hey guysss,
I am here with the Update today!!!
Thank you so so so so much for your support and love, you all know how much it means to me, and i could never explain the gratitude in words...you all know who you are...thanks guys for your loyalty, for your love, for sticking by me as i take you through the fiction in my head.
Yes, this update is really long again as usual -13,000 words!!!
Ok guys, i know the Last chapter was really sad and all, and i know you guys are anguished, and i am too, trust me,and I could have skipped to One Week Later immediately but i couldn't because i felt i was being unfair to my track, so guys pls just hang in there,and you will see that the Sun will rise again...:-)
Second, i know a lot of you thought of why Arnav was in shock and couldn't react at the end of the update after Khushi was shot, iv explained why in this chapter, and from where i see it his frozen state was natural...but incase if you guys have any questions on your mind, do let me know,i will clarify.
So here it goes...guys...
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Chapter 35 - The Aftermath
Newton's very famous Law states that to every action, there will be an equal and opposite reaction.
In Life, in situations, and in circumstances,
This reaction can be termed as the Aftermath.
For the Aftermath is the Consequence, of the Events of our Lives.
And there always is some Aftermath,
It may be good or bad,
It may make us Happy or Sad
We May like it or Not
But It will Happen
For we cannot stay Frozen in a situation forever
Even though it may seem like a Standstill
You really cant Stand Still for long
For Somewhere,Life is still moving on
For Somewhere, in Time, the Clock is always ticking.
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At The Hospital
Two Hours Later
Dr Arvind stepped out of the ICU, and he walked a little ahead,and he stood in front of the solemn faces of the people he had known for the longest time now.
He looked at the worried faces of Anjali, her husband Shyam,Akash and Payal, and then he looked at the broken and distressed face of Asad Ahemed Khan and the totally dazed and Lost Arnav,but he took a deep breathe,because he had to talk,and he had to inform them about both his patients, Khushi and Zoya.
He was a doctor, it was a part of his job, he had been doing so for decades now, yet everytime, he came face to face with a worried family, it overwhelmed him completely ,for the way they all looked at him as if he were their last hope, and how they looked at him with those hopeful eyes, that he would have some good news, to give them,really moved and overwhelmed him.And so, even after all these years a deep breathe was what he needed to take every time he had to address a family.
And this case was also different because he had known these people for so so long now,Zoya especially, he had seen her since she was so little, and overtime she was Inida, she would always make a point to come see him at the hospital,and it pained him greatly to see the delicate situation she was in.And he was also greatly worried about Khushi himself.
He finally walked upto them as he said - " ok, so first, some good news,Zoya is recovering from the GA and her vitals are stable, but she started getting severe chills and shivers,a common outcome of a general anaesthesia, but me and my team decided that it would be better if she slept through for a while, yes she was concious, she was awake for a few minutes, i asked her a few general questions,and she was able to answer them, she also told me that the accident happened as she jumped the signal to take the turn into the hospital for she was in a rush to get here,and then she started getting the chills again so we'v put her back to sleep for while, she will be up in a couple of hours, and i will see her first and then probably we can see how to take it from there after my physiotherapist and the doctor have analysed the situation with the nerve damage which is a cause of concern right now to me,for i cannot say anything about that situation for now, and its already 10.00 pm though, but iv asked my neurologist to stay longer, because i do wish for Zoya to be examined today itself...but if she's sleeping ill let her through the night, for nothing better for the recovery than a good nights sleep,so thats about Zoya...and..." , he paused, taking another deep breathe.
Anjali looked at the silent and distressed Asad, who just nodded at the doctor,and he asked hoarsely - "and Khushi??", and she noticed her brother's body stiffen in anticipation, as he waited for the doctor to say something, but she couldn't understand how was Arnav not reacting at all,how was he standing with that Lost and dazed look o his face,from where, from where was he getting so much courage and strength, in a moment as serious as this,but she just didn't say anything as she heard the doctor say - "Khushi...i wish, i could say the same for her, i wish I could say that she is stable, for honestly she isn't, its been a hour since the surgery has been over, but her pulse and blood pressure have been erratic, mostly on the low side which can be dangerous, she is not stable,and from experience i can forsee, that she will have a problem breathing on her own if we let her recover from the anaesthesia by herself, and until her vitals aren't very stable, i dont want to take any chances,we must give her support..."
