Chapter 133
Part 4
Shilpa hesitantly glanced at Anjali who kept picking several dresses for her..
Shilpa : Anjie..Plzz dont be angry with me..
Anjali : Did i say i am angry...?
Shilpa : But you are so silent.. Since i have told..
Anjali glanced at her interrupting her words..
Anjali : I know i should actually smack your head for agreeing on going out with him..
Shilpa : Soo.. Why did you stop.. ?
Anjali stared at her for a while and smiled..
Anjali : Because after soo many days i have seen peace in you.. I dont think i should ruin it this time..
Shilpa glanced down at her dress..
Shilpa : Anjie.. Its just one dinner.. And Anyways you know right i am going back to mom..
Anjali : So did you tell him you are going away forever.. ?
Shilpa looked away biting her lips..
Shilpa : No.. I just said for a holiday..
Anjali : So make sure you tell him by tonight.. I know Armaan is a jerk but i guess being such a close friend to you he deserves to know that..
Shilpa gave a silent nod taking Anjali's hand..
Shilpa : What would i have done without you Anjie..
Anjali grinned passing down a dress to her..
Anjali : You would be in great loss without me lady.. Anyways wear this tonight...
Shilpa gave a nice look at the dress..It was one of her new dress which she bought recently.. A black sleeveless dress with black lace.. Frowning she put down the dress
Shilpa : I am not wearing this..
Anjali : Ohh Come on Shilpa whats the harm anyways its not like you both are going on first date its just a dinner remember..
Shilpa hesitated a bit staring down at the dress.. Anjali sighed as she noticed the look on her face..
Anjali : Do you even Remember the Happy and free Shilpa..You were never self conscious like this before.. Come on be the old Shilpa again lets see whether he remembers you..
Parking the car infront of her house he set for a while thinking over everything.. He still couldnt reasoned out why he had asked her over dinner.. Was it over the guilt of treating her bad or was it to make up for their broken friendship.. He couldnt decide what he wished and wanted.. But onething in his heart he knew that she was the last person he wished to see walking out of his life..
Getting out of the car he walked towards her house to knock the door when suddenly the door flew open and Shilpa stepped out.. He stared at her for a while surprised seeing the sudden change in her attire.. He remembered the dress but he also remembered she was the who refused to wear it again..Shilpa looked up hesitantly to see him staring at her.. Feeling the blush rise on her cheeks she spoke..
Shilpa : Armaan.. Whats wrong.. ?
Hearing her voice he recovered and looked away feeling embarrassed..Why was this sudden feeling rising within him.. This wasnt the first time he had seen her in the dress...
Armaan : Umm No.. You look great Shona.. I mean Beautiful..
She secretly smiled seeing the embarrassed look on his face.. Trying to cover up the awkward atmosphere she spoke..
Shilpa : So..Shall we go.. ?
She followed him inside the beautiful restaurant looking around with a smile.. As the waiter led them to the corner table Armaan took out a chair for her avoiding to look at her.. Shilpa raised her eyebrow and took a seat..
Shilpa : I really dont need any formality..
And then he smiled making her heartbeat rise for a moment..
Armaan : Its not about formality.. I was just trying to be a gentlemen..
She looked away momentarily as the bitter memories of past month cameback in her head.. He noticed the hurt it her eyes which made him drown in guilt..
Armaan : You still havent forgiven me for that incident..
Shilpa : One incident.. ? How many incidents are there like that.. Still its fine i forgive you..
He didint speak.. Silence stretched among them for a long time.. Shilpa found it too hard to tolerate the rising tension between them.. As the dinner was done she got the chance to escape..
Shilpa : I think i should leave now.. Its late..
Her breath hitched as he held back her hand.. She turned back to him noticing the plead in his eyes..
Armaan : Shona plzz..
Shilpa : We are done with the dinner arent we... ?
He looked back in the hall and got up from his seat offering his hand..
Armaan : One dance with me..
She hesitated staring at his hand for a minute.. Clutching down her dress she wondered what to do..
Armaan : One dance.. I dont want to see you go upset.. Let me make it up for you..
For onething she was glad the dance hall was dim light.. Being close to him it was much easy to avoid the awkwardness between them.. As he pulled her in his arms it surprised her seeing how perfectly they fit together.. She giggled suddenly as a thought ran in her mind..
Armaan : Care to explain the sudden laugh..
Shilpa : I was just wondering.. Dont you think we dance too much these days.. ?
Armaan : Is it a good thing or bad thing..
Shilpa : I.. I dont know..
Again silence stretched for a long time making her feel more uneasy..
Armaan : Shona.. I know i have been very bad towards you.. I am still trying to accept the fact that she have left me..
Its high time to tell him truth.. She knew but still she found it hard to tell him..
Armaan : I will try to make everything normal.. Just go and comeback soo Plz..
She glanced at him seeing the hurt in his eyes.. But She knew Anjali was right.. He deserved to know the truth.. She grasped his shoulders as he pulled her close..
Shilpa : Armaan.. I am not coming back..
She felt him go stiff at once.. Thats what she feared most.. Seeing his heartbreak again.. He moved back and with a stunned look..
Armaan : You dont mean it.. You didint mean it right Shona..
She bit her lips trying to control her tears.. The hurt on his face the shaken voice was breaking her heart..
Shilpa : I am sorry i lied.. Yes i am going back to Mamma.. But i dont intend to comeback..
She tried to reach him when he moved back shaking his head..
Armaan : So u mean.. Even you are leaving me back here.. All alone.. ?
Shilpa shook her head trying to make him understand.. But she herself felt loss of words not knowing what to say.. Suddenly he moved to her pulling her close..
Armaan : Am i that wrong.. Why are you not understanding me.. Cant you feel my pain ?
She hissed in pain feeling pressure of his hold.. Why dont you understand my pain.. Her heart pained..
Shilpa : Armaan its hurts..
The pain in his eyes grew as he left her in the dance floor walking towards the bar area.. Shilpa stood still for a moment seeing his leave.. But as she noticed him taking a drink she walked towards him instanly..
Shilpa : Armaan Plzz dont..
He brushed away her hand passing a bitter smile..
Armaan : Do you even know how much i need you.. Still you are leaving me alone..
She didint like the pain in his eyes.. He drank the whole thing in one go and ordered for onemore..
Shilpa : Dont do this again..
Armaan : No just let me loose all senses.. I cant see you go away if i am in full senses.. I just cant see you leave..
Her eyes welled up as she stood helpless while he drowned himself in alcohol..
Once again in the very same situation she led him into her apartment while he kept murmuring her name in drunken state.. As She closed the door he pushed her away , Shilpa gripped the wall with gasping in surprise..
Armaan : Stay away from me.. I hate you..
Shilpa : Armaan plzz
Armaan : U hate me Shona.. So i also.. hate you..
Shilpa held his arm leading him to the bed..
Shilpa : Thats not true i dont hate you..
He again brushed off her hands staring at her in hurt and anger..
