Arshi FF: Ours Arnav-Khushi: Dil se Dil tak-CH :63,pg 242(NEW) - Page 163

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Hey guys...

So sorry...there was no update from me...

It was held up for many many things......personal issues...and I couldn't even update u about this..

Thanku for showing so much patience..

Iam going to write this week for sure anyhow and give u update by weekend.....

Pakka

Love , tc

Vandy

Thanks please update

Dil Se Dil Tak

Chapter -61

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Sorry guys for late update...I cant even expect for you to remember the story after such long gap....but thanks for waiting, showing so much love...thanku from bottom of my heart

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Bangalore

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Many things in life remain puzzle in a certain way which don’t have any answers. Though doctors assured Khushi that sheetal health is fine and that they will reduce the dose of anti-depressants., Khushi was still very much concerned about the fear sheetal dismayed seeing any unknown Men.

“May be because of traumatic experience. They will heal with time eventually. It could be her past reflux actions that could trigger sometime when she would face men and as result she might show that shock..” Doctor had replied

But Khushi had her own concerns..“Doctor,What if she would suddenly remember those moments , I mean to say rape incidents. How will she face then?”

“Well, that’s where and why you have to create a lively atmosphere for them. Keep them engaged.Even if they remember they will have N different reason which might give them enough confidence to take their life forward”

And that was sufficient reason for Khushi to say yes when Aman had requested for preponing the engagement date. And that her decision looked so much right, she was able to see Sheetal getting involved in all hush hush preparations and celebrations.

“Akka , you are happy and enjoying?” Khushi asked suddenly when she was cooking.

“Iam fine Khushi. Stop asking me so many times.. Iam super happy” Sheetal replied

“akka, you know right. Iam there with you always. You can always tell me if you feel something”

“Iam happy stupid..just that..your jijai is not here…he is not calling, that’s making me sad”

“mmm…he will soon..akka”

“.akka…evening will are going for saree shopping..” Khushi diverted the question

Though Khushi could see Sheetal smiling and replying, but there were many questions bothering her. Akka would smile and then become silent lost in her own world. Is there something which Iam not seeing? Is this natural for any person to behave like this? When they body has gone through this much?

And to all these questions, she knew who would answer. Shanti Devi!!. Afterall she was being dealing with women who had suffered from abusement, rape, trafficking and physical assaults. Mrs shanti devi was running an organisation dealing with all such women. Shanti devi had asked Khushi to meet her in office a day before. Khushi had finally decided to meet her, just to get peace for her mind.

Khushi was waiting for Shanti devi inside her cabin.

Though Khushi loved the nature and gratitude of Mrs shanti devi, but still part of her always wondered why she is helping her so much and more than that..why shanti devi is so sceptical about Arnav. The questions about whom she most of time showed interest in.

Khushi tried to overlook across everything ,, in her office but still her persona always remained mystery.

She was briefly taken back to buaji’s words…that is she married,? is she has children…?

Khushi quickly googled, but couldnot get anything. Something which she was already knowing, nothing more. Mrs shanti devi maintained low profile, away from media glare, away from public attention.

Yet again Khushi searched more and more. But nothing surfaced. She wondered, about her personal life.

As she was in her deep thought, shanti devi appeared.

“Sorry for making you wait”

“No Mam. Just came 5mins past”

“So Howz sheetal doing?”

“she is doing fine. More than I expected. She is recovering soon mam”

“You really think so?” Shanti devi asked being direct, as she settled in her chair.

Khushi gazed helplessly at Shanti devi and politely replied in positive tone “I mean, I feel many times she behaves odd, but she smiles, she is so much involved in household chores…….She don’t remember of any trauma and that’s good thing right mam?”

“Yesterday when I came to your home, I could see a certain helplessness, disappointment in her yes. A guilt popping, a fear surrounding, a face that wants to scream and run away.Thats not a good sign Khushi... Trust me Khushi, I could easily read women face and she is in trouble.

Khushi worried eyes questioned her back “Then what should we do mam? Iam trying my best, showing doctors and they give the positive statement”

“Sometimes even doctors see what is being shown. Its rarest of rare who would find the deep down can identify the problem. And trust me many of people suffering from depression show the similar behaviour like what I could presume from sheetal”

“Depression? I mean understand trauma effects where large, but when she don’t even remember about what shyam did to her, how she got being raped, trafficked, how could she undergo depression?”

“again the same question? How sure are you? What is the possibility that she has regained the full memory?”

“Means? She remembers and she is trying to hide?”

