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Here is the interpretation to Section 3 of Part 28.

While Ganesh was getting his equipment set to his satisfaction for a photo shoot, he felt that he was being observed. He turned towards that direction and met Anamika's gaze. She was standing near the door, dressed in a white tunic and dark chocolate chinos, looking her normal chic self, if one did not take into consideration the hint of dark circles under her eyes. Ganesh with a smile tried to put her at ease while setting the equipment aside. Vinni's greeting, Good Morning Madam was received with a faint smile. Seeing that Anamika had come over, Vinni addressing Ganesh as Commander, asked him to leave it and allow her to do. Ganesh nodding in acknowledgement, walked towards Anamika and both silently headed towards Ganesh's office. Knowing that she would prefer not to be disturbed, he shut the door.

Anamika gazed around the room. She wondered, how many times had she been there, too many times to count. She noted the racks with books and journals were on the point of collapsing under the weight, the priceless landscapes on the wall, the table with his laptop and other requirements of his work, his music system all that were familiar to her.

Turning towards him she said, Ganesh.. and stopped short, not knowing how to go about. Seeing her dilemma, Ganesh asked her, did she sleep last night. Hearing his question she was startled for a moment, and whispered a no. With an apologetic smile he told her, that he succeeded in stealing her sleep but for wrong reasons. Anamika looked at him gulping down a lump. Ganesh with a laugh told her, that it looked like he was too old for the romance, and he needed to take tips from Gaurav as how not to scare the girl one loves. Anamika rushed upto him and hugged him tight with her arms around his waist. She whispered telling him, that there was nothing wrong with him but it was she who was at fault. Ganesh patting her head with his right hand and consoling her asked softly, what was it? He kept his left hand where it was without touching her. The last thing he wanted was to remind her was of the attack on her. Anamika crawled closer to him and her fingers clutching his navy blue T-shirt, gaining the much needed leverage to cling to him, burying her face in his vast chest, breathing in his clean sandalwood scent, she confessed, that she was a total mess and it was she who needed to sort things out. The aroma she inhaled was so familiar, very comforting, safe, like a lullaby, it soothed her frayed nerves. Ganesh kept silent giving her the space to think and get her fears out in the open. After sometime, she started to tell him haltingly, that after that terrible incident, she never liked being touched. Only Gaurav was touching her and now Khushi. All Ganesh did was to murmur a soft, Hhmm, encouraging her to continue.

Anamika running her hands up his back, moved her feet closer to him pressing herself so close that, even a postage stamp could not slip through. She told him in a low voice that she does not like anybody touching her and if she marries him, then.. she trailed off, unable to complete her words. Ganesh looking at the way she had pressed herself on him hid a smile. He called, Anamika, but she whispered, he would be disappointed in her. Ganesh in a firm tone told her, that he would never be disappointed with her, come what may. He thinks of her as the strongest woman he had come across and the very best of humans and he was honoured to know her. She confessed that she herself would not be able to bear, if she disappointed him. Ganesh assured her in a whisper, that she will never have to bear the burden, as she would not disappoint him. When Anamika looked into his face, her eyes glittering with unshed tears, Ganesh asked her, whether she dislikes touching him. Anamika looked at him and at her arms that were encompassing him. Feeling embarrassed, she tried to withdraw herself a bit away but Ganesh stopped her. In answer to his query, when she said no, he asked gently, why doesn't she dislike touching him. She was at a loss to answer and meekly looked at him, but Ganesh waited.

Finally she came up saying, that it was because she felt safe with him. It was because she knew he would never hurt her. It was because of the knowledge that he never touches her even when she touches him. It made her feel secure. Ganesh with a smile told her, then it would be a good idea to take things slowly, getting used to touching and being touched.

When Anamika nodded in agreement he continued to say, that to do it effectively they need to be together for long stretch of time with privacy. Anamika concurred and with a slight tilt of her head, asked him to continue. Ganesh with a gentle smile asked her, why not get married as it would enable them to stay under a single roof and provide ample time to be with each other, to experiment, to practice, in privacy. Anamika looked at him with fear mirrored in her eyes. Ganesh felt wretched to see such a fear and distress in her. With her lips quivering she asked, what if she could never.. and couldn't complete it. Ganesh in a calm and collected voice told her that, then they would live together with it. Together being the key.

Receiving a call from Khushi, Arnav picked it up and querried with a, Khushi. She asked Arnav very sweetly, whether he could come home early from office the next day and spend his afternoon with her. Looking at his schedule he asked her, the next day? When he saw that he was jam-packed, he told her he regrets to be unable to do so as he had various meetings scheduled. Khushi with a deep frown told him that in movies, the hero goes down on his knees in front of the heroine, and says, 'My life is at your feet.' And here, she pouted, she was stuck with a man who can't even give her an afternoon of his day!