Armaan : Ohh yes u do.. Now you are also leaving me like Sara.. You are just like her..
She noticed him run a hand in his hair in frustration.. Shilpa moved back when he broke the vase on her table..
Shilpa : Armaan just stop it..
She tried to walk away when he pulled her back in his arms.. She tried to struggled but he held her firmly staring down at her with a sudden anger sending chills down her body..
Armaan : Dont you dare work off me..
Shilpa tried to struggle more seeing the sudden change in his behavior..
Shilpa : Armaan you are not in your senses.. Stop talking to me like that..
Something changed in his eyes.. His gaze traveled down on her lips staring down at her in hunger.. She shook her head realizing what was coming.. Her mind started to scream this was wrong..
In next instant his lips came down on hers.. She felt a sudden tremor run down her body with the feeling on her lips on hers.. He kissed her hard and with a sudden passion making her knees go weak.. Her mind was blocked with the touch of lips.. But soon she cameback on her senses as he cupped her face kissing her hard and rough.. She moaned trying her best to push him away.. Finally she succeeded.. She stared at him petrified with his change in behavior.. As he moved a towards her she slapped him hard on his cheek..
Shilpa : How dare you Armaan.. You cant treat me like This.. !!
She stepped back but soon regretted as he took the opportunity and pushed her to the bed overpowering her..
She tried to push him away but he held her firm.. Tears welled in her eyes as she stared at him in hurt and anger..
Shilpa : You are going to regret this Armaan..
She noticed his eyes heavy lidded.. For a instance she prayed him to doze of in sleep.. But her fear rose as tonight it wasnt happening..
He traveled his lips from her face down to her neck.. She lay still crying knowing how wrong this was going..
Shilpa : Armaan plzz dont do this..
Her name escaped from his lips as he moved his hands down on her leg.. She cried in protest brushing away his arms when he pulled back both her arms upto her face level staring down at her..
Armaan : You are not stopping me..
Shilpa : YOU ARE OUT OF UR MIND.. !! Leave me Armaan plzz..
She gasped loud as he ripped away her dress.. She felt scared and her fear rose as suddenly she felt too exposed infornt of him.. She kept trying her best to struggle but he held her tight and strong.. Her eyes got wide as she noticed Armaan pulling out the buttons of his shirt in druken state.. She shook her head protesting when he kissed her hard blocking away all the thoughts from her mind.. For a second she stopped struggling as he kissed her in a more clam and slow manner.. Sending chills down her spine... She didint knew when she started responding back to him kissing him senseless while caressing his hair.. Breaking the kiss he glanced down at her and spoke in a shaken voice..
Armaan : Dont leave me behind here.. Plzz.. Shona..
Lost in him for a moment she couldnt even realize when they were free from clothes dangled in sheets.. She touched his arms to stop him with pleading eyes..
Shilpa : Dont do this Armaan.. You will regret this..
Armaan : Will you.. Regret..
He moved close to her pulling her close.. She gasped feeling him so close for the first time.. Skin to skin she couldnt think straight..
A tear rolled down as he kissed her shoulder moving down..
Shilpa : I think i will regret the loss of friendship..
Pulling the sheets close to her she glanced at him sleeping peacefully.. She got up from the bed feeling a sudden pain rise in her body.. Slowly she walked to the washroom and closed the door silding down to the floor , putting on the shower.. And that night she cried hard realizing what have just happened.. She couldnt believe she let herself loose her senses and sleep with Armaan..
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Anjali : You dont have to worry now.. He wont dare to come near you..
Shilpa : What do you mean..
Anjali : I filed a case against him in police station for Raping you.. !
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Anjali : How are you feeling now.. ?
Shilpa : I am fine.. Dont worry..
Anjali : I did inform aunty..
Shilpa glanced at her worried...
Shilpa : No u didint.. I told you dont tell her at all..
Anjali : Calm down.. I just told her you will stay here for somedays..
Shilpa sighed glancing away feeling uneasy.. Anjali noticed the frustrated look on her face.. Sitting beside her she took her hand..
Anjali : You dont have to worry now.. He wont dare to come near you..
Shilpa : What do you mean..
Anjali : I filed a case against him in police station for Raping you.. !
Fully stunned Shilpa got up from bed..
Shilpa : You really did that.. ?
Anjali : Yes i did.. And i am not backing away in this.. He have to be punished for forcing on you..
Shilpa : Anjie.. You are not understanding..
Anjali : Oh come on i am understanding every single thing.. Damn it was a Rape... !!
Shilpa : NO ITS NOT.. !!
Anjali got up from bed surprised by her words..
Anjali : Dont do this Shilpa.. I cant believe.. You really..
She glanced away as the memories flowed back in her mind..
Armaan leaned back to the wall as a lone tear escaped.. Clenching his fist he tried to remember desperately wishing everything was clear for him.. But everything felt painfully blur.. Small moments clicked in his mind.. Which filled more shame and guilt within him.. He glanced around the Jail cell with sorrow.. This was what he had deserved for hurting the most important person in his life.. Armaan felt disgusted of himself.. Sara's depature was long forgotten.. It was now replaced with the a more worse pain of hearting someone who cared for him.. Always beside him in his bad circumstances..
Armaan : Why did this Happen.. ?What have i become..
She walked inside the police station with Anjali who kept trying to ease of her anger.. As she reached to the main officer she took a seat directing at Anjali to speak.. Anjali glared at her and took a seat..
Anjali : I want to take back my case against Armaan Mallik..
Officer glanced at her in surprise..
Officer : But Mam.. You told me this was a rape case..
Anjali cleared her throat looking away..
Anjali : Well i had been mistaken.. So i would like to take back my complain..
Officer looked at her suspiciously and glanced at Shilpa with a grim face..
Officer : Mam are you sure.. See if you are in any kind of hesitation plzz dont get scared we know well how to deal with such cases..
Shilpa shook her head slowly staring down..
Shilpa : My friend was mistaken.. It was.. Just a mutual decision.. I hope you understand..
Officer gave a nod understandingly..
Officer : Ok if you are sure about this i will let him go now..
Shilpa gave a nod and instantly got up from her seat when Officer interrupted..
Officer : Mam you have to wait for half and hour.. We have some procedures to carry on.. You have to sign in some documents..
Shilpa set back in the chair biting her lips suddenly feeling scared to face him.. Shilpa set lost in her thoughts for a while when Anjali interrupted softly..
Anjali : I have to go now Shilpa.. Urgent work in office..
Shilpa gave a silent nod and looked away when Anjali held her hand..
Anjali : Will you be ok.. ?
Shilpa : Dont worry i will be fine.. As soon as documents are done i will go back home..
Anjali : Yes do that.. And i will call you tonight.. Take care..
As Anjali walked out of the police station Shilpa tried to put off the shaky feeling within her suddenly feeling scared..
