Chapter 33

It was now 7.30 in the morning and Sujal had still been awake...It had been the most difficult night for him in his entire life...He looked back at the clock and slowly got up out of bed...He went to his closet and took his clothes into the washroom...As he opened the shower,Kashish woke up at the sound of the water....She sat up on bed and looked at the washroom door...She was feeling guilty about what happened the previous night...She thought she shouldn't have behaved like that with Sujal as he wasn't at fault....After some time he came out of the washroom fastening his shirt buttons...He looked at her and then continued to fasten the buttons...She gets up from the bed and went to his closet and gets a tie for him and goes to him..........she tries to put the tie on him but he takes a tie from her hands and try to fasten while looking in the mirror........

Kashish: I am sorry.......

He just looks at her and then continues to do his tie in the mirror without saying anything

Kashish: Sujal....I am really sorry.......kal raat ke liye.......Ple ek baar meri aur dekho to sahi.......

He was still looking in the mirror...

Sujal: Sorry ki zaroorat nahin...muje tumse koi shikayat nahin...

Kashish: Sujal.....muje wake hi meri galti ka pastava ho raha hai.....maine kal raat kuch jyada hi........Sujal main tumhe apne aapse naraz nahi dekh sakti..........Ple Sujal muje maff kar do.......Ple Sujal........

Sujal: Kashish maine tumse kaha na ki main tumse naraaz nahin...aur tumne aisa kuch nahin kiya jiske liye tumhe maafi maangni pade...Its ok

Kashish just makes him look at her and than without saying anything she went into his arms and tears start to roll down her cheeks...........He closed his eyes for a moment and then gently wrapped his arms around her whilst running his fingers in her hair...

Sujal: Kashish...Dekho tum please rona band karo...maine kaha na main tumse naraaz nahin....I'm sorry...muje aise behave nahin karna chahiye tha...but please don't cry...tum jaanti ho na tumhare aanshu se muje kitni takleef hoti hai..

Kashish: main nahi roungi kabhi lekin ple tum mujse kabhi naraz mat rehna............

Sujal: Kashish kya koi kabhi apni zindagi se naraz reh sakta hai?...main tumse kabhi naraz nahin honga...I promise...

Kashish: I love You Sujal..........

Sujal: I love you too Kashish...

He gently kisses her forehead...And they were still holding onto each other..

Sujal: Kashish...

Kashish: hmm.......

Sujal: Kya mein tumse ek sawaal pooch sakta hoon?

Kashish: tumhe kabse izzat ki zaroorat padne lagi........pucho.......

Sujal: Kal jo aadmi yahan tumse milne aaya tha...Woh kaun tha?

Kashish: Sujal woh....woh ....Nandinibhabhi ke liye aaya tha.........main nahi janti use..........

He seperates her from him and looks at her...She was looking away trying not to meet his eyes

Sujal: Kashish yahin baat tum mujse nazre milake bhi keh sakti thi...

Kashish: Sujal.......main kuch samji nahi.........

Sujal: Kashish main jaanta hoon ki tum mujse jhooth bol rahi ho...main tumhara chehra dekh ke hi samaj gaya...par fikar mat karo,muje tumpe pura bharosa hai...Yeh mat sochna main tumpe shaq kar raha hoon...main jaanta hoon ki meri Kashish kabhi galat ho hi nahin sakti....

Kashish: sirf ek baat yaad rakhna main tumse pyaar karti hoon sirf tumse........aur mere liye sabse zaroori hai ki tum mujpe mere pyaar pe yakeen karo........aur kuch nahi chahiye muje........

Sujal: Kya main nahin jaanta ki tum mujse kitna pyar karti ho?..tumpe shaq karna mere liye khud pe shaq karne ke barabar hai...Yeh vishwaas kabhi nahin tootega...Yeh mera vaada hai

Kashish: achcha tum chalo......kal raat main tumhara dressing karna hi bhul gayi.............tum betho main first aid leke aati hoon........

Sujal: thik hai...

He goes and sits down on the bed............she comes with a box in her hand and puts it on the bed and opens his bandages slowly......... She looked at his wound and touched it lovingly...Then she applied some cream on it and started to fasten his bandages...All the time she was feeling more and more guilty because she couldn't tell him anything....She finishes doing his bandages when he holds her hand and kisses it...