“Could be..or I may be wrong too”

“But in that case, she would cry right., she would feel something…getting raped, I don’t think so she will dare to smile. No mam. She don’t remember a bit. “ Khushi replied being confidently

“As I said, I may be wrong too. Why don’t you bring her here tomorrow or sometime in this week?I like to have some sessions with her”

“Sure Mam.” Khushi replied and then spoke in a very hesitative manner “ My engagement function is tomorrow. So maybe next time in a week”

“Oh that’s great news. Congratulations. You mentioned me about this few month before” mrs shanti devi replied in very single tone. She knew , once Khushi had mentioned. But she had also heard n rumours about Arnav pictures with Khushi. She has identified from her sources. She strongly believed that there was something between them. May be good friends. But she was not in any position to ask more about it , nor about Arnav

“Yeah Mam. Actually we thought having certain functions in home, could keep sheetal akka engaged. And trust me I could see that change. She is involved so much “ She heard Khushi replying.

“That’s great. Keeping them involved , making them talk much,. Not leaving them alone is what we need to take care of”

“certainly Mam.”

“Anyways Iam happy for you Khushi. Things have been settled in place”

“Yes Mam. “ Khushi replied and continued “Mam, please do attend tomorrow. .Consider my personal invitation”

Shanti devi eyes suddenly displayed being surprised .

“I don’t attend any functions Khushi.”

“oh…” Khushi couldnot understand if she should force, but she remained way silent.

And then her eyes zoomed as Shanti devi asked back “ Big event?I mean You are calling your star Friend of yours?”

“who?” Khushi asked as if she did not understood a bit. But she knew.

Shnati devi, enguped, ..and asked in calm voice..”Arnav Singh Raijyada. He looks to be your good friend”

“mm yeah Mam. You know him?” Khsuhi asked observing her way too much.

“just way, he is a good actor”

“Bingo. Yes. And I knew Mam, even somewhere you are his fan too”

Somewhere Shanti devi did not wanted to mention this, but she couldnot control it. There was a person sitting infront of her who knows his SON, and she wanted to ask about his well being…but Shanti devi controlled her falling tears , she looked aside , gazed here and there, momentarily took excuse from the room suddenly.

Khsuhi looked way surprised , as she saw Shanti devi suddenly rushing out.

As Khushi kept wondering why she looked odd, a voice message suddenly played in Mrs shanti devi tab., which she accidently kept open

“. Anjali Raijyada has left India. She is not in Mumbai”

That left Khushi now in utterly disbelief state. Why ? what on earth could Shantidevi keep information about Anjali Raijyada? Arnav ? May be she could be a fan of him. But Anjali raijyada? She was scratching her brain muscles. when she gets a call from her dearest friend Nandkishore. Who was back from Shanghai.

“yes will reach in anther 30mins. Payal came?” khsuhi quickly replied and then came out from there wondering still much seriously about mystery of shanti devi.

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Mumbai

“No. ! Iam not dating your friend Aman. I even cant imagine!.He was such a sweetheart when I met him in bar, few conversion turned us to get hooked. He was first amazing, but later turned wild !. I mean not the f**king wild but as if he was not enjoying but satisfying his inner animal. But what shocked me is when he stated that he is addicted with se* and prefers daily different women..”

Karan and Arnav surprisingly gaze at each other. The women continued.

“I was like is that something in real? Ok many has high libdo? Fine , inclined hormones too…but he mentioned about it openly. Too drunk he was.. I mean each day with different women.! ?”

Arnav who did not look bothered till then, the very next minute surprisingly questioned the lady back as she described more about it.

“He is what? What did you describe? Suffering from?”

“”CSBD-Compulsive Sexual Behaviour Disorder”

“Did he mention by himself? Arnav asked..

“I mean sort of when he was too much drunk. I googled his symptoms…”

Karan shockingly gazed back at Arnav and then laughed out still trying to frame the words “I thought iam the greatest womanizer, but Aman ? daily? Different..Goddamit!..he rocked..”

The other women looked at Karan in disbelief.

Karan looked at the staring eyes of Arnav and ziplocked. “I mean I was before..not now….!”

Women continued-“How on earth could someone even be like that…You know guys I seriously googled and it’s a sexual hyper disorder.

Karan addressed the women…“On a serious note..yeah. Have heard Men with high libdo, but this is something strange..with different personality everyday. “ karan replied back. And further continued addressing arnav. “Something rare right Arni? , was he same even in college ? He was so hesitate to talk to women. We wondered, if he is actually virgin category!. F**ig…and now..?”

Arnav was so thoughtful hearing something unusual mental and sexual disorder. And then he questioned straight to karan in very thoughtful way..”hmm, But the thought, why is he marrying ? “

Karan looked at Arnav showing response in a way..”F**k..exactly…why should he.?”

Karan looked at women beside and asked-“ may be u have mistaken? ..he is getting married soon. May be he could be womanizer. But not sort of what you are describing”

“Trust me. He is psychopath suffering from strange women sexual consideration”

Arnav could remember how he has seen him going with women even on his bday night, but he ignored , he was so used to seeing all these after the drink parties.

“But again, the question comes back to same point..why would he prefer for committed relation. It would be so unfaithful on his part” Karan said, Though Arnav did not give him any reply back.

Arnav replied after a pause “Reminds me of a movie Dark peripheral zone.”

Karan raised his eyebrows , indicating what’s the context.