Surprised and confused Armaan walked outside to the officer's desk.. But a halt came to his steps as he noticed Shilpa who set there staring down.. He could easily sense the discomfort and uneasiness she was feeling.. It was easily visible on her face.. Hesitating a bit he walked towards the officer who directed him to take a seat.. Shilpa instantly moved back a little as he step beside.. He felt his heartbreak seeing that..
Officer : Complain has been taken back against you now that Ms. Shilpa Malhotra has agreed there has not been any sort of rape..
Armaan stared at him stunned as a sudden shame filled inside him.. Despite of whatever happened last night she was trying to save him...
Armaan : But officer..
Shilpa interrupted him quickly..
Shilpa : Officer can you tell me where to sign... I am in a hurry..
Officer : Mam you can sign here and Mr.Mallik plz sign here beside..
Shilpa signed quickly and stood up when Armaan took the pen to sign.. After signing the documents he glanced at her retreating back while she strode of the station...
Shilpa walked quickly in a hasty pace.. For now the only thing she wished and wanted was to get away from him as soon as possible.. Lock herself in her room and cry out hard to ease her pain.. She kept walking lost in her thoughts when suddenly she felt his voice behind her..
Armaan : Shilpa.. Wait...
Shilpa stood still but didint dare to turn and face him.. Tears welled up in her eyes as she tried to control her fear and hesitation.. She didint wish to face him , she couldnt.. Armaan hesitated for a while and reached towards her making her turn towards him.. His heart pained as he saw tears in her eyes.. The pain in them.. Slowly he touched her cheeks when she brushed it off roughly moving away from him..
Shilpa : Plzzz... Plzz dont touch me..
Armaan : Am so sorry..
He tried to reach her when she moved back shaking her head..
Shilpa : No plzz dont come close.. Its over.. Stay away from me..
His heart ached hearing her words.. But he couldnt blame her for anything.. He was the reason for the disaster..
Armaan : If you dont want.. I want come close to you.. But why did you lie..
Shilpa : I didint lie..
Armaan : I deserved to be in Jail.. I did for you.. It all happened cauxe i forced it on you..
She glanced at him as their eyes locked up for a moment.. He tried to search in her eyes for answers but she kept a blank look on her face..
Shilpa : Watever happened last night.. It happened because i let it happen.. I have equal fault in this..
He couldnt built up much courage to speak.. Frustratedly he ran a hand in his hair.. It was just not easy to swallow that she could give in into the moment willingly.. How could be it possible.. Specially when they havent even shared anything else further than friendship..
Armaan : I know my fault is there in it.. I dont want you to take all blame on yourself when you dont have any fault.. Plzz Shona..
Shilpa turned away confused over her own feelings.. Her heart screamed out loud to tell him the truth..
Shilpa : I.. I should go now..
He interrupted again making it more miserable for her.. When he spoke she felt the hidden desperation and pain in it..
Armaan : Dont you think we can work this out.. ?
She turned back to him with a determined look.. It was hard to act strong infront of him.. Specially after what occurred between them which couldnt be denied..
Shilpa : There is nothing we can do about it now Armaan.. Damage is already done.. I dont think we can work this out..
Biting her lips she kept a straight face trying her best not to cry infront of him.. He stood motionless for a moment , his face full of pain and sorrow.. How she wanted to reach to him , comfort him and ease her own pain.. He glanced back at her and gave a curt nod and walked away from her leaving behind Shilpa with a broken heart..
She turned away and started walking back to her home with tears flowing from her eyes.. With each step she took away from him she felt the barrier between them grow.. Step into a life full of sorrow and pain..
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Precap :
It rained hard.. She tried her best not to get drenched in the rain while leaning to the wall.. She glanced back to road and gasped as she noticed a figure come towards her.. Fully drenched he moved towards her while she gripped the wall avoiding to look at him..
Shilpa : Armaan what are you doing here..
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She tried her best to concentrate on her work.. One week had passed since the unexpected incident occurred to her.. In a way it had taught her a good lesson.. No more tears to shed and a every emotion buried deep inside her hurt.. Still it pained whenever she had remembered about him.. Whenever those moments came in her mind torturing her day and night.. It made her wonder does he still remember.. She had not seen or heard from him since a week. Shilpa tried not to be bothered about it but many times it made her curious.. These few days have been a torture for her.. It was hard to explain to her mother and she was fed up of making new excuses everyday.. Within all this tension she was glad Anjali was always beside her for her help.. Indeed a true friend who understood her pain..
After finishing her daily work in office she glanced outside the window before walking out.. She could easily guess it was almost going to rain.. Hesitantly she walked out of the office making up mind to reach home soon.. But as she got out it started to rain heavily..
It rained hard.. She tried her best not to get drenched in the rain while leaning to the wall.. She glanced back to road and gasped as she noticed a figure come towards her.. Fully drenched he moved towards her while she gripped the wall avoiding to look at him..
Shilpa : Armaan what are you doing here..
She could feel his scrutinizing gave running over her which made her uneasy and restless.. She glanced back at him to see the worry and pain in his eyes which she saw the last day they met..
Armaan : How are you.. ?
Her heart almost melted hearing the soft and pained voice of him.. With trembling lips she glanced down wondering how to get away from him.. His presence bothered her every single minute.. It reminded her of the memories of that night dangled in sheets in his arms..
Shilpa closed her eyes blocking away the memories from her head.. Not the correct place and correct time to fantasize about him.. Specially not infront of him..
Shilpa : I have to go..
Not caring about the rain she started to walk in a fast pace without glancing back or forward.. Her eyes stick on the ground with the overflowing emotions bursting in her heart.. Suddenly she heard the honk of car making her startled for a second.. Her eyes grew wide as she noticed the car coming towards her in a fast pace.. She almost gave up rooted in the spot when suddenly she felt strong arms pull her back making her loose balance.. She gasped as she fell down but instead of the ground she landed on top of him sending jolts down her body.. Onething she had promised herself after that fateful night was not getting close to Armaan.. She stared down at him as he kept staring at her with a strange look in his eyes which she couldnt guess ..Unknowingly his fingers moved foward tucking back the wet strands covering her face.. She shivered with the contact of his fingers on her skin.. Sharply she brushed off his hands and got out of his grip getting up from the floor..
As she tried to correct her messed clothes she felt him silently get up standing behind her way to close.. Her frustration grew due to his sudden appearance back in her life.. She turned around facing him when he ran a worried eyes on her..
Armaan : Are you fine.. ? You should have been careful before crossing the road..
Shilpa : Armaan plz.. What are you doing here..
He glanced away as his emotions flickered in his face..
Armaan : I.. I wanted to meet you once.. I just wanted to have a talk with you..
Shilpa : Why now.. ? I told you before also Armaan.. Its over now there is nothing we should talk about..
Armaan : There are many things we need to clear out.. I cant live in this guilt anymore..
Shilpa : And i cant risk to have to around me anymore.. I am leaving..