Sujal: Thanks Jaan...Tumhare chunay se hi mera zakhm bhar gaya...

Kashish: main tumhare zakham ko nahi bhar payi to mere hone ka kya matlab.........

Sujal: Itna pyar karti ho mujse?

Kashish: pata nahi kitna karti hoon......lekin itna janti hoon ki tumhare bina ek pal bhi nahi reh sakti........

Sujal: aur mera vaada hai ki tumhare har pal main tumhara Sujal tumhare saath hoga kyunki main bhi tumse bepanah pyar karta hoon...

Kashish: dekhona main bhi kaisi baatein leke beth gayi........ab tum neeche chalo main tumhara breakfast bana deti hoon............

Sujal: Nahin Kashish muje dair horahi hai...Par i promise main wahan kuch kha lunga...Tum mujse vaada karo ki tum breakfast karogi...Pichli baar ki tarah tum nahin karogi...

Kashish: thik hai main kar lungi.......lekin tum waqt pe kha lena..........aur apna khayal rakhna aur

Sujal: Aur?

Kashish: aur shaam ko jaldi aana main intzaar karungi.........

He smiles...

Sujal: thik hai main jaldi aa jaunga promise...ab tum apna khayal rakhna ...I love you...Bye

Kashish: I love you too........bye.......

He kisses her forehead and then picks up his bag and leaves...

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It was now 4pm and Kashish was sat in the hall painting when the doorbell rings...Maria goes to open the door...It was Abhay stood there...

Maria: Aap kaun?...Aur kis se milna hai aapko?

Abhay doesn't say anything and walks straight in...Kashish saw him and stood up in shock...He walked towards her in anger and held her arm tightly...her paintbrush just fell on the ground.........

Abhay: tum phirse nahin ayi..Jaanti ho main pichle do ghante se tumhara intzaar kar raha hoon!..Maine tumse kaha tha na ki main tumhara intezar karunga!..

Kashish: aap muje akela chod kyun nahi dete.....maine aapse kaha na ki main aapko nahi mil sakti..........

He tightens his hold on her...

Abhay: aur maine bhi tumse kaha ki tumhe mujse milna hoga...

When Maria comes and tries to help...But he doesn't back off

Abhay: ek baat kaan khol kar sun lo...agar tum kal na aayi to main tumhare pati ko jaa ke keh dunga ki hamare beech kaun sa rishta hai..kal thik 10 baje coffee shop.......samji tum......

He lets go of her and leaves from there...Kashish just falls on the ground and starts to cry...Maria comes and supports her...

Maria: Mam yeh sab kya tha?...aur kaun tha yeh?

Kashish: main nahi janti ise........mera iske saath koi rishta nahi.........

Maria: Mam please aap mujse kuch mat chupaiye...Shayad main aapki madad kar sakun...........

Kashish tells her everything from beginning to the last night..........

Maria: Kya!...Itna sab kuch hogaya aur aapne kissi ko bataya nahin...yaha tak sir ko bhi nahin pata...Mam aapko unse kuch nahin chupana chahiye..

Kashish: main janti hoon.......lekin main kis tarah Sujal se kahoon........

Maria: Mam aapko Sir pe yakeen haina?...To kuch mat sochiye...Unhe bata dijiye isse pehle ke unka bharosa toot jaye

Kashish: nahi main kabhi Sujal ka bharosha tutne nahi de sakti....bahot pyaar karti hoon aur use khona nahi chahti...........lekin muje bahot darr lag raha hai ki kahi......

Maria: Ki kahin woh aapko galat na samaj len...Yahin kehna chahti haina aap?...lekin Mam aapko bhi pata hai aur muje bhi ke Sir aapse kitna pyar karte hain...Woh aapko kabhi galat samaj hi nahin sakte...

Kashish: aaj kuch bhi ho jaye main ab Sujal se chupa nahi sakti.......kyunki kahi na kahi muje lag raha hai ki main bina kasoor Sujal ko saza de rahi hoon......

