Hi everyone. I know i have taken too long to update but actually i was on holiday and after coming back from there i was busy with the work that i and baz have just recently posted but that is not excuse to not update this one so i am really sorry and i am really thankful to all the loyal readers who have been reading and following this work. This chapter is again dedicated to Nehal because of whom i am actually continuing this work. Nehal i hope you enjoy this part i know its bit of uncharacteristic of me to write such an emotional part but i don't know how i did this i hope you all like it and before you read i want to say that don't take assumptions of how Sharon's character will shape up in future updates because there are lots of things about her that are still unexplained in this update but i hope whatever you read about Swayam reaches your heart... go and enjoy the part...
Part - 6 Bitter taste of reality
Since the shoot got over Swayam Di had gone fond of each other and it was like they had started understanding each other and they had growled some unexplained bond between them. Swayam seemed to be the person who had answers of all the questions that Di had since we had been growing up but now it was the time in Swayam's company she started getting all the answers of the questions she had.
We shifted back to Mumbai again but now it was like daily routine for three of us to meet have dinner at night and talk about how our day had gone by and all the small-small matters which happen during day. And this had effect on all of us because first time Swayam seemed to happy naturally not only it seemed the way he smiled but his eyes looked to have found comfort that he had been looking for. And for the first time I realized that it was not only Di who was my back bourn but Swayam was also a reason why I felt so much secured working around.
I always worked around Swayam only and because of that I always had luxury to behave the way I wanted. It was always some unnoticed bond between me and Swayam. But my respect for Swayam had grown when I stalked a particular incident on the sets which I guess made me realize why Swayam was special to me or should I say as special to me as my Di were.
"Oh really Did you fall in love with Love with Dad?" Tanya asked
"No I didn't fell in love with your dad what makes you think like that?" Shanaya asked
"Because you told something happened that made you realize Dad's value in your life, that what did happen and what value of Dad you gained out of it?" Tanya asked
"Ok listen to that particular incident than make out What value I gained" Shanaya said
Well actually I was working on the sets of Swayam after the desert shoot. I guess it was photography session of Swayam and I was the lead designer first time, it was like my first big break and I wanted to make full use of it.
Swayam was in his changing Van some outfit he tried to wear didn't fit him and it was the main outfit for cover of the album so the producer got pissed and he called me on the set in front of all the people and scolded me
"Look now what mess you have taken us all in now. We have less than 15 days to go for launch and now the outfit is not fitting the guy. How are we supposed to work when a god damm outfit after two months preparations doesn't work out, I told Swayam that we could hire a more professional designer but he was eager to work with you and look here are the results. Losers like you don't deserve a chance, got it now do something I don't know how you will do it but arrange a outfit in 2 hours and get the shoot going otherwise I will drag you to court and get double of my money I spent on you understand" Producer said
I was just in shock to hear all this because I have been grown as protected child. Sharon Di never allowed anybody to raise voice to me and now suddenly somebody was scolding me like a loser. The first thing came to my mind was go and apologize to Swayam for a mess that I had done. And Swayam was not on set when producer scolded me so I thought he might just take it easily to me. But when I reached his Van to apologize to him I heard somebody was already there and Swayam was scolding to him.
"Look Mr. Producer I have long list of persons waiting to work with me and spend much more money on my work which can really make my work more appealing but still I am working with you because you were the person that gave me break and I can never betray you for going ahead, but that doesn't mean that you roam around scold people I choose to work with me without my permission. It was my decision to work with Shanaya and she had a potential to do it that's why I decided to allow her a chance and when that outfit she showed in design you were the person who applauded her work now just because there is problem which is minor and can be sorted out easily you scolded her in front of thousand people on set" Swayam said very loudly
"But she messed up with the outfit how am I going to get the shoot over now" Producer said
"I don't care about that how you will get over your god damm shoot. But get this thing straight to your head I would have tolerated you behavior with anybody else because I understand if somebody's mistake causes you loss but not with first timers you know very well they are inexperienced and need time settle in and specially with Shanaya because she is special for me" Swayam said
Producer was silent all the while...