She tried to walk away but he pulled her back in his arms gripping her arms tightly.. She glanced at him in surprise as he stared at her in anger and frustration..
Armaan : Enough is enough Shilpa.. How many times i should run around you begging you for just once to have a talk with me..
Shilpa struggled to get free from his hold.. Only if he knew how much the close proximity effected her..
Shilpa : Did i ever say to come after me begging.. You dont have to Armaan.. You go your way.. I will go on my way..
He shook his head staring down at her determinedly..
Armaan : I am not able to move on.. I CANT.. !! Not until i clear out with you.. Shona cant you see how much i need you..
She felt helpless hearing the desperation in his voice.. But it was too late.. She couldnt change her mind..
Shilpa : Its better you understand it Armaan.. Its much better if we go on separate ways.. There is nothing more to talk about now..
He shook his head still not fully convinced.. This time he wasnt ready to give up easily..
Armaan : I am not giving up until we have a good conversation.. Understand it..
Worried by his words she freed herself from his hold while he kept staring at her blankly.. Pushing away the wet strands from her face she walked away from him with a thudding heart..
Getting out of the wet clothes and wearing dry top and jeans Shilpa walked out of her room with the phone in her hand..
Shilpa : Mom i am doing fine.. Dont worry plz.
Padma : But Shilpa.. You were to comeback here right.. Whats stopping you..
Shilpa : Mom.. I cant leave everything suddenly.. I have to stay here for a while i have big project in my hand..
Padma : So you are going to comeback after that.. ?
Shilpa hesitantly spoke..
Shilpa : Mom.. I dont know.. If i feel like coming soon..
Padma let out a sigh and spoke softly..
Padma : Fine shilpa.. I want force you baby..
Shilpa : Mom am so sorry.. I dont mean to hurt you..
Padma : I am not hurt Shilpa.. I am just worried for you.. You have been a lot strange these days.. i can sense it..
Shilpa : Mom believe me i am fine..
Padma : Ok i believe you.. Fine i will call you later again.. Take care Shilpa i love you..
Shilpa : Love you too mom..
Keeping the phone down she glanced at the window seeing it was still raining heavy... Suddenly her thoughts flew back to Armaan.. She tried not to be bothered by his words but it had effected her a lot.. Her heart kept of begging to let him say what he want but her mind protested with the thought of moving away from Armaan and the past..
Shilpa walked towards Kitchen when suddenly she heard some strange voice near the front door.. She stood still for a minute and curiously walked up to the door and opened it slowly.. Her eyes grew wide as she noticed him standing in the rain with his back towards her.. She gasped loudly as he turned back facing her with a vulnerable smile..
Shilpa : From how long you have been standing there.. ?
He shrugged his shoulders rubbing his neck..
Armaan : I cant guarantee my watch still works.. But i guess it would be an hour..
She glanced at him with troubled look..
Shilpa : Why are you doing this Armaan..
His expression grew tight as he stared at him determinedly..
Armaan : As i said.. I want to talk with you..
She stared at him for a while in hesitation and thinking over the consequences.. Every bit of her mind kept screaming to shut the door on his face.. And instantly she followed her head and shut down the door closing her eyes..
Armaan looked away dissapointed seeing her shut away him so easily.. Giving up he tried to walk off when suddenly he saw the door open, and she stood there with a grim look on her face..
Shilpa : Come in and dry yourself..
As he set on the sofa she passed a towel for him which he took with trembling hands.. But in between he kept sneezing hard which kept stopping him from drying himself.. Armaan cursed under his breath and tried to dry his hair when he felt her take the towel slowly rubbing on his wet hair.. Startled he glanced up at her while she kept her gaze stick on her work..
Armaan : Thank you..
Shilpa : You should go after drying up.. I will make a coffee for you and then you will have to leave..
Armaan : Now that you have let me in i am not going to go without clearing out things..
He noticed her expressions growing tight hearing his stubborn voice..
Shilpa : There is nothing for us to talk about.. Specially nothing about that night..
After a minute of silence he spoke softly..
Armaan : Sara called me today..
She stopped her work and glanced down at him..
Shilpa : Is that why you are here.. ? What you want to do today to cry out your pain or take off your frustration.. ?
Armaan : None.. I just came for you today..
Ignoring his comment she spoke sitting beside him..
Shilpa : What did Sara say..
Armaan : Nothing much.. She just told how happy she is back in her new carrier.. And said to me never call her back..
She sensed the bitterness in his voice as he kept staring down on the floor..
Shilpa : So did you speak to her.. ?
Armaan : Surprisingly No.. I didint call her after break up.. She isint in my concern these days.. Again surprisingly..
She looked at him hesitantly confused over his words..
Shilpa : But you loved her.. And still do..
Armaan : Maybe i do.. Maybe not.. I dont know .. I was running crazy around her when i was with her.. I was hurt when she left me.. But now i dont feel much pain of her leaving.. As i said she is not my concern these days..
She knew she should not even bring on the question.. But the very next minute the words spilled out from her mouth..
Shilpa : Then whats your concern.. ?
He glanced back at her with a strange sensation in his eyes..
Armaan : You.. And What happened between us that night.. Its bothering me from last week.. From that night.. Thats my concern these days..
Shilpa : Armaan.. As i said we shouldnt...
He interrupted her words surprising her with his comment..
Armaan : I want to ask you a question.. Which has been bothering me from a long time..
Shilpa : Armaan i think you should go now..
She tried to get up when he hold her hand gripping it tightly..
Armaan : Not until you answer my question..
She could sense something bad was hidden within his question..A reality which she didint wish to face..
Shilpa : Fine.. What you want to know..
He stayed silent for a minute.. And then spoke something...
Armaan : I was drunk that night but u were in full senses.. Still you let it happen.. Can you tell me why.. ?
Stunned by his question she glanced away with a thudding heart.. This was something she had been avoiding from days.. Running away from the truth she didint wish to face.. And something which she didint wish to tell him.. But how was she going to avoid this while being face to face with him..
Shilpa : Armaan plzz..
Armaan : Why was there willingness from your side..
She bites the corner of her lips suddenly feeling uneasy with his question.. She couldnt gather up courage to tell him truth.. Never..
Still.. Shilpa gave a thought on it.. She had been running away from the truth from a long time and she knew this was a moment for her to stop running..
Shilpa : I admit it i did give in that night.. Its just.. I dont know..cant explain to you Armaan..
After a long minute of silence she glanced at him to see him staring at her with a vulnerable look on his face.. She tried to speak when he interrupted with a sudden desperation..
Armaan : I have to tell you something..
Shilpa : What..
Armaan : I tried a lot.. Not even think.. Still..
Shilpa : What are you trying to say..
With the hesitance in his voice and troubled eyes he glanced at her and whispered..
Armaan : I am not able to regret what happened that night..
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And it happened again.. A lone tear escaped from her eyes as he claimed her once again.. This time in full senses and strange willingness between them.. She held him close and whispered softly..
Shilpa : I love you..
