New FF: New York times with Maan and Geet - Page 34

Originally posted by: Hasini67

Rachana,
Everything is to the dot, except the part where you are talking that he is feeling all this for this for the first time.

In hot chocolate part, it is clear that he has been hurt in the past in a close relationship...where he cared for someone the way...Geet was referring to.
The part that he is not sure is if he can let such feeling emotions come into his life once again😊
But these are not alien to him for sure.

Hope that helps...but please keep writing...I love it when people take time to discuss and analyze.

Thanks --Hasini

Hasini,

I read the two updates early this morning and wanted to say soo much on it so I decided to wait till later on to write a comment. But the day was so long with classes, studying, and rehearsals!! Its midnight already but I know I cant sleep without posting a comment for you.

The bed, bath, and beyond update was just perfect to the T. What I love about your writing is that your words can create very nice imagery in your mind on the scene. I could so very well imagine the Egyptian cotton set, Maan-Geet lying together on the set, the awkwardness. This is only possible with your words and style of writing. Outstanding! I guess it just hit Maan on the depth of the new feelings he was experiencing and he had to run away. Awe bechara J Sweet na? What I also really enjoyed was Geet not thinking or worrying over Dev and her relationship but over Maan!! Perfecto!

I have a big thank you for you….the Grand Canyon addition to the update was just so touching for me. I went to Grand Canyon in August and your update just flashed back all the breathtaking views and scenes of the Canyon. I loved how you even stated a fact that the North Canyon was less populated than the South Canyon ;-) I remembered that too from my trip! I felt for Maan…I was smiling and wanted to sigh for him too. He was overwhelmed with this feelings and went back to all the times he'd had with her and when things changed for him. I loved how he sorted all the emotions and practicalities first and then concluded that no matter what may….he loves her! I will always remember you for this because this is one of the closest quotes to my heart….

"I was insanely and irrevocably in love with her" :-D

I cant wait till Maan meets Geet now! He's a patient guy and knows his boundaries and like you've said he wont let Geet know of his feelings now. I'm just waiting to see what he might do to find out what her feelings are for him….:-)

Thank you thank you for such a wonderful update!

Rachna, you're another gem to analyze so to the point. You're awesome! :-)

Pushpi

Originally posted by: pushpi

Hasini,

I read the two updates early this morning and wanted to say soo much on it so I decided to wait till later on to write a comment. But the day was so long with classes, studying, and rehearsals!! Its midnight already but I know I cant sleep without posting a comment for you.

The bed, bath, and beyond update was just perfect to the T. What I love about your writing is that your words can create very nice imagery in your mind on the scene. I could so very well imagine the Egyptian cotton set, Maan-Geet lying together on the set, the awkwardness. This is only possible with your words and style of writing. Outstanding! I guess it just hit Maan on the depth of the new feelings he was experiencing and he had to run away. Awe bechara J Sweet na? What I also really enjoyed was Geet not thinking or worrying over Dev and her relationship but over Maan!! Perfecto!

I have a big thank you for you'.the Grand Canyon addition to the update was just so touching for me. I went to Grand Canyon in August and your update just flashed back all the breathtaking views and scenes of the Canyon. I loved how you even stated a fact that the North Canyon was less populated than the South Canyon ;-) I remembered that too from my trip! I felt for Maan'I was smiling and wanted to sigh for him too. He was overwhelmed with this feelings and went back to all the times he'd had with her and when things changed for him. I loved how he sorted all the emotions and practicalities first and then concluded that no matter what may'.he loves her! I will always remember you for this because this is one of the closest quotes to my heart'.

"I was insanely and irrevocably in love with her" :-D

I cant wait till Maan meets Geet now! He's a patient guy and knows his boundaries and like you've said he wont let Geet know of his feelings now. I'm just waiting to see what he might do to find out what her feelings are for him'.:-)

Thank you thank you for such a wonderful update!

Rachna, you're another gem to analyze so to the point. You're awesome! :-)

Pushpi

Part 24: Fire and Ice.

