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itna bura kis liye kiya os ne mere sath. kya bigara tha main ne os ka...

pehle mujhe pyaar karwaya.

main to romantic tha he nahi wo bhe bana diya.

dreams dikhaye mujhe, os ka kaam tha dreams dekhna, or mera kaam tha on ko pura karna.

os ne na khud kuch kiya na mujhe karne diya.

ager os ko pyaar tha to os ne bhe to haar maan li na, ager tha to,! ager drama he tha to phir theek hai, or jo khud haar man le wo dosre ko kese sikha sakta hai ke kuch karo,

kya os ne 2015 se ab tak kabhe bhe 1 mint keyliye bhe socha hai os ki waja se meri life ke sath kya hova hai?

os ko pata hai life kya cheez hai? os ko pata hai jab ansu atey hain to kiyon atey hain? akhir eysa kon sa dard hota hai jis se wo ansu atey hain? kya os ke paas mere har 1 ansu ka jawab hai jo os ne diye mujhe?

os ne meri zindagi se khela hai, kya os ko pata hai kisi ki zindagi se khelne ka kya matlab hai?

kya os ko ye pata hai os ki waja se jo mujhe dard hota hai din raat, os se meri health ki kya halat hai?

main bhe na pagal hoon, kis se umeed laga li ke wo 1 mint sochegi, lool,

1 mint to bohot zeyada hai os keyliye,

main os ka khilona tha to shayed 10 sec he kafi hain mere liye,

kya os ne 10 sec keyliye bhe socha hai ke os ne jo bhe kiya mere sath os ke piche mera kya kasoor tha.. or os ki waja se jo meri life ki halat hoi os main mera kya galti thi..

wo ansar he tha jis main insaniyat thi, dil tha.. beshak main ne on ko 6 months door rakha tha, lekin jab dekha ke ye mere bina sad hai to in ko sad nahi rakhna chahiye, khushi di thi main ne, on ki baaat mani, or pehle se zeyada pyaar diya. pehle se zeyada time diya. siraf ye soch kar ke ye mujh se ager itna pyaar karti he hai to is ka haq hai mere pyaar par pehle se zeyada, is ka haq hai mujh par,

wohi jab mujhe zarorat thi to kisi ne kaha ab tum jao main kisi or se pyaar karti hoon, osi ke sath khush hoon or wo mujhe itna pyaar dega ke ansar tumhari yaad bhe nahi ayegi.

ab 4 saal hone ko hain.

kahan main apni life main 95% kamyaab tha, jo 1 tarhan se 100% he hai, sara kaam to ho geya tha,

or kahan os matlabi ke diye hove dard ki waja se main niche gira or sidha 0 pe a geya. koi or waja se nahi, siraf os ki waja se, 100% wohi waja hai meri is halat ki,!

os ne shayed experiment kiya meri life pe, ye dekhne keyliye ke jab kisi ki life barbaad karain to kya hota hai,

shayed os ne dekna hoga ke life barbaad hoti hai kisi ki? to os ke experiment se ho gayi meri life barbaad .

problem ye hai ke main he mila? apne jesa dhond leti koi,

wo khelti rahi, drama karti rahi or main pagal samjhta raha ye sacha pyaar kar rahi hai,

wo AK likh kar beach par, ya kabhe apne hath par, kahin bhe, mujh pics send karti thi, ke dekho ansar kitna pyaar hai tum se,

phir dec 2015 os ne kaha ke K for to osi ka naam lekin A for os ki friend ka naam.

jese ye pic, likha to AK he hai. or kaha geya tha dekho main ne sab ke samne likha :P main bara heraan hova tha ke wah itni himat kahan se a gayi, :P

phir dec main kisi ne sach btaya tha ke ye pic tumhare liye thori thi ye A for os ki frined thi..

abhe hoga koi mujh se bhara bewakoof is duniya main? kese ullu bana os ke haton se main, lol

eysi bohot sari hain, koi 1 bhe sachi nahi thi,

sach to eysa hota hai, jo dil se likha jaye.. or ye to mera blood tha,

nikal nahi raha tha or to main apne hand ko or hurt kar raha tha ke nikal aye or main likhon,!

ye matlab nahi hai ke blood se likha jaye to he sacha ho, matlab ye hai ke ye mere kisi friend ka naam nahi tha :P ye drama nahi jese wo karti rahi likha kisi or ka or mujhe kaha tumhara hai, lol

zindagi ki samjh to mujhe abhe tak nahi hai os tarhan se,

magar kuch chezain sach main hoti hain,

Ap kisi se pucho, ke ager Ap kisi ke sath bura karte ho to kya Ap safe rahoge?

eysa nahi hota...

or chotti chotti chezon pe saza nahi milti, i mean eysa nahi ke Ap ne kisi ko gusse se dant diya to saza milegi noo..

jab Ap kisi ka dil dukhate ho na to kese soch sakte ho ke Ap ko kuch nahi hoga?

ye jo meri ankhon main itne ansu aye on ka hisaab on se liya jayega,

kab, kese ye waqat janta hai, kis age main ye bhe waqat janta hai,

eysa nahi hota Ap kisi ki zindagi se khel kar os ki khusiyan barbaad kar do or khud keyliye socho oh, galti to kar di i hope ab mujhe kuch na ho,

ager eysi galti ki to ready ho jao...

meri zindagi to pata nahi kese chal rahi hai, siraf 1 jhakta lagega or main khatam,

kabhe bhe ho sakta ho, kya pata ye post bhe na kar sakon, lol

jab insaan ko dil ki beemari ho jaye to phir wo insaan kismat se he zinda rehta hai, balke zinda nahi rehta din he guzarta hai,

main na dil ka weak hoon, wese nahi,

hospital jata hoon to doc kehte hain ghar jane ki ijazat nahi hai tumhari halat theek nahi, or main on ki sunta he nahi main wahan nahi rehna chahta,

ager doc eysa bol rahe hain to meri life 1 tarhan se 1 risk pe chal rahi hai,

normal insaano ki life ka kuch pata nahi chalta, or mujhe to doc khud keh rahe hain ke tum theek nahi ho.

meri Mama week main 2 baar emergency jati thin, jab on ki death hoi na os se 6 months pehle ka yehi haal tha,

or meri avg har 10 din main 1 baar hai :)

2016 jan to sara he wese he guzra tha, tab naya naya dil toota tha na is liye,

lekin phir theek bhe hova tha,

tab ki avg 2 months ki thi

2017 main 1 month pe a gayi,

2018 main kam ho kar 15 se 20 din ho gayi,

or abhe 2019 main har 10 din main emergency jata hoon.