Originally posted by: tptwi
Lovely update Neerja ❤️
My heart broke for both Sai and Virat today.
Virat remembers their wedding day as the occasion on which he gained the best thing that has ever happened to him... the occasion on which he was united with his life partner. But, Sai remembers that day as the occasion on which she lost her right to be able to love and cherish her husband...the pain was pouring out of her when she said that on their wedding day, this rishta became a forced zimidari with no love or belonging... and at this point, even if consciously or subconsciously, loving Virat is all she wants to do, she has convinced herself that she does not have the permission to be able to do so...
Virat is so overwhelmed in his own feelings and emotions towards Sai that he is unable to look at the marriage from her perspective. When people say that love is blind, they normally mean that a person looks past their loved ones faults... but love is also blind in this regard...it is all consuming and these feelings are so new and real for him, that he is unable to comprehend anything beyond them.
Sai doesn't want to celebrate, because how can you celebrate something that isn't real? When she compared the reality of her birthday to the forced nature of this marriage, it really showed what she is going through internally. How can they be celebrating something that doesn't exist? As many times as Virat as told her that he does not want her to leave, he has still never told her the the reality of his relationship with Pakhi nor the fact that he deeply regrets making the vaada nor the fact that there is nothing else more real to him than this relationship. These are the things that Sai wants to and needs to hear. Today, Virat said that he agrees that the time and circumstances of their marriage were not normal, but that today things are different. This is THEM and their own journey. But, Sai says that people should not change with time and reminds him that she will fulfill her end of the vaadas. She says that he should have never made himself part of his pain. This is her guilt pouring out of her. With the yoga teacher being her latest trigger, she is back in full force to her reality of being the reason for Virat and Pakhi's separation. Again, her emphasis on the words spoken on their wedding day is evidence of the value she places on what Virat SAYS to her. This is how she communicates. But, Virat communicates through his actions, and those actions are just making Sai even more confused. It spoke volumes how Sai said that there will come a day when she will HAVE to leave... she does not want to, but she thinks that their relationship is time constrained.
Ayesha stole the show today, but Neil brilliantly portrayed Virat's emotions too. This man is trying to prove his love for his wife in every single way he can. He is placing her happiness above his own... literally all he wants is for her to be able to understand his love. But, today, before he could confess, Sai erupted. At this point, he will never try to confess again the near future. This will cause him to put his own walls back up... and rightfully so.
In the precap, they are back to normal. Sai knows how much Samrat means to Virat, and she will do anything and everything to unite them. These two can fight all they want, say whatever they want to each other in the heat of the moment, but the truth will never change- they cannot bear to be separated and they cannot bear to see each other in pain. What is so real about their relationship is that the "married traditional husband wife" part is just one small piece of it and the only piece of it that is missing. Beyond that, they are family...they are friends...they are each other's rocks...they are bound together in love, respect, loyalty.... everything is there. And in the moments when they are letting themselves follow their hearts, the husband wife piece is there too. All that is missing here is the label. Were it to be any other set of circumstances, the label wouldn't matter. But, due to how their relationship started, this missing, messy, confusing label is the cause for all of their sorrow and inabilities to fully and finally unite....