Asad asked, shaken - "support?? what do you suggest?? do everything that you can doctor, but please tell me that you will be able to save my sister..."
Arnav stood frozen.
Dr Arvind looked at Asad as he said solemnly - " doing the best I can Asad, and I just want you to know that i think it would be for the best if we put her on Life support system for now, incase any complications occur while she gains consciousness, we will be able to handle it with the help of the ventilator, but without it, i can't say...its a chance we shouldn't take..."
Asad choked on his own words,as he asked - " Khushi needs the ventilator??she need life support??"
Dr Arvind - " yes, thats what she needs for the next 24 hours atleast, until i see any improvement, im sorry, but i need your consent...you are her brother..."
Asad brushed his hand through his hair dejected as he said - " where do i sign??"
Dr Arvind put a hand on his shoulder as he said - " ok,ill ask my team to go ahead and put her on life support,meanwhile why dont you come with me..."
Asad nodded,and he just looked back at Anjali di, and made his way with the doctor.
Anjali watched Asad leave with the doctor and she said turning to her husband - "its getting late Shyam , its bee a long day, why dont you take Payal home with you, inform nani, mama and mami about what happened..me and Akash and Arnav will be here for while longer..."
Shyam nodded,as he cupped her face and said - "take care...talk to Arnav, tell him that Zoya is stable, he has to get out of his frozen state of shock..."
Anjali nodded, if only she could tell him why Arnav was in such a state.
She watched Shyam leave with Payal,as Akash nodded at her, and went to see them off.
And it was only then , she walked upto her frozen brother, and she put a hand on his shoulder as she said - " Chotte..."
But he just stood, frozen, looking into nowhere, staring blankly on the floor,and she said,shaking him slightly - "Chotte..."
But he didn't react again.
She sighed as walked a little ahead, and filled a paper cup with water from the filter, and then walked straight ahead, and splashed it across his face, startling him, and he finally looked at her,and she took a deep breathe,as she took his hand, and he followed her silently as she led him out,he needed fresh air.
...
He had often heard, that all it takes is a second and your Life could come crashing down around you, and he had experienced it first hand before a decade ago, but he had never thought he would be experiencing that moment ever again.
But he was.
And he couldn't get himself to react at all, he couldn't get himself to move, or say anything even though his insides were screaming in pain,and he knew if anything were to happen to Khushi, he'd die himself.
And thats why he had prayed, prayed out to the Gods over and over again.
But soon after that he had frozen just like as if he was a statue, he couldn't react, it seemed as if he had frozen in time,he couldn't react when he had seen Khushi being wheeled out of the OT into the ICU, he couldn't react when he had seen her so pale in the stretcher, she was so pale, and with the oxygen mask on her, he could barely see her face,it was as if there was no Life inside of her, but he couldn't move.He couldn't budge or react , when he had heard the doctor give Asad the news that Zoya was stable, and that Khushi would need Life support.
He stood shocked and frozen because his mind refused to register what was happening, even though it could hear what was happening, it refused to process the information for the fear of the pain it would bring.
And right then he felt a gush of water on his face,and he realised that his sister had splashed a glass of water on him, to get him out of his frozen state,and he felt her take his hand, as she led him into the elevator, and he sensed that she was taking him to the terrace,and right then he felt his mind de-freeze as it all finally started to sink in, and he felt his mind starting to go into an overdrive,as he looked at his clothes,and he brushed his hand over her blood stains,and it all came back to him,as he stepped out of the elevator onto the terrace, which was empty.
He had been in shock, because he had Khushi's blood stains on his clothes.
He had been in shock because the woman he loved, had actually shielded him from the shot that was meant for him.
He had been in shock, because Khushi had taken a bullet for him.
He had been in shock , because the woman he loved was swinging in between Life and death, and he could do nothing about it.
He had been in shock, because his Khushi was having a head on encounter with death right now.
He had been in shock, because it was all because of him, and for him.
He had been in shock, because in every sense Khushi was in this situation because of him.
He had been in shock, because he had again let Khushi down.