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Shilpa hesitantly glanced at Anjali who kept picking several dresses for her..
Shilpa : Anjie..Plzz dont be angry with me..
Anjali : Did i say i am angry...?
Shilpa : But you are so silent.. Since i have told..
Anjali glanced at her interrupting her words..
Anjali : I know i should actually smack your head for agreeing on going out with him..
Shilpa : Soo.. Why did you stop.. ?
Anjali stared at her for a while and smiled..
Anjali : Because after soo many days i have seen peace in you.. I dont think i should ruin it this time..
Shilpa glanced down at her dress..
Shilpa : Anjie.. Its just one dinner.. And Anyways you know right i am going back to mom..
Anjali : So did you tell him you are going away forever.. ?
Shilpa looked away biting her lips..
Shilpa : No.. I just said for a holiday..
Anjali : So make sure you tell him by tonight.. I know Armaan is a jerk but i guess being such a close friend to you he deserves to know that..
Shilpa gave a silent nod taking Anjali's hand..
Shilpa : What would i have done without you Anjie..
Anjali grinned passing down a dress to her..
Anjali : You would be in great loss without me lady.. Anyways wear this tonight...
Shilpa gave a nice look at the dress..It was one of her new dress which she bought recently.. A black sleeveless dress with black lace.. Frowning she put down the dress
Shilpa : I am not wearing this..
Anjali : Ohh Come on Shilpa whats the harm anyways its not like you both are going on first date its just a dinner remember..
Shilpa hesitated a bit staring down at the dress.. Anjali sighed as she noticed the look on her face..
Anjali : Do you even Remember the Happy and free Shilpa..You were never self conscious like this before.. Come on be the old Shilpa again lets see whether he remembers you..
Parking the car infront of her house he set for a while thinking over everything.. He still couldnt reasoned out why he had asked her over dinner.. Was it over the guilt of treating her bad or was it to make up for their broken friendship.. He couldnt decide what he wished and wanted.. But onething in his heart he knew that she was the last person he wished to see walking out of his life..
Getting out of the car he walked towards her house to knock the door when suddenly the door flew open and Shilpa stepped out.. He stared at her for a while surprised seeing the sudden change in her attire.. He remembered the dress but he also remembered she was the who refused to wear it again..Shilpa looked up hesitantly to see him staring at her.. Feeling the blush rise on her cheeks she spoke..
Shilpa : Armaan.. Whats wrong.. ?
Hearing her voice he recovered and looked away feeling embarrassed..Why was this sudden feeling rising within him.. This wasnt the first time he had seen her in the dress...
Armaan : Umm No.. You look great Shona.. I mean Beautiful..
She secretly smiled seeing the embarrassed look on his face.. Trying to cover up the awkward atmosphere she spoke..
Shilpa : So..Shall we go.. ?
She followed him inside the beautiful restaurant looking around with a smile.. As the waiter led them to the corner table Armaan took out a chair for her avoiding to look at her.. Shilpa raised her eyebrow and took a seat..
Shilpa : I really dont need any formality..
And then he smiled making her heartbeat rise for a moment..
Armaan : Its not about formality.. I was just trying to be a gentlemen..
She looked away momentarily as the bitter memories of past month cameback in her head.. He noticed the hurt it her eyes which made him drown in guilt..
Armaan : You still havent forgiven me for that incident..
Shilpa : One incident.. ? How many incidents are there like that.. Still its fine i forgive you..
He didint speak.. Silence stretched among them for a long time.. Shilpa found it too hard to tolerate the rising tension between them.. As the dinner was done she got the chance to escape..
Shilpa : I think i should leave now.. Its late..
Her breath hitched as he held back her hand.. She turned back to him noticing the plead in his eyes..
Armaan : Shona plzz..
Shilpa : We are done with the dinner arent we... ?
He looked back in the hall and got up from his seat offering his hand..
Armaan : One dance with me..
She hesitated staring at his hand for a minute.. Clutching down her dress she wondered what to do..
Armaan : One dance.. I dont want to see you go upset.. Let me make it up for you..
For onething she was glad the dance hall was dim light.. Being close to him it was much easy to avoid the awkwardness between them.. As he pulled her in his arms it surprised her seeing how perfectly they fit together.. She giggled suddenly as a thought ran in her mind..
Armaan : Care to explain the sudden laugh..
Shilpa : I was just wondering.. Dont you think we dance too much these days.. ?
Armaan : Is it a good thing or bad thing..
Shilpa : I.. I dont know..
Again silence stretched for a long time making her feel more uneasy..
Armaan : Shona.. I know i have been very bad towards you.. I am still trying to accept the fact that she have left me..
Its high time to tell him truth.. She knew but still she found it hard to tell him..
Armaan : I will try to make everything normal.. Just go and comeback soo Plz..
She glanced at him seeing the hurt in his eyes.. But She knew Anjali was right.. He deserved to know the truth.. She grasped his shoulders as he pulled her close..
Shilpa : Armaan.. I am not coming back..
She felt him go stiff at once.. Thats what she feared most.. Seeing his heartbreak again.. He moved back and with a stunned look..
Armaan : You dont mean it.. You didint mean it right Shona..
She bit her lips trying to control her tears.. The hurt on his face the shaken voice was breaking her heart..
Shilpa : I am sorry i lied.. Yes i am going back to Mamma.. But i dont intend to comeback..
She tried to reach him when he moved back shaking his head..
Armaan : So u mean.. Even you are leaving me back here.. All alone.. ?
Shilpa shook her head trying to make him understand.. But she herself felt loss of words not knowing what to say.. Suddenly he moved to her pulling her close..
Armaan : Am i that wrong.. Why are you not understanding me.. Cant you feel my pain ?
She hissed in pain feeling pressure of his hold.. Why dont you understand my pain.. Her heart pained..
Shilpa : Armaan its hurts..
The pain in his eyes grew as he left her in the dance floor walking towards the bar area.. Shilpa stood still for a moment seeing his leave.. But as she noticed him taking a drink she walked towards him instanly..
Shilpa : Armaan Plzz dont..
He brushed away her hand passing a bitter smile..
Armaan : Do you even know how much i need you.. Still you are leaving me alone..
She didint like the pain in his eyes.. He drank the whole thing in one go and ordered for onemore..
Shilpa : Dont do this again..
Armaan : No just let me loose all senses.. I cant see you go away if i am in full senses.. I just cant see you leave..
Her eyes welled up as she stood helpless while he drowned himself in alcohol..
Once again in the very same situation she led him into her apartment while he kept murmuring her name in drunken state.. As She closed the door he pushed her away , Shilpa gripped the wall with gasping in surprise..
Armaan : Stay away from me.. I hate you..
Shilpa : Armaan plzz
Armaan : U hate me Shona.. So i also.. hate you..
Shilpa held his arm leading him to the bed..
Shilpa : Thats not true i dont hate you..
He again brushed off her hands staring at her in hurt and anger..
