*~H.G.O.R.C. #550~*- $~Invites Only~$ - Page 88

aj keyliye itna kafi hai, baki phir sahi jab kabhe detail se baat ki main ne tab kahon ga,

Ap beshak jitna marzi bol lo bhai ke mujhe koshish karni chahiye, os ka jawab main de chuka hoon ke ast 15 years se yehi to karta aya hoon, lol bhool gaye ho Ap main kesa tha jab hum CC me batain karte they? Ap ko pata hai tab main sab kuch dil me rakh kar bahir se khush rehta tha, bus wohi kaam aj mujh se nahi ho raha, becoz main toot chuka hoon, ab khud se fight karne ki himat nahi hai mujh me...

fight to abhe bhe kar raha hoon lekin haar raha hoon... wo bhe khud se, lol ek naagin ne loser jo bana diya mujhe.

24 hours main kahin na kahin gum rehta hoon.. pareshan.. jo batain mere dil me hain. jo os naagin ki waja se meri life me problems ayin hain wo sab ki sab ek na ek din mujhe maar he dain gi...

or eyse halaaat me koi chotti si baat bhe galat ho jaye to mujh se dekhi nahi jati...

mera dimaag mere conrtol me nahi raha bhai. abhe kal ki baat hai. main long drive pe geya tha. phir wapis ghar a raha tha or wapis atey hove main apni sochon me gum geya, or road kahan ja raha tha kaha nahi mujhe hosh he nahi thi. or jab hosh aya to main 2 hours door nikal chuka tha city se, lol dheyan mera driving pe tha, ye bhe pata tha ke ghar ja raha hoon, lekin itna hosh nahi thi ke abhe kahan hoon or kab ani hai manzil. bus road ko follow karta raha, lol

eyese insaan se Ap umeed rakh rahe ho ke wo theek ho jayega?

koi kitna bhe strong kiyon na ho bhai. dard se insaan akhir ek din toot he jata hai...

jese Ap aj mujhe sab kehte ho na naagin se pehle mere friends yehi kehte they ke sab theek hoga,

or main ache time ko door se dekh kar he dar jata tha becoz wo paas a kar dard me badal jata tha.

phir naagin ayi jis ko main ne sach me samjha tha ke bus ab sab theek he hoga, lekin wo kya kar gayi btane ki zarorat he nahi, lol

meri he to galti hai sab.. kis ne kaha tha mujhe se ke os ki 6 months ki zid ke samne haar maan loon? abhe saza to banti hai na, lol

i need rest. pata nahi kab tak. kuch hours, kuch din, kuch months, ya hamesha keyliye bye bye :)

khush raho sab.

sorry RB main os din sad tha bohot to wesi batain kar di thin,

wese wo sach bhe to hain na.

mujhe na meri Family or mere Friends yehi kehte hain ke ansar share kiya karo dil ki baat, on sab ko complain hai ke main dil ki baat dil me he rakhta hoon or akela he sad rehta hoon,

lekin main eysa kar nahi sakta. kiyon ke bohot sari batain hain na.

or mujh se bola bhe nahi jata. start karne se pehle he ansu a jate hain. mujhe abhe tak samjh nahi a rahi ke Ap ne mujhe os din or os se pehle bhe strong kese kaha? or bhe kuch ne kaha kuch yahan stalk karte they or onhon ne bhe strong bola,

to kesa strong insaan jo dil ki baat bhe share na kar sake, lol

mujhe na WA pe kisi ne bohot tang kiya tha, koi 3 years i think, daily same batain ke in sab se niklo, eysa karo, karoge to hoga,

ek din main ne gusse me a kar bohot buri tarhan se dant diya on ko, phir sorry bola or kaha ke kya janti ho mere bare me ? lol

main ne abhe start he kiya tha share karna or koi 20 minutes bhe nahi hove they ke mujhe kaha geya bus karo is se zeyada main sun nahi sakti.

bus os din ke baad mujhe kabhe nahi kaha onhon ne ke eyse kiyon ho gaye ho..

koi bhe nahi janta 100%, balke 100 to kya koi 10% bhe nahi janta meri halat ko :) jo main share karta hoon ye kuch bhe nahi hai Bhai :)

in sab me se ek chotti si baat ye bhe hai,..

abhe koi bhe kahega ke in sab ko sach bata do? to theek hai aao meri jaga pe koi or bata do sach in ko...