Maria: Mam aapne bilkul sahi socha hai...Muje poora yakeen hai ki Sir aapki madat karenge....Ab chaliye uthiye...

Maria helps her get up and takes her to her room...

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It was now 7pm and Kashish was sat in the hall when the doorbell rang...She went and opened the door...It was Sujal...On seeing Kashish he smiled...

Sujal: Hi Jaan...

Kashish: Hi Sujal.........

Sujal: Tum jaanti ho...main jab bhi office se aata hoon to kaafi thak jaata hoon...Par pata nahin tumhare chehre me aisa kya jadoo hai ki tumhe dekhte hi thakaan door hojati hai

Kashish: kyunki main tumhari jaan hoon.........

He smiles..

Sujal: Haan yeh baat to sach hai ki tum meri jaan ho...Aur apni jaan to har kisi ko pyari hoti hai

Kashish: ab andar bhi chalo........

Sujal: Oh haan..

He walks in behind her and sits on the sofa putting his bag and coat down...He starts to loosen his tie

Kashish: tum jake fresh ho jao kyunki hum bahar ja rahe hai..........

Sujal: Bahar?..Kya matlab...main kuch samja nahin

Kashish: Sujal......tum muje dinner pe kahi bahar leke ja rahe ho.........aur main iske aage kuch nahi sunna chahti........

He just smiles..

Sujal: As you wish sweetheart...main bas abhi taiyaar hoke aaya

She sat down reading her magazine when after 15 mins he came down..........

Sujal: Chalen jaan?..

Kashish: haa..........

they both leave for the car...He opens the passenger side door for her and then goes and sits in the drivers seat..He drives off...

Sujal: Hmmm to kahan jaana chahengi aap?

Kashish: koi aisi jagah jo seher se durr ho..........jaha pe koi shor na ho......jaha sab kuch aam ho........

Sujal: Ok...to aaj aapko ek khaas jagah leke jaate hain....

He continues to drive whilst she was lost in her own thoughts and looking outside

Kashish: Sujal.......ab aur kitni dair lagegi,,,,,

Sujal: Bas 10 minute..Kyun bhook laggi hai kya?

Kashish: nahi bas aise hi.......

Sujal: Abhi pohanchne hi waale hain....

After 10 minutes they reach a dhaba on the high way...She starts to look around at the place and manages a smile...He gets out and opens the door for her..

Kashish: Sujal........yeh

Sujal: Tum kissi aisi jagah aana chahti thi na jo seher se door ho aur jo bohat aam ho...to isse behtar aur koi jagah nahin....Actually main Angad ke saath ek do baar aya hoon yahan jab hum seher se bahar meetings pe gaye the to maine socha aaj tumhe le aaun...to kaisi laggi yeh jagah?

Kashish: tumhari pasand hai kaisi ho sakti hai.........

Sujal: Hmmmm meri pasand to kabhi galat ho hi nahin sakti...Tum bhi to meri pasand ho na,.

Kashish: woh to hai........Sujal muje bhukh lagi hai........

Sujal: Oh haan....Chalo...

They both go and take a seat and then Sujal orders her favourite food and both wait for the food to come........Kashish was still lost watching cars passing by......Sujal was just looking at her...He knew something was bothering her but didn't want to mention it...

Sujal: Kashish...Main kuch soch raha tha...

Kashish: hmm.......kya soch rahe the.............

Sujal: Yahin ki...Batadun?

Kashish: haa..batao na .....

Sujal: Yahin ke tumhe apni PA banalun...Woh kya haina muje ye 9 se 7 ki doorie bardasht nahin hoti...Personal Assistant hone ka yeh faida hai ke tum mere personal kaamon mein mujhe assist karsakti ho...Tumhe nahin lagta?

Kashish: biilkul nahi lagta........kam se kam muje ghar pe 9 se 7 ke beech shanti to milti hai......tum apne liye ek nayi PA dhundh lo..........

Sujal: Kya!.........Shanti milti hai...to kya main tumhe tang karta hoon?....to thik hai main kal hi nayi PA dhundne waala hoon aur job description main yeh bhi hoga ke woh hot aur sexy honi chahiye...Haaye main to abhi se hi soch raha hoon...Kitna mazza ayega..

