Chapter 8

Nicky saluja

@Nickysweet

''Sanjay.. I am not a virgin anymore''! His whole world get shattered instantly. He clinch his fist, his eyes become puffy red due to anger. He slapped her hard on her cheeks which become red and blood ouch from her mouth. He push her roughly on the hard floor started beating her like hell. ''You bi*** how dare you cheat me..i won't spare you...you betray me my love..i will kill you! He didn't give her any mercy and started beating her with her legs. She feels she will die at any moment. She don't have any strength left and then she feels a knife on her stomach and in a minute whole room get full of her blood and then she take her last breathe.

Noo!!she get up with a jerk from her nightmare. Instantly she place her hand on her belly then she realize she saw a dream but it will came reality anytime true. The night flash in her eyes again and again when she get intimate with him. How his roam all over her body which create 1000 butterflies in her belly and she lost her all senses and submitted herself completely to him without realizing what she is doing and how she is creating the biggest mess in her life and creating the person who loves her more than his life. The night which change her whole life, her every relation.

(Khushi POV): Whenever I close my eyes that incident came in front of my eyes..i can't able to forget him, his touch, his love, his caring, his eyes which is having full of desire and love for me to make me his forever. His eyes speak more than volume. Whenever he protect me how secure and protected I feel an unknown feeling create on my heart which I never feel when I am with my fiance. My heart is fighting with my brain. My heart say go back to him he is waiting for you so eagerly. The sight of him is still fresh in my eyes how painfully he is looking at me when I am going away from him in railways station but my brain I am feeling so disgust about me how cheap I become how can I think about a stranger like this. He is no one to me..he take advantage of my vulnerable situation. But then my heart says, no you are the only one who allow him to touch you and respond equally to his every touch. Why I allow him to touch me? Why I didn't stop him? If I want then I can stop him then nothing like this happen between us. If he is at fault then I am equally responsible about it. Why abuse him aftermath, he get completely shattered by my hurtful words. I shouldn't react like this. But what can I do I feel so disgusted at that moment I don't realize what I am doing and blunt all my anger on him. He save me from that greedy people, if he didn't came on time then anything would have happen to me and what I did.. instead of thanking him i get intimate with him and say harsh words to him.

My brain says why I am thinking about him..he is no one to me..i don't even know his name. A stranger become so much involve in my life that instead of thinking about sanjay and telling him about my truth I am thinking about him how he is feeling. I don't even ask his name I got so angry at that moment that I even didn't ask his name. Feeling so shameful about me. How can I do like this.

Kya yahi sanskaar diye hain mujhe mamma papa ne? Kya hoga jab unhe ye sab pata chalega? Vo ye kabhi she nahi payenge..unhone mere liye sanjay jaisa itna acha insaan chuna aur humne unke armaano ko apne pau tale chr chur kar diya...ghin aa rahi hain hume apne aap par...hum aisa kaise kar sakhte hain jab ki hum achi tarah se jante the ki hum kisi aur ki amanat hain. Bahaht jald kisi aur ke honewale hain.Ye sab karne se pehle ek bar tujhe sanjay ka khayal nahi aya, kya hoga jab use sachhayi pata chalegi...kya vo ye sab bardasht kar payega..kabhi bhi nahi!(Did your parents give such values to you? What will happen when they will came to know about my deeds? They will never tolerate..they have choosen such a great human being as my life partner..i am feeling so disgusted..how can I do such cheap things behind their back. I already know I am going to become someone else then why I didn't think before doing this. Why I didn't thought about sanjay at ones while doing all this? What will happen when he will came to know about it..he will never tolerate all this..no never.)

I can't spoil his life, he deserve much better than me. Before marriage rituals start I should have tell him everything. With that she close her eyes waiting for next day arrive soon and she will tell him what has happen in Mumbai with her.

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Arnav is sitting in his bed and remembering her innocent face, her herful face while going away from him can't make him sleep. Her words are still ringing in his ears. She is getting married soon and I ruin her life. The guilt of destroying her can't let him rest in peace.A sudden bell of her cell bring her back from his thought.

''Hello'', no response...hellooo who's this? Again no one spoke.By listening no response from other side he got irritated. ''Just speak up dammit! If you are not interested in talking then why you are wasting my damn time''.

''Itna gussa tumhari sehat ke liye acha nahi hain acha nahi asr?''(This much anger is not good for your health asr?)

He got frustrated by listening her voice, ''Just shut up lavanya..i am not in a mood to talk''! With that he hung up the call. She wide her mouth and call him again and again. But he didn't pick up her call and switch off his mobile. The only thought that capture in his mind is khushi..nothing else is more important for him.

