Chapter 5

Koeli

@Koeli

~Khushi!

Stupid me let him take control yet again. Now I have understood clearly that I can never win when it comes to Arnav. Like chocolate melts in the heat, I melted the moment he touched me. I closed my eyes as his breath fanned my heated face. I knew that he is going to kiss me on my lips for the first time. Why o why I am letting it happen when I am going to lose this man forever in a few days. I am going to marry another man of his choice. That is exactly what I expected to do yet I am letting him take another part of me, a special moment which every girl anticipates in her life, my first kiss. He hates me yet he...

~Arnav~

I know what I am doing is going to be stupid yet I am not able to control my emotions or shall I say desire? I know that she knows that I am going to kiss her. I am going to snatch her first kiss as I snatched her happiness. I know this is wrong but hell, when have I cared when it came to her? She will be gone in a few days and that is going to put me out of my misery. The misery that she had caused. For a moment I felt like destroying her emotions by kissing her brutally but the moment I saw her angelic face heat us against my touch, her long lashes fanning with every breath I take some perennial desire to make this kiss which will be our first and last kiss special and unforgettable. I have never thought that I can still have this effect on her after mistreating her all my life. The moment her having checked touched mine I knew that this is the moment she was waiting for her whole life. But what shocked me the most is the desire that is bubbling inside me. Even though this was not the first time I am touching her, today feels different. It's intimate and I have never been intimate with her. It would be a lie if I say I never wanted to kiss those lips. Yes, I did, but everytime I saw on her face I thought of the sadness that she has caused in my life. But today when I know that she is never going to come in this house after marriage strangely but true revenge is the last thing in my mind. I wanted to kiss her before she is gone.

Gone...

And that word hit me bad. A sense of loss, hollowness suddenly started to chock me.

"Aaarnav...", her barely audible voice was the last nail. I leaned in to capture her lips, satisfied with her gasping sound. Unable to control the throaty moan I gave in locking my lips with her. My eyelids drooped close savouring the moment.

I couldn't have but to touch her cheek and with the other hand I held her close to me giving her a little tuck to close the gap between us. I touched her spine and glided it towards her nape to deepen the kiss and she obeyed giving me more access to her sweet tongue. I devoured her like the desert misses the rain.

Too overwhelmed with the feeling, I didn't realize that Dadi was standing near the door. Khushi was about to respond to the kiss when Dadi knocked at the door. "Khushi bitiya?"

Hearing dadi's voice she opened her eyes and scrabbled back while I was still dazed. I half parted eyes watch her struggle to realize my grip. She started to wiggle and that's when I realized our position. She was on my lap. She messed up due to our kiss. Blood rushed across her lips making it red from my kiss make it even more desirable. Her eyes pleaded mine to release her and I did that half-heartedly. She quickly got up from my lap and straightened the crease of her dress. She casually combed her hair with her fingers hurried towards the door and bumped into dadi. 'Shit', I muttered under my breath. I hope dadi didn't witness our little intimate moment.

"Daa'di! Aaapne mujhe bulaya?" ("Where you loking for me Dadi?") Khushi audible shuttered. Dadi cupped her flushed face and said,

"YOUR, Sammy is waiting for you downstairs", stressing out the word your. What pissed me off was her sweet smile hearing her finances name. I gritted my teeth to control my temper. Dadi gave me a glance before asking me, "erm! How are you feeling Arnav beta?"

Ignoring her question I questioned her back, "Dadi, did you permit Samrat to meet Khushi before marriage?" surprised as to why that bothered me so much when I am the person who insisted Khushi marry him.

"Yes", she said shrugging her shoulders.

"Par Dadi, Shaadi se pehle dulha aur dulhan nahi milte hai na?" (Before marriage the bride and the groom aren't suppose to meet before the D day).

"Yes Beta, you are right. But thats before haldi. Aur haldi to abhi hui nahi. So she can meet him. And if you are allowed to meet Lavanya then she too is allowed to meet Sammy. Isnt it? Now if you are done with your question, I will ask Khushi to get you haldi wala doodh to your room. Take rest beta. You need it."

I got up from the bed. "I don't want any mild dadi," I said and walked out of the room. How dare she meet him after letting me kiss her like that?