He had been in shock, because he hadn't been able to save her, from the shot.
She had flung herself in his arms,she had probably felt secured and safe, she had trusted him, she trusted him thinking that he could never let anything happen to her.That he would taken her back with him, safe and sound
And he had let her down.
For she was fighting for her Life, right now, and he really couldn't do anything about it.
Hell, he had frozen in shock.
He didn't have the right to go and question the doctor himself.
How could he?? and with what authority??
The pain, the misery, the helplessness started to resurface in his being,as he finally fell down on his knees dejected,and he screamed.
He screamed his lungs out in Pain, In Helplessness,In Misery,
and in Fear.
And he stopped minutes later, as his lungs needed air, and he took the air in, as tears fell his eyes, at the realisation, that Khushi needed life support because the doctor felt she wouldn't be able to breathe without it.
And here he was breathing.
He did take in the oxygen,as it all sunk in, and he finally broke down,and wept, like he had never wept in, for a decade.
...
Ten Minutes Later
Anjali watched in gut wrenching pain,as her brother wept helplessly on his knees.
That scream he had finally let out in pain,and in helplessness,and in misery and in fear, had pierced through her heart, just like she knew it had pierced his being.
She walked over, and kneeled down next to him, and finally pulled him into a hug as she whispered - " your state of shock was starting to scare me...i was worried as to why you weren't reacting at all, even though i know that you are..."
Arnav paused,as leaned back against as slab on the terrace and said - "scared, scared the hell out of my mind..."
Anjali nodded, and she sat next to him and held his hand, as she whispered - " Talk to me, take it out Chotte, you cant let the storm drown you in, you have to react..."
Arnav looked at her and he wiped a tear out of his eye - " how can i react di?? how do i react di?? how do i react when Khushi is fighting to breathe...when she is in the face of death...when she needs life support...how do i react?? for all i can feel is numbness...this numbness thats consuming me, if anything were to happen to her di, i swear id die..id die..."
Anjali held his hand as she wiped her own tear - "no one can understand what you are going through right now Chotte better than me, i understand, for i felt the same when i got to know that Sameer didn't make it in that accident, but Chotte, Khushi will be fine, i have faith Chotte, have faith Chotte, the doctors are just being cautious, thats all, you wait and watch by tommorrow morning Khushi will be fine too, just like Zoya is stable,i know Zoya has to face the consequences of the accident, but atlas she is safe, and Khushi will be too...im sure..."
Arnav looked at the darkness of the sky as he asked softly - " will the sun ever rise again di??"
Anjali brushed his hair tenderly - " it will...the sun will rise again , for sure, and tomorrow we will all be past this terrible day..."
Arnav put his head down as he spoke - " its my fault , its all my fault...it should have been me di...it should have been me di.. "
Anjali looked at him as she asked - "what do you mean??"
Arnav - "Mehmet, he was aiming for me , at my back, Khushi was in front of me,she must have spotted him, and she turned me around with such force and shielded me, but before i could react or move, it was too late, she was shot...she took a bullet for me di, and she's fighting for her life, and its all my fault, i couldn't save her, i couldn't, i promised Asad that i would bring her back safe, but I couldn't di...i couldn't...", and he hugged his sister and he sobbed.
Anjali hugged him tight,and she said a few minutes later,as she made him look at her - " look at me Chotte, i understand what you are going through, but you have to hang in there, you have to be strong, you have to have faith, you love her so much,that you almost took a bullet for her, what makes you think she loves you any less, iv seen that love in her eyes for you, and she took a bullet to save you, what makes you think she isn't going to be able to fight this out?? Khushi is a fighter,she will make it,and you will hold yourself together and have faith, thats the only thing we can do..."
Arnav composed himself and he said - " i want to see her, but..."
Anjali - " i know, with Asad around, its complicated for we will have no explanation to give him,and we cant tell him, not right now..."
Arnav nodded as he said - "how can i tell him that im the reason your sister has been in constant pain,that i broke her heart again and again, and that im the reason that she is fighting for her life right now, the guilt is eating me up di..."