“The bell smith movie!. His portray of negative physiological character. Where he had something similar characteristics’ Arnav replied.

“Yeah I remember, “ the women whispered and continued..”He would mask his wife’s face daily , he would paint his wife face , just to feel he is sleeping daily with different women!”

“f**king Yess.. What a pyscho movie …Arnie, you guess Aman would be something same?”

Arnav did not respond.

“Arnie, Don’t you think we should do something?”

“What the !. Its his life Karan. Its his issue he is dealing. How gonna you want to interfere. We don’t have any proof and moreover its just the theory she is presenting. No one knows the truth.And what would you ask for? How much to what extent its true? “ Arnav finished..

“Poor Khushi. If Aman is suffering from something this animalistic issue, splits personality and what all, ..her life is hell…!” Karan said suddenly out of no context which turned Arnav’s gazed suddenly at him back.

“Khushi?” Arnav asked being shocking.

“yeah. Aman’s would be wife name is Khushi right? He mentioned”

Arnav suddenly shifted his face at right side to avoid everyones gaze. Karan could understand what he might have felt.

“What happened ARni.You presumed to be Khushi Gupta right. ?“ Karan mocked him silently

“why should I? I mean clearly we know both are not same” Arnav replied in fury

“Arnie. For a moment just imagine, What if they are same ? What if both Khushi’s are same? You would not mind informing then?

“What the f**k Karan. Whats wrong with you. Why are we infact pointlessly discussing on things which are baseless, without proofs.?.Lets drop the matter”

Karan could read his sudden inner turmoil thoughts as he looked Arnav gazing at his mobile.

Arnav Checked khushi’s chat message again. Her last reply did not come.

His fingers were making its own rhymical movements to type something, to text her, but he was holding it back.

THe words of Khushi kept echoing suddenly “His name is Aman Verma”

It burned his nerves next moment as Karan’s questioned bothered..”what if they are same.? “

It was not difficult for him to get it confirmed if both are not same, but he was way too confident, both can never be same…

He was playing with his mobile screen, something very much bothering deep inside., but he was still not sure of indeed to actually ask Khushi. As then his mobile suddenly rings of call from his friend Aman Verma…

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Bangalore

In the middle of all the life was throwing, in midst of all the hectic schedules, Khushi still took time to meet her best buddy Nandkishore who had come for holiday break. Even though payal gave regular updates to Kishore about Khushi , Nandkishore still enquired about Khushi every now and then

Nandkishore later cheered her up for being so strong in her life, but somewhere he did not like when Khushi told about Arnav.

“Khushi, I think you should not have held Arnav responsible for Lavanya’s committing suicide. Common the truth is out right, she has been struggling with mental sickness from many days..She was taking pills . Its cause of overdose. ”

“So? Why couldnot Arnav help her before? Why he has to break up with her when she was suffering so much beneath?”

“Because khushi, he did not love her and she betrayed him by stalking him, by interfering him for what he don’t like. Iam with him. Iam with Arnav. I can understand.“

Khushi sharply stared at Kishore and then turned towards payal”All boys are same!.. Payal be careful” She backfired giving a sharp glare.

“Common Khushi” Kishore replied back

“what?”

Kishore was hesitant and looked towards payal and then again at Khushi..”Arnav likes you, even you know that , Don’t wait for him, You TELL him that how much u like him”

Khushi suddenly got up. “I have my engagement tomorrow. Shopping is going on, preparations are going on, what the F**k, you guys are talking. Arnav will atmost remain now just as my friend, may be even that friendship may fade away as time will pass, as I will get engaged to Aman..as ..” Khushi was suddenly lost imagining Arnav memory..she couldnot continue anything…words stopped coming out,,,…and then she slowly whispered.

“and slowly even he will forget me..time will make everyone move on in their lives..thats how it is…...law of nature…”

Kishore and payal both knew, she had made her mind..even she was helpless. As Khushi gotup, Kishore spoke suddenly.

“Khushi ..will not discuss that matter..but wait,,,I have something to tell you Khushi…Its not about Arnav. Its about Job”

“uff..Iam trying guys. Iam applying, but I don’t know not getting enough calls. Iam lost, Iam defeated”

“No No Khushi. I mean I know about one opening, Look there is a great job offer. This is startup company . They don’t bother to look for if you have worked in MNC or you were blacklisted . The work matters . Work from home, awesome salary”

Kishore then further explained and bought confidence in Khushi. Khushi looked excited, felt lucky as she heard more about the job possibility. She decided to prepare hard after her engagement.

Khushi was happy, because the job means money, security,. She would repay all of loans, specially Arnav’s. She would find new house to stay. This house was of aman’s friend and she needs to vacate it soon in a month she had decided already

She had tears in her eyes, imaging how the job could change everything in her life.

Khushi was excited for applying for the JOB. Nandkishore and payal were equally happy to see Khushi being so much open hearted free soul after long time. The job thing took off so much unnecessary tension from her shoulders. It would keep her busy and away from constant thoughts about Arnav.” She imagined.

