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kal 14 june hai to 1 din pehle he, kiyon ke kal kya main abhe se ja raha hoon, pakistan ja kar sochon ga yahan active rehna hai ya nahi, tab tak bye ,

3 years, 6 months, total 1278 days

kabhe kabhe isi liye ata hoon yahan, jab khud ko sambhalna mushkil ho jaye,

or yahan a kar kon sa theek ho jata hai sab, bus wese he 1 try,

na games, na songs, na movies, kuch bhe karne ka man nahi hota,

mere apne mujhe khush dekhna chahte hain or wo nahi dekh pate, main on ko 1 chotti si khushi nahi de saka.

shayed wo ansar kab ka mar chuka hai jo siraf dosron ko khush rakhta tha kabhe,

mujhe lagta tha shayed mere andar kahin na kahin main zinda hoon, lekin shayed nahi hoon ab, ager hota to main haar nahi maan sakta tha.

is liye jis ki bhe life khubsurat hai os ko ache se jee lo , sachi tarhan se, utle kam kar ke nahi, , kya pata ane wala kal ye zindagi Ap ke sath kya khel khele...

jab kismat ya zindagi koi khel khele to phir Ap kuch nahi kar pate, beshak jitne marzi strong ho, main khud tha is cheez main, dosron ko sahi kar deta tha apni baton se, or ab main khud ko nahi kar saka.

depend karta hai kismat kya karti hai Ap ke sath,

kuch log sad hote hain lekin on ke face pe smile rehti hai, wo apna dard chupana jante hain, lekin mujh main ye baat bhe nahi, main jesa andar se hota hoon wesa he bahir se dikhta hoon, jab khush tha to funny tha, abhe sad hoon to kisi ko dikhane keyliye bhe khush nahi ho sakta.

jab Ap sone ki koshish karo na raat ko or na he din ko nend aye, to socho os se bhari saza or kya hogi zindagi ki taraf se,

or meri life main jo 1 sath itne sare tofaan a gaye, mujhe abhe tak nahi pata on sab ke piche akhir meri kya galti thi,

main ne to apni life kuch na kuch seekhne main guzzar di, baki ki mazakh karne main, tang karne main, mujhe nahi pata main ne kab or kon si galti ki. agr mujhe pata chal jata to main os ko har keemat par fix karne ki koshish zaroor karta,

is cheez mai mere apne help nahi kar rahe sahi tarhan se, main on se kuch puchon to wo eysi tareef kar dete hain meri jis ke baad main on ko reply he nahi karta, kiyon ke main tareef kabil hoon he nahi, jab tha mujhe tab bhe pasand nahi tha koi mere tareef kare, os ki zarorat nahi thi na hai,

main kisi se apni tareef is liye sun sakta kiyon ke main manta hoon jo insaan acha ho os ke sath kabhe bura ho he nahi sakta :) ager main acha hota to eysa na hota simple

kuch chezon main bohot lucky bhe hoon main, jitna main ne seekha apni life main wo har koi nahi kar sakta,

logon ko lagta hai mujhe bus computer ata hai, wo galat hain, mujhe or bohot se kaam atey hain jo main ne khud seekhe, zeyada nahi pure 21. lol on sab main utna he professional hoon jitna computers main, ye main ne khud seekha apni life main,

or dosri cheez log peson ke piche bhagte hain, lekin yahan pese mere piche bhaag rahe hain, wo mujhe khushi nahi de sakte is liye mujhe zarorat nahi,

log 1 din main 8 se 12 hours ki job karte hain , bohot mushil hai on keyliye pese kamana, or 1 main hoon 1 saal main 1 he deal kar doon na to pure saal keyliye itne pse mil jate hain mujhe ke or kisi ki zaorat he nahi, or wo bhe bina kisi mehnat ke,

ye sab wo chezain hain mere paas jo duniya main har kisi ke paas nahi hain,

mere paas siraf 1 cheez nahi hai, osi ki waja se meri life main kuch bhe nahi hai,

main ne apni zindagi ka 1 khas time on logon ke sath guzarne ki koshish ki jin ki age 60+ thi ta ke main seekh sakon life kis tarhan se wahan tak jati hai,

or main ne abhe tak kisi ko ye kehte nahi suna ke sab theek tha, main ne apni life ko jab agey le ke jane ka socha tha to sab logon ki baton ko samne rakh kar, main chahta tha ye na ho jab main 60 ke age pe jaon ga to yehi batain main karon, ager phir bhe koi kami reh jaye to itni zeyada nahi,

or itne plan ke sath sab karne wale insaan ka aaj ye haal hai, ankhon main ansu hain, dil barbaad ho chuka hai, andar se bhe bahir se bhe,

or mujhe pata he nahi hova kiyon eysa,!!