You know Bhai Ap mere Friend bhe ho or Bhai bhe, Ap se mera bohot acha taluq or pyaar hai, is waja se har wo insaan jis ka taluq Ap se hai mere dil me os keyliye bhe respect hogi, lekin wo insaan jo Ap ke dil ke sab se zeyada kareeb hoga mere dil me bhe os ki utni he respect or pyaar hoga, becoz mere liye Ap khas ho or jo Ap keyliye khas hoga mere dil me bhe to os keyliye wohi pyaar hoga na Ap ki waja se :)

same eysa he mere sath hai...

or meri problem ye hai ke main jitna khud ko useless kehta hoon mere apne mujhe utna he acha feel karwate hain.

or ye jo hai na ye mera koi khas Friend bhe nahi hai. bohot kam milta hoon is ko main, reply bhe is ko tab karta hoon jab koi 30 din guzar jayein, lol but mujhe maloom nahi tha ke is keyliye bhe main khas hoon?

abhe baat ye hai ke mujhe kese pata ke main is keyliye khas hoon? jab ke main keh raha hoon ke ye mera koi khas friend bhe nahi? is ka jawab meri isi post me hain :) oper jo likha yehi is ka jawab hai..

SS next post me dikha deta hoon,

kya jawab doon main is ko? sach nahi keh sakta or jhoot kab tak bolon? lol

kya Ap mujhe btao ge mujhe kya karna chahiye? meri baat ko samjh kar jawab dena Bhai..

Ap ko pata hai koi bhe nahi janta tha ke meri life me hai koi,? lekin mere dost kehte they ke tumhari ankhain bata deti hain ansar, lol lekin main kehta tha ke no, koi nahi hai, jante ho kiyon? kiyon ke main khud darta tha , or mujhe os naagin pe trust he nahi tha.Ap se kaha tha na os din ke pehle he toot chuka tha main or mujhe khuhsi naam se he dar lagta tha ke nahi meri kismat itni achi ho he nahi sakti, bus is liye os naagin pe trust nahi tha 1st year me, mujhe yakeen nahi ata tha ke sach me?

lekin os ki 6 months ki zid ne sab badal diya, main ne phir open sab ke samne a kar kaha ke jo mere paas hai wo Ap sab ke dreams me bhe nahi a sakti os jesi :P

becoz main ne os pe ankhain band kar ke trust kiya tha,

abhe SS me jo bhe likha os ne os ko kya maloom ke sab khatam ho chuka hai.

or main kese btaon? mera sar meri he nazron me jhuk geya hai to on ka samna kese karon? lol

mera dost jo sab se kareeb hai na mere os ko sab maloom hai. wo bohot kareeb hai mere. lekin gusse me insaan kuch na kuch bol he deta hai.

last year os ko gussa a geya mujh pe or os ne eysa bola ( haan khud ko to dekho, is kabil hote to wo tumhain chor ke kahin or jati? ) eysa bolna tha ke os ko ehsaas hova ke wo kya bol betha hai.

os ne sorry bola or aj tak bol raha hai, lol main naraz nahi hoon os se or na he tab hova tha. but os ki ye line bullet ki tarhan mere dil me lagi... aj tak os ki ye baat yaad hai mujhe.. or wo mera sab se acha dost hai or wo bhe janta hai ke os ki is baat ne mujhe hurt kiya isi liye 1 saal ke baad bhe baat ho to wo sorry bolta hai ...

to yaar baki sab ko main kis mu se ye sab btaon? lol kiyon ke main he tha jo sar utha ke ankhon me ankhain daal ke, apni muhabat pe trust kar ke in logon se kehta tha ke jo mere paas hai is jesi kisi ke dreams me bhe nahi a sakti,

nahi bol sakta main sach, lol ye kehne ki himaat nahi hai ke wo bhaag gayi apne ashiq ke sath...

or kuch log mujh se bohot pyaar karte hain. blv me wo sach sun kar ro dain ge siraf is baat pe ke ke mere dil ke sath jo hova.

