I want to confess something..I know I am not a good writer at all.but I just try to pen down my imagination about our fav couple RAYA .
But now I am feeling miserable..no mood to write anything ..so I thing this update will be the worst one ..
But plz bare it and leave ur valuable comments
We remained in our posture for a long time..
He is caressing my hair ..I found eternity when he does it ..coz it is his affection, care towards me.
Ram: aaj ka plan hai??
hmm..meri to koi plan nehi hai ..aur aapka?
Ram:as such mera bhi nehi hai..par ..ek paper set karna hai..
ok then aap paper set karne jayiye ..aur main ma ki thori help karke ati hu ..
Ram: wo karne ki jarurat nehi hai ..maa subah busy rehte hai Mr.Kapoor k sath ,bansi kaka breakfast ready kar lenge…
plz..aab to aap……
Ram: chodo ye saab .tum bhi to busy reh sakti ho na tumhari is Mr.Kapoor k sath .Aur….. and winks at me..
Plz…abhi aur kuch nehi ..
Ram: OK madam..but in one cond next entry padke jana hai ..wo mere liye special hai ..
Haaw sirf aapke liye mere liye nehi?
Ram: hmm sayad par itna nehi jitna mere liye ..
17th april 2008:
Kal se Mr.Kapoor k sath thori bohut fighting ho rehi thi meri..pata nehi kyun par kal se unka behavior hi kuch alag hai ..
Par ..aaj special date ban gayi meri..sirf meri hi nehi ..humari…
Aj se sirf main nehi hum,..main jud gayi hu Mr.Kapoor k sath not in real sense ..but mere liye ..
Aaj Mr.Kapoor ka exam tha (test 2nd year ka)
To shruti ne kal rat se keh rehi thi mujhe "jo bhi ho aaj exam k pehle gussa mat hona uske upar ..exam aacha nehi hoga ..uska.."
May be she was right ..but I was so angry on him yaar ..
Aur meri aj tution bhi tha subah so ..after my private tuition I entered in college near about 10am..class hai 10: 45 se till 1Pm.
And Mr.Kapoor k exam at 12PM.
But he reached at college at 10 am.
Coz use pata tha main us time colg pouch jayungi ..aur exam k pehle milna tha mujhse ..
I felt very annoyed .as he sat beside me..but shruti tried to lighten the moment ..
After few min when he realized that I did not share a little bit with him..he asked my permission to leave the place for his exam
( actually he is a vey nice guy.jo bhi main karu kuch nehi kehta hai wo..aur use teas karne me mujhe bohut hi maaja aati hai…kya karu wo mere pyar se jyada meri friend jo hai ..aur sayad wo meri iss feelings ko
samajh ta bhi hai ..so mujhe bhi kuch nehi kehta hai. I Love him ..love him very much )
At around 3:30PM when his exam was over,he came to me.we were busy to fill up our form for exam.
And us time main unke upar aur gussa bhi nehi thi..actually ye hi meri gussa hai ..main basically aise hi hu..kisiki upar jyada der tak gussa nehi reh sakti aur jab ye bat meri koi apne ki ho to bilkul bhi nehi .
I was at our balcony..shruti was with other friends in class room.
Achanak Mr.Kapoor aake mere pass khare ho gaye.
Mr.Kapoor: hi
Hello..
Mr.Kapoor:Wow Madam ki gussa khatam.?.that so sweet.
Hmm..aur kuch…
Mr.Kapoor:Priya..
Ha boliye ..kuch kehna hai aapko?
Mr.Kapoor:Hm..mujhe nehi ab sayad tumhe kehna hai..
Kya kahu?
Mr.Kapoor( very annoyingly)Chodo..I love u .
Mujhe pata hai .
Mr.Kapoor:Phir bhi tum kuch ans nehi dogi..
Aapne mujhe kuch question pucha hai kya?
Mr.Kapoor:Wo God main is ladki ko meri full life kaise handle karunga ..
OK madam..I love u .I love u very much Do U love me?
At that moment one of my friend entered into the college.
I said hi to her ..totally avoiding Mr.Kapoor's question but could feel that he was eagerly waiting for my ans
Main us frnd k sath baat karna start hi karne wali thi ki bichh me YES bol di.sayad mujhe lag rehi thi k Mr.Kapoor k samajh k bahar ho jayega wo..but I was so wrong ..When I uttered Yes ..he started jumping .
