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wo mujhe kehti hain ke main baat nahi karta sahi tarhan se, magar wo khud ko nahi dekhtin ke wo kese kar rahi hain.. is week jitna bhe baat hoi on ko chahiye 1 baar dekhain kis ne buri tarhan se start ki.. main to ache se kar raha tha balke meri to 1 req thi jo onhon ne mani bhe nahi. or pucha bhe nahi ke tum kya keh rahe they, ulta jawab diya ke faltu ki baton ka time nahi mere paas,, wo samjh to letin main akhir kya kehna chahta tha or os baat ki kitni zarorat thi mujhe....

ager main puch loon itna gussa kiyon hai? to mujhe meri baad wali galti yaad dilayi jati hai jo main ne os ke 2 saal ke baad ki, or os nazar se mujhe 2015 tak galat kaha jata hai, ajeeb nahi hai? 2017 ki galti karne se main 2015 main bhe galat ho geya? wo saaf saaf kehti hain ke kuch nahi sunna onhon ne..

on ko meri galti pe gussa hai, same mujhe bhe on ki galti pe gussa hai,! wo to nikaal leti hain har baar, bus main nahi nikaal pata, ager on ko dukh hova hai ke main ne galat kiya to same mujhe bhe hai or on se pehle ka hai, ager wo meri galti dekh saktin hain to kya khud ki nazar nahi ati on ko.. jo bhe meri halat hai siraf or siraf onhi ki waja se hai.. jab wo inkaar karti hain to mujhe dant bhe deti hain jab main on se koi purani baat kar ke sabit karne ki koshish karta hoon....

on ko gussa hai na meri galti pe, to on ko sochna chahiye jo onhon ne kiya mere sath wo galti kesi thi.. jis se meri zindagi barbaad ho gayi. to kya mujhe gussa nahi ana chahiye os pe? mere daily ansu nikal rahe hain to os ka gussa nahi ata kya mujhe,! magar main utna nahi kar pata jitna wo karti hain,, wo to insaan lagti he nahi jab bolti hain mere sath wesa.. or main on ko ehsaas dilata bhe hoon ke mujhe on ki batain hurt kar rahi hain. or wo or zeyada karne lag jati hain. na ke kam wo pehle se zeyada hurt karne lag jati hain..

or ye sab bahana hai ke meri galti thi,!! 1 baat ko pakar liya hai onhon ne 2017 se pehle mere sath eysa salook karne ki waja kya thi?... 2015 main kya galti thi meri jo is tarhan se baat ki gayi thi, or rulaya geya tha.. 2016 main kya kasoor tha jo eyse kiya...???? ye meri galti jo on ke hath a gayi ye bus 1 bahana hai, ager wo na ki hoti main ne to bhe mujh se eysa he salook ho raha hota, proof yehi hai ke 2017 se pehle bhe eysa he raha hai,!

ager sach main on ka ye gussa ya mere sath eysa behave karna meri he galti ki waja se hai to 2017 ke baad eysa hota,! na ke os se pehle bhe,! wo to dec 2015 se eysi he hain.. kya onhon ne dream dekh liya tha ke ye 2017 main galti karega to is se eyse baat karo?

hai na point is baat ka.. ager main apni galti puchon to haan meri 1 galti hai jo mujhe yaad dilayi jati hai, lekin 2015 ka puchon to phir jawab ata hai mujhe is topic pe baat he nahi karni.. kiyon ke tab meri galti nahi thi na. magar baat karne ki tone same thi ab bhe or tab bhe,! i repeat,! main ne wo galti na ki hoti to bhe eyse he salook ho raha hota mere sath... wo bus a bahana hai ke ye reason hai ansar tum se eyse baat karne ka or kuch nahi,

koi or eyse baat kare mujhse, main os ki zubaan nikal kar phenk doon ga :P himat nahi hai kisi main itni, bus wo dil main hone ka galat fayda utha rahi hain, sar pe zeyada he char jati hain, na hotin to on ko main okaat dikhata on ki ke wo kis se or kese baat kar rahi hain, gussa ata hai magar pain zeyada ho jata hai jis waja se gussa kahin side pe nikal jata hai,