"Go and apologize to Shanaya first and then only we will work forward otherwise I am breaking the contract and do whatever you can" Swayam said
Producer came out of Van I could see him talking to his secretary so I tried to listen to what he said
"Swayam has gone mad. Just because Shanaya is the new girl on whom Swayam has some feelings or she might be his new girl friend but that doesn't mean he will treat me the way he treated me, if it was not for my money I would have never apologized to that girl" Producer said to his secretary
I just went numb on finding that the person Swayam respected thought that Swayam was some Alpha male materialistic s**t kind of boy who favored persons just because he was sexually attracted to them.
I thought that Swayam was in bad mood so decided to avoid him to make him calm and talk to him letter so I went back to set and looked to the work of altering going on with Swayam's outfit. That's when the producer came to me to apologize and before he could start apologizing to me Swayam came to interrupt him.
"Wait Mr. Producer before you apologize and give air some unwanted gossip about me having affair with Shanaya let me clear something to you first. Yes Shanaya is very special person to me and I won't allow anybody to be harsh on her even if she was wrong. The reason being is she is like my younger sister or you can say my only family that I have, I have literally treated her as my kid and she does hold a special place in my heart because she gives me the feeling of family or how it feels when some person cares about you ok. She looks up to me for comfort which I always expected to have from a sister so she more than a real sister for me so you better watch out before speaking anything wrong about her because she is pure and innocent soul whom I don't want to hurt because of my actions do you get that" last line he spoke out of his lungs making us realize that Swayam can be emotional about something in this world.
This was actually first time Swayam had shown his this side to outside world. Tears were traceable on his cheeks when he said that. It also made me cry because after Sharon Di this was first time I felt protective towards me and that really made me feel special because I had two persons caring for me. The two person who themselves lost everything but they had me common in their lives and I was like their breath of fresh air and that really made me feel special. I ran straight to his arms for comfort. For the first time I felt Swayam being warm, his hug gave me comfort like a father can give to his daughter, I never got from my dad but finally Swayam gave me that comfort. He was the big brother I had now.
"Come on now finish the work and we can shoot, and don't worry this the last time we are working with this unit" Swayam said looking at me
"No Swayam its ok it was my fault I am making corrections and you don't need to cut off your relations with the unit" I said
"Look I am not asking for your views you have been insulted here just because of me and you don't know how much it pains me and you know if I feel the pain the person who is the reason will feel pain more than me and that is his pain now, he will find an alternative to Swayam Shekhawat to work with" Swayam said and walked off.
"So this was the reason why I discovered a new valuable relation that I share with Swayam and that is of brother-sister and which is different from relation I share with Di because Swayam hardly gets emotional and is always the cool one who listens to me more than he himself sharing his things so basically he provides me the comfort where as with Sharon Di she talks everything to me like I am her confession box and we both provide needed warmth to each other when required" Shanaya said
"Awwhh Dad is so cute Masi he really did that for you, I wish I have a brother like Dad" Tanya said and smiled cutely hugging her teddy bear
And then things went smoothly, we had grown fond of each other and we all got busy in our respective lives yet we met each other every day and shared the much needed comfort and we all did talk so much.
6 Months gone by like this...
Sharon Di was better she had gotten out of her break up pain fully and was enjoying her life. Swayam on the other hand had become really family type of guy now having me and Di around caring for him and I was having time of my life because now two persons were there to pamper me and do what I like to do.
Basically our life was rocking. Di was getting all her issues sorted out of course Swayam was the source for all that. But things were working very nicely. I started to feel that some kind of bond had already developed between Swayam and Di, they both cared of even minor things of each other and that was really nice to see because they both unwontedly filled in the missing spots in their lives.
But they were really in this friend zone and they behaved like best friends but both of them knew they were not meant to be friends and realizations had to dawn on them but I really feared the day when they will realize what feeling they hold for each other. Because I don't how will they react to that will they accept that feeling and be together? Or they will run away from each other?
I really didn't want to let anyone of them go at that point of time in life because I had got really used to them and for me they were already an ideal couple. But you know what when we think that everybody has gotten in place finally you get the shock of your life.
