Chapter 31

Numera

@Numera*

Chapter 30

      Angad sits at the bar and has a beer, trying to drown his sorrows yet again. Kavya, Anjali, Neev and Prachi make their way down stairs to join Angad, who is indulging in alcohol. They pry him away from the liquor and Prachi orders him lemonade instead. Angad then gets forced to drink it by Anjali. He basically gets double teamed by Anjali and Prachi, poor guy. Angad notices the happy glow on their faces and can't help but feel a little depressed inside. He is happy for them, but staying near them reminds him that he isn't able to get his own love, Kripa.  Just then the stunning beauty makes her entrance, the one who has broken his heart, none other than Kripa Sharma looking like a vision. Angad doesn't look at her much, which took a lot of self control on his part and focuses on anything, but her, his shoes even.

Now Kripa, Prachi, and Kavya have to entertain their guests who have come to attend their birthday party. People periodically come to wish the three on their birthday. Kripa, however, is the least bit interested in all of that. She just keeps staring at Angad hoping he will look at her eventually, but he doesn't. Angad begins to feel her stare and only glances at her when he knows for a fact she isn't looking towards him. His anger rises as he sees a smile plastered on her face. He can't bear to see her happy without him, knowing he is mad at her, yet still looking happy. He just has no idea how much pain she is feeling as well as while she plasters the fake smiles on her face.

Kavya, Kripa, and Prachi all cut their cake. While Kripa cuts, both Angad and Kripa get reminded about yesterday. They both remember how Angad stood so closely behind her and cut it holding her hand, then finally feeding each other. They both feel so depressed. Yet, Kripa tries her best to look as happy as possible, which Angad seems to fall for. Dilip, Naina, Gayatri, and Surya seem to notice that Angad is standing off at a distance from the rest of the gang and pull him closer to the group.

Now as a ritual, Angad has always sung a song for Kripa ever since she had requested for the first time on her 10^th birthday. But today his heart just isn't in it. He always sang straight from his heart, meaning every word, but today, he doesn't want to show his feelings at the moment. No one accepts his attempts to refuse as an excuse and all force him to since a song like he always does for Kripa. Kripa feels hurt, by Angad's refusal, but then again how can she expect him to sing for her, when she has given him so much misery. Even the gang starts to force him to sing and before he knows it, he finds himself on stage. Accepting defeat, he side glances at Kripa expressing the pain she gave him. That one looks tells Kripa how hurt he is, but he won't stop there, the guilt would only just begin for Kripa with that look and continue to grow with the song. It was the first time their eyes met all night and Kripa just fell deeper into her hole. Angad sits down at the piano on center stage and pulls the microphone closer to him as he plays to the song Beete Lamhein from The Train. (Click on the name of the song to play it! Its underlined in blue!)

Angad begins to play the piano while he slowly sings with his eyes lightly
closed, taking in all the pain, wanting to express it through the song itself.
Dard mein bhi yeh lab muskura jaate hai
Beete lambhein humein jab bhi yaad aate hai
Dard mein bhi yeh lab muskura jaate hai
Beete lambhein humein jab bhi yaad aate hai
Beete lambheinnnnn
Kripa looks at Angad speechless. This is a song Kripa has been crazy
about for a while. The song is so soulful, so heartfelt. But she feels
heartbroken he would choose to sing this particular song, considering
the circumstances. Her heart aches as she listens to his magnificent voice
full of pain. She feels overcome by sadness with every word he sings.
Though his voice is touching, only she knows the song's hidden meaning,
the devastating truth behind the lyrics.
Chand lambhaat ke vaaste hi sahi
Mushkura kar mili thi mujhe zindagi
Chand lambhaat ke vaaste hi sahi
Mushkura kar mili thi mujhe zindagi
Kripa turns around trying to suppress her tears, not being able to watch
him any longer. She wipes the lone tear before anyone can see or more
decide to flow. Just hearing the depth and sadness in his voice is
enough to distress Kripa.
Teri aagosh din the mere kate
Teri baaahon mein thi mere raatien kati
OoOOooOOO OO
Angad has his eyes closed like he sings straight from his heart, he always
did. He plays so beautifully on the piano, but she feels hurt to hear these
words from him.
Aaj bhi jab woh pal mujhko yaad aate hain
Dil se saare gumo ko bhoola jate hai
Dard mein bhi yeh lab muskura jaate hai
Beete lambhein humein jab bhi yaad aate hai
Dard mein bhi yeh lab muskura jaate hai
Beete lambhein humein jab bhi yaad aate hai
Beete lambheinnnnn
Angad remembers certain moments he spent with her. Their first
passionate kiss, the beach, their second kiss, their little arguments, their
huge fight, last nights rejection, his own words, "I regret everything".
Kripa closes eyes as images flash in front of her, her childhood, the late
nights, the hugs, the kisses, the affection, their play fights, their pranks,
their everything.
Mere kandhein mein sar ko jukana tera
Mere sene mein khud ko chupana teraa
Mere kandhein mein sar ko jukana tera
Mere sene mein khud ko chupana teraa
Kripa remembers the times that she would sleep on his shoulder and the
night Kripa was cuddling him, she always feels so safe in his embrace.
More tears begin to form in her eyes, she is afraid she lost him already,
maybe even forever.
Aake mere panaho mein shaam-o-seher
Kanch ki trah woh tut jana tera
OoOOooOOO OO
She remembers how they spent every waking moment together since
they were kids. Whenever Kripa is sad or depressed she would come to
him to seek comfort, but now where would she go. Kripa wants so badly
to just run into his arms and break down.
Aaj bhi jab woh manzar nazar aate hai
Dil ki viraniyon ko mita jate hai
Kripa stares as he sings sadly trying to show he is happy, but he is an
open book to Kripa. All she wants to do is go wipe his silent tears,
forever.
Dard mein bhi yeh lab muskura jaate hai
Beet lambhein humein jab bhi yaad aate hai
Dard mein bhi yeh lab muskura jaate hai
Beet lambhein humein jab bhi yaad aate hai
She remembers the necklace around her neck and clutches it as if trying
to calm her own self and suppress the lump forming within her throat.
Angad just wants to tell Kripa through the song that this face is only for
show. But only she would know she has killed his will to live, killing his
hopes, his dreams, and his desires, with her one rejection. Telling her of
the pain he feels within, wishing it would disappear.
Beete lambheinnnnn
Dard Mein .....Beete lambheinnnnn
At the end of song, Angad slowly opens his eyes only to see her beautiful
face with eyes full of tears. Kripa reflects what he feels within. They stare
at each other, with pain in both their eyes. As the song ends, everyone
applauds and Angad and Kripa unwillingly move their eyes away from
each other.

Angad and Kripa both know that this song is straight from his heart, all the words are true. He chose it carefully when he agreed to sing. He wants Kripa to feel the pain she gave him, because he knows that Angad Khanna is her weakness, and seeing him suffer would make her suffer as well. Kripa watches as everyone crowds around Angad admiring his heartfelt performance. Angad takes a bow eying Kripa, knowing he has an impact on her. As the audience continues to clap for Angad, Kripa stands frozen in the same spot, in her own thoughts, listening to her inner voice for once. She continues to stare at Angad as all their precious moments flash before her eyes. Then she sees Angad walking away from the crowd, from her. Suddenly she felt like her life is slowly slipping away from her. She feels almost hallow, almost weak.

 
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that was the next part! umm i will try to post tomorrow but if not then sunday! sorry i got a massive sleepover tomorrow and really wont have time, i'll c what i can do! but i cant promise anything! anyways if i c barely any comments you can totally forget it lol! umm yea so LEAVE COMMENTS!!