I was stunned to see his condition and my friends too.
Main sirf use dekhti hi reh gayi ,achanak Vikram bhaiya akar puchne lage: Ram kya huya haii tuche?
His replied to Vikram:mujhe jannat mil gaya Vikram ..aj se main keh sakta hu ..I am committed ..Yes Vikram RAM KAPOOR is engaged with his lady love.
Vikram bhai hugged him and said ..are yaar to chal celebration to banta hi hai ..aur aj treat dene ki baari tera hai..
Mr.Kapoor: yes pakka..chal
Vikram: to main Neha ko bulata hu ..
Tu aur Priya ,and main aur neha at restaurant ok..
Aj sayad sahi maine me main Pyar ka matlab samajh payi..yes I am a fun loving girl..utni matured nehi hu mai..pyar vyar chizo me believe nehi karti thi main..darashal mujhe pata hi nehi thi ye pyar kya hai kaise hota hai ..aur kyun hota hai..sayad aj bhi pata nehi hai ,,iska matlab..
(Par jab main aaj Mr.Kapoor ko itna khush dekhi ..to mujhe bhi bohut khushi ho rehi thi..agar ise pyar kehte hai to .I am in love..jab Neha di k liye maine Mr.Kapoor ki aankho me dard dekhi thi ..to mujhe bhi dard ho rehi thi..agar ise pyar kehte hai to ,I am in love,usdin jab humare jhadgre k baad Mr.Kapoor se maine baat karni band kar di thi ..aur uski mayush chehra ,..aankho me aansoo..sayad mere aankho se hi nikal rehi thi ..mayush wo the par ..dikhayi de rehi thi meri face pe,agar ise pyar kehte hai to yes I am in love .i am in love with ram kapoor very much ..kyu ki mere liye par ka matlab RAM hai ,Ram ka matlab ..pyar chahe jo bhi ho aaj k baat main sirf unki hi banke rahungi..aur kisiki nehi ,I am one man woman..mere life me mere MAN aa chuka hai…)
He looked at me for my approval for the lunch party .
I nodded my head with positive answer .
And yes another shock was waiting for me ,but in turn it was effected on him too.
Mam was asking about his unnecessary screaming at balcony .
He was stammering to fulfill his answer with a perfect logic, but no mam is smarter than us..of course she is as she had passed her college period.
Mam: hmm…Ram Kapoor is now an engaged boy right?
I just started to giggle .
Mam threw her last punch that was- hm Ram is engaged with Priya Sharma right and looked at me.
I was dumbstruck .. no words were left for me..just keeping my head down and prayed to God ..jo bhi ho vagwan mujhe bachalena ,mumma k sath mam ki baat hoti rehti hai ..ye newz kisi bhi tarah mumma k pass aagar chali gayi to ..main to gayi..
And vikram bhai most irritating character right then kept his head down but giggling throughout the conversation. but mam is genius, hats off to her .
Mam: vikram jyada mushkurane ki jaroorat nehi hai .Neha is waiting for u and only for u..so acompany with her ,ok ?
Now I was happy inside ,matlab ki Mam ko hum sab k bade me pata hai..wo god ..ye professor hai ya CBI officer?
But after this I was fuming over my man .coz he is so shameless he was going to ask mam to join us for the treat party..o god is insaan ko lekar main kya karu..main sochti thi k main immature hu ..par ye to mujhse bhi jyada.( but I love this ..his innocence makes me crazy,uske is bhole pan me bhi khuch khas hai ..jaha mujhe 5 years k chote bache nazar aate hain)
After our lunch party ( without mam of course )
We ( the two couples .feeling proud to mention it now)headed towards a park coz at morning my private tutor asked me to visit his house at afternoon, as I enlisted my name in his coaching a bit late so.. he wanted to give some tips which will help me in study..
I did not know the perfect way of sir's residence ,sir msged me the full address but feeling nervous ..he accompanied me to the main gate of sir's house.
And told me to inform my driver ..