Hearing her sulk like a petulant kid, Arnav smiled and asked her filled with hope, what will she do if he gives her an afternoon? She in a grand gesture of generosity, offering him entertainment said, that she would take him out to see a movie, a Salman Khanji or Hrithik Roshanji or Shahrukh Khanji starrer, making his jaws slacken. She went on elaborating the treat she had in store for him. She told him that he need not feel sorry that Anjaliji, Naniji and Mamiji would not be able to see the film. They, Buaji, Jiji and Jijaji too will be coming with them. Nanheji would not as he said he wanted to play some game with Gaurav. Arnav who had hopes of having her all to himself asked her haltingly, whether they were all coming too, managing to swallow the dashed hopes. Her yes, was it not wonderful, had him think of many things that were not meant for her ears!

Her pleading, Arnavji please come with us, please? It will be so much fun with you there, had him forego his scheduled meetings and made him say, Khushi, I will come with you. The very next second, he had to hold his phone away, as the decibel of her screech of joy was loud enough, to pierce through the ear membrane.

This update is about agreeing to a demand or request. ACCEDE.

When Anamika turned up at Ganesh's studio though looking chic as usual, she was a bundle of nerves. She was in a turmoil. Seeing her, Ganesh sensing her need to talk to him, took her to his room. In the beginning itself she accepted that it was she and not Ganesh who had a problem that needed to be addressed and she sought his help.

"Sometimes people let the same problem make them miserable for years when they could just say, So what. That's one of my favorite things to say. So what"

~ Andy Warhol, The Philosophy of Andy Warhol

Then Anamika spilled out her fear of disappointing him. It was her way of conceding that she needed him in her life and he was a part of her life. Her apprehension was that she would disappoint him given her tendency to cringe at being touched by others with the exception of Gaurav and now Khushi. Her past had made her abhor at being touched and any touch would make her remember the atrocities that were committed against her. The heinous crime had ruled her life at personal level, though she had overcome it at the professional front. It had stunted her emotional growth and she had not received any support to overcome it as she had no family to fall back on. She had no time to confront her emotions headlong, as she had Gaurav growing inside her. She had to raise him as a single mother protecting him from the stigma of being illegitimate and for her as years went by, his emotional stablility became the top priority and not hers. She never wanted him to feel that he was the product of a lustful atrocity on his mother. So her apprehension at not being able to make Ganesh happy with her response is well founded. But she didn't want Ganesh to loose out on anything in life. For her it was a Catch-22, when seen from her position. She neither wanted to let go of Ganesh nor deprive him of his rights. She too wanted to enjoy her Marital Bliss with him. It acquired a mammoth proportion in her eyes, once Ganesh declared he was interested in marriage, if only she was his bride. Sensing all these, Ganesh the quiet man, made her see the sense of her behavior. By asking her, whether she is repulsed by him, he made her see it was not so, and whether she abhors touching him, she realized she was not averse to it. He told her since she did not feel apprehensive to touch him it was half battle won already. Just to make comfortable of him touching her, they needed uninterrupted time and privacy and it would be better if it was within the bond of matrimony. His rational explanation had her accede to every request of his as she knew he would never take advantage of her or her son.

"I let it go. It's like swimming against the current. It exhausts you. After a while, whoever you are, you just have to let go, and the river brings you home"

~ Joanne Harris, Five Quarters of the Orange

Her other question of him being disappointed if she was unable to overcome her nightmare of sexual atrocity, was addressed by him with a simple solution. Basically without her there was no family life for him. So if she was unable to overcome her repulsion at being touched there was nothing to be lost, as like before they would have each other in platonic relationship, but with an added bonus of being a family. If she was able to overcome her emotional drawback then, they would enjoy conjugal bliss along with the family bliss. So it was actually a win-win situation for them either way. In Arnav Singh Raizada's lingo, a profitable deal worth striving for! Anamika being a businesswoman, could see it and acquiesced to Ganesh's request.

"The journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step"

~ Chinese Proverb

When Arnav picked up the call from Khushi, her request to spend the afternoon with her was assented by Arnav despite having a jam-packed schedule. He had to cancel all his scheduled meetings to be with her and he did so thinking that he would have some quality romantic time with her. After accepting her request, his inquiry of the reason led him to know that it was to watch a movie, and that too it was a family outing. Listening to her, he realized that she was riding high and did not want to burst the bubble by letting her know what he thought of it. He complied with her request only to hear her exulting that made him smile. Acceding to her request made Arnav realize, that though Khushi had been reticent to voice out so far, she too hankers for his company just like him.

"The happier person is one, that acknowledges and accepts life won't get any better than this"

~ Anthony Liccione

That's why this is titled ACCEDE.

That's it from me. Hope you enjoy it.

rulama2013-05-17 10:15:09