Chapter 10

Sorry for the late update because here's the reason:
1)had test this past week...which i got A's on!!!
2) My brother's birthday is tomorrow so i'm planning it
3)Superbowl (American Football and one of the greatest games that comes once in a year) is tomorrow also and also its held in out state
4)Due to Superbowl, there many awesome new things to see, such as the zip line
5) Am to tired, i'm been having really bad back and burning hip pain.
6)I wrote this two times and deleted it. Somehow this chapter was hard, so i finally sticked with this one. Hope you like it.
Anyways i'll shut up now.
AND I AM CURRENTLY WRITING CHAPTER 8 of THIS BECAUSE I MYSELF CAN'T WAIT TO WRITE IT DOWN...JUST LIKE KHUSHI MAKES HER JALEBIS...I WRITE!!! sO IT WILL BE POSTED TODAY OR EARLY MORNING

He stares at her as she cries in his chest. Scared he'll vanish. Scared she'll vanish. Scared that this might be the last time she saw him, so she held on to him. Held on to make him stay there with her for eternity. If he left, she would breathe her last breath. She would die if he left her. Suddenly, she feels his hand on her head caressing her. She removes her head from his chest and looks up at him. His eyes were now heartfelt, his red eyes and dark circles had vanished, and his face was back to his fair skin. He looks keenly at her and he leans into her.

"You love me?" he whispers to her. She shakes her head indicating a no. "You love me?" she shakes her head again. "You love me?" she shakes her head again. "I asked you three times and you looked away from, so you love me." Khushi looks up at him and sees warmth in his eyes, begging her to say yes.

Khushi looks away from him while red-faced; her passion for him couldn't hide this time. But she suddenly remembers, she can't do this. What would people think? Yes, she knew she didn't care about the society, but it would create more rumors. She suffered a lot and didn't want to get more attention. She takes a deep breath, "Yes, I loved you." She says as she steps back and turns around to go down. However, he grabs her hand and twists it, "Arrr-naav..." she winces as he twists it more and leans against her.

"What are you so scared of Khushi? How long are you going to take? You love me and we both know it." He says icily to her. Khushi winces more, trying to release herself but he grips her harder. "I tried...TRIED to forget you, but ...I can't. You drive me crazy Khushi Kumari Gupta, crazy!... I LOVE YOU GOD DAMMIT...why are you making me suffer more! I suffered enough for four years...please...please don't make me suffer more. These sixths months...were like prison for me. Prison Khushi, prison. Not seeing your face when I know you're here was like stabbing myself to death. Why are you killing me every day?" He says as he lets go of her wrist. Releases her to go.

However, Khushi turns around astonished. "Arrnaav." She says to him, but he looks away.

He turns around with a change of face, "Khushi, don't talk to me until you tell me you want me. I don't want to hear your two-faced sentimental. One second you tell me you don't want me and the next you act like you want me. ...DECIDE KHUSHI...for God's sakes decide. This life comes once...do you want to be with me or no? For Fu***in sake's DECIDE!" he yells at her while he snatches his phone from her and walks away.

Khushi stands there shaken. Decide? What was decide? Decide was a painful word. How were you supposed to decide? When one second your heart said go for him and the next said don't. How were you supposed to decide when you love him and hate him at him at the same time? How were you supposed to decide when somebody broke your trust and wanted you back? How were you supposed to decide, when your brain shut itself off? How were you supposed to decide, when your heart was switching itself, making you undecided? How were you supposed to decide?

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Two days Later.

Today was Raj's and Avinash's wedding and Khushi was in her room getting ready. These two days she was busy with the wedding work and busy with thoughts of him. She was wearing a metallic eggplant saree http://www.pieway.com/wp-content/uploads/2010/10/Beautiful-Saree-For-Girls.jpg and did her hair in a simple yet pretty braided bun http://www.bellasugar.com/Jessica-Alba-Oscars-hair-makeup-1069588 . She stares at her dark hands. They made her happy yet sad. Love for eternity doesn't come easily; there are always some obstacles in the way. And she was scared that this was just the starting. This world wouldn't give her love so easily, but difficulty because that was how the world played with her.

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Khushi walks down the stairs and feels an intense gaze upon her as she takes each step down the stairs. She slowly raises her gaze and follows the ray that is burning her. And it was him. He stood there looking at her and taking each step forward. She did the same and stared at him as she descended down the stairs. She stared him at how handsome he looked. He's wearing a dark olive kurta with black shalwar http://www.bargello.com/Style+K210-348-Kurta+Suits-323-4630.htm . When he reached her, he stepped to the right and went outside. She stood there saddened at how he walked away, when she definitely knew he was coming toward her.