“ok guys. Need to go for saree shopping with akka and then ring purchase with Aman... Kal jaldi ana dono.. And payal you are coming to stay at our place. I need you beside me..”

“haan ha… …khushi…night 8 tak ghar aajungi for mehandi..”

As Khushi took their leave, Payal questioned Kishore about the reason he was persisting so much about Arnav again.

“Kishore, I had told you. She had made up her mind to marry Aman, and no one can infact take that off. “

“I thought I will try convincing her again”

“Na..No point. And unnecessary you dragged the matter. Poor girl. She is trying to forget about Arnav…”

“Cant you see, she is not trying to forget but she is forcing herself to forget him”

“But what is the use? She is right. No point thinking about Arnav. He is not committed right. He may care, but kya bharosa na aise film stars ka….that Lavanya case…sometimes I too feel its better she is marrying aman. Life will be stable atleast”

“Common…till yesterday u were the one insisting me we should change her mind….and I don’t know how much Arnav wants to show commitment, but he truly cares for her…than anyone I suppose…”

Payal was silent. Kishore continued. “That Job offer…..Do you think its from any of my friend? Na... Its from Arnav Singh Raijyada”

“What?” payal jaws dropped hearing that.

“Yes!!!.. Yesterday he had given me a call ..about this “

“What? Arnav Singh Raijyada called you? To tell this?”

“hmm. Even I was surprised. The startup is one of his friends and he knows if he would tell Khushi the same she would not even accept. And thus he asked me to push her for her to take this interview..Mind-blowing salary, ..Its everything he has arranged. …Now don’t you think how much he cares for her after all the thing which is happening and happened..…”

“Shal we tell this to her after she gets offer letter….may be she would” Payal asked

“NO way. Mr Raijyada has strictly told me not to disclose his name…It like a proper interview process. He is confident she would clear it. It is just that he has showed the opportunity. May be he knew Khushi was way too running forgetting about her career etc…He was actually concerned I guess..”

“Waoo… That’s so sweet of him. But what if she comes to know?”

“Who would tell?

“hmm…anyway..she needs job right now…It would keep her off from all the unnecessary stress”

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Mumbai..

“Aman verma calling”

Arnav was so cautious as he was speaking to Aman in call. None of Aman words or tone was indicating or giving a slightest of hint that would make some one doubt that he could be even suffering from something or Could be suffering from physiological actions. May be Arnav for sure could believe or atleast guess for sure Aman could be womanizer but not to the extent what the other women had said that he must be suffering from split sexual disorders, who can be actually cruel to his wife..

Aman just persisted on coming to his engagement at the other end.

“Arnav, You cannot reject. I need my Favourite Man for sure for my engagement tomorrow.”

“Aman. I for sure would come for Marriage. But today, tomorrow. Its impossible. I have commitments. Highly tight packed schedule”

Arnav politely rejected and later cut the call as he was getting a call from his ad company prod for his shooting schedule.

As Arnav finally ended the call, Karan spoke .“I booked the flights to Bangalore ..in an hour.. Anyway Aman’s engagement is there…I have enough solid reason now to go to Bangalore.”

Arnav raised his eyebrows . He did not speak anything but.

“Look Arni, I know you are angry. But I have to meet Khushi and tell. She needs to know that may be sheetal knows everything. I need to findout. I know I cant meet sheetal..but..khushi can be cautious “

“Good luck. Don’t pull me in any of your affairs from here on”

Karan observed that Arnav looked irritated.

“I will message about Khushi well-being” Karan mocked out

Arnav just avoided his gaze and got up from the couch angrily.

“By the way what did Aman say..?By any chance you are thinking about Aman’s obsessive sex disorder? Iam seriously thinking to put this question to Aman tonight ” Karan spoke and laughed..

“No.” Arnav replied sharply, paused and continued. “Iam actually seriously wondering why is Aman insisting me to this level to come to his engagement. Not today, not yesterday, but he Is been requesting from last 3 months!. That’s strange”

“whats so strange in that?. You are a celebrity. And clearly who doesnot like that limelight in function. Talk of town. He wants to attract the stage and the audience. That’s it”

Arnav was silent in his thoughts.

“So you are coming today?. I will ask my pc to book tickets for u as well?” karan questioned.

“”No way. I have assignments to windup today and tomorrow. I have clearly said No to Aman”

“You are just avoiding to come to Bangalore?” Karan questioned him straight

“Why should I?”

“You know the reason”

Arnav accelerated the engine without commenting anything further. He had his own constant inner bothering of Aman and Khushi.

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Bangalore

“Sheetal Di….ye saree dekho na..you will look so good in this….your favourite Pink and yellow combination”

“hmm.. ab muje koi rang acha nahi lagta Khushi..pata nahi kyu”

Khsuhi gazed at her sister with an emotional site who was looking Lost as sheetal held the smooth silk saree in her hand . “I don’t want anything new Khushi. Don’t spend on it..”

