Ok I am going to be sharing something very very personal and you guys pls pls forgive me for this. It may seem unnecessary but bear with me, because for me, somewhere it’s cathartic.
I was afraid when I started watching the epsiode, I won’t be able to last the episode. So wanted to postpone the feeling and went and watched some other mindless show. Then took some guts to come back and watch this one… lot of back and forth…
Every single word Katha said in the beginning, as someone who has lost the love of my life spoke to me. It’s exactly the feelings I have had for some time now, it’s not what I started with. But in the last few years I have reached this point of peace. I lost the first man I loved, also my fiancé to a terrible car accident around 10 years ago. I was very very young. After that I did meet someone else and for a year I did feel he was amazing, BUT, I wasn’t at the place Katha is at then..so when he proposed marriage, I rejected him, I have always felt terrible for what I did to him. I know for myself it was the best thing. Because I needed to get to a place of this ability to demarcate, to compartmentalize to have certain closure not with my feelings but with the situation.
To me Katha represents that person.
I know yeh zyaada ho gaya. Again forgive me, if it was personal and unnecessary,
Anyways will be back with my take on rest of the episode over the weekend, but just wanted to say, I relate to Katha’s this side a lot. So you guys have to forgive my bias.