Love - a feeling of strong connection, attachment persuaded by extreme delight and admiration; dedication and devotion to each other along with affection and tenderness ... It teaches us when to keep our pride aside as the greatest thing we can be proud of is the love that is shared ... It's not about conditions but about giving and selflessness - a celebration of right and truth ... It's about enduring; about hopes and about bearing it all ... It's about forgiving, understanding, inspiring and most of all, it's a feeling of completeness ... It's about supporting but not overbearing - it's about not letting the other fall ... It's strong and yet fragile ... It's about accepting each other and appreciating and not wanting to change them ... It's about wanting and making the other person feel good ... It's about imparting security in a relationship ... The foundation to it is patience and trust ... It's about "us" and not "I" ... Try hard as you can, love just happens ... Love and death are the uninvited guests of life - inevitable truths of life ... Yes, sometimes love does hurt us but in the course of life; there are times when our paths don't lead us to joys and happiness but still we keep on going - when we don't lose hopes in life, why we lose hopes in love ... Life keeps on going and we start learning to live without love - why are we so scared to give love a chance? Why do we close the doors of our hearts, why not let the emotions out - Love is no a necessity but a gift of life; a gift to cherished forever and ever .... It has no beginning; it has no end ... And love is just another game destiny loves to play ...
After losing everything in life, HE came forward not with the intention of giving me a favor but just with the intention of giving me support and also to have a friend for himself ...
My destiny brought him to my door with an offer to share his apartment but we shared much more - we shared our entire lives with each other as if we knew each other since forever ... We shared our griefs, our pains which indeed were quite similar but I had lost love; he had no one to love ... Our emotions binded us and instantly we became friends ... A friend which we both desired to have - one which we needed the most ... Two lonely souls, trying to fill the voids in each others life ...
Days passed and I slowly started discovering him - His life moved around music ... A music teacher by profession, Mr. Musician loved to play guitar at nights and loved to sing ... His beautiful voice filled my silent nights but never I could stand near him and listen to him as he felt shy of audience ... Cooking was his another forte and I admired his style of cooking though he cooked rarely and the kitchen was under my control ...
Our love for films became another binding force - instead of watching stupid shows, we spent our evenings watching different films of various different genres ... And then he initiated to ask me for dance and several times at nights we would play our favourite music and dance to the rhythm of life ...
Life was moving and I had no inhibitions to share anything from him, I had cried many a times in front of him and he was always there to wipe the each tear that fell from my eyes and bring a smile on my face ... On his birthday, instead of giving him a gift - he took me around the city and we spent the whole day together and when I showed my regret of not giving him any gift - he simply said "You gave me a day of your life ... I don't want anything else ..."
One night, sitting on the shores of Ganga where I had accompanied him for camping with his school camp - I cried hard, remembering my past ... He didn't scold me or wiped my tears off but just gave me his jacket and simply said - "The next time you feel like crying, let me be there with you as I don't want you to be alone when you are in tears ..." That night, keeping my head on his shoulder and feeling his arm around my shoulders - I felt immense peace inside me and I felt that this is the last time I am crying ... He had become my soul mate ...
Life took a beautiful turn when one morning I found my incomplete sketches in his room and felt something different and when I talked about it to my soul sister - she hinted it to be love and persuaded me to finally move on ...
Desperate to find answers to the thousand questions I had in my mind - Unlike last time, I intentionally went to his room to look at the sketches but instead found his diary ... After controlling a lot, I finally decided to read it and I realised that it was love at first sight for him - all the while, it was his selfless love for me - Knowing that I loved someone else, yet without wanting anything in return, he was showering his silent love on me all the while which I just couldn't understand ...
That night, he asked me to dance with him, yet again and while dancing I realised that indeed I was moving on ...
I didn't want to lose him and betray Mayank but loving again doesn't mean betraying the memories of the first love and somewhere I knew that Mayank too wished to see me move on in life and I decided to once again, open the doors of my heart for the most beautiful feeling - for love ....
And as I sit here, watching Serendipity with him, I realised that it was indeed in our destiny to meet and fall in love ...
When you know, that you know who you love, can't deny it ...
Or go back, or give up or pretend that you don't buy it ...
When it's clear this time you've found the one, you'll never let him go ...
Cos you know and you know that you know ....
Last time, I was too late to confess my love but this time I decided that I would give words to my emotions and shower my love on him - he deserves it all ...
When you feel in your skin, in your bones and the hollow
Of your heart, there's no way you can wait till tomorrow ...
When there isn't any doubt about it once you come this close ...
Cos you know and you know that you know ...
I remembered the effect his shameless gaze on me at tonight's dinner and how I wished to close his eyes ... The feeling of drowning in his deep eyes - all that made me blush while on screen; Jonathan and Sara were striving for their love ...
You can feel love's around you like the sky 'round blue
This is how love has found you, now you know what to do ...
The film was coming to it's end and with every step Jonathan and Sara took, I knew what to do ... I knew, we were meant to be ...
When you know, that you know who you love, can't deny it ...
Or go back, or give up or pretend that you don't buy it ...
it's clear this time you've found the one, you'll never let him go ...
Cos you know and you know that you know ....
Life is strange, isn't it ... Indeed no one can escape love and as I see him smile seeing the union of Jonathan and Sara - I wonder how he would react when I would confess my love ...
And it's time, you come in from the cold ...
Haa ....
And you know that you know.
As the end credits came, I started getting up from the couch only to realise he was holding my fingers and as I looked at him - he smiled and asked me to sit near him ... Entwining his fingers with mine - he softly confessed his love to me and with utmost sincerity said -
"I know you love someone else, I know it would take time for you to accept someone else but I am ready to wait till the end of the time because I love you and I don't want anything in return ... Your friendship means a lot"
His voice was choking and I could see the tears forming in his eyes and before I break down myself, I kept my fingers on his mouth and confessed -
"You don't need to wait till the end of the time because ... I love you too - when and how, I don't know but I know that I'll not be able to live without you ..."
He hugged me tight and I felt the immense joy and happiness - I felt complete and I know he felt the same when I reciprocated the hug ...
At night as we retired to our respective rooms, I knew my life was blooming again ... That night in my dream - I saw my Mayank grinning and smiling as he said "Thank you for fulfilling your promise ... I am the happiest man dead to see you and him together .... I knew he was the perfect for you ... there couldn't be any other perfect birthday gift for me than seeing you living and loving again ...."
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Jhanak
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