“common di. Why?”

“Tere shyam jiju nahi nahi hai na..Mann nahi lag raha” sheetal spoke avoiding khushi’s eyes.

Khsuhi did not understood what to tell..”Is Di really missing shyam.? To what extent she remembers about shyam…what and how should I even ask…What will happen if she regains her memory..”

“Khushi..sab chod tu..you have to now focus on your future head… See this saree red one…your favourite..”

Sheetal picked up a saree and wrapped around Khushi and looking at her in mirror whispered..”I want you to think about yourself first… live happily ..enjoy..stop worrying about everything else…You are lucky Aman is so good and caring..”

“Di..” Khushi was about to ask something when sheetal again interrupted..”Chal wrap this saree…its your day …today and tomorrow ”

“Di..aap khush ho. This engagement function got fixed suddenly?”

“Haan na…ye kya saval tera..”

As Khushi was checking the rate of saree, her mobile beeped with miscall and then got cut off, then she heard a message beep. She took it from her bag and her eyes widened as she saw the message from Karan.., she immediately read the message

“Sorry to message you Khushi. But can we meet please?. I am in bangalore and I have urgently something important to tell”

“Sorry karan,..I cant meet. Busy”

“Iam sorry , but for sheetal sake? Its urgent “

Khushi did not respond.

“I had some belongings of her and few medical reports. I thought u may need it..”

There was pause… Karan requested again…she messaged her address…..

After half n hour, as she got the message of karan reaching to the saree spreeing mall..Khushi asked garima and buaji to be with sheetal. Khushi quickly went out to meet karan.

“you could have couriered it. You Did not have to fly from Mumabi to give this documents“

‘yeah..but I wanted to meet..” Karan was speaking, but Khushi cut shot her..

“Look karan, I had warned you. We don’t want any interference of you in our life. You had to be punished and how could u even feel to meet us after all u have done . Please…Iam forgetting and don’t make me remember the things that di was raped by u…”

“iam sorry..i know..but I thought I had to tell u personally…I guess sheetal remembers everything”

“how could u tell that..”

“u met her?”

“how could u still talk about sheetal..plz forget about her…everything is past..”

“I know I know..but I accidently saw her…not any intention to meet, but wanted to see her last time, but the way she saw me….i think she identified me. Afterall she was there in my home for 2 months”

“she did not had any memory then....yeah but she remembers.. I could gyrantee”

“so what ur point now..shd I ask her About u? make her suffer if not? That if she remembers karan raped her not?”

“no no…that’s not my intention. But u could observe her..i mean if she remembers and if she is hiding, then its way too cautious she shd be”

“I dont think so, she is enjoying perfectly..I have my ENGAGEMENT tomorrow..iam happy, even she is happy” Khushi persisted…stressed on word. Engagement, as if she was stressing on that word..to convey to his friend that she is moving on..she has moved on..but karan could easily read her eyes..

“oh congratulations…”

“thanks and bYe”

“Khushi..” karan called out..

“Arnav is leaving India this week. Actually he..” Karan was saying something, when Khushi again did not allow him to speak..

“Good for him” Khushi replied and turned back to go..…she stopped on her tracks and turned to reply back..”Please don’t meet me or try to meet akka..….I don’t want her past to come..pLease I beg u”

Karan felt total shattered. He wanted to follow her, wanted to see sheetal once…..but it pained him..her each word pained him…for sheetal goodness sake…he wished to stay away from her…but he was not one to let go off easily too…….

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Mumbai

They say when truth comes out, your mind feels less heavy. But when the truth you thought could have affected your loved ones, it somewhere makes you loose your trust on them. Some relations are bound by blood, which no matter what be you need to keep it alive, and some relations which are bound by friendship, by love, by attachment and when you feel you are betrayed, you need to do something. You tend to feel more towards them…

Arnav knew from beginning Khushi could never breach any work contract. She cannot be disloyal towards her work. He had seen her. He has seen her loyalty towards her commitments. It pained him when he out to know she suffered under their client contract, but now it was paining him more when it was because of his own blood, because of his soul sister, everything happened.. He knew Khushi was too way egoistic, too way more admant and would never accept any help with respect to getting job. But he also knew how she was more stressed out with everything she was going through. And he know the only solution to her problem is that she should start working, It would make her independent, it would make her lively back and it would make her bit forget about all homely tensions she was going through.

He had very much big contacts where he knew most of the startup CEO , friends list who had opened their company and were doing well. It was just his phone call. He was confident Khushi would clear the process and would grab the job. He could only think of nandkishore to give this opportunity to Khushi to apply. To convince her from his end.

A smile passed Arnav’s lips ,as he read back Kishore message that Khushi indeed agreed to apply for job and was excited.

As he was wrapping his shootings scene, he again ringed up Anjali but she did not pick up. Worried he called Manohar.