"What do you mean by shock in life Masi? Did mom and dad got to know about each other's feelings and did they I mean left each other?" Tanya said
"Well kind of yes, they realized something or I should say one them did realize or actually knew what feelings they shared" Shanaya said
"Masi please stop puzzling me and tell me what really did happen? Who knew the feelings and then why did they leave each other than when one of them knew what feeling he/she shared?" Tanya said
"When did I say they left each other? I said one them realized something" Shanaya said
"Masi that's enough please tell me what happened? If they didn't leave each other than what happened and where their story moved now" Tanya said impatiently now...
"Ok -ok don't lose your senses and listen to what actually happened" Shanaya said
So it was exactly after 7 months since the shoot and we had arranged a special dinner today because Swayam got an international award for best song and singer & performer. We were already but Sharon Di didn't reach the home on time which was unusual.
She was always in time but that day we didn't know what exactly made her late. But finally I heard the doorbell ring. Me and Swayam stood up happily that finally she is here and we can eat because we were damm hungry. I went up and opened the door and I was stand shot what I saw there.
Sharon Di was standing with Raj. The same person who caused her so much pain to her and she was really happy to stand with him there now. I wondered what happened actually that she was so happy to be with that B*****d.
"What the hell is he doing here? Get lost you jerk" I said
"Relax Shani... Raj has finally realized what I am for him and he did whatever was required to make me believe that he really wants me back in life and now I know he really loves me" Di said letting him in and me and Swayam stood there dumb.
We were standing like those idiots who didn't know that the person who was so special in our lives took such big decision without even caring to talk us about it. Neither me nor Swayam knew how to react at that very moment because Di took that guy Raj in and went straight to bedroom I don't know for what and the jerk came in shook hands with us sat like we bloody were the servants of the house to look after him.
Di came out after changing the outfit and ready to leave again.
"Where are you going? Aren't we supposed to have dinner? Me and Swayam were waiting for you whole day and now you are leaving with even saying to us what and why you are ditching us" I said to Di
"Well my sweetheart sis I am not gone yet. I know what our plan was but sweetheart this guy here really has planned a dinner for us privately so I cannot ditch him right. And you both are my besties and you both can really understand what love means in my life so please bear with this for last time I will make sure next time nobody interrupts in our three's time that we spend" She said
I was about to say something when Swayam caught my hand stopped me.
"It's perfectly fine Sharon. Go ahead have great time and call us if you both need anything" Swayam said
"That's so sweet of you Swayam thank you. And ya congratulations for the Award I wish we could celebrate it today but don't worry we will plan something again and yes I won't let you escape my treat ok" Di said while she gave hug to Swayam and left us with that jerk Raj.
I looked at Swayam and he knew what I had in my mind. But he looked disturbed for first time and he knew what I needed to know.
"Don't look at me like that. You know what is there in my mind. Do you want me to say it out then you will reply or you can reply straightly for what you did just a while ago" I asked Swayam
"Ok listen to me first don't get mad at me now. I know you want to know why I did let her go out with that guy. But listen to me we both want her to be happy right. Didn't you see how happy she was to be with him back and his sight gave me indication that he looks honest this time and don't worry I will find out why he wants back Sharon and if he has any bad intentions than nobody can save him but if by any chance he has changed than Sharon deserves his love because she has really been sucker of love all her life" Swayam said
"Oh really and now give me that shit... I don't know anything but she doesn't belong to him. She can find other man for herself who can be better than him" I said
"She can find man better than him but that can never be him and she wants him because he is the one that makes her happy so you and me cannot do anything about it ok" Swayam said
"But why... I mean look at yourself you can look after more than that shit guy and you both make better pair then them" I said I don't know how it came out of my mouth but they say when you are in anger what you feel really gets out of you and you cannot hold it back
Swayam was shocked to hear this and he really backed off. His eyes revealed some unsaid pain. And I got it that somewhere this had hurt him.
"Swayam don't look away when I said this some pain emerged in your eyes and don't lie to me about anything now... you like her right?" I said
Swayam got shocked and really went numb. Tears started coming from his eyes because I guess I had read him perfectly for the first time.