Aur main na ek dam ki bhulakkar hu ..bohut jaldi sab chiz e bhul jati hu ..kahi to thi bad me ph kar dungi ..but I forgot
When my tuition was over,it was 7:30..and my ph flashed numerous ph call from my home and from Mr.Kapoor.
My mom knew everything but was tensed ,its quite bit of natural.when I called her she said
Kaha ho tum? Itne der tak ph pick up kyun nehi kar rehi thi.
Mom sir pada rehe the main kaise ph rcv karu .
Yes she believed me a lot .without any further question she asked – to aab kaise aayo gi ? car kyun nehi mangayi tumne ,,thik se address bhi to nehi pata hai na RAJU ko ,,wo kaise jayega aab?
Mumma don't be panicked so ,much its evening only ..and I can manage ,
MOM:Ok bus padak ne baad call kar dena..ye mat bhulna ok..
We disconnected our call.now my next call must be Mr.Kapoor..
Aaj kal na wo mere ph rcv nehi karte hai .whenever I called him ,he cut it and then call me ..chalo yaar Ram Kapoor hai ..KI k malik mera balance bacha raha hai..
I called him..but heard his ringtone around me.which is fitted only for me ( ami j tomar ,sudhu j tomar .from bhul bhulaiya)
Yes he was there..I was surprised to see him
Aap yeha kya kar rehe hai wo bhi itne rat ko ?ghar nehi gaye?
Mr.Kapoor:Kaise jaata main..tum yanha akeli ho
Par maine to nehi kaha na aapko..or more over aap hi ne to kaha tha car k liye call karne ko..
Mr.Kapoor:Tum ne kiya kya car k liye call..
Nehi wo maine bhul gayi thi sorry ..( made a puppy face)
Mr.Kapoor:Hm..i knew it Priya kya hayna I know u more than u know urself..
Ye place utna aacha bhi nehi hai chalo jaldi ..car bahar hai..
Main kaise aapke car se jaa saktti hu ..
Mr.Kapoor:Kyun koi problem hai ,,kya ..madam aapko yaad dila du k I love u and jyada tar mujhe bhi pata hai u also love me..so we r going to be future husband and wife .to problem kya hai?
Isse argue karna meri bas ki bat nehi hai so ,let it be
In front the car
Driver nehi laya aapne..
Mr.Kapoor:Nehi madam ji ,aap jo sath me rehne wali hai to kaka ko kyun layu ..kabab me haddi banana k liye .?.
Haaaw so mean u r ..ok main back sit me baithti hu ..
Mr.Kapoor He was shocked) ..kyun ..main kya tumhari driver lagta hu..mana k tum mere patni banne k baad mujhe tumhari driver bhi banna padega ..ok tab k baat aur hai ..jyada fees bhi le lunga main rat me bhi aur din me bhi and winks at me..but..
What ? matlab kya hai?( I did not give him to complete his sentence)
Mr.Kapoor:Madam ji baith jayiye main rat ko samjhayunga ..
I looked at him with my questing look..
Mr.Kapoor:Are baba call karke batayunga aabhi chalo and aunty ko call karlo ..nehi to wo bhi bhul jayogi?
Ha ha ..par aapko kaise pata?
Mr.Kapoor: sab maa aise hi hote hai ..jaldi se ph karo aur tumhari questions book band rakho..
I called my mumma and said that within 30min I will reach at home.. via bus( yes I was lied to my mom..hm its 1st time..but Mr Kapoor k liye ye bhi main kar sakti hu..par Mr.Kapoor ko main kabhi jhoot nehi bol sakti aur kuch baat chupa bhi nehi sakti ,koi bhi apni zindegi se jhut bolta hai kya? To main kaise RAM se kahu? He is my life forever and ever.)
At night Neha di msged me
N: hi..kya kar rehi hai tu?
Nehi pad rehi thi..aap kya kar rehi hai?
N: maine disturb kardiya kya?
Nehi nehi…plz feel free na .
N: aj tere or Ram k liye special date haina ?
I was blushing.
Hm..hai..par achanak ye sawal?
N: nehi mere liye bhi hai..
Aapke liye?kya huya di ..boliye na plz
N: aisa kuch nehi ..but bohut kuch..
Matlab ..mujhe kuch samajh me nehi aa rehi hai di..
N:Vikram kissed me yaar ..its my first kiss.OK ok but kisiko mat batana..pata hai tu ram ko batayigi..