koi or hota to os ka anjaam kya hota ye os ko pata chal jata,

heart patient bhe hoon na main, shayed kisi ko ehsaas nahi hai jin ko heart ki beemari ho on se kese baat karni chahiye.. insaniyat hoti to itna bhe pata hota.. mujhe sad karne ko 1 chotti si baat he kafi hai aj kal , lekin wo kya karti hain ye on ko shayed dikhta nahi. or na he baad main ehsaas hota hai,

main sare roze rakhna chahta tha, magar kisi ne itna rula diya ke meri health bigar gayi.. abhe hospital se aya hoon raat ko. or main roze nahi rakh sakon ga kuch din... or kuch reh bhe gaye.. ajeeb baat nahi,? kisi ki baton se he itna pain hota hai ke main hospital chala jata hoon beemar ho kar..

bye.... i hope kabhe ankhain na khulain phir se.

mere jese loser keyliye eysi he zindagi theek hai.. koshish karne ka fayda he nahi jab main kuch kar he nahi sakta... na khud ko theek kar sakta hoon. na kisi se req he kar saka. kuch bhe nahi yaar, useless hoon main..

main ye bhe nahi kahon ga ke kisi ko kabhe 00.00% bhe kheyal ayega ga ke ansar ki baat sun leni chahiye tha 14 may ko WA pe...

ager wo sun letin to shayed 00.01% maan bhe jatin. or meri zindagi is andhere se bahir a jati. main phir se jeene lag jata... 1 last chance tha ye meri zindagi ko. jo main ne bohot he mushkil se khud ko samjha kar, or Dad ke baar baar kehne or sath hone ki waja se himat ki. bus abhe sab over hai. main ne haar maan li..

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itna kaha main ne mujhe block na karna meri sun lo bus, bohot req ki bohot zeyada. magar kisi ne suna tak nahi. or hamesha ki tarhan apni he marzi ki, apni he zid ko pura kiya. main koi 3 hours tak mobile hath main le ke betha raha ke shayed abhe wapis unblock ho jaon ga main. magar nahi ..

bohot mushkil se itna likha aaj. aaj ke baad nahi hoga itna, ab bus khamoshi rahegi. or isi khamoshi main sans bhe khamosh ho jayegi meri.

shayed aaj itna dard hai mujhe jitna life main kabhe nahi hova pehle...

3 sept 1990 - 14 dec 2015.

bye..

💔-KSA-💔

kiyon chora tum ne sath hamara jawab do,

khamosh kis liye ho jawab do,

mosam bhe itni jald badalta nahi to phir,

badla hai kese rang tumahra jawab do,

teri baton se pata chala ke tere dil main mere liye pyaar hai he nahi,

ab main tere samne ro bhe loon, girrgira bhe loon, to os se kuch nahi hoga..

kabhe fursat mile to batana zaroor,

wo esyi kon si muhabat thi jo hum tumhain na de sake..

pyaar to bohot log karte hain,

lekin mere jesa pyaar koi nahi kar sakta,

kiyon ke har kisi ke paas,

Ap nahi ho..

mujhe aaj siraf 1 yaad a rahi hai. or wo hain meri Mama ki yaad.... wo zinda nahi hain. ager hotin to main on ko gale se laga leta.

main akela feel kar raha hoon aaj, bohot akela.

mujhe laga tha ke shayed dec he eysa month hai jis main meri sab se buri halat rahegi, magar main galat nikla, ye may 2019 os se zeyada dil dukha geya mera....

meri aaj bhe dua hai GOD jee se or hamesha rahegi. on ko hamesha khush rakhain. ager koi gham on ki taraf jana ho to wo mujhe mil jaye. on ke hise ka gham lene keyliye main zinda hoon abhe...

last bye,

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-KSA-