“Dad, Why Anjali Di is not receiving my call? “

“I had a talk with her PA. she is doing good. Arni, You know her. She is way too emotional internally. She is with so much guilt thinking every moment that she has hurt you so much.”

“Yeah but she knew I love her. And I agree I was disappointed, I was upset with her.., but we cleared the stuff at lighter note. She just has to correct her mistakes..thats what I would expect now..”

“Yes exactly. She is feeling more bad, because you ended in lighter note. If you would have scolded, shouted , I suppose she would be have been her normal self. Sometimes silence kills the other person”

“Cmmon dad. I need sometime. “

“I know son. You are way to good. She just needs bit of time. I guess being alone is what she could do best to herself. She needs to clear all the clutter from her mind”

As they were talking, Arnav was getting a ring back from Aman. This indeed was something way more than unsual of Aman.

“why is he pursing me so much” He received the call at last ring…

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Bangalore

“Khushi, Actually its very much possible for 2 humans to be in relationship without there needing to be some public reason for that relationship” Arnav asked as they were climbing down great wall of china.

“Yeah, but I do live in a space were that public official reason is necessary Mr Raijyada. “

“Iam still amazed, with the old thoughts you are pushing yourself. how true you are to yourself. Khushi? Just because your society, your parents need, you don’t want to push yourself in marriage. Do the things when you are genuinely ready. Marrying because you have crossed 25, marrying because your mother demands, marrying because you need financial security. Stop giving urself all excuses.. stop yourself on Fire to keep someone else warm Khushi. Are you ready ? You really want it? ANser the question for yourself” Arnav asked and extended his hand for Khushi to climb for one of the steps..

Khushi gazed at his eyes…held firmly his hand and then climbed up…She stared at him closely and reply back ..“No. Absolutely not. Its’ my decision.”

Arnav took his hands from hers… Khushi stepped away from closeness suddenly…and then continued..

“I mean yeah to some extent its society pressure, I was not initially ready for marriage. I wanted to work , travel more etc , but its not that I never wanted to marry also. Why cant a good companion wont fulfil ur dreams? I could still work, I could still travel…and still take care of my parents. I am lucky to find someone who truly respects my decision. And eventually when everyone looked happy , things were all perfect, I couldnot find enough reason to disagree more” As Khushi replied, she could see Arnav face looking bit irritated. Is it because A man cannot tolerate any other mans praising or is it because she was happy on her decision of marriage and her selection.

“Mr Raijyada leave mine. Why you have to force yourself to be single? For sure, sometime in this journey of life, your heart would had craved to be in serious relationship , your heart would have craved to be in long lasting love, why you have to punish your heart by keep on lieing that you hate to provide commitment. Why? Why why? “ Khushi raised her eyebrows…

Arnav looked at her eyelids …and then back towards the wide sky…the early morning sun rise wide spreading its wings “I never want to be in long lasting relationship. Its my decision. Sometimes for the reason that they become heavy as time passes…and I don’t like to tie weights to my ankles…you know ,with pressure you cant walk…it would pain eventually”

Khushi gazed straight into his deep eyes . His every words were somewhere true. At sometime every relationship gets heavy. More than love it start becoming need and necessary.

“I guess, It all depends on things we prioritise Mr Raijyada….” Khushi replied as the eastern winds from great wall of china blew they faces…as they kept walking….

A sharp sudden tap on her shoulder, and Khushi was back to her sense . She realised she was sitting in Car with Aman.

“Khushi, where are you lost?”

“Khushi blankly smiled. And then replied in low tone “Was just worried about akka health and uncertainty sometimes..….. “ And the. Silently whispered within herself “how fast the time is running”

“Trust me Akka will be fine.” Aman replied, holding her hand.

“I thought I will get the job first, shift to new rented home, and then all this functions and all. “

“chill Khushi…You need not worry about house. Its of my best buddy…mmm….…leave it…forget it for a while….please…”

Khushi surprisingly looked at Aman and then turned to other side…

As Aman accelerated his car. Planning different things, but Khushi was giving that half cut smile… she was missing Arnav, she knew….It was getting hard for her to forget him and his memories… but sometime life gives you no option to pause and look back and turn the things, sometimes life gives no option to pause and confess your love, sometimes things are not in your hand, sometimes you are not confident on yourself, sometimes you decide to bury your love deep inside your heart, because that your love is still not ready for you…and you cant just wait for it without any hope…sometimes they come for the purpose in ur life..

Khushi silently wiped her silent tears from her finger tip….The love she crazily felt for Arnav as FAN , she did not knew which moment it turned to be something as real LOVE towards him as PERSON than as an ACTOR. She was crazily liking him as an actor, but the feelings which she felt towards him lately were different. It was more than Attraction, It was longing to talk to him, It was longing to see him, It was longing to share and talk with him. It was not just attraction, It was just not love. It was beyond Love , a special connection you feel not with anyone. And she knew she would never feel the same with ANYONE. It was Him, it will always be HIM. Rest all will be compromise to a heart, to that of your inner soul, silently residing.

and right moment though she might not have felt anything for Aman, but as her mother told, AMan has given her so much she has ever asked for..He has trusted her, he has held her through difficult times,. He would be good husband. And that’s necessity , responsibility, protection and subtle Social label takes the priority finally.

