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14 dec 2015

meri zindagi ka last day tha ye, is time tak to main zinda tha. bohot khush tha, andar he andar smile kar raha tha dil se, ke bus thora sa or waqat phir sab theek ho jayega.

bohot happy tha.

mujhe pata nahi tha 14 dec ki moring ko. ke aj ki raat meri zindagi ko change karne wali hai. ya ye samjho ke zindagi he khatam karne wali hai.

mujhe ache se yaad hai aj ka din kesa tha.

kisi ko pata thori na hota hai jab bura waqat ata hai, to mujhe bhe nahi pata tha. isi liye khush tha.

jab os naagin ne bataya tha na ke ansar main ne to naya ashiq dhond liya or main next uni me jaon gi to os ke sath rahon gi :P mujhe hasi a gayi thi on ki baat pe, socha ye mujhe tang karne keyliye kuch bhe bol deti hai.

onhon ne phir se eysi he baat ki to main ne kaha acha theek hai mazakh karna hai to karo lekin itna bhe na karo ke mujhe yakeen na aye, eysa to soch bhe nahi saktin Ap to jhoot na bolo...

onhon ne proof diya to mera dil 1 dam se jese ruk geya tha. main dekhta he reh geya os SS ko.. mujhe tab bhe yehi laga ye prank kar rahi hai mere sath. lekin dil mera mushkil me a geya tha. nend meri ankhon se ja chuki thi... phir main ne kaha on se ke gussa kar lo mujh par.... jo karna hai kar lo. koi be mazkh.. jesa bhe makh karna hai kar lo, jese marzi tang kar lo lekin please eysi baat na karo Ap ko idea nahi meri halat kya ho gayi to stop plz..

wo nahi samjh sakti os ne kesa dard diya mujhe. wo feel bhe nahi kar sakti,

abhe koshish ki thi main ne read karne ki in yadon ko. lekin marne wali halat ho gayi to ruk geya, abhe thori deir baad try karon ga...

wo 1 he baat keh rahi thin or main reply bus yehi kar raha tha ke sach bolo. jhoot nahi bolo, kiyon ke main ne os naagin pe khud se zeyada bharosa kar ke apni zindagi os ke hath me de di thi to mujhe idea nahi tha ye eysa soch bhe sakti hai, sach kahon to 14 dec ko to mujhe yakeen he nahi a raha tha, mujhe hasi a rahi thi ke ye mujh se makh kar rahi hain...

on ka natak he eysa tha ke jab wo sach bol rahi thi to mujhe yakeen nahi a raha tha. isi liye to kaha hai in ko award dena chahiye, eysi acting koi nahi kar sakta, wo bhe kisi ki life se khelne ki...

or yahan ye itne ache se baat kar rahi thi, ye daya bus in ko 14 dec wale din he ayi thi, 15 dec ki moring se main ne in ka wo face dekha jo kabhe soch bhe nahi sakta tha. 1 dam se pathar dil. jis ko siraf apni fikar thi.

main to soch bhe nahi sakta tha.. mujhe apni wo khushi yaad a rahi hai jo thi mujhe os din.. main daily he kitne he mesgs type kar ke remove kar deta tha.. sochta tha nahi ansar abhe nahi. 1st jan tak wait karna hai, new year pe surprise hoga. zindagi to in ke sath reh kar pehle he khubsurat lagne lag gayi thi is ke ilawa jo problems thin wo clear ho gayin thin. main khud ko lucky samjhe laga tha, soch raha tha or khud se keh rha tha ke dekho sab kar liya main ne... mujhe on se bohot kuch share karna tha, or ye bhe kehna tha ke ab summer 2016 100% paka hai ke main Ap ke paas aney wala hoon ya shayed os se bhe thora pehle..

main wait karta raha or os se pehle mujhe he surprise mil geya.. ye on ka pehla or last surprise tha mere liye..

nahi pata tha ye jo khushi hai face pe ye aj raat keylliye he hai phir hamesha keyliye chali jayegi or ankhon me ansu rahe ge or dil me dard hoga..

bus ab or type nahi hoga mujh se. bye

5 years , 14 dec.

yehi time tha. yehi din tha. din jitna khushi se guzara tha raat utni he ansu wali thi, bus phir ye ansu ruke nahi,

main ne kaha tha is naagin se. 5 saal baad bhe mur kar dekho gi to Ap ko eyse he nazar aaon ga ager zinda raha to.

5 saal to ho gaye,ab main nahi chahta ke 6 hon, par zindagi mere hath me nahi hai, or ager zinda raha to eyse he 10 honge, phir 15, saza bohot hard ho jayegi jitna zeyada time raha zinda.

eyse bhe koi kisi se baat karta hai kya,? tab meri galti kya thi.... ager ye larki mujhe bata de ke is ke gusse ke piche koi meri 00.01% bhe galti thi to ye jo bole gi main karon ga,

or ye koi 14 dec nahi tha ye 31 dec 2015 ke SS hain. wo din jab ye mujhe chor kar chali gayi thi. or main akela raha tab se aj tak

subha bhe bola tha ke bus 14 dec he tha jab is naagin ko thori daya a gayi thi, os ke baad is ne eysi he batain ki, gusse se.. tameez bhool gayi thi ye ke kisi se kese baat karte hain, wo bhe os waqat jab samne wala ro raha ho? 1 to zindagi barbaad ki meri or oper se eysa gussa..

