The love we lost : a shivi ff chapter 9 updated page 17, complete - Page 8

Darshi!!! I keep liking this story more and more... After Shiva being motivated by how proud Raavi would be with him marking so many personal milestones, him being reassured that she always truly believed that he could do it was such a beautiful touch to things...

Hope Raavi's confusion at the end gets cleared soon as well.... ❤️

Chapter 6

Undealt business..

Absolutely everything was going wrong.

It began with sleeping through her alarm until her maasi came to her room with photographs of some marriage prospects. She was already annoyed and had a row with her masi.. Can't she leave her alone!! She's just started her life on her own terms and she was again after her, "bade ghar ka ladka hai" "Ye wala videsh me rehta h" Like her personal achievement meant nothing!! She left from home early and prepared her tea and breakfast in office only and She forgot to put sugar in her tea. Absolutely everything was going wrong today.

By the time she started concentrating her work, she saw Shiva dragging muddy shoes in her office. He told her he would come by to show her new samples. She was already irritated and it was clearly visible on her face.

"Kiska murder plan kar rahi h?" Shiva asked looking at her face, unaware of the storm already brewing.

"Philhaal to tera. Kaha se aa raha hai? Itna kichad jooto me kaha se laga ke aaya h? Poora room ganda kar diya, abhi safai karwaai thi. Bahar doormat bhi rakha h na!! Tujhe pata bhi h kis kaam ata h wo? Nahi. Ganda kar de.. Sab ganda kar de... Ja wo kapde rakhe h un pe bhi kood ja.." She knew she was unloading all her anger on Shiva.. She was irritated and she took it all out on Shiva.

Shiva was clearly taken aback. He should have used doormat to wipe dirt but he didn't expect this type of reaction. So he settled for "Sorry" Not understanding what should he do.

"Nahi I'm sorry.. Wo me already irritated thi aur tujhpe nikal diya" Raavi mumbled, dropping onto the chair and caught the sight of mud and dirt in her office, "waise teri bhi harkate kuch kam nhi h.. "

"Phir theek hai..mujhe laga aaj mera murder ho jana hai..aur wo bhi kyu? Kyunki mene joote nhi saaf kiye? Kya izzat reh jaati meri? Shiva Pandya ki koi izzat hai Somnaath me!! Achha bata kya hua? Kyu pareshan h?" Shiva asked. Past few days were sort of had been good for them. After returning from factory whenever he saw lights of her office on, he used to come in her office, eat her biscuits, chat some and drop her back. No questions asked, no answers given. They became cordial and maybe friends?

"Ek to me subah late uthi," Raavi admitted after a long sip of tea. "Aur me bas uthi hi thi aur masi aa gai aur ladko ke photo aur rishte batane lagi mera subah subah mood off ho gya... Subah se ek Cup chai dhang se nhi pee... Aur phir tu aa gya gande shoes le kr.. "

Shiva ignored her rant. "Kya matlab? Ye maami kaunse rishte le kar aa gai?" Shiva got this uncomfortable feeling by just hearing that news. Okay he knew he lost his chance... But he was not ready for this reality check so soon...

"Wo maasi kuch photographs layi thi ladkon ke," Raavi said. "Koi videsh me hai, koi paise wala hai.. Bas chaalu ho gyi subah subah... "

Shiva eyed her carefully. "To tune kya bola?"

"Kuch nhi... Me late ho rahi thi to me aa gai.. Unse ladaai bhi ho gai thodi.. "

" Tujhe kar leni chahiye Shaadi... Waise bhi yahi to tera dream tha... Shaadi karna.. Family sambhalna.. "

There was a moment of silence. Shiva knew he was being unfair. He knew how much she was working hard for her career. She had gone through so much, made her life.. Living her life according to her.. But he was just so angry!! He was enjoying her company, her talks gave him peace, he was sleeping peacefully when he got to spend time her... Why was it slipping away so soon? He knew maybe he was hoping against hope.. But he started to have that tiny hope in his heart that maybe there could be something between them.. He was being irrational and cold but..

She narrowed her eyes at him. "Kya?"

"Matlab tera hi to sapna tha na hamesha se ki tu shaadi kare... Mujhse bhi to tu isliye hi shaadi nibhana chahti thi kyuki tujhe parivaar mile... Saare 'compromise' 'adjustment' karne ke liye taiyyaar thi tu? Ab to ladka bhi tere layak aur teri pasand ka dhoondhne ka mauka h.. Kyu chhod rahi h... Bina compromise aur adjustment wali shaadi bhi kar ke dekh le kya pata nibh jaye.. " Shiva knew he was being irrational and making a big deal out of nothing.. Maami just had a talk with her nothing else... But his mind was clearly shifted to his previous impulsive version.

