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Hey guys! 🤗

So, was listening to this song one my friends ipod and was just thinking, really personal song fic here, tried fitting it into Ashlesha's situation, I like to think she skipped out of the house realizing her and Preet could never be and leaving Meet to be. I know, too much to ask for but hey a girl can hope! So this is what I think is what happened when Ashlesha was first given her first alone moment after finding out Preet had gotten married! 😆For friends: I guess this is what wraps everything up that I was trying to explain, but even the song like me, doesn't seem to know how to phrase it. 😆

Eighteen Visions - I Let Go

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ts9O1HlWDXk

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Could you,
Maybe,
Stop this from happening?
I know it hurts but you don't have to walk away.

Ashlesha leaned against the bedpost, sighing. That was it. It was over. Something she felt would have lasted a lifetime didn't make it. Couldn't make it. Wouldn't make it. Preet was gone. No longer was her name attached with his. His name was now forever tied with Meher. A sob was stifiled hastily in her throat, but she bit it back. She was bigger then this. Tears were not the answer.

I don't know why I want to stop myself from feeling low.
I don't know why lies know my name and lies I show.
I don't know why I want to stop myself from feeling low.
I don't know why.
I don't know why I even try.
I can't be that way when my life looks this grey so I let go.
I let go.

She stood up, walking towards the window, the stars twinking at her. Inside her, somewhere deep down she felt a surge of anger. How could the stars, the skies looks so happy, so at peace when she was torn apart? Deep down, she knew it was futile to try and take her anger out on the peaceful settings that surronded her. Lost, she groped around, trying to stabalize her self, her emotions. Without Preet as her safe harbour, she had no where to drop anchor, no where to collect, no where to think, no where to love, no where to stay, no where.

I got to leave it alone this time or I'll wallow in my mind.
I got to leave it alone this time or I'll wallow in my life.
I've got to leave it alone.
I've got to leave it alone.

Playing with her curtians, she mused over the last couple of months spent with Preet. Joking, playing, rough housing but at the same time feeling a great sense of calmness around him, her whole world started with him, ended with him. He was someone that made her feel at peace with the world when her anger flew of the handle, someone who could calm her down in the blink of an eye. Without that stability, calmness in her life, Ashlesha was left fumbaling around in the dark, almost losing her sense of individuality.

I can't be that way when my life looks this grey so I let go.
I let go.
I don't understand why clouds sit on my head.
It looks like rain.
I feel shame.

Walking out in the balcony, Ashlesha gazed upon the stars, still twinkiling away. And no longer she felt angry at them. No longer did she blame them. No longer did she curse her fate. No longer did she blame her destiny. It was just it. There was nothing left to do but embrace it and move on. But today, was her day. To cope, to hide, to bury, to shy, to think. To weep. And she let loose.

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So? I know it was short, but that was all I had to write. Not really going to ask for comments this time round, wrote this more for myself. 😆

--shabz

SHABOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Omg I LOVED it! It was....amazing. No it was better than that! it was....shoot I can't think of a word. I love how you described Ash's pain when she found out that the one she loves belongs to someone else and how she realised that it was probably never meant to be and is ok with it. And I love how the lyrics went with it too! The whole song fic sort of made me want to cry...

I would write more but I can't express how much I loved this and how I love the way you wrote it.

Aww...this one was so sad, it nearly made me cry! Not that I don't applaud you for writing tragedy (I mean, we drama queens gotta stick together no? 😆) but what the hell were you thinking making me read something so depressing at 8 in the morning?! (AHAHAHAHA I made it seem like it's all your fault...🤣 Okay something is seriously wrong because I can't stop laughing at that now...I think I need to go back to sleep...)

But anyway, I like what you did because it gives an explanation as to where Ash went. Unlike what they're doing on the show. I mean, it's like she got sucked into a plot hole or something! And no one but Veera and Maya should get sucked into a plot hole!

I shall accept your version of what happened as the only version until the show tells me what happened to Ash.

I don't know if all that made sense right now because as said, it's EIGHT in the morning on a SATURDAY and God knows what I'm doing up =/

Love,

Bhav (: