I have a different opinion about Sai's insecurity in the Shruti track. When she went back to their room on Diwali night she had one question, does Virat love her as a wife. I thought maybe she realized she also loves him and was happy thinking maybe he does too. But the scene at terrace with Devi the night changed my thought and it made sense to me why she said 'love her as a wife'. After Virat recovered from his gunshot, Sai was ready to leave CN. But Virat stopped her with husbands right. Thats what she wants, husband and wife, she wasnt even thinking of love. Maybe she was okay even if he doesnt love her. When he asked if the reason for him not being committed to Patralekha is because she would feel bad, Virat turned back the question to her. She does not want to be the reason for it. But when he said that he only had sympathy for Patralekha at the cafe during MiMo track, she understood he no longer 'loves' Patralekha. Their marriage was a deal because of his vaada to Patralekha. Now that Patralekha is out of his heart, she thought maybe their marriage can be real, real husband and wife, not a deal. Thats why the question 'love her as a wife'. She started to think as a wife consciously. But when he behaved differently after returning from mission, she started to doubt her own thinking and her mind went into overdrive. Him accepting that he did register Shruti as Mrs Chavan at hotel really shook her. Even the morning before she left CN, she said something like..there was Patralekha before, and now Shruti, she doesnt make a difference to him. Its like he never considered her as a wife, just like he said 'I will never be your husband' before their marriage and their marriage is still a deal, so her question was left unasked as she left. But when she find out the truth from Sada, he understood Virat's action since returning from mission. She got the answer for her question without asking him. Thats why she went back to him. Maybe she thought Virat also understood why she behaved the way she did, thats why the imagination of how he would react when he regained consciousness.
When she realized she loves him, she wanted to confess. Her expectation is her first imagination but with him being in anger, she feared the second imagination, with love there should be trust. She wants to make his anger go away before confessing so that he will be in a state to understand her. Maybe she is right too, based on the conversation between Virat and Sunny at jhula. Just like she hold onto the deal, Virat is holding onto the divorce. She knew why their marriage was a deal and did not let go of it until he cleared his equation with Patralekha. Virat is now holding onto the divorce and she wanting to go away from him. Until he understand why she behaved that way he will keep holding into it. I dont know if she really know Virat loves her as she announced that Virat loves her at ZA on holi morning was because she accepted what Ashwini, Devi, Shivani and Sunny kept saying before that Virat loves her as truth or just because she is in love with him so the reason behind his action is also love.
We know Sai is putting on a mask of happiness but is affected by the hurtful word and behaviour towards her from her breakdown. When she realized she is in love with him, it added to her drive for their marriage. But it also increases her expectations. I think Virat melted with her driver antics when he smiled but put up his wall again. Maybe thats why he keep repeating the driver when he was intoxicated during holi. Maybe Sai is just taking in all the hurtful words and behaviour because now she understand that when she did the same before it hurt him. Also I thought Virat would refrain from hurtful word and behaviour after their morning convo seeing she is silent, but the way he engaged in a banter with her is like a sudden flip. She is taking his reaction to her wanting to fail her final exam positively. Right now Sai is convinced of their relationship but Virat still have insecurities. I am worried if something happens and Virat flipped again, he will put higher wall and its gonna affect Sai big time. Or maybe they will learn and understand each other while fixing Rajeev and Shivani's marriage. Well, only the makers know whats gonna happen🙄.
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