Mind has given approval for marriage, but her innerself knows,,,,she is marrying with that weight in her ankle….It will be heavy..but she will manage…….

It was tough for her as the engagement shopping and preparations proceeded. Hell tough. She hold her heart numerous times, to just focus on present but its not that easy..

She checked on mobile screen, but there were no new messages from Arnav…He has moved on. She knew her remarks last time were so rude from her part. Its good in one sense, she imagined. .

“Khushi, You have a surprise on our engagement tomorrow” Aman spoke

“hmm surprise?”

“Do we tell surprise thing before the surprise…someone who will blow off your mind”

Khushi confusedly looked at him in question again…

Aman just smiled away…..but smile was something different..

But then Aman was equally worried, as Arnav scheduled were fixed and he had still not given his nod. But he desperately wanted Arnav to come to his engagement, this is the day he waited for. And he knew what has to be done…

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Mumbai

“Is it always so tough for men to drop a message first, to start a conversion first? To keep it connected? Why we always feel men are least bothered? Men don’t feel to drop a message first? Not because they don’t feel, its because they don’t know to bring it up. It should be numerous times in Day when Arnav wanted to drop a message to Khushi, but he was holding it back. He might have a peeped into many times to check for any of messages from Khushi. But there came none from last 2 days and that was bothering him

He was winding up his projects fast. He had a flight booked to US coming weekend. He was going to onboard for Hollywood project. He should have been ideally happy, but he was not. He was restless. There was no focus on his work, It felt all baseless for him suddenly.

He was missing Khushi…YES….But that was not just the problem…but it was knowing that she is never coming back…that was killing him internally. The thought was disturbing him..

That pain was worse…. Sometimes we wonder which pain is worse, the pain of what happened or the ache for what never will…..and that we have to leave for rest of the life…

He called Karan , Arnav knew he wanted to hear something about Khushi..but he was not sure what to ask..

“Reached safely?”

“yeah..”

“”mmm karan..”

“I met Khushi today..”

“ok..” Arnav simply replied as if he least cared.

“ok Then. Talk to you later..”karan replied back. He waited for Arnav to ask about sheetal.

“How z sheetal doing>? Is she fine?” Arnav hurriedly asked

“Arnie. I know you want to ask about Khushi. She is doing fine..”

“I did not ask about her..”

“Arnav, Khushi is getting engaged tomorrow…”

As Arnav heard Karan saying that , he swallowed a hard lump. It made his nerves go high, it felt irritated suddenly…

“I didnot ask anything about HER, karan!”

“I felt though you wanted to know about her.. ok then catch you later. Going to the BOX pub, AMAN IS throwing a party…well iam curious to ask about his sexual desires… let me see if he will disclose anything…”

“Have fun!”

“You are coming tomorrow…?

“Not again. NO!”

As Arnav cut the call, he hurriedly walked towards his car wrapping up his shoot all of a sudden.

“She is getting engaged tomorrow.”

Karan’s words were rebounded…

Arnav was feeling restless, agitated..the only thing that was bothering him why all of a sudden Khushi decided to get engaged so suddenly. He remembered , she had mentioned it after 15 days, then what made her to take the call so urgently….

He went to his flat straight

He checked the time. It was 8pm. After Walking up for nearly exact 10mins at faster rate. He decided to make a call to Khushi. To give his heart a peaceful rest.

He could hear her voice after 5th ring.

“Khushi? Are you fine? Why are you breathing up so heavily”

“Wo WO. Mr raijyada. Kuch nahi..Just fast climbing” Khushi took a deep breath. Only she knew how fast her heart beat skipped seeing Arnav number coming on her screen. Her home was bustling with few relatives. She took the phone, and hurried towards the terrace to receive his call.

“climbing where?”

“Mount Everrest!”

“What the?””

“Terrace Mr Raijyada.!! “

“oh..”

“mmm so ?”

“So ?”

“You called me Mr raijyada. What for?”

“Yeah…Its ..mmm Its……mm….When will you repay my loans” Arnav constructed something finally

“I guess we had a chat on this. Within 2 months. And u agreed”

“15 days have gone. Have you secured any job? “

“Iam trying..and infact soon I think I may get good one..”

“How you will get one ? I think you are lot busy preparing for your marriage. I don’t see any ray of light that may show you might infact interested in doing job or second thought paying my money back”

“oh..i forgot ..news reach faster nowdays…Karan informed you so soon..Yes….its tomorrow…and “

“I least bothered what he told me, or what you are doing in life. Its your choice. You get engaged today or after a week” Arnav replied irritated.

“Mr Raijyada. Don’t worry. I will pay you within 2 months. Aur waise bhi…I was fully secured in job, if it was not your Sister!”