"Oye! Hurry up, it's time for the sehra!" Muskaan walks up to her from nowhere. Khushi looks at Muskaan, who was wearing a yellow saree http://www.pieway.com/wp-content/uploads/2010/10/Cute-Yellow-Saree-Design.jpg , wondering where she came from. Khushi shakes her head slightly and sees that there were people crowded in the family room. So that's why he walked away, while here I thought it was just the two of us. Khushi says to herself and follows Muskaan.

As they fixate the sehra on Raj's turban, Khushi looks around wondering where he was. But why did she care? "OW!" she yelps as she looks down and sees that she pinned herself. Muskaan shakes her head as Raj looks up.

"Go bandage yourself Khushi!" Raj commands as he sees the small dotted blood. Khushi nods and runs to her small storage room. She opens all the cabinets and finds no bandage.

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"Where are they? When you need them, they don't show up and when you don't they're scattered all over the place. ...Never mind I'll just wash my finger." She says as she turns around and bumps into somebody. She looks up and sees Arnav. He gives her half concern and icy look, and takes her finger. He takes his black scarf and starts rubbing on the blood to stop the blood circulation and puts her finger above her head.

"You may be a doctor, but you forget some common treatments. " he says to her as she starts getting little bit dizzy, "Don't worry that's the small side effect. You won't go to coma." Khushi stares at him, wondering why he's taking so calmly to her. He lowers her finger and rubs it softly, making her send shivers throughout her body, "See, no more blood." And walks away.

Khushi stands there confused, wondering if he was actually here or not. She shakes her head and walks out the storage room and makes her way outside, where everybody was now getting into their cars. She runs to her parents. Her dad looks at her, "What took you so long?"

Khushi sits there beaming as her brother and her now babhi in a few seconds take their saat phere, however inside she's replaying her conversation with Arnav from the Sangeet. He wouldn't talk to her until she told him that she wanted him. Why did he always have to do this? Always drop her in tough decision. Couldn't he tell she was utterly confused? Couldn't he tell she wanted him and didn't want him? Couldn't he tell she was scared about what people will say if they start a relationship again? She wanted to run away now, fly away, and swim away. Yet, she couldn't. She knew him to well. She knew if she didn't say something, then he'll do something. Something insane.

She gets up from the small stage and walks outside to get some food. As she walks to buffet stand she hears laughter.

"Arnav, man who are you going to nail down today. Today, you have to man, it's a wedding! There's plenty of hot chicks around here." Akshay says, one of his friends. As others guys hoot.

"Oh, we'll see." Arnav says. Khushi turns around fastly and stares at him. She sees everybody laughing, but she sees Arnav staring at her. She glares at him subconsciously and turns around and walks to the stands with anger.

"I knew it. I wasn't being double-minded. He couldn't live a day without having *** could he. ...Nobody in this world could wait could they?" Khushi mutters to herself as she puts tons of food on her plate and stops in her tracks, "Of Course, Khushi! Who would want to be with me, Khushi Kumari Gupta?"

"I do." Says a stern voice behind her. Khushi doesn't turn around since she knows whose voice it is. "I want to be with Dr. Khushi Kumari Gupta. And she knows it too. "He says to her as he leans into her ear.

Khushi looks straight ahead, while turning her eyes to her left and whispering, "Then what was that?" Ignoring that she was showing jealousy.

"I said "I'll see" not that I want something, Khushi." He says to her as he takes some her nav ratan from her plate, "and Congratulations on Raj and Avinash's wedding. I just hope I don't have to say Congratulation on your wedding. "Khushi turns around and stares at him.

She subconsciously speaks before thinking, "Why would I marry someone that isn't you, I love you and not-." She says and quickly covers her mouth with one hand and walks away fast. She runs slightly knowing he'll talk to her if she sat at a nearby table. Luckily, she knew this area and knew there was a forest area nearby. She quickly hides herself behind a tree, but hears footsteps behind. She widens her eyes, scared for a second of whom could it be. She looks up as sees a black Punjabi jutti and finds Arnav staring at her.