Armaan : Ohh yes u do.. Now you are also leaving me like Sara.. You are just like her..
She noticed him run a hand in his hair in frustration.. Shilpa moved back when he broke the vase on her table..
Shilpa : Armaan just stop it..
She tried to walk away when he pulled her back in his arms.. She tried to struggled but he held her firmly staring down at her with a sudden anger sending chills down her body..
Armaan : Dont you dare work off me..
Shilpa tried to struggle more seeing the sudden change in his behavior..
Shilpa : Armaan you are not in your senses.. Stop talking to me like that..
Something changed in his eyes.. His gaze traveled down on her lips staring down at her in hunger.. She shook her head realizing what was coming.. Her mind started to scream this was wrong..
In next instant his lips came down on hers.. She felt a sudden tremor run down her body with the feeling on her lips on hers.. He kissed her hard and with a sudden passion making her knees go weak.. Her mind was blocked with the touch of lips.. But soon she cameback on her senses as he cupped her face kissing her hard and rough.. She moaned trying her best to push him away.. Finally she succeeded.. She stared at him petrified with his change in behavior.. As he moved a towards her she slapped him hard on his cheek..
Shilpa : How dare you Armaan.. You cant treat me like This.. !!
She stepped back but soon regretted as he took the opportunity and pushed her to the bed overpowering her..
She tried to push him away but he held her firm.. Tears welled in her eyes as she stared at him in hurt and anger..
Shilpa : You are going to regret this Armaan..
She noticed his eyes heavy lidded.. For a instance she prayed him to doze of in sleep.. But her fear rose as tonight it wasnt happening..
He traveled his lips from her face down to her neck.. She lay still crying knowing how wrong this was going..
Shilpa : Armaan plzz dont do this..
Her name escaped from his lips as he moved his hands down on her leg.. She cried in protest brushing away his arms when he pulled back both her arms upto her face level staring down at her..
Armaan : You are not stopping me..
Shilpa : YOU ARE OUT OF UR MIND.. !! Leave me Armaan plzz..
She gasped loud as he ripped away her dress.. She felt scared and her fear rose as suddenly she felt too exposed infornt of him.. She kept trying her best to struggle but he held her tight and strong.. Her eyes got wide as she noticed Armaan pulling out the buttons of his shirt in druken state.. She shook her head protesting when he kissed her hard blocking away all the thoughts from her mind.. For a second she stopped struggling as he kissed her in a more clam and slow manner.. Sending chills down her spine... She didint knew when she started responding back to him kissing him senseless while caressing his hair.. Breaking the kiss he glanced down at her and spoke in a shaken voice..
Armaan : Dont leave me behind here.. Plzz.. Shona..
Lost in him for a moment she couldnt even realize when they were free from clothes dangled in sheets.. She touched his arms to stop him with pleading eyes..
Shilpa : Dont do this Armaan.. You will regret this..
Armaan : Will you.. Regret..
He moved close to her pulling her close.. She gasped feeling him so close for the first time.. Skin to skin she couldnt think straight..
A tear rolled down as he kissed her shoulder moving down..
Shilpa : I think i will regret the loss of friendship..
Pulling the sheets close to her she glanced at him sleeping peacefully.. She got up from the bed feeling a sudden pain rise in her body.. Slowly she walked to the washroom and closed the door silding down to the floor , putting on the shower.. And that night she cried hard realizing what have just happened.. She couldnt believe she let herself loose her senses and sleep with Armaan..
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Precap :
Anjali : You dont have to worry now.. He wont dare to come near you..
Shilpa : What do you mean..
Anjali : I filed a case against him in police station for Raping you.. !
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Part 5 :
Anjali : How are you feeling now.. ?
Shilpa : I am fine.. Dont worry..
Anjali : I did inform aunty..
Shilpa glanced at her worried...
Shilpa : No u didint.. I told you dont tell her at all..
Anjali : Calm down.. I just told her you will stay here for somedays..
Shilpa sighed glancing away feeling uneasy.. Anjali noticed the frustrated look on her face.. Sitting beside her she took her hand..
Anjali : You dont have to worry now.. He wont dare to come near you..
Shilpa : What do you mean..
Anjali : I filed a case against him in police station for Raping you.. !
Fully stunned Shilpa got up from bed..
Shilpa : You really did that.. ?
Anjali : Yes i did.. And i am not backing away in this.. He have to be punished for forcing on you..
Shilpa : Anjie.. You are not understanding..
Anjali : Oh come on i am understanding every single thing.. Damn it was a Rape... !!
Shilpa : NO ITS NOT.. !!
Anjali got up from bed surprised by her words..
Anjali : Dont do this Shilpa.. I cant believe.. You really..
She glanced away as the memories flowed back in her mind..
Armaan leaned back to the wall as a lone tear escaped.. Clenching his fist he tried to remember desperately wishing everything was clear for him.. But everything felt painfully blur.. Small moments clicked in his mind.. Which filled more shame and guilt within him.. He glanced around the Jail cell with sorrow.. This was what he had deserved for hurting the most important person in his life.. Armaan felt disgusted of himself.. Sara's depature was long forgotten.. It was now replaced with the a more worse pain of hearting someone who cared for him.. Always beside him in his bad circumstances..
Armaan : Why did this Happen.. ?What have i become..
She walked inside the police station with Anjali who kept trying to ease of her anger.. As she reached to the main officer she took a seat directing at Anjali to speak.. Anjali glared at her and took a seat..
Anjali : I want to take back my case against Armaan Mallik..
Officer glanced at her in surprise..
Officer : But Mam.. You told me this was a rape case..
Anjali cleared her throat looking away..
Anjali : Well i had been mistaken.. So i would like to take back my complain..
Officer looked at her suspiciously and glanced at Shilpa with a grim face..
Officer : Mam are you sure.. See if you are in any kind of hesitation plzz dont get scared we know well how to deal with such cases..
Shilpa shook her head slowly staring down..
Shilpa : My friend was mistaken.. It was.. Just a mutual decision.. I hope you understand..
Officer gave a nod understandingly..
Officer : Ok if you are sure about this i will let him go now..
Shilpa gave a nod and instantly got up from her seat when Officer interrupted..
Officer : Mam you have to wait for half and hour.. We have some procedures to carry on.. You have to sign in some documents..
Shilpa set back in the chair biting her lips suddenly feeling scared to face him.. Shilpa set lost in her thoughts for a while when Anjali interrupted softly..
Anjali : I have to go now Shilpa.. Urgent work in office..
Shilpa gave a silent nod and looked away when Anjali held her hand..
Anjali : Will you be ok.. ?
Shilpa : Dont worry i will be fine.. As soon as documents are done i will go back home..
Anjali : Yes do that.. And i will call you tonight.. Take care..
As Anjali walked out of the police station Shilpa tried to put off the shaky feeling within her suddenly feeling scared..