As Khushi realized what she said, she bite her lips and suddenly paused. After their last conversion they never had any talk regarding this matter. But the sentence did pinch Arnav very much..

A pause, a pause..”Khushi. Iam sorry..for everything that happened because of Anjali..”

“Wo Mr raijyada..” Khushi was not understanding for what she has to reply

“Iam sorry.. I never thought …”

Before arnav could complete the sentence..khushi cut shot him “Even Iam sorry Mr Raijyada”

“Sorry for?”

“Wo….I should have not held you responsible for Lavanya’s death. Iam sorry. I got bit emotional”

There was a pause again at Arnav side..

“Mr raijyada?”

“Yeah..yeah..”

“Iam sorry….” Khushi stressed again..

“Its Ok. Bade bade desho mein aisi choti choti baatein hoti rehthi hai”

Khushi wideopened opened her mouth , total in surprise, to what she heard.

“Mr Raijyada , you saw DDLJ film?”

“Not fully…but yeah bit of….”

“Kiase lagi?”

“To be honest…BORING”

“ahh…very bad…” As Khushi was speaking, she hears bujai calling her for mehandi….”5mins buaji…coming” Khushi shouted

“I gotta go MR raijyada. Its mehandi…..The engagement ceremony is tomorrow ..it all happened all of sudden….” Khushi then explained how because of sheetal akka, they had to keep it urgently and she later said how its keeping her akka so much involved and busy.

“very happy to know that” Arnav replied back.

There was a pause at both the ends. Its how the special connection you feel towards someone. However much you fight, how much ever you make other upset, but at the end, nothing would matter…a simple talk, that voice would make you feel connected again, as if the person never went away…as if the person was always there….

Khushi then questioned in a very lower tone.

“Mr Raijyada, Will you come tomorrow to my engagement party?”

Minute pause from Arnav end..

“You want me to come?”

“NO”

“NO?” Arnav asked being surprised

“just like that..May be I cant..”

“what you cant?” Arnav asked, his voice husky

“Nothing..kuch kuch hota hai..aap nahi samjhoge”

“what? Arnav asked suddenly confused.

“Na nothing…”

“Khushi you are happy?”

“Yeah Mr rajijyada very much”

“oh kay.. Best wishes then…I will be leaving off to US coming weekend”

“Yeah karan told me…Best wishes for you too”

It was hard for both of them to cut the call..

Khushi kept looking at the stars…Then suddenly she could hear payal from downstairs calling her..

“Khushi…Parlour aunty has come. She has to see which hairstyle would suit your face!”

“I told you Payal, I don’t want any parlor help”

“Common…Its your Engagement tomorrow….May be I will tell her for tying it all..come soon whom you are talking”

“Yeah yeah coming”

Arnav clearly heard everything Khushi said. He could in a minute imagine Khushi in all hairstyles…

“Open Hairs” Arnav told..

“haan?”

“Open Hairs would suit you!” Arnav told, his voice very much low..

Khushi was silent. She did not understand what to reply.

She again heard payal calling her to get down fast……

"Khushi"

"mm?"

"In the middle of everything, dont forget you are very much talented. You deserve lot more. Start applying for jobs Khushi " Arnav told in a very caring yet commanding tone.

Khushi was feeling way too emotional. Otherwise talkative women she was, today she was feeling very much heavy ...almost in verge to cry..but she was controlling....

She didnot talk..Rather Arnav had any thing much to say..Sometimes the heart speaks so much, that we rather give damm any attention to it and allow any words to come out....

Silence was overtaking....

“Yeah…okay then .bye...Lets keep in touch “ Arnav finally broke the silence which was surfacing between them..

“No” Khushi replied

“NO? You don’t want to be in contact? I thought we cleared out all the misunderstandings.” Arnav asked being in surprise again

“Its tough Mr Raijyada. Its really tough to keep in contact and yet…!..” Khushi spoke being emotional and she coudnot further complete her sentence..

“Khushi? You okay?” ARnav asked being concerned

“hmm..mmmmm…..okay bye take care. “ Khushi replied and cut the call suddenly. She wanted to cry hard, louder, ..but yet she couldnot…..She looked at the stars up above shining in far away sky……asking them the question “WHYYYY?”

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Mumbai

It was just when things were getting more difficult for Arnav to accept , Aman dropped a message early morning .

It was his Engagement invitation card…--------Aman Verma and Khushi Kumari Gupta……

-with a note and a pic

“Buddy, Do attend the function today….Not for me but for your special fan…”…

And then his eyes left frozen seeing the picture of KHUSHi with AMAN

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END

Hey friends,

kaise laga? how was ittt?

I end up delaying update, and when the deadline would come up...i would sit in a hurry and write in a night out... ...Dont know how much justice iam giving to my writing and to story line ....

hoping you liked it..

waiting for your comments as usual...:)

hoping to update in a week..

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Vandy....