"What did you say?" Arnav says as he bends down. Khushi shakes her head, "Khushi, we both know what you said. Khushi, what DID YOU SAY?" he says as he grabs her shoulders. She lowers her gaze, cussing herself for speaking out loud.

"Nnnooottthinggg" she stutters, but he shakes her again.

"Khushi, why are so fu***ing scared, you love me and you know it." He says as he gets up. "Why can't you just say it? I hope you don't say it when you see my dead body." He says as he runs his hands through his hair.

Khushi gets up quickly and pushes him to the tree, "Don't you ever, ever say that!" she yells at him as she slightly slaps his face. "Don't you ever talk about yourself dying!...did you take your pills today?!" she roars with anger. Somehow, Khushi couldn't control herself when he said such things. He may talk such tough things, but to her he always says such things.

"Do you love me?" he yells at her.

"I hate you." She punches him in the chest.

"You love me?" he asks her again while grabbing her hand.

"I hate you." She punches him again.

"You do love me and I know it." He says as he grabs her waist and pulls her next to his chest.

"I hate you, hate you, hate you because I love you." She says as she keeps hitting his chest and suddenly stops. She stops and realizes she just told him what was going on in her head. She feels him grip her tighter. She raises her eyes slightly and seems him with passion in his eyes.

"I love you too." He whispers to her and kisses her shoulder. Khushi turns red and looks away while putting her head on his shoulder. He turns her chin to face him, she slowly looks up into his admiring eyes. "I'm lucky to have someone treasurable as you." Khushi smiles slightly, smiling slightly as how she had missed his passionate words for her like he used to do before.

"Wwweee ssshoooulldd gggoo." She says quietly, but he grips her tighter.

"Don't you want to spend some time with the one you'll be spending your life with." He says to her. Khushi looks away from him from shyness.

"Fffirrssst yyou would have to asskk my hand." She smiles at him as she traces his face with her finger. She looks at him and sees him smiling while staring at from the corner of his eyes.

Khushi stood on the second floor by herself as she smiled to herself. She was smiling at how he was her now and he promised her before leaving he wouldn't leave her alone. She standing on the second floor as everybody was now dancing. She was wearing a red anarkli suit http://www.bargello.com/Upsdell+Red+Dagny-343-Anarkali-107-5397.htm .

"You know, it's not right to stare at people from far away." Says a voice behind her. She turns around quickly, knowing it was Arnav. He smiles and walks up to her and kisses her forehead.

She looks at him and says, "And it's not right to stare at someones bedroom outside every day." She sees Arnav cuss to himself and look up at her.

"So you knew." He says to her. Khushi knew that Arnav was watching her everyday these past six months. She felt him and every day at midnight. He turns and smiles at her, "You look beautiful." Khushi smiles and looks away blushingly, but he turns her chin toward her. "But you'll look more beautiful like this." He says to her as he puts her dupatta on her head. Khushi slowly looks up and sees him admiring her intensely.

"Khushi?" he whispers to her as he steps forward.

"hmm?" Khushi says.

After a while, Khushi dances with Muskaan as they circle around Avinash. They laugh and dance. Suddenly, Khushi stops. Her body starts shaking and goes cold. Her heart and head scream Arnav's name. She looks up at Muskaan who carries the same look and says, "Rahul." They both grab their lehengas and run out of the hall where there other hearts were. Khushi opens the hotel door with full strength and shrieks at the sight in front of her.

Jigar is yelling at Aarmaan, while looking completely wasted while he's pointing a gun at Raj. All the guys turn and look at her. Raj's eyes go widen. While some of Jigars friends are punching Rahul and Arnav is pointing his gun at them. Arnav looks at her and yells, "Khushi Kumari Gupta and Muskaan get inside now! Get fu***ing inside!" Khushi shakes her head and steps forward, Muskaan grabs her hand but she lets go of her grasp.

"Khushi, get inside." Raj yells at her. However, Khushi doesn't. Anger rises inside at her as she sees Jigar pointing a gun at her brother. She runs to him, but Arnav grabs her waist. Jigar laughs at her mutters some lines to which he keeps repeating at.

"Awww, what a brother-sister love we got here. Well, we're sorry yo slu**y bi***h but your brother ain't going to live any longer. He f***in had tthhis ppaarrty. " He says as stumbles back and points the gun from her to Raj once again. Khushi screams and let's go of Arnav hand and slaps him and runs to Jigar just he pulls the trigger. She jumps in front of her brother just as she feels something like a bomb explode inside her. She gasps loudly.