Surprised and confused Armaan walked outside to the officer's desk.. But a halt came to his steps as he noticed Shilpa who set there staring down.. He could easily sense the discomfort and uneasiness she was feeling.. It was easily visible on her face.. Hesitating a bit he walked towards the officer who directed him to take a seat.. Shilpa instantly moved back a little as he step beside.. He felt his heartbreak seeing that..
Officer : Complain has been taken back against you now that Ms. Shilpa Malhotra has agreed there has not been any sort of rape..
Armaan stared at him stunned as a sudden shame filled inside him.. Despite of whatever happened last night she was trying to save him...
Armaan : But officer..
Shilpa interrupted him quickly..
Shilpa : Officer can you tell me where to sign... I am in a hurry..
Officer : Mam you can sign here and Mr.Mallik plz sign here beside..
Shilpa signed quickly and stood up when Armaan took the pen to sign.. After signing the documents he glanced at her retreating back while she strode of the station...
Shilpa walked quickly in a hasty pace.. For now the only thing she wished and wanted was to get away from him as soon as possible.. Lock herself in her room and cry out hard to ease her pain.. She kept walking lost in her thoughts when suddenly she felt his voice behind her..
Armaan : Shilpa.. Wait...
Shilpa stood still but didint dare to turn and face him.. Tears welled up in her eyes as she tried to control her fear and hesitation.. She didint wish to face him , she couldnt.. Armaan hesitated for a while and reached towards her making her turn towards him.. His heart pained as he saw tears in her eyes.. The pain in them.. Slowly he touched her cheeks when she brushed it off roughly moving away from him..
Shilpa : Plzzz... Plzz dont touch me..
Armaan : Am so sorry..
He tried to reach her when she moved back shaking her head..
Shilpa : No plzz dont come close.. Its over.. Stay away from me..
His heart ached hearing her words.. But he couldnt blame her for anything.. He was the reason for the disaster..
Armaan : If you dont want.. I want come close to you.. But why did you lie..
Shilpa : I didint lie..
Armaan : I deserved to be in Jail.. I did for you.. It all happened cauxe i forced it on you..
She glanced at him as their eyes locked up for a moment.. He tried to search in her eyes for answers but she kept a blank look on her face..
Shilpa : Watever happened last night.. It happened because i let it happen.. I have equal fault in this..
He couldnt built up much courage to speak.. Frustratedly he ran a hand in his hair.. It was just not easy to swallow that she could give in into the moment willingly.. How could be it possible.. Specially when they havent even shared anything else further than friendship..
Armaan : I know my fault is there in it.. I dont want you to take all blame on yourself when you dont have any fault.. Plzz Shona..
Shilpa turned away confused over her own feelings.. Her heart screamed out loud to tell him the truth..
Shilpa : I.. I should go now..
He interrupted again making it more miserable for her.. When he spoke she felt the hidden desperation and pain in it..
Armaan : Dont you think we can work this out.. ?
She turned back to him with a determined look.. It was hard to act strong infront of him.. Specially after what occurred between them which couldnt be denied..
Shilpa : There is nothing we can do about it now Armaan.. Damage is already done.. I dont think we can work this out..
Biting her lips she kept a straight face trying her best not to cry infront of him.. He stood motionless for a moment , his face full of pain and sorrow.. How she wanted to reach to him , comfort him and ease her own pain.. He glanced back at her and gave a curt nod and walked away from her leaving behind Shilpa with a broken heart..
She turned away and started walking back to her home with tears flowing from her eyes.. With each step she took away from him she felt the barrier between them grow.. Step into a life full of sorrow and pain..
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Precap :
It rained hard.. She tried her best not to get drenched in the rain while leaning to the wall.. She glanced back to road and gasped as she noticed a figure come towards her.. Fully drenched he moved towards her while she gripped the wall avoiding to look at him..
Shilpa : Armaan what are you doing here..
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Part 6 :
She tried her best to concentrate on her work.. One week had passed since the unexpected incident occurred to her.. In a way it had taught her a good lesson.. No more tears to shed and a every emotion buried deep inside her hurt.. Still it pained whenever she had remembered about him.. Whenever those moments came in her mind torturing her day and night.. It made her wonder does he still remember.. She had not seen or heard from him since a week. Shilpa tried not to be bothered about it but many times it made her curious.. These few days have been a torture for her.. It was hard to explain to her mother and she was fed up of making new excuses everyday.. Within all this tension she was glad Anjali was always beside her for her help.. Indeed a true friend who understood her pain..
After finishing her daily work in office she glanced outside the window before walking out.. She could easily guess it was almost going to rain.. Hesitantly she walked out of the office making up mind to reach home soon.. But as she got out it started to rain heavily..
It rained hard.. She tried her best not to get drenched in the rain while leaning to the wall.. She glanced back to road and gasped as she noticed a figure come towards her.. Fully drenched he moved towards her while she gripped the wall avoiding to look at him..
Shilpa : Armaan what are you doing here..
She could feel his scrutinizing gave running over her which made her uneasy and restless.. She glanced back at him to see the worry and pain in his eyes which she saw the last day they met..
Armaan : How are you.. ?
Her heart almost melted hearing the soft and pained voice of him.. With trembling lips she glanced down wondering how to get away from him.. His presence bothered her every single minute.. It reminded her of the memories of that night dangled in sheets in his arms..
Shilpa closed her eyes blocking away the memories from her head.. Not the correct place and correct time to fantasize about him.. Specially not infront of him..
Shilpa : I have to go..
Not caring about the rain she started to walk in a fast pace without glancing back or forward.. Her eyes stick on the ground with the overflowing emotions bursting in her heart.. Suddenly she heard the honk of car making her startled for a second.. Her eyes grew wide as she noticed the car coming towards her in a fast pace.. She almost gave up rooted in the spot when suddenly she felt strong arms pull her back making her loose balance.. She gasped as she fell down but instead of the ground she landed on top of him sending jolts down her body.. Onething she had promised herself after that fateful night was not getting close to Armaan.. She stared down at him as he kept staring at her with a strange look in his eyes which she couldnt guess ..Unknowingly his fingers moved foward tucking back the wet strands covering her face.. She shivered with the contact of his fingers on her skin.. Sharply she brushed off his hands and got out of his grip getting up from the floor..
As she tried to correct her messed clothes she felt him silently get up standing behind her way to close.. Her frustration grew due to his sudden appearance back in her life.. She turned around facing him when he ran a worried eyes on her..
Armaan : Are you fine.. ? You should have been careful before crossing the road..
Shilpa : Armaan plz.. What are you doing here..
He glanced away as his emotions flickered in his face..
Armaan : I.. I wanted to meet you once.. I just wanted to have a talk with you..
Shilpa : Why now.. ? I told you before also Armaan.. Its over now there is nothing we should talk about..
Armaan : There are many things we need to clear out.. I cant live in this guilt anymore..
Shilpa : And i cant risk to have to around me anymore.. I am leaving..