Lavanya is his family friend daughter. She completed her studies in a big university in Europe. During her studies, she fall in love with someone but he broke her heart brutally without caring about her anymore. He share lust relation with her and never love her and fulfill his desire. After using her, he throw her out from his life without caring if she is alive or not.. she get completely shattered and go back to india. She always be at home never go anywhere. Her family came to know about her broken relationship and support her in every possible way and try to give her all happiness but still there is no improvement in her condition. She lost all her hope to live the life and try to commit suicide 2 times. Due to family love and care she came back from the trauma slowly and stred forgetting him,as the time goes on. After some time back, she meet arnav. Kashyap and raizada family are business partners. Arnav know her since many years. One day he meet her but by seeing her condition, he get surprise. Lavanya is never be like this before she always be lively and full of life. Then he came to know about her past relation from her father. He help her forgetting him fully and bring always smile on her face. Lavanya is then started feeling for him. She love spending time with him and whenever he is not around she get sad. His father realize about her feelings so he he bring proposal to his nani and didn't hide anything to them. His family is very happy, they always treated her as their own daughter and after Mr kashyap bring proposal for her marriage then instantly say yes to him. Past doesn't matter to them only thing matter is honesty and truth.But arnav is not happy with this marriage he don't want to marry anyone as he don't believe in love and relationship so he reject to marry her. 'I am sorry lavanya, u already suffer so much in your life I don't want you to suffer again''. He spoke her in phone when she call him after his father goes to raizada mansion.She again shattered so she talk with nani to convince him. Nani promise her that she will convince him once akash marriage take place.

After payal-akash marriage, his nani notice some change in his behavior. He always busy in work and came very late at home. All get worried about his sudden behavior. Nani and payal try to ask him about it but he always neglect it. She realized some loneliness in his behavior..some longing as if he is waiting for someone. After consulting with payal and akash she decided to convince him for marriage. Nani believes if he will get married then his all loneliness with be disappear and he will also be happy like payal and akash. Lavanya loves him so much no one take good care of him other than him so she decided to talk with him.

Whenever nani tried to talk with him he always give excuse about work and avoid her. Payal also try to talk with him but he never give a damn to anyone. His heart still longing for her. ''I tried so much to forget you but I can't able to..'' Payal once inform him about khushi marriage in next month and she ask him to come to her wedding. After knowing he get completely broken. He once thought to meet her. He is so dieing to see one glimpse of her but then thought if she is happy with someone else and ready to forget everything then I will never come in front of your eyes and ruin her happiness. I already destroy her dreams now its better I let her live her own life and never come in front of her. 'Wishing You a happy married life, khushi''he spoke with painful voice by looking at the star as he is feeling she is also looking at star and he spoke to starsand convey his message to her.

Next morning

''Sanjay I want to meet you urgently, can u please come to meet me in coffee shop where we occasionally meet?''. She spoke in the phone.

Hayee aise bulaogi toh udke aa jayungi(If you call me like this then I came by flying ) She rolled her eyes. Sanjay, stop flirting..its very important...please try to understand!!

Itni bhi kya baichani hain ki tum shaadi tak rukh bhi nhai sakhti..thoda sa intezaar baby...phir tumhe main apne se ek pal ke liye bhi dur nahi jane dunga..hamesha tumhari bauhon mein rahungia aur tumhare saath...(Why you are so curious that you can't wait till marriage...only few days baby then I won't let you stay away from me a second..always atay in your arms and do..) Before he spoke anything further she blunt in anger tone,''just shut up..why don't you understand its very important I can't wait till marriage!''

Khushi you already aware na your papa strictly warn me that we can't met each other till marriage if he came to know about it, he never allow us to met and what if he extent out marriage..no no.. I can't take risk..now I can't stay way from you more! ''Bata which sherwani you like choose one''! Mom as you like! She got frustrated. Sanjay, I am talking to you what are you doing? Oh ho khushi u know na..wedding preparation started so mom took me forcefully to designer shop but u already know I don't like all shopping an all but this is for our wedding so I can't reject. I want our marriage to be special that we always cherish the moment.

Here she is tensed how she can tell him truth and he is not even listening to her and chatting about wedding and all. 'Okay listen mom is calling me..i call you back, she is giving me angry glare if I won't go then she will definitely throw my phone in dustbin''! But sanj.. before she say anything he disconnect the call. She throw her phone in irritation. Now how I will tell him. From today all rituals will start then mom will won't allow me to talk with him. Days pass like this haldi, mehendi all rituals completed..she try many times to talk with him but his phone is with his mom and she didn't allow her to talk with him. She is feeling so restless..no one is there to help her. She can't even share with anyone. Soon a day of marriage arrive.

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After one month

Payal: Naniji hume kuch na kuch toh karna padega..bhai ki halat dekhi hain apne?

Nani: Haan betiya, hum jante hain par samaj nahi pa rahe kya kare par tumne thik nahi kiya..aj khushi ki shaadi hain tumhe vaha jana chahiye tha..use tumhari jarurat hain!

Payal: Nahi nani, khushi ka khayal rakhne ke liye vaha sab hain par bhai ko meri samse jyada jarurat hain.

Nani(By cupping her cheeks): Tumhe is ghar ka kitna khayal hain..hume garv hain akash ki pasand par. (You have so worried about this house..i am proud of akash selection) You dont worry, I have one plan by doing this he will never reject from marriage.

Payal(Curiously): Kya?(What)

Nani: Just wait and watch😈