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Chapter 109

Ayesha

@-Ms.Muffin-

Part 66 :

She walked inside the small house and closed the door behind her silently.. She ran a hand on her back as she felt them ache in pain.. But she knew if she had to survive in here she would have to work.. No matter how hard it was for her she had to do in order to get some shelter and food.. Sometimes the question ran in her mind .. Am i punishing Myself.. ? Everytime the question flooded in Shilpa's mind she would block it away with a answer... The punishment was nothing infront of the guilt she had.. The guilt was more compared to what she have to go through now.. The guilt of leaving Ariya.. The guilt of leaving Armaan.. The Guilt of loosing her Baby.. And the Biggest Guilt of ... Shilpa shut her eyes as she remembered the bitter truth attached with her.. The truth which stopped her from returning back to him.. Controlling back her feeling Shilpa headed back to her room..

She walked out of the washroom and noticed the takeaway food she got home to eat.. Shilpa hesitated for a second tempted to resist the food.. She looked up in the mirror and noticed the change which has come to her in this 2 years.. She had lost weight become totally shrunk.. Shilpa took a seat in the sofa while taking her food in Hand.. She had to put some strength to be ready for work tomorrow.. Taking a few bites she placed them back on the table feeling a uneasiness within her.. She headed back to the bed and turned off the lights crawling inside the sheets.. Instantly her eyes welled up as the darkness surrounded her with the Lonely feeling.. How many nights she had spent like this crying after she left him.. Every single night she pleaded herself to return back to him.. But could she ever do it... Shilpa hated herself for being the a coward.. Yes a Coward.. She didint have any strength within herself to face him.. Didint it made her a coward lying around in a small room within a darkness.. Tears of guilt and hurt welled up in her eyes which ran through her cheeks.. What was there not to blame.. What about her was not to be blamed.. The insecure feeling she used to possess within her.. Or the bad habit of reaching final conclusions within her mind.. Within this two years she had realized the how her insecurities had destroyed her life.. She had to go away from her love.. Her Ariya.. Rahul and Muskaan, Ananya and Billy.. The people who loved her dearly.. She knew she wouldnt have been able to face them after her miscarriage.. Would they have forgiven her if they got to know.. Shilpa again blocked away the harsh words from her mind.. The Painful truth which made her cry everyday.. Sometimes she wondered how would it have been if she never left them.. She knew Armaan wouldnt have blamed her.. Neither anyone of them would have.. But the look on his face... She knew it would have killed her everytime to see the sadness in those eyes.. And Ariya.. How much she kept waiting eagerly to see the baby.. What could have she answered to her.. Several reasons kept forming in her mind.. But her heart.. Her heart denied everytime.. How she wanted to go back to them.. How she wanted to be in him arms and pour out her pain.. Tell him why she had to left.. What made her left so abruptly.. Shilpa cleared the tears closing her eyes.. She knew it was too late now.. Too late to go back to him.. Her life was here now alone.. And the last thing she wanted to do was go back and ruin his life..

2 days Later :

Rahul walked inside Armaan's room and noticed him lying on the bed.. He shook his head and set beside him...
Rahul : You are too much Armaan.. Were you drunken ?
Armaan kept his eyes closed while he shifted on the bed on a comfortable position..
Armaan : I dont drink.. You know that Rahul..
Rahul : Ohh Really.. Then Why the hell you couldnt drive the car carefully.. Thank god the accident was small... BTW bandage looks cool on your head..
Armaan : Not funny Rahul... I.. I was distracted..
Rahul : ( sighs ) I should have known.. Armaan.. You have to be more careful now.. You just cant..
Armaan : ( Interrupts ) Not again Rahul.. You have given me enough lectures Anyway... I am totally fine now hardly it pains now...
Rahul : Thats better.. Ok i have come to inform you something important.. There is a very important conference in Goa tomorrow.. Which will carry on for a week.. And you have got to attend it..
Armaan : ( Frowns ) Me.. But why do i need to go.. Cant u attend..
Rahul : Armaan.. You are the head of the company and you are needed there.. Otherwise i would have attended.. Anyways i think its high time you return back to ur professional world.. And anyways i have got to take care of office here.. Soo its you who got to attend ..
Armaan thought for a second and looked back at Rahul.. With a sigh he shook his head...
Armaan : Ok.. I will be go to Goa tomorrow.. You just send me all the details regarding the conference and the ticket..
Rahul nods his head and gives him a hug...
Rahul : Sure.. You take care...And do have a safe journey .. Bye Armaan...
Armaan nodded his head while he looked at Rahul leave.. As he left Armaan ran a hand in his hair frustratedly...
Armaan : Now how am i supposed to go and look around for Shilpa...

Ananya walked inside Armaan's room and noticed him packing his clothes.. She walked close to him and took hold of his clothes..
Ananya : Armaan.. let me do the packing...
Armaan : But Mom...
Ananya : ( Interrupts ) NO buts.. Just do as i say.. You sit down i will pack them..
Armaan set on the bed and looked at Ananya... She gave him a smile.. He smiled in return...
Armaan : Mom.. I am sorry for my behavior from last 2 years... I am really sorry..
Ananya stopped her works and looked at Armaan in daze..
Ananya : Armaan.. You.. All of a sudden..
Armaan : Yes i have realized it Mom.. I was really dumb to behave in such a manner.. And i have hurt you all with my rude behavior.. I am sorry for that..
Ananya : ( Hugs him ) Armaan.. You dont have to say Sorry.. I Know what you have been through.. But i am happy that you have realized... Atlast..
Armaan : ( softly ) Mom.. I will bring her back here.. Among Us.. I will do anything and bring her.
Ananya : ( Smiles ) I know.. Ok your clothes are packed i am leaving now.. Do tell me if u need anything Armaan.. Goodnight..
Armaan : ( Smiles ) Goodnight mom..
As she left he turned back and zipped up his suitcase.. Just then he felt a tug on his shirt.. He turned on saw Ariya who kept looking up at him Sadly...
Ariya : Armaan baiyya.. You are leaving me..
Armaan : ( kneels down ) Yes but just for a week Ariya.. I am sorry i have to go.. But its important...
Ariya nod her head silently.. Just then her face lit up with a smile...
Ariya : Armaan baiyya.. You are going back to bring shilpa Di right...
Armaan : ( Stunned ) Ariya... I...
Ariya : ( Hugs him ) I know you will comeback with her..
With that She ran out of the room leaving Behind Armaan in Daze.. He didint know how to react.. Yes it was true he badly wanted to bring her back.. But would she be ready to comeback to him.. To his life..

Kaisi khala yeh
Dil mein basi hai
Ab toh khatayein
Fitrat hi si hai

Main hi woh
Jo rehmat se gira

Aye khuda..
Gir gaya
Gir gaya
Main jo tujhse door hua
Loot gaya
Loot gaya..

Kaisi khala yeh
Dil mein basi hai
Ab toh khatayein
Fitrat hi si hai

Main hi woh
Jo rehmat se gira

Aye khuda..
Gir gaya
Gir gaya
Main jo tujhse door hua
Loot gaya
Loot gaya..

Aye khuda………a…..
Aye khuda………a…..

PRECAP :

Armaan Faces the Biggest Shock in his life..

Will it lead to him getting back all his Lost memory..

And he meets...

Hmm..dil... Sambhal ja zara
Phir mohabbat karne chala hai tu
Dil yahin ruk jaa zara
Phir mohabbat karne chala hai tu

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