Wow di that's is so cool( but personally I don't like it all ..yaar shadi k pehle limit kyun cross karte hai ye log..sayad ek kiss hi hai ..par phir bhi.)
N:Ok chal vikram ka call aa raha hai ..aur aabhi teri mr.Kapoor ka bhi call aa jayega aur tu agar mere sath busy hogayi to..kal wo mujhe chodne wale nehi hai..
Gd nit di bye .
After few min I rcvd his call.
Mr.Kpoor:Hello Priya,,kya kar rehi ho?
Pad rehi thi then Neha di k sath msg me chatiing ..
Mr.Kapoor:Wo tumhe janna nehi hai..after our marriage what will be my salary as ur driver .
Wo ha ..main to bhul gayi thi..
Ha ha batayiye ..
Mr.Kapoor:Ok mam..agar car ko matlab life ki car ko tej chalana hai to din me 10 -20 kisses and rat me lots of kisses and …..
I was quite bit of annoyingly ans him
Aap kya bole jaa rehe hai ye sab..
Mr.Kapoor:Are pati patni k bichh me jo hota hai wo hi to keh raha hu yaar ..
Aaj ho kya gaya hai aab dono ko..
Mr.Kapoor:Matlab ..main aur kaun?aur kaun tumse aise baate kar raha hai..
Mujhse kyun karega ..aj vikram bhaiya ne Neha di ko kiss kiya ..neha di k msg ayi thi.
Mr.Kapoor:Wow that's so gd.yaar .ye dono to kaafi aage hai.
Kya good hai isme?
Dekhiye I know k aap mujhse pyar karte hai ..aur main bhi..par shadi k pehle ye sab mujhe bilkul pasand nehi hai ..as u know I am
r.Kapoor:U r one man woman ,..phir bhi shadi k pehle tum kisi limit cross karna nehi chati ho ..right?
Hm..
Mr.Kapoor:Ek baat kahu Priya ..I Love u .. not for ur physique ok?i know u r beautiful ,many one in our college are drooling over u..but I love ur soul..ur nature ..jo immature ki tarah behave karti ho ..use main pyar karta hu ..har situation me has leti ho ..light moment karne k liye use main pyar karta hu..aur jab bache ki tarah zid karti ho use main pyar karta hu, achanak jab meri dost ki trah mujhe advice deti ho ,use main pyar karta hu..jab as a guide tum mujhe guide karne lag jati ho ,use main pyar ..karta hu..or in sabme jitna main tumhe pyar karta hu ..usse kahi jyada respect karta hu .tumhari thought ko .yes I respect u more than I love u .aur mere liye pyar sirf physical intimacy nehi hai priya ..tum mere sath dost ban kar mere sare sukh me raho..tumhari har ek dard ko main baat saku ..ye hai ..mera pyar ..tumhari friendship hi mere liye pyar hai ..
Aur iske liye main na to kabhi limit cross karunga aur force bhi nehi karunga ..shadi k baat bhi nehi..
I was spell bound..
Yes I choose the right person for my life he is truly a gem..
Thank u ..(i felt it was enough) ..
And very softly I said I LOVE YOU.
Mr.Kapoor: kya ..kya kaha tumne firse kaho..
Nehi aur nehi aabhi so jaiye aap..
Mr.Kapoor:Plz priya this is the first time u said plz once more for me..
I LOVE YOU.
Mr.Kapoor:I love u too shona.
We disconnected the line
Tere mere sath ki ghadiya
Jeevan me sabse badi hai
Tum haste ho to lagta hai
Samne khushiya khari hai
Bade ache laggte hain
Tera hasna ,ye milna ,ye apna pan ..aur tum..
Priya Sharma.
Ram: priya ..
Hm ..kahiye ..(i know very much what he wants to listen now..)
Ram:Ek baar plzzz.
kya ?
Ram:bolo na plz..
I LOVE U
Ram: I LOVE U TOO .i love u so much and hug me tightly..
Plz all of u, if possible remember all smallest things b/w raya coz after few updates it will help u to connect with the situation and Priya as well as RAM's feelings too..(may be Ram's diary going to be include here)
all of u including the silent readers plz comments yaar ..
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