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mujhe laga tha meri shakal achi nahi hai to shayed on ko mera dil acha lage or is weak se heart wale insaan se wo pyaar karain gi,

but main galat tha.. meri na shakal achi hai or na he dil acha hai..

or on ke ashiq me ye dono chezain hain, isi liye kaha wo lucky hai... itna lucky ke naagin jee ki sachi muhabat os ko mil gayi. or mujhe bus natak mila..

jab main happy tha to mere kuch friends bhe pyaar me they. on se jab ye batain share karta tha to wo bohot khush hote they, or wo bhe help lete they ke ansar btao kya karna chahiye pyaar me? kese khushi deni chahiye .

main on ko bata deta tha. lekin jab se dil toota kisi ko jawab bhe nahi deta.

wo puchte hain ansar tell me BD pe kya karon? main on ko koi idea nahi deta. jab main khud keyliye fail ho geya to apne doston ki help kese karon.. kahin eysa na ho mera idea le kar mere friends bhe barbaad ho jayein. mujhe pyaar karna nahi ata. warna eysa na hota mere sath. to bus dar lagta hai kahin mere dost bhe meri batain sun kar pyaar karna na bhool jayein.

mujhe aj kal apne toote hove sapne yaad nahi a rahe. mujhe yaad a raha hai jo hova mere sath. or kuch dikhayi nahi de raha bus ye dard he hai ab.

1 tarhan se acha bhe hai. on ki is tarhan ki baton se jo dard hova tha main 2016 ke pehle he din hospital me tha. wo apne ashiq ke sath new year enjoy kar rahi thi or on ka ye useless toy zindagi or mout ke beech me tha.

to i hope is baar bhe kuch eysa ho. shayed meri zindagi khatam ho jaye.

pata nahi main ne kya bigara tha on ka jo eyse plan bana kar mere dil se or meri zindagi se khela onhon ne. main to mazakh se kehta tha on se ke Ap ka dimaag mujh se zeyada sharp nahi hai. shayed onhon ne osi cheez ka badla liya or eysa plan bana kar ye haal kar diya mera.

mature hain na wo. time bhe paas kar liya. enjoy bhe kar liya or khel bhe liya,

main ne sari zindagi kuch seekhne pe laga di thi. har time kuch na kuch seekha. bus is duniya me rehne walon logon ko nahi samjh saka, main innocent hoon is cheez me. tab he mujhe on ke natak ki samjh he nahi ayi thi,

ager wo mujhe jaan se maar deti to kasam se bohot acha karti wo, but onhon ne eysa kar ke zeyada bura kiya, ye bhe 1 tarhan se murder he hai, ya ye kahon ke os se bhe bura. 5 saal hone he wale hain. main roz marta hoon. pal pal marta hoon.

is se acha tha 1 he baar mar jata,

onhon ne dec 2015 ke end me kaha tha mujh se ke ansar mujh se dosti kar lo main tumhain dikhaon gi dosti nibhana kis ko kehte hain. ye kafi funny baat thi... main dost he tha na on ka right? dost banaya. phir pyaar banaya phir ye haal kar diya?

mera jawab yehi tha ke main pyaar se agey Ap ko kuch or nahi samjh sakta. ager pyaar ka rishta hai to Ap meri dost bhe ho or meri zindagi bhe,

jab wo mujhe mili thin to kehti thin ansar kab mujhe apna best friend banao ge? mujhe nahi pata tha ye larki mujhe apna dost bana kar meri jaan nikaal degi.

smile to meri bohot saal pehle he chali gayi thi. bus 1 hasi baki thi mujh me wo onhon ne cheen li.

ansu pehle bhe atey they lekin ankh se bahir nahi atey they bus dil rota tha or duniya ko dikhayi bhe nahi deta tha ke ansar andar se kitna sad hai,

lekin onhon ne kuch eysa kar diya ke ye ansu ab rukte he nahi. eyes red rehti hain. betha hota hoon to na jane kya soch kar ankh bhar ati hai or ansu nikal jate hain.

2013 ke end me jab main on ke kareeb ho raha tha to mujhe lagta tha ye bohot care karne wali hai. onhon ne mera sath bhe diya tha jab meri Mama chali gayin thin tab,

main galat samjha tha. wo matlabi hai. 1 pathar ki larki hai wo. jo apne matlab keyliye kisi ki bhe life se khel sakti hai or os ko eysa kar ke koi fark nahi parta.

meri batain beshak itni sach na hon lekin utni galat bhe nahi hotin...

jab main ne on se kaha tha ke niklo meri life se Ap bus khel rahi ho or wo zid kar rahin thin, tab main ne on se 1 baat kahi thi, main ne kaha tha ke kash Ap ke dil me mere liye wo feelings hotin pyaar wali jitna Ap puppy se karti ho, , wo meri baat ko samjh nahi sakin thin ke main kya bol raha hoon,

but mera matlab tha ke ager puppy ko kuch ho jaye to Ap rone lago gi. ap ko os ka kheyal ayega. lekin ager is ansarli ko kuch hova to Ap ko ehsaas bhe nahi hoga.. or main sahi tha... onhon ne mujhe insaan to kya shayed 1 janwar se zeyada kuch nahi samjha mujhe...

or ye sach hai ager on ko koi puppy mil jaye or os ko kuch ho jaye to wo rone lagain gi os keyliye, or 1 main hoon jis ki life me jitna bhe bura hova os ke piche on ka hath hai :P or on ko kabhe koi fark nahi para. on ki waja se main marte marte zinda reh geya itni baar. mar jata to acha tha bus kismat kharab hai abhe tak,

100% khilona tha main on keyliye. jab man karta tha khel kar wapis rakh detin thin, or jab jee bhar geya on ka khel kar to phenk diya mujhe phir naya ashiq mil geya jis ka dil bohot khubsurat hai, kiyon ke wo insaan hai on keyliye lekin main bus 1 toy.

shayed aj bhe wohi status hai mera. isi liye to 2019 onhon ne 1 baar phir se khela tha meri feelings ke sath.

mazakh bana rahi thi ye naagin apne ashiq ke samne mera.. os se ja kar kehti thi ke mujhe sab khatam karna hai or on ka ashiq kehta tha ansar ko nikalo life se wo kya roye ja raha hai. ager nahi sun raha to main baat karta hoon os se,

naya ashiq mila tha os ko is liye ye sab kar rahi thi. acha lagta hai os ko eysa karna,

block karne ki batain tab se he sun raha hoon main, block. shutup, ye sab bohot asaan hai os keylie,

ye eysa is liye bol rahi thi kiyon ke ye chahti thi ke main is se ye bhe na puchon ke eysa kiyon kiya..

jab kisi ke paas koi reason na ho, koi jawab na ho to wo eyse he gussa karta hai..

haamare beech me na aao...

dil se req thi is ko ye ke na jao... kehta tha is ko har time ke ager Ap gayin to main mar jaon ga.

ye naagin mujhe keh rahi thi ke ansar mujhe saza mil gayi is cheez ki,

main os na samjh ko ye kehna chahta hoon ke os ki saza to abhe start bhe nahi hoi. jab os ko saza mile gi wo yaad karegi ache se os din.

khud he keh rahi hai na idhar ke mere liye to kuch start he nahi hova tha to khatam kesa , matlab 2 saal meri feelings se khelti rahi, is ko ye kabhe bhoolna nahi chahiye ke os ki saza abhe tak start nahi hoi. jab hogi os ko maloom ho jayega,

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