<Geet's monologue>

I was grabbing breakfast at Caf Lulu…I had reached office way early…it was 8.00 AM and my stomach was making horrible sounds…

The table where I sat brought back memories, which I had learnt to ignore in just one day…I didn't know one day could make such a difference in my life… not months, not years…but just one day…one random day..it could have been the day before or even today…but that was the point, you cant really figure out answers for some things…why things happened the way they did…its just random…that gave me the answer to many of my questions…it seemed to make sense when I accepted the random nature of things.

I was a wreck on Monday…things didn't change much as of last morning either. I decided to take the day off…I couldn't stay indoors and so I started to walk outside. It was cold, but I layered and that kept me going…I walked 10 blocks….but I felt I could walk longer…I continued…I walked for two whole hours…pondering on how life had treated me…Why I was going insane over the fact that he disappeared overnight and didn't bother to tell me?

Was I just taking random events in life and trying to make too much sense out it?

Why? Why me? I didn't get to finish my studies in India…I was forbidden to dream…I got married, came here served as his wife for five years and then he decides to leave me. It seemed complicated…but strangely I was able to contain the complexity within a sentence…Is that all?

There didn't seem to be one good explanation as to why things happened the way they did….why I came to NY? Why I took up the job? Why I had to stay with Meera? Why yash and Meera had to stay in the same apartment? Why Maan had to help me out during my crisis?

If Dev left me after 5 years for no other reason except for the fact that he wanted to, at that point and on that particular day and not any other day…then let it be...I wanted to be at peace with it.

Maan helped me, I shared a few moments with him…Had a laugh together…even shared some of my sob stories for which he gave me a shoulder…but why was I expecting too much out of it? Glad that happened…but I didn't want to make equations out of it to get an answer.

Maan left because he had to and there was no reason for me to sit there and expect him to call me or keep me informed everytime he moved a vase in his house.

It was just one other random event in my life.

I could either go looking for answers and giving up living life this moment…but accepting that there were just random events in my life…strangely made me feel at ease.

That's it…people were just there…they did the things they wanted to…and by no way they were connected to me.

Dev did what he wanted to…so did Meer and Yash…Maan…he lived his life too…

I could either make sense of everything that happens around me or just take it and live it…

or don't deal with it…or just ignore it…or just accept it…or not even care to give any attention to it.

I wanted to live. I didn't want anything to bother me anymore…I was tired of expecting things to happen a certain way…

I didn't want to be tied down by anyone or anybody. I wanted to have me and myself alone in my life.

I didn't want to deal with people and ponder on their actions just because they happened to be there…their existence was a mere random event in my life.

I was done, I wanted to move on and I very much wanted to make a life on my own…not with anyone else or not for anyone else.

It felt like I have been living only since a day. It felt different and simple when I was not questioning or bothering over things that happened randomly in my life.

I went back to the office and learnt he had called for a meeting. He was back…there was a strange sense of excitement in the air…but that was just random…I just felt excited…I didn't want to link it to the fact that he was indeed back…

<Maan's monologue>

If there was anything I was absolutely sure about that morning…it was that…she was going to be fiercely mad about the fact that I left…and did so without telling her about it.

If she was going to breathe fire…then I was ready to melt as ice…

I had to find out how she was doing…I called for a meeting.

She came in…smiled at me…and practically was much nicer to me than she normally was…she even volunteered to send me some additional numbers without even being asked for.

I didn't understand one thing that went on in that room…she seemed much clearer…

She took things pretty lightly and the air around her was different…She even snubbed a guy in the meeting…she didn't care…I was totally not ready for this.

I had to find out what she was thinking…I waited for the clock to strike 3.00 and then I pinged her for coffee…

MaanKhurana:"Coffee?"

GeetKhurana:"If you are buying…see you in 10…"

She accepted? I was puzzled.

I waited for her at the coffee shop…she walked in and ordered a Short non-fat, de-caff, vanilla latte, extra hot and extra foam. Women and their choices …it was not toffee mocha this time…hmmm…I wondered.

I took a Halff-caff black as always.

Maan:" So Geet…how are you?"

Geet:" I'm good…aur aap? How was your trip?"