She tried to walk away but he pulled her back in his arms gripping her arms tightly.. She glanced at him in surprise as he stared at her in anger and frustration..
Armaan : Enough is enough Shilpa.. How many times i should run around you begging you for just once to have a talk with me..
Shilpa struggled to get free from his hold.. Only if he knew how much the close proximity effected her..
Shilpa : Did i ever say to come after me begging.. You dont have to Armaan.. You go your way.. I will go on my way..
He shook his head staring down at her determinedly..
Armaan : I am not able to move on.. I CANT.. !! Not until i clear out with you.. Shona cant you see how much i need you..
She felt helpless hearing the desperation in his voice.. But it was too late.. She couldnt change her mind..
Shilpa : Its better you understand it Armaan.. Its much better if we go on separate ways.. There is nothing more to talk about now..
He shook his head still not fully convinced.. This time he wasnt ready to give up easily..
Armaan : I am not giving up until we have a good conversation.. Understand it..
Worried by his words she freed herself from his hold while he kept staring at her blankly.. Pushing away the wet strands from her face she walked away from him with a thudding heart..
Getting out of the wet clothes and wearing dry top and jeans Shilpa walked out of her room with the phone in her hand..
Shilpa : Mom i am doing fine.. Dont worry plz.
Padma : But Shilpa.. You were to comeback here right.. Whats stopping you..
Shilpa : Mom.. I cant leave everything suddenly.. I have to stay here for a while i have big project in my hand..
Padma : So you are going to comeback after that.. ?
Shilpa hesitantly spoke..
Shilpa : Mom.. I dont know.. If i feel like coming soon..
Padma let out a sigh and spoke softly..
Padma : Fine shilpa.. I want force you baby..
Shilpa : Mom am so sorry.. I dont mean to hurt you..
Padma : I am not hurt Shilpa.. I am just worried for you.. You have been a lot strange these days.. i can sense it..
Shilpa : Mom believe me i am fine..
Padma : Ok i believe you.. Fine i will call you later again.. Take care Shilpa i love you..
Shilpa : Love you too mom..
Keeping the phone down she glanced at the window seeing it was still raining heavy... Suddenly her thoughts flew back to Armaan.. She tried not to be bothered by his words but it had effected her a lot.. Her heart kept of begging to let him say what he want but her mind protested with the thought of moving away from Armaan and the past..
Shilpa walked towards Kitchen when suddenly she heard some strange voice near the front door.. She stood still for a minute and curiously walked up to the door and opened it slowly.. Her eyes grew wide as she noticed him standing in the rain with his back towards her.. She gasped loudly as he turned back facing her with a vulnerable smile..
Shilpa : From how long you have been standing there.. ?
He shrugged his shoulders rubbing his neck..
Armaan : I cant guarantee my watch still works.. But i guess it would be an hour..
She glanced at him with troubled look..
Shilpa : Why are you doing this Armaan..
His expression grew tight as he stared at him determinedly..
Armaan : As i said.. I want to talk with you..
She stared at him for a while in hesitation and thinking over the consequences.. Every bit of her mind kept screaming to shut the door on his face.. And instantly she followed her head and shut down the door closing her eyes..
Armaan looked away dissapointed seeing her shut away him so easily.. Giving up he tried to walk off when suddenly he saw the door open, and she stood there with a grim look on her face..
Shilpa : Come in and dry yourself..
As he set on the sofa she passed a towel for him which he took with trembling hands.. But in between he kept sneezing hard which kept stopping him from drying himself.. Armaan cursed under his breath and tried to dry his hair when he felt her take the towel slowly rubbing on his wet hair.. Startled he glanced up at her while she kept her gaze stick on her work..
Armaan : Thank you..
Shilpa : You should go after drying up.. I will make a coffee for you and then you will have to leave..
Armaan : Now that you have let me in i am not going to go without clearing out things..
He noticed her expressions growing tight hearing his stubborn voice..
Shilpa : There is nothing for us to talk about.. Specially nothing about that night..
After a minute of silence he spoke softly..
Armaan : Sara called me today..
She stopped her work and glanced down at him..
Shilpa : Is that why you are here.. ? What you want to do today to cry out your pain or take off your frustration.. ?
Armaan : None.. I just came for you today..
Ignoring his comment she spoke sitting beside him..
Shilpa : What did Sara say..
Armaan : Nothing much.. She just told how happy she is back in her new carrier.. And said to me never call her back..
She sensed the bitterness in his voice as he kept staring down on the floor..
Shilpa : So did you speak to her.. ?
Armaan : Surprisingly No.. I didint call her after break up.. She isint in my concern these days.. Again surprisingly..
She looked at him hesitantly confused over his words..
Shilpa : But you loved her.. And still do..
Armaan : Maybe i do.. Maybe not.. I dont know .. I was running crazy around her when i was with her.. I was hurt when she left me.. But now i dont feel much pain of her leaving.. As i said she is not my concern these days..
She knew she should not even bring on the question.. But the very next minute the words spilled out from her mouth..
Shilpa : Then whats your concern.. ?
He glanced back at her with a strange sensation in his eyes..
Armaan : You.. And What happened between us that night.. Its bothering me from last week.. From that night.. Thats my concern these days..
Shilpa : Armaan.. As i said we shouldnt...
He interrupted her words surprising her with his comment..
Armaan : I want to ask you a question.. Which has been bothering me from a long time..
Shilpa : Armaan i think you should go now..
She tried to get up when he hold her hand gripping it tightly..
Armaan : Not until you answer my question..
She could sense something bad was hidden within his question..A reality which she didint wish to face..
Shilpa : Fine.. What you want to know..
He stayed silent for a minute.. And then spoke something...
Armaan : I was drunk that night but u were in full senses.. Still you let it happen.. Can you tell me why.. ?
Stunned by his question she glanced away with a thudding heart.. This was something she had been avoiding from days.. Running away from the truth she didint wish to face.. And something which she didint wish to tell him.. But how was she going to avoid this while being face to face with him..
Shilpa : Armaan plzz..
Armaan : Why was there willingness from your side..
She bites the corner of her lips suddenly feeling uneasy with his question.. She couldnt gather up courage to tell him truth.. Never..
Still.. Shilpa gave a thought on it.. She had been running away from the truth from a long time and she knew this was a moment for her to stop running..
Shilpa : I admit it i did give in that night.. Its just.. I dont know..cant explain to you Armaan..
After a long minute of silence she glanced at him to see him staring at her with a vulnerable look on his face.. She tried to speak when he interrupted with a sudden desperation..
Armaan : I have to tell you something..
Shilpa : What..
Armaan : I tried a lot.. Not even think.. Still..
Shilpa : What are you trying to say..
With the hesitance in his voice and troubled eyes he glanced at her and whispered..
Armaan : I am not able to regret what happened that night..
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And it happened again.. A lone tear escaped from her eyes as he claimed her once again.. This time in full senses and strange willingness between them.. She held him close and whispered softly..
Shilpa : I love you..
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