"Don't try to back off or run away from me now, you have to answer me first Swayam" I said
"Ok fine, yes I like her and she is special for me and I...I... I love her happy now" Swayam spoke for the first time he opened his heart.
"Then why you let her go then reply me Swayam" I asked
"Because I love her and I want to see her happy god damm it, and she made me realize suddenly that I am not the one who can give her what she wants, and I will do anything that makes her happy" Swayam replied
"And you think being with that Jerk will make her happy?" I asked
"Yes I really think" Swayam said
"Ok than what about you? You love her how will you survive without her" I asked
"You know really what is like with me right? I am not meant to be loved and that proved again today. You and I both know why I have such feelings for her it's because the time we spent. She was single when we spent time and I did everything to make her happy and still she thinks I am not the one whom she can fall in love with then I cannot do anything about it" Swayam said
"But you can keep her more happy than anybody else in this world and trust me you are meant to be loved" I said holding him
"Look you know what you are being one sided now you love me that's you think like that but you and me both know that she loves him, no matter whatever I do for her but that cannot make her happy as much as being with the guy she loves can make her happy, and you know that the whoever I start liking goes away from me just look at yourself Mom-Dad, Grandpa-Grandma, and then my maid who taught me how to be a better person all left me and that proved today also because I had started liking Sharon and was trying to be close to her but see she found out a reason better than me to live a happy life, this proves that I am meant to stay alone. You what I like you as sister I am close to you but go away from me before lose you and lose everything in life, please go away" Swayam said and started walking to the door
I followed caught his hand stopped him and made him sit at sofa. I knew the pain went through him but I cannot let him alone because he was as dear to me as Di was. If I wanted Di to be happy than I wanted Swayam to be happy also because he was special to me, may more than a real brother or my dad were to me.
"Look Swayam may be they all left you for whatever reason but I know you and you know me I don't leave people who are dear to me so no matter what happens I am there and will always be there standing with you, you are like more than a father or real brother to me so there is no way I am leaving you especially after knowing what state you are in right now" I said to Swayam holding his hand
"You really are not going anywhere, promise me no matter whatever do happen, you my sister will stay with me and support me. I need to be strong. We have to make Sharon happy. I really want to see her getting what she deserves and that is love even if that is not me I want her to be happy with whoever she chooses to, I can at least make one of my loved ones happy in my life time before my sight" Swayam said and hugged me.
This was the first time I had seen Swayam vulnerable and trust me it pained more than anything else to see him like that. But I was glad that at least I was there to share his pain. I promised him to be with him in making sure Di gets what she loves and just for Swayam I was ready to let Raj in Di's life one more time. Swayam really wanted to do this so I decided to support my brother through it. But somewhere deep down I really prayed that somehow Di realize that Swayam was better than Raj and she could get more love from Swayam then Raj but I cannot change anybody's destiny. The only thing I could do by then was to pray and support and accept what was going on and what was gone happen but one thing was sure that I will stand by Swayam no matter what happens because if Di settles in with Raj then I needed to be with Swayam to stop him from breaking more being lifeless.
By the end of that Tanya was crying and she just couldn't help but crying more and more. The little child also started to feel the pain her father went through at that time. But this was meant to be because you just cannot go ahead assuming things will turn the way you assume because reality is always bitter and dreams & assumptions are always sweeter...
"Tanya baby stop crying look your dad got your mom finally na and you me both know that" Shanaya said hugging the crying Tanya
"I know Masi that Mom-Dad did came together eventually but this breakdown of Dad, I don't know it brings pain to me. I have just heard that in fairytales lovers do sacrifice anything for the person they love but Dad did that in actual life which makes me love him more but then now I am curious that how did mom realize that she loved Dad or say what happened that mom started moving away from Raj?" Tanya said
"Again full load of questions you know that story will increase in its pace, for now just stand up and let put these things in cupboard" Shanaya said
"But continue with the story Na" Tanya said
"Tanya it's still plenty of time left for your parents to come back so chill we have 4 hours to go still and I guess by the end I will tell you the full story but be calm and let me finish my work first because we are hosting a party tonight remember" Shanaya said
Tanya sat amused and that's how another hour of Tanya's time ended...
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