Kashish: wake me bahot hi achcha idea hai......tum na college girl ko job dena............aur description me yeh bhi likhna ki chote chote kapde pehnna bahot zaroori hai .........

Sujal: Kya baat hai Kashish.............tumne to meri aur bhi madad kardi...ek aur baat,tab tumhe 9 se 9 ke beech shanti milne waali hai kyunki main shayad ghar nahin aunga...........u know dinner........

Kashish: koi baat nahi main kal hi tumhara saaman office shift karva deti hoon......tum 24 ghante waha apni PA ke saath reh sakte ho muje koi fark nahi padta...........

Sujal: Oh to aisi baat hai....thik hai,agar tumhe koi fark nahin parta to aisa hi hone waala hai kal se.

Kashish: kal se kyun....aaj se tum ja sakte ho.......

Sujal: Aaahh...Nahin kal thik hai....aur....haa aur abhi PA thodi na aayi hai....

Kashish: to abhi chal ke dhundh lete hai...kisi bar ya club me mil jayegi.........

Sujal: Uski koi zaroorat nahin kyunki jisse muje milna tha woh muje mil chuki hai aur ab muje kissi aur ki zaroorat nahin

Kashish: to main bhi kaha dhundhne ja rahi thi..........muje pata hai ki tum kabhi aisa kuch nahi karoge.......

Sujal: Itna bharosa hai mujpe?

Kashish: aankh bandh karke jaha le chaloge chalungi tumhara haath tham ke........tumhare muh se nikli her baat ko sach mana hai maine........

Sujal: main tumse vaada karta hoon Kashish...main kabhi tumhare is bharose ko tutne nahin dunga kyunki main tumse bohat pyaar karta hoon

Kashish: aur mere liye mera pyaar tum ho....tumhara saath aur vishwas hai.........

Sujal: I love you Kashish

Kashish: I love You too

Sujal: I love you more than any body in this world Kashish..

Kashish was looking at him when the food comes......

Sujal: Lo...Khaana agaya...

They both begin to eat the food...After some time they set off from there..

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It was now 11pm when they reach home...Sujal went upto the room whilst Kashish went to work something in the kitchen...After 20 minutes she came upstairs and saw him working on his files...She went near her closet to get her clothes when her eyes fall on their wedding photo...She looked at the picture and then lifted her eyes to look at him...All of a sudden she just broke down and started to cry bitterly...When Sujal quickly got up and came to her...He bent down on and held her from her shoulders and helped her up...He made her sit on the bed and held her face in his palms...

Sujal: Kashish!..Tum is tarah achanak!...Kya baat hai?

Kashish didnt say anything and just hugges him while crying...........

Kashish: Sujal...woh.....

He held her tightly in his arms giving her the support she needed

Sujal: Kashish please muje batao kya hua...Dekho main tumhe aise nahin dekh sakta...Batao kya hua tumhe?

she seperates herself from him and looks down not able to meet his eyes.........

Kashish: Sujal..........maine tumse kuch chupaya hai...........maine tumse jooth bola ......

Sujal: Kashish main jaanta hoon koi aisi baat hai jisko leke tum pichle kuch dino se pareshan ho...Lekin main yeh bhi jaanta hoon ki tumne agar mujse woh pareshani nahin baanti to uske peechay koi wajah hogi...Isliye muje tumse koi shikayat nahin...

Kashish: woh tum pehle se hi pareshan the to main tumhe aur pareshan nahi karna chahti thi........lekin ab mujse aur saha nahi jata........Sujal mujse promise karo ki tum mujpe gussa nahi hoge aur mujse naraz bhi.............kyunki main nahi reh paungi tumhare bina.............

He holds her chin and makes her look into her eyes...

Sujal: Kashish tumne soch bhi kaise liya ke main tumpe ghussa karunga ya tumse naraz ho jaunga..Kya koi insaan apni zindagi se rooth sakta hai?..Phir bhi main tumse vaada karta hoon ki na to main tumpe ghussa karunga aur na hi tumhara saath chodunga..Tum meri zindagi ho Kashish...Meri saat janam ki SAAJHI...Tumhare binna main ek pal nahi reh sakta...Sujal ki saansein Kashish ko dekh ke chalti hain..Aur Sujal apni Kashish ke binna ek pal nahin reh sakta........ab batao kya baat hai.......