Raavi was enraged. Already she was having a bad day. . This was all left to ruin it !! He was clearly mocking her!! This was all she wanted right?? Who gave him right to judge her? What she wanted.. How she wanted.. Who is he to tell her?? And he was bringing their past to mock her!! He wanted a reaction from her right? She will give him!

"Aur tujhe us se kya me meri life ke saath kuch bhi karu? " she bit out, staring at the wooden lines across the table, "Tujhse to me nahi poocha rahi tune doosri shaadi kyu nhi ki? Kyu? Apni insecurities ki wajah se kisi ko bhi apne paas nhi aane dena chahta tha isliye?"

Shiva looked like he was slapped. She immediately knew she took it too far.

Raavi groaned as he stood. "Mera wo matlab nahi tha."

"Nahi Theek hai" he admitted, giving her the sample box, "Tu galat bhi nahi hai."

"Shiva—"

"Par phir galat me bhi nahi hu."

The apology lodged itself in her throat as he left, still tight and thick. How Shiva had managed to come back into her life one minute and then challenge her the next was beyond her understanding.

Raavi buried her face in her hands. So much for letting go of the past and being professional. Their past was undealt business... It was eventually coming back to haunt them. Question was were they ready to finally deal with it?

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New update. I don't know if I was successful in conveying the right emotions. Please read and review.

Darshi beautiful update❤️

So finally she realised that the past is still haunting them and they have face it!!! Waiting to see what happens next❤️

Do update soon🤗

Beautiful update👏💞

Finally Raavi realised that they have to deal with their past

I was soooo good!!❤️❤️

Things getting interesting now

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Thank you so much for reviews. Yes ultimately they will have to address their past if they want to move forward.. They both have so much unsaid between them this time as well as last time... Let's see what they do..

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Thank you so much for reviews. Yes ultimately they will have to address their past if they want to move forward.. They both have so much unsaid between them this time as well as last time... Let's see what they do..

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Chapter 7

Living in the moment

Shiva met Raavi again two weeks after that incident. Raavi had called him to tell that she was ready with her first batch of design with his material and if he wanted he could see the work and they could work on the material and workmanship of her next design. Even though they left on an awkward note, Raavi saved her best cookies for him on the off chance he happened to come.

This turned out to be a good move because he ended up coming just when she thought she could leave early and was just packing. Shiva came in with an apologetic look on his face, and she shook her head.

"Nahi."

He looked instantly guilty. "Sun, Raavi—"

"Sorry mat bolna," Raavi restated, pushing the box of cookies in his hands. "I'm sorry. Jo bhi mene kaha wo mujhe nhi kehna chahiye tha."

"Jo bhi kuch mene kiya aaj tak wo mujhe nhi karna chahiye tha." They were only talking about that day only, weren't they? Why was Shiva making everything complicated?

"Jo bhi ho mujhe us din tujhe wo sab nhi bolna chahiye tha." She will stick to that day only.

"Sun, " he said quietly, "me jaanta hu jo kuch bhi mene tere saath kiya humari shaadi me, humara divorce etc un sabhi wajah se tu mujh se ab bhi nafrat karti hogi, shayad me deserve bhi karta hu, par tujhe nhi dikhta ki me koshish kar raha hu? Mera matlab tujhe nhi lagta humein koshish karni chahiye?" Shiva thought about it a lot and he couldn't deny what he was feeling. He never stopped loving her. If life has given him another chance he wanted to take it. He knew he didn't communicate properly but look on her face made him rethink.

It took a moment for her to comprehend his words. He was just going to burst everything out in the open, after being shut about it for so long? What does he want? No. She wasn't ready for this.

"Me tujhse nafrat nhi karti Shiva," she said honestly, "lekin me ye bhi nhi bolungi ki me sab bhool gayi aur tujh pe vishwas karti hu."

He looked sad, but tried to smile anyway. "Kam se kam itna vishwas to kar hi sakti h ki me tere liye hot chocolate banau.. Mera man ho raha tha aur tere pass saman bhi rakha h?" Shiva might have said her poorly, but at least he told her what was he feeling. He was working on communicating his feelings, he knew he made a mistake last time. He didn't communicate... But he was trying to not make the same mistake this time. But of course he understood her feelings and respect them.. He would never do anything to make her feel uncomfortable.

Raavi was nervous, but she consciously put it aside and led him to the kitchen area. She knew he was doing this to lighten up the mood so she decided to let it go and not think much. But hot chocolate? Seriously? How did he know to make it?

