January 20,2009 10 pm
I am going through the most wonderful phase of my life. Being in love with the most adorable and special person in my life. Each second spent with him gives me a new meaning. I feel that I understand him much better than I have ever in the past five years. If he wouldn't have entered into my life, I may not even be alive today.
I clearly remember our first meeting. Ironically, it was the most dreadful day for me. I was in the hospital bed unable to comprehend the situation. I could not understand why I was lying there instead of being with my parents at my home. We were returning to our home after my cousin's marriage. Suddenly a truck came out of nowhere and crashed into our car. The scene in front of me started blurring away, and the last thing I saw was my little sister's body being hurled out of the car. After gaining consciousness, I was unable to remember anything. But slowly memories rushed back to my brain. I wanted to get out of there. I wanted to see my parents and my sister, make sure they were alright. I asked the nurse sitting nearby about them, but she kept mum. Her silence scared me and I forced her to answer me. She finally replied after my persuasion and I found out that my worst fear had come true. My family was no more. They all left me alone here to suffer. I couldn't hold onto myself as I visualized the lifeless body of my parents and my sister. I was suddenly running out of the room and through the corridors when I collided with someone and I fell unconscious into his arms. Later I came to know that Mayank was the one who took me to the hospital. He looked after me with utmost care.
Initially I was depressed and I did not talk to him for days. I had lost my faith in God. I actually started hating Mayank for rescuing me thus separating me from my family. But one day he started talking about himself. To my utmost shock, I came to know that he was an orphan. Well, technically not one, but his situation was almost equivalent to that of mine. His dad died due to leukemia before his birth and his mom also died when he was five. He was brought up by his uncle or rather by his nanny because his uncle was busy looking after the business empire left to his care after the death of Mayank's dad. Even though his uncle fulfilled all his wishes, Mayank was different from the other kids. He always tended to stay from others and he lived in his own world. He had created an imaginary wall around himself cutting himself out from the outside world. He considered himself unlucky because he didn't get something what every child of his age got-Love and care. A sense of togetherness.
He told me that when he took care of me for days, for the first time in his life, he understood the worth of a human life. He was able to decipher my situation and feelings. He had found a good friend in me. He also wanted me to consider him as a good friend. Those words were enough to lift a huge weight off my mind. A smile had lit upon my face. Seeing it, Mayank was also happy and he promised me that he'd always keep me happy and never let tears come to my eyes. I could immediately sense a feeling of a new found hope. I wasn't alone. I had someone who would be there for me forever. I knew that moment that I could trust this friend with my life.
Thinking back I feel that I had fallen in love with him in the initial days itself. Maybe my feelings were disguised by our friendship which resurfaced now. I can never find a person who loves and understands me. He would do anything to bring a smile on my face. He never used to hang out with anyone else other than me in the college. Many times our friends classmates tried to talk to him and asked him out but he politely refused their invitations. But lately he started interacting with my friends which surprised me very much. When asked, he gave me an amusing answer. He knew every aspect of my life, except my friends, and he didn't want to be left out there also. I was so happy to hear it, and even more happy that Mayank was finally coming out of his cocoon, and enjoying his life like any other college student. We even have a gang now consisting of me, Mayank, Pia and Abhi. Abhi is a nice guy, talkative and charming. He's an extrovert and you can always find him in the corridors or canteen flirting with girls. Pia joined our college in the middle of the semester, and it was Mayank who helped her to catch up with the portions, so he was able to make friends with her easily. Initially she seemed to be reserved, but slowly she opened up. Now we both are really good friends. But sometimes I doubt if she has a crush on Mayank. She has that look of adoration when she talks to him. I need to find it out soon. I hope I am wrong. Anyway Mayank seems to be unaware of all this.
I wish Mayank would give me some hint to show that he also loves me. I don't know how I will let him know my feelings. Rather I'm scared of being rejected. It's not a daily life situation where you have to confess to your best friend. He has to take an initiative; after all I am a girl. But being Mayank, I wonder if he will ever confess to me. He is very slow in the matters of mind. But I am ready to wait for him, even if it takes decades. Mayank is the only guy in my life and will always be.
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