main ne os din bhe kaha tha ke os naagin ki timing bohot achi hai. life me aney ki bhe or jane ki bhe :P

os ko shayed os ki he zid ke wo 6 months yaad nahi hain. kiyon ke os ka wo khel tha, yaad to mujhe rahain ge na ke os ki 6 months ki zid meri zindagi me kya tofaan le ayi hai.. jab time tha os ko apni life se nikalne ka to wo gayi nahi, or jab nahi jana chahie tha to os ne apni marzi ki :) or meri kabhe suni he nahi. koshish bhe karon to block kar diya jata tha mujhe.

wese aj 10th nov hai.💔

meri Mama ki death ko aj 9 years ho gaye...

to aj on ki yadain dekhni chahiyein.

wo jab tak zinda thin main kahin na kahin khud ko sambhal leta tha. on ke jane ke baad main toot geya tha. sach kahon to kabhe na haarne wale ne haar maan li thi, lol life kahan ja rahi thi, kese ja rahi thi, kiyon ja rahi thi kuch maloom nahi tha,

Bhai mujhe har insaan ke sath wesa ban jana ata hai jesa samne wali ki age ho, agar Ap mujhe 2 saal ke bache ke sath dekho ge to Ap ko lage ga ke main bhe 2 saal ka hoon, lol

or agar Ap mujhe 70 years wale kisi insaan ke sath dekho ge to Ap ko lage ga ke main bhe 70 ka hoon, meri batain or meri harkatain change ho jayein gi on ke samne,

lekin Mama ke samne main kabhe bhara hova he nahi tha, 20 years ke baad bhe main on ki lap me lait jata tha, on ke room me ja kar on ke sath so jata tha , eyse rehta tha jese main 1 saal ka hoon abhe, apne ghar se main 1 din bhe door nahi reh sakta tha, mujhe kisi or cheez ki koi fikar nahi thi, just Mama ka sath chahie hota tha, is liye meri zindagi me on ki bohot kami hai, on ke bina main 1% bhe nahi hoon.. wo aj zinda hotin to shayed main is dard se nikalne me bhe kamyaab ho jata.

nonstop ansu nikal rahe hain meri ankhon se, shirt bhe bheeg chuki hai ab to, bus thora sa idhar udhar sochne ki jaga yahan online a geya ke thora sa time acha nikal jaye..

meri Sisters ke to khud ke bache hain na, Family hai, onhon ne Mama ke jane ke baad khud ko kahin na kahin sambhal liya,

but main wo nahi kar saka, kiyon ke main akela raha hoon zeyada time.. 2013 se ab tak zeyada time akela he hoon. is liye mujhe zeyada feel hota hai, naagin ke sath hone ke baad bhe mujhe feel to hota tha lekin utna nahi jitna abhe hota hai.. kiyon ke agar 1 taraf gham tha to dosri taraf khushi bhe thi meri life meri life me. wo naagin mujhe sad sone he nahi deti thi,

barhal bata diya ke meri life kesi thi Mama ke sath,

phir ek naagin ne a kar hath tham liya or is berang zindagi me rang a gaye. eyse lagta tha jese koi dead body zinda ho gayi ho.

pehla year to dar lagta raha ke nahi ye ho nahi sakta, i mean meri kismat itni achi nahi ho sakti ke khushiyan a jayein, lol lekin 1 saal ke baad galti kar betha main.. or maan liya ke nahi.! ab life badal gayi hai. or wo hova tha kiyon ke ankhain band kar ke trust kar betha tha main kisi pe.

phir wo hova jis ka main soch bhe nahi sakta. or haal wo hova jo pehle kabhe nahi tha. shayed Mama ki death ke baad bhe abhe mujh me thori bohot himat thi. jo baad me nahi rahi. ab main kisi kaam ka nahi hoon. lol

100% useless hoon. ek eysi dead body jo bus sans le rahi hai..

aj ke din mujhe Mama ko yaad karne ke ilawa ye bhe sochna hai ke is dost ko kya reply karon?

eysi baton ka jawab kese doon or kya doon?