It was not like Raavi didn't think about them these day...may be she was not ready for anything but it was true that she found the separation of the years in between then and now helped immensely, and as she watched him pour chocolate into a mug, she felt a strong urge to know him again.

"Tune kaha se seekha ye sab?" she asked quietly.

"Kaam," he replied, pouring milk in a pitcher. "Factory se kaam khatam hone ke baad me part time me ek cofee shop pe bhi kaam karta tha."

Raavi almost stumbled, and she was standing still. "Wait, Sach me?"

"Ha.. Pan ye baat tere siwa kisi ko nhi batayi h ghar pe mene.." He said with a smile.

"Me tujhe bilkul imagine hi nhi kar pa rahi.. Coffee shop me kaam karte hue." She said with a smile.

"Ab mere pass koi photo woto to hai nhi," he replied teasingly, "pan kaam me achha karta tha. Tips bhi achi milti thi. Aur to aur ghar pe bhi khana me hi banata tha. Aur baingan to meri specialty ban gai thi."

"Wow."

"Khana banana achha lagta tha, teri yaad taza ho jati thi."

Raavi couldn't reply.

He frothed the milk a few times before letting it sit. "Tune kuch aur kaam kiya Mumbai me...?"

"Jis company me abhi designer hu wahi receptionist se shuru kiya tha," Raavi explained, clearing her throat. "Phir kuch log achhe mil gaye, kaam karne ka mauka mil gya... Din me kaam karti thi.. Raat me designing seekhti thi.. Company walo ko kuch design pasand aa gye to job pe rakh liya... "

"Wo to pasand aane hi the... Teri koi cheez kaise na pasand aaye," he said. She thought he was teasing her, but he was looking at her much too fondly for that. She felt her cheeks go warm.

Shiva poured frothy hot chocolate into two mugs. he handed her one.

"Tujhe pata h," He said suddenly. "Mera bachpan se engineer ban ne ka sapna tha."

"Tu engineer ban na chahta tha?" Raavi couldn't believe her ears. "Par tujhe to padhai bilkul pasand nhi thi?"

"Mujhe padhai pasand thi," he said, considering it, "pan me school jana nhi chahta tha, gaumbi majdooro ki tarah dukaan me kaam karte the, Dev, Krish ki padhai ki jimmedari bhi thi un par, unko akela ye sab kaise karne deta? To mene school jana chhod diya."

"Tune mujhe kabhi nahi bataya," she said, racing through her memories. She felt like she would remember something so momentously heartbreaking.

"Kisi ko nhi bataya" he continued, seeming unconcerned. "Phir Pandya store ko hi mene apni duniya bana liya.. Aur aaj jo bhi hu.. Jo bhi seekha hu wahi se seekha hu."

Raavi felt her eyes getting wet. She knew he loved his family. But to this extent? Really lucky were those who were loved by this man. She was really happy and proud that he made this life, this company on his own. He deserved it.

"Tu aaj jaha h waha, sab log nhi ho paate... Tu ye sab deserve karta h... Aur ye to bas shuruaat h.. Tu is se bhi bahut zyada deserve karta h."

No one spoke for few moments. Raavi leaned against the counter and took a sip of her hot chocolate, which was perfectly chocolate-y with just the right amount of sweetness and thickness. Shiva was peering at her intently, waiting.

"Achhi h" she assured him. "Bahut achhi h."

He broke into a grin.

"Ab dinner ka kya?" Shiva asked.

"Matlab?"

"Matlab hum log dinner pe chal sakte h," he suggested carefully. "Paas me hi ek achha restaurant khula h."

Raavi looked away; all of a sudden, her throat was very tight.

"Ya,"he said quickly, backtracking, "Tujhe mene apni khana banaane wali skills ke baare me bataya hi h, aaj tu aazma bhi le."

"Sach me?" she asked, looking excited." Matlab....mujhe sach me dekhna to h...but nhi tu akele nhi...me bhi help karungi."

Shiva waved a hand. "Aaja phir.. Kare shuru?"

"Tu sach me khana banaane wala hai?"

"Ha." His expression so earnest. Raavi couldn't believe they were doing this. Everything with Shiva felt so comforting these days.. She really enjoyed his company. And today was something else... The way he opened up to her ... It was making her feel things she shouldn't... Yes she decided that she will not think about the future but it was not wrong to live and enjoy the moment right? To seek comfort in the company of someone who understood what she went through and what she was feeling? She will think about tomorrow later... She was going to live today..

"Theek hai" she said, turning so he couldn't see her smile, "chalu ho ja."

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