I was surprised she asked me…

Maan:" Actually I should have told you…There was some urgent personal stuff I had to take care of...and so I left…"

Geet:" Oh! No that's fine…you are not bound to tell me anything… "

Maan:" But I wanted to…"

She was surprised for a second…but snapped out of it in instantly.

Geet:" You know what…no one "has to do anything" Maan…You just do it…you don't have to explain anything to anyone"

Maan:"Two days I left…and you seem wiser…"

Geet:" I guess NY can do that to you…give you answers you are looking for all your life…"

I was curious…

Maan:"So what were you looking for all your life?"

Geet:" Its boring…you don't want to hear it…trust me…"

Maan:" No I want to…I want to know if it's like one of your Hot chocolate theories…"

She didn't seem to take offense…

Geet:" Actually Maan…I'm not even sure Hot Chocolate makes sense anymore…"

I was taken back…what is she talking?…what happened in just one day that made her talk like this?

Maan:"Ok…now you have to tell me…"

I acted interested…

Geet:" You know its just those moments…when things seem to reveal itself to you…you feel that perfect moment of clarity…I guess that just happened…I learnt two things…one is life is pretty random…the other is that…people are people…you shouldn't relate to anything personally and make everything about you…"

Maan:"Wow…I guess I should leave more often…you seem to be coming up with such interesting stuff to talk about…"

Geet:" No…it makes sense…everything in life is just random…it just happens…don't try to make too much sense out of things…I mean take my life for example…Me coming here…dev leaving me after 5 years…You helping me out…Me finishing my studies…I land a job in manhattan…do you see any connection…they are so random…"

Maan:" Ok…continue…I want to hear more…"

Geet:" People are just people…they just do things…Dev left because he wanted to…Meer lives alone because she wants to…Yash doesn't cook because he doesn't want to…You want to be yourself because you want to…you cant just derive meaning out of things…"

I ignored everything except the part about dev…She could make it easier for me…I wanted to fish…may be I could land one…

Maan:"So it doesn't matter anymore that Dev left? You don't miss him?"

Geet:"Strangely no…He just did what he wanted to do…I don't want to take anything to heart…I don't want to relate to him and then make, him leaving me, personal and then hurt muself for the rest of my life? I don't want to do it…I don't want to live like that anymore…"

Should I be glad or worried that she was talking like that?…what caused these changes in her?…It did appear that she was talking out of a moment of clarity…but to me…it was just another coping mechanism…She was just using different words to describe the same thing she did sometime ago…"block people out…" and now she was just calling it "Don't take people personally…"

I laughed…and feared the task ahead of me…

I didn't mean to make her sound insane…but I could see how deeply she was inflicted by people…She had kept herself an open book all her life…let people walk on her…let them make decisions for her…she had no choice…only people can do that kind of damage to anyone…Things just don't remain the same once someone you trusted blindly breaks your trust…I had first hand experience at that.

Canyon put some questions on my mind…but now I had additional ones…

I wondered how was she ever going to trust anyone after Dev did this to her? Will she ever be able to get close to anyone? Will she be able to love?

Gone were the days she talked about hot chocolate…after her break up…she had been swinging like a pendulum…It was either our day out when we took pictures of mine for Daadima's album or days like this when she thought she had stumbled upon the truth about life…

For a brief period she did shut everyone out…and now…I worried that she was beginning to do that all over again.

Her mood swings were giving me whip lashes…

I didn't know if she ever did love Dev…and neither did I know if Dev ever did love her…but I was determined to make her feel my love for her…

We talked about some random stuff…We walked back to office…I was completely clueless how I could ever make her the same person she was in central park with me….

I missed her…

To me it didn't seem random that I ran away and came back with perfect clarity that things happened for a reason and that everything was meant to me…and that Destiny was taking me closer to her…

And here she was questioning life and came up with her "randomness and don't take people personally" theory…

There was absolutely nothing random about it….it happened because I was meant to pursue her and make her once again open upto life's simple pleasures…

I had warmed up…and she had gone cold. I have to breathe warmth into her for we had switched places…