dard kese na hota mujhe..

os ko nahi pata ye batain jab wo kar rahi thi na is ke theek 3 hours ke baad main os naagin ki waja se jo dard mila tha os ko seh na saka tha or hospital main tha 100% is naagin ki waja se,, becoz ye last 10 mesgs me se kuch ke SS dikhaye main ne, eysi batain kar ke wo gayi thi last me..

ignore hona to mere liye koi bhari baat he nahi hai, roz ingore he hota tha, or jab wo baat karna chahti bhe thi tab bhe 90% ignore he hova main, 2015 ke baad,

kya ye apne ashiq ko bhe eyse he shutup bolti thi? to jawab hai nahi.. os se ye bohot pyaar se baat karti thi. os ko to kehti thi mujhe tumhari fikar hai or main ansar ki waja se tumhain tention nahi dena chahti.

to ye shutup shutup mere liye he tha, wo to lucky person tha os pe gussa kahan karna tha inhon ne.

zindagi meri barbaad ki thi is naagin ne, or eysa kar ke rula bhe mujhe he rahi thi or os ki care kar rahi thi,

khud se nahi keh raha, os naagin ne khud SS dikhaya tha jahan wo keh rahi thi ke main tumhain sad nahi karna chahti main aj he ansar se sab khatam karti hoon, ye SS osi ne send kiya tha mujhe.. dikhaon ga nahi warna rone lag geya to or koi post hogi nahi mujh se idhar,

kismat wali hai wo. mere jese ko pyaar nahi kar saki wo lekin os ko koi hai pyaar karne wala,

koi hai jo os keyliye ro sakta hai, ager os ne wesa na kiya hota to or kya kya karta main os keyliye.. ager ro sakta hoon to kitni khushi or pyaar deta os ko, apni jaan de deta os ki khushi keyliye,

dil mera khubsusart nahi tha warna wo 1 sec keyliye to kar leti pyaar. utna bhe nahi kiya onhon ne. or on ke ashiq ka acha dil tha is liye naagin jee ka pyaar os ko mil geya, kismat wala hai wo,

mere ansu jo hain in ki koi keemat nahi hai, lekin phir bhe ye khas hain, kiyon ke ye naagin jee keyliye nikalte hain.. on se khushi ya pyaar to na mil saka lekin jo mila ye kam bhe nahi.. beshak dard hota hai beshak jeena mushkil hai phir bhe kuch to mila on se. is liye mere ansu khas hain.. mere liye khas nahi, jis keyliye nikal rahe hain os ki waja se khas hain, warna meri okaat to 1 khilone jesi he hai,

main ne dil ki gehrai se on se kaha tha na karo eysa, ager Ap chaho to hum dono khush reh sakte hain, or ager Ap eysa nahi kar sakti to phir Ap to khush rahogi lekin main nahi reh sakon ga.

wo meri zindagi hain. mera pyaar hain. jitna bhe dard diya onho ne main dil se yehi kahon ga ke on ko bus khushi mile.

mera kya hai, aj hoon shayed kal na rahon, or ager raha bhe to its ok, 30 saal ka to ho geya, baki ki life bhe jitni hai pata nahi chale ga.

wese bhe main dosron keyliye he kuch karna chahta tha or wo kar chuka hoon or kar raha hoon, mere liye kuch hai he nahi karne ko to kya karon.. jab life me khushi he na ho to insaan ke bank account me billions bhe hon to 0 lagta hai..

kash koi mil jata jo mera sara status, pese sab kuch le kar badle me mujhe khushi de sakta..

jo bhe kiya onhon ne , sach kahon to kabhe kabhe eysa lagta hai jesa kuch hova he nahi hai, i mean dil karta hai on se baat karon, or wese he karon jese hum kiya karte they, 1 dam se apna samjh kar,

or kabhe shikhayat bhe na karon ke Ap ne 14 dec ko kya kiya tha. eysa feel hota hai jese sab sahi hai, bohot dil karta hai ke baat karni chahiye, eysa lagta hai to matlab yehi hai ke jo bhe onhon ne kiya mere dil me eysa kuch hai he nahi on pe gussa karne ko ya koi complain karne ko,

gussa hai to bohot. lekin shayed waqat ke sath sath khatam ho geya,

1 week pehle he eysa soch raha tha main. mujhe eysa lag raha tha jese kuch hova he nahi hai hum dono ke beech me. sab theek hai,

eysa to dream main bhe nahi ho sakta lekin 1 pal keyliye maan liya jaye ke sab theek ho geya, wo wapis wese he baat karne lag jayein, meri life me wapis a jayein , lekin ye 5 saal jo meri ankhon se ansu nikle ye kese bhula sakta hoon.. jo dard hova mujhe, din raat marta raha ye sab..

wese main kuch bhe bol doon, lekin sach ye hai ke ab wo naagin bhe mujhe theek nahi kar sakti. wo kuch bhe kar le mere ansu to shayed ruk jayein lekin ye dar, ye dard, ye kabhe nahi jayega, hasi kabhe wapis nahi ayegi meri..

wapis theek ho bhe geya tab bhe main to mar chuka hoon. jo dar hai mere dil me wo kabhe nahi jane wala. hamesha rahega ke wo kabhe bhe bhaag jayegi mujhe chor kar..