Kashish: woh Sujal....us din jo insaan aaya tha na......woh........woh uska naam Abhay hai aur woh mujse milne aaya tha.......woh kaun hai kaha se hai main nahi janti.......mera uske saath koi vasta nahi.......woh bar bar mere raste me aata hai aur mujse milne ki zidd karta hai......aur aaj........aaj woh ghar pe Maria ke samne kehke gaya hai ki agar maine uski baat nahi mani to woh tumse yeh jooth kahega ki main tumse bewafai kar rahi hoon.............Sujal tum jante ho na ki main sirf tumse pyaar karti hoon........kya tum meri baat pe yakeen karoge naa............

Sujal: Kashish!...tumne mujse itni badi baat chupayi...Itna sab kuch hogaya aur tumne mujse kuch kaha nahin...Kyun akele sab jelti rahi tum?...Kya mujpe bharosa nahin tha tumhe?...Tumne meri pareshani to baant li par muje yeh mauka tumne kyun nahin diya?...Kashish main tumpe khud se zyada bharosa karta hoon...Tumpe shaq karna khud pe shaq karne ke barabar hai...Kya main nahin jaanta ki tum mujse kitna pyar karti ho?...aur us ladke ko main jaan se maar dunga..Uski itni himmat

Kashish: nahi Sujal tum aisa kuch nahi karoge.........suna tumne tum aisa kuch nahi karoge.........woh kuch bhi kar sakta hai........lekin main tumhe kho nahi sakti........hum us ladke pe koi dhyan hi nahi denge...........

Sujal: main usse nahin chodunga Kashish...main usse qanoon ke haathon saza dilwake rahunga...Kashish usne tumhe phirse milne kab bulaya hai?

Kashish: Sujal......use kuch nahi hoga kyunki woh jail me jane ke bad chut jayega kyunki woh kisi neta ka beta hai.........lekin muje usse bahot darr lagta hai.....woh yeh janta hai ki main tumse kitna pyaar karti hoon lekin phir bhi usne muje kal subaah dus baje coffee shop bulaya hai.........

Sujal: thik hai kal tum usse milne jaaogi...aur main bhi tumhare saath jaaunga...Usse main sabak sikha ke rahunga..

Kashish: main nahi chalungi.......muje usse darr lagta hai........woh muje..........nahi....

He holds her hands into his....

Sujal: Kashish...Tumhe mujpe bharosa haina...Sab thik hojayega...Mein sab kuch thik kardunga mera yakeen karo...Aur tum kyun darti ho...Main hoon na tumhare saath...Tumhe kuch nahin hone dunga main...Yeh tumhare Sujal ka vaada hai...

Kashish: thik hai main chalungi.......

He smiles...

Sujal: Thats like my Kashish...Ab chalo dekho raat kaafi hogayi hai tum araam karo aur tum is baare main zyada mat socho...ab tum akeli nahin...main bhi hoon tumhare saath...

Kashish: hmm......tum to hamesha mere saath rahoge........I love you Sujal........

Sujal: I love you too Kashish...

He stood up and held her from her shoulders making her stand up...He put his arms around her and took her towards her side of the bed and made her lie down...He covered her with a blanket and ran his hand along her forehead and then bent down and kissed it...He closed the light on her side...

Kashish: Sujal..........tum mere saath hi rehna......

Sujal: main hamesha tumhare paas hoon Kashish...

He came to his side of the bed and lied down next to her...She turned towards him and he pulled her into his arms holding her close to himself and making her feel secure...He gently ran his fingers in her hair and after some time she fell asleep...When he saw her asleep,he was satisfied and closed his eyes and after a while he also fell asleep but he still had his arms wrapped around her to protect her...

 THIS PART IS SPECIALLY FOR JYOTHI BCOZ ME AND SUMMI R FEELING SO BAD NO REMEMBERING HER BIRTHDAY.......SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY JYOTHI