Originally posted by: asmitamohanty
So saw last night episode...lot to unpack actually....but first let me talk about Shivansh...since his point of view and his side of the story is what I was waiting for
It is so endearing and heartwarming to see the impact Prarthana has left on him ...and that girl deserves to be needed,to be wanted like this...I soo soo loved it when he immediately turned around when he could feel the blanket over him and called," "Prarthana"....so yes .. it's not just about care ... it's the attention and care from Prarthana...she is irreplaceable in his life...More when she is not around....
Her absence becomes a presence louder than her physical presence ever was.
But still... he waits.
Not to bring her back â but for her to prove she was always his....
Even though the moment Kartik asked him if he loves Prarthana, he immediately remembers all their moments...he knows deep down what the actual answer is....but still on the face he denied..."Nahin"
Because loving her means:
Admitting he hurt her.
Accepting that he needs someone.
Risking vulnerability again â and heâs terrified of being abandoned one more time.
So he chooses the safer lie:
âI donât love her.â
âSheâs just a mistake I canât forget.â
But deep down, he waits.For her voice,Her truth.
Her footsteps at the door.
Shivansh is not waiting for justice.
He is waiting for redemption â and heâs using her innocence as the only proof that his heart might still be capable of something pure.
And Prarthana?
Sheâs still loving the man who breaks her â because somewhere, she knows:Heâs not doubting her. Heâs doubting himself....
That one line â âTum itni ziddi hojao, kaise bhi karke sach saabit karoâ â isnât just an angry command.Itâs a desperate, broken cry from a man who is drowning in his own doubts, guilt, and emotional paralysis.Shivanshâs outburst isnât about betrayal.
Itâs about helplessness.
About not knowing how to fight for what he wants â because he doesnât believe he deserves it.
Heâs watching the one person who gave meaning to his pain â Prarthana â slip away, and he doesnât know how to stop it, because:
He doesnât know if her love is real(looks like he has forgotten the confession đł)
He doesnât know if he is worthy of love
He doesnât even know how to believe anymore.
So instead, he shouts.
Pushes her away.
But deep inside, every cold word hides a plea:
"Please fight for us, Prarthana. Because I am too broken to do it myself.Tum itni ziddi hojaoâŚBe stubborn. Be relentless. Be the voice that silences even my mistrust.â
It means:
âI want to believe you⌠but Iâm scared.â
âI want to be with you⌠but I feel Iâve ruined everything.â
âI love you⌠but I donât think Iâm allowed to have you.â
The tragedy is
Heâs not fighting against her.
Heâs fighting against himself.
And in his raw, bitter confusion, heâs unknowingly handing her the sword to either fight for them or walk away.
Because deep down he knows:
Only Prarthana can save him from himself...
He says: "You betrayed me."
But his heart whispers:
âTell me you didnât.â
âLook me in the eye and break this lie Iâve created in my head.â
âPlease â make me the fool in this story, not the one who pushed you away.â
Because he doesn't pray with folded hands.
He prays by throwing daggers, testing her loyalty through fire.
Like last episode...he was actually suspicious wheather Prarthana would return and blabbering infront of Sonalika about it....but she came
And every time she withstands it, his soul cries â
"She stayed. She's still here."
That is what Shivansh wants:
To see her fight for the truth,
because he's too wounded to do it himself.
So yes.
He accuses her â not because he fully believes it â but because he desperately needs to be proven wrong.
Only then can he believe in love.
Only then can he forgive himself.
Only then can he allow himself to be loved
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