1 mesg nahi hai.. jitni main ne aj total posts ki itna os ka 1 mesg hai or total 17 hain.. main ne to thora sa he cut kar ke dikhaya, full to nahi dikha sakta, 12:58 AM ko os ka 1st mesg aa tha or last 2:11 AM ko, itna time liya os ne sab type kane me to socho kya kya likha hoga os ne. mujh se zeyada to is me os naagin ko dua mili hai.. os ko lagta hai ke itne saal ho gaye becoz wo naagin dil ki saaf hai :P :P. os ko lagta hai ke wo naagin LOYAL hai,!

kya kisi keyliye koi eysa sochta hai? i mean meri life hai, mera dard mera hai, meri khushi meri hai bus,! lekin is ke 17 mesgs read karne keyliye 30 minutes ka time laga mujhe. eysi dua. itne sad mesgs, kese btaon is ko sach? kese dukhaon is ka dil me? or kese samjhaon ke wo jis ki tareef kar raha hai wo ek naagin hai,! jo aj kisi ke sath hai to kal kisi ke sath.

ye fark hai hum dono me, becoz naagin ke dost os ki izat bus os ke samne karte hain, warna wo bhe bhooke dogs hain, koi os ko naked dekhna chahta hai to koi os ko dekh kar enjoy karna chahta tha, eysi dosti ka to naagin ko matlab bhe nahi pata hoga,

ye duniya khatam to nahi hone wali? i mean ye mujhe apna IDEAL keh raha hai to agar mujh jesa insaan bhe kisi ka ideal ho geya to is duniya me or kya rahega kaam ka? lol

wese kis ko ideal bol raha hai? os ko jis ko itna bhe pyaar nahi karna aya ke wo naagin kam se kam os time tak to sath deti jo time main ne os ko diya tha,! summer 2016.

ek eyse looser ko ideal bol raha hai jo may 2019 me chilata raha ke wait. ek din de do mujhe kuch khas baat karni hai os ke baad block kar dena.. or 1 minute bhe nahi mila.

eysa insaan kisi ka ideal kese ho sakta hai? ye duniya lagta hai khatam hone wali hai jahan mere jese useless bhe kisi ka ideal ban rahe hain,

is ko number de deta hoon khud he puch le to acha hai, lol becoz mujhe to kabhe pata he nahi lag sakta ke kya kehna hai naagin ne, lol kam se kam is ko pata to chale ga ke jis ko 1 hour se ye loyal, acha, samjh raha hai wo real me kya hai,!

is dhakan ko bhe aj ke din he ye mesgs karne they, lol kal kar leta. abhe double tention me a geya main,

already Mama ko yaad kar kar ke sad hoon or oper se ye sab bhe,

aj ka din guzar jaye, kal main sab se pehle os ko dhond loon jis ne is ko btaya ,! kiyon ke is ko main ne kabhe kuch kaha nahi to is ko itni detail se kis ne bataya wo ab mere hath se nahi bachne wala.

keh raha tha 9 years ho gaye dono ko, nahi baba. 2 bhe nahi hove they poore.. 1 year and 8 months,!

100% sahi hai is ki baat. jab dono dil se chahain to duniya ki koi power alag nahi kar sakti, or khas wo jo bane he ek dosre keyliye hon, :P

or agar thora sa hint doon to wo log jo kahin na kahin, kisi na kisi tarhan se ek dosre se connected bhe hon? ye baat pehle nahi kahi na main ne kabhe?

aj is liye keh diya becoz chotti soch walon ko samjh nahi a sakti na ayi pehle kabhe or na ayegi to its ok itne se hint se koi problem nahi mujhe,

to sahi keh raha hai ye, koi power alag nahi kar sakti thi, lekin yahan ki story kuch or hai lol yahan kisi or power ne kuch nahi kiya,!

yahan osi ne alag kiya jis ne mera sath dena tha... agar os ka sath hota to phir koi power alag karne ka soch bhe nahi sakti thi,

or phir koi puche ga ke alag kiyon kiya ? sath kiyon nahi diya os ne? to reason hai na jo mujhe os naagin ne he diya tha ( meri cousin ki life me 1 saal me problem start ho gayin to mujhe laga hamari bhe hongi is liye main bhaag gayi apne ashiq ke sath )

kitna solid reason hai na?:P