Part (9): Fragmented
Aditya stood shell shocked at his Zoya's words "You're afraid, is his love what you need" the lump in his throat was hard to swallow, he couldn't lose her, what was he if not hers?
"Rajveer, since you want to do this so publicly, I have no choice but to say all of this in front of everyone, understand that I will not have my husband beg for my love because you have made him feel insecure, what he gives me is more than love and yes I wish to hear him say those words more than anything but I will not allow you to try to falter my faith, if ever his voice cracks again or he pleads with me to stay because of you, I will show you exactly why I have survived all of the pain I have gone through, my marriage is forever, that means Aditya is my forever and if you do not like it then please leave, I have no objections" Zoya moved her hand to Aditya's and squeezed it but could not look him in the eye for fear of failing him once again. Her eyes sparkled with unshed tears when Rajveer stormed off
"Zoya, what did you mean by I give you more than love" he simpered at her teary eyes
"I let you down again Aditya, I keep letting you down, god I love you so much and I know what I have with you i'll never get anywhere else but I allowed someone I thought was my friend to make you feel insecure and I hate myself for it, you have to know that i'll never leave unless you ask me to, you're it for me, I just feel so fragmented right now, I can't seem to put myself together, why am I like this" her breathing quickened, voice breaking beneath the pressure of her emotions
"I don't think you're broken, you're my Zoya, broken or not you'll always be my Zoya" his words only seemed to make the dam within her break as she sobbed into his hands
"Please forgive me, these mistakes I make, I don't know why I make them, I know you, why doubt you, I don't wish to fail you Aditya"
"Stupidity" he noted tipping his head to the side into the warmth of her hand "You have never failed me, you're saying stupid things now Zoya, stop it" his whole body relaxed when she smiled again, the fear of loss was so tight on his chest he believed his heart would collapse from the force "Promise not to leave" he held out his pinky finger
"Promise" Zoya giggled "You might just be the most handsome man i've ever set eyes on" she admired him slowly
"I might, that isn't very flattering, as i'm your husband you should be certain that I am"
"I know you're stating a point but that sounded very sarcastic, you surprise me everyday, and yes you are the best looking man i'll ever see, I just didn't want to say it directly in public" her cheeks became hot quickly
"Why not" his brows furrowed which made her reach up to erase the line with her fingers
"Because I don't want others to see what I see Aditya, as you said earlier, you're my Aditya, they can find their own"
"What I actually said was-"
"I know, wrong wording again, sorry, lets just forget this and go and eat something, i'm starving, and no I don't mean that literally" Zoya pulled him through the crowd to a small cafe and sat him down
Aditya waited for Zoya to sit back down, watching how she looked away and moved her hand over the table slowly to find his, then turned to face him acting as if she wasn't currently holding his hand "Zoya, I did see you move your hand"
She gasped "I have no idea what you're talking about" her eyes were playful "Don't act like you don't like holding my hand"
"I do like holding your hand"
Zoya's eyes widened "You do" the words came out squeaky "Oh" she hid her face with her hair and looked down, often she felt like a school girl with her first crush. "Ooh, look it's raining"
"No"
"Oh, please, just a little" she fluttered her eyelashes "Come on" she stood up
Aditya grumbled under his breath but followed her outside anyway, a small smile on his face when she threw her head back and smiled, she always looked so delicate, so fragile and therefore he always tried to safeguard his faviourate person from all harm, but she was a hard person to say no to.
Zoya sat down opposite him and dug into her food, shivering slightly then sneezed
"Zoya, you're ill"
"Uh no, i'm, atchoo" a guilty look shadowed her face
Aditya had made it his aim to know everything about Zoya, there was nothing he didn't know, but now he was stumped because Zoya had never been unwell before. "After this, I want to go home"
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Zoya looked over at Aditya who held out a warm cup of something disgusting and medicine "Adityaaa, I don't want that, it's just a cold, i'll be fine"
"You have to get better Zoya, online it said there is no cure for a cold, what if you never get better"
"I've had a cold before Aditya and got better, i'll be fine" she brushed him off "I just need warm drinks and that's it, and tissue, i'll be fine, and stay away you might get ill"
"No, I have to look after you, I have to learn Zoya, how will I learn otherwise" his eyes were clouded with concern and he seemed very unsettled "I know everything about you Zoya, but I don't know about this, tell me what to do please"
"Aww, Aditya, i'll be fine honestly I will, but hugs will help, I like hugs and being held when i'm unwell" she smiled when he moved behind her, wrapping his arms around her waist
"Is there anything else"
"No, this is more than enough" she crossed her fingers beneath the blanket, hoping to stay ill for as long as possible if it meant being this close to him.
Geet - Hui Sabse Parayee
