captured her lips in a passionate kiss, holding her possessively in his arms.
After kissing her for a fair amount of time, he stepped back inhaling some air, resting his forehead against her. They smiled at each other. After looking at each other for a long time, Viren scooped down picking Nivi in his arms. He went towards the bed, laid her down in the middle of the bed. Tucking her inside the duvet, he kissed her forehead and whispered in her ears "goodnight Nivi. Switching off the lights, he joined her on the bed holding her tightly in his arms. They both closed their eyes hoping for a good sleep.
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