Anjali held his hand - " i understand, but Chotte, this isn't your fault...ok?? its the intense love that you both feel for each other that has finally surpassed everything, it cannot be suppressed any longer, thats what made her do this Chotte...you understand Chotte??dont you?? this is not your fault, and this is not the time to get into a guilt mode, Khushi needs you...Zoya needs you..."
Arnav nodded and he composed himself as he said - " I know you will figure out a way di, i need to see Khushi...and i need to see her as soon as any of us are allowed into the ICU to see her"
Anjali spoke as she held out her hand to him - " I will...now cmon lets go...feel any better...??"
Arnav nodded as he got up and said in a calm and composed voice - " much better di, they are both going to get through this, ill make sure they do, for this time around, im not going to let my Life come crashing down around me..."
Anjali gave him a small smile,and she held his hand and their made their way down,and she looked at him, and she knew for sure that Arnav was out of the shock he had gone into, and was now ready to face the aftermath of the day, head on.
And head on , he would.
For her brother faced every obstacle, right in the face.
...
1.00 AM
Asad sat in the chair outside the doors of the ICU and he looked at Arnav sitting next to him and he heard him say - " di says, she will back first thing in the morning, im glad Akash took her home..."
Asad looked at him as he said, referring to the bullet that had scrapped past his arm - " you should have left Arnav, youv been hurt too..."
Arnav looked at him as he said - " its nothing, im fine, and i dont think its wise for you to be alone right now..."
Asad - "had almost forgotten how good a friend you were to me,Arnav, always standing rock solid behind me...thank you for everything today, i have no words, i dont even know what to say..."
Arnav looked at him as he said - " you don't need to say anything Asad,its alright..."
Asad looked at him shocked - " you are willing to forgive me?? for i didn't listen to you all those years ago...its because i was so adamant, i made you hate me, i brought this enemity upon us..."
Arnav looked at him as he said - " i could probably hold onto the hurt I felt at your hands all my Life and have it torture me like it had been for all this while, or I could just admit that I understand your point and look ahead, and burry the hatchet and set myself free, so that we can move on from all of this...and i have learnt from someone very close to my heart, that forgiveness does that to you , you know, it has that power to set you free, so yes, Asad, i forgive you, for i want to set us both free of the darkness of that day, that we both have held onto all our lives, it wasn't our fault, not mine, nor yours, it was the time and the situation...and honestly it feels good to know that dad and uncle didn't really do what we had assumed,somehow restores my faith back in,in Life in general..."
Asad looked at him in surprise, and he said - " you mean, what I assumed,but yes you are right it feels good to know that I was wrong, but Im sorry Arnav, i really am..."
Arnav nodded - " i know that you are, i didn't suffer alone now did i?? you probably had jousted out your own personal hell for yourself too..."
Asad nodded - " I had...and thanks, i didn't think you could forgive me, Arnav, but it lessens my guilt to know that you have, only if...", and he paused,not knowing if he should continue, but he saw Arnav looked at him and he knew that this was his friend who was sitting next to him, and he said, knowing that he wouldn't make judgements - "only if, Zoya could forgive me too... i know she won't..."
Arnav - "for what??"
Asad took a deep breathe as he said - "for annulling our marriage...i was so hurt, by what happened, by how she doubted me and my love, that i went ahead and had the papers of annulment ready,and i signed them, and i made her sign them too..."
Arnav looked at him shocked - " what?? when???"
Asad said, sure the distress and the regret was present in his voice - "last night...we had a huge fight, i ended everything,and she had left for the hotel last night itself, so all this, this accident, it happened,its all my fault Arnav, i cant help but blame myself, for if i hadn't acted the way i had in rage, she wouldn't have left, she would have come with me in the morning here, and then...the accident wouldn't have happened, we wouldn't have lost our baby, and she would be absolutely fine...and her being fine, would have probably meant that you and me could all have gone to the farmhouse together, and then probably we could have saved Khushi from the shot too...this really is all my fault...Arnav...i cant even face myself, i cant even look at myself in the mirror...how am i going to face Zoya?? what am i going to say to her?? she's never going to forgive me, hell i dont know, if i am ever going to be able to forgive myself..."
Arnav looked at him for a second, the brother in him resurfaced, as he wanted to punch Asad straight in the face, but he refrained, because he realised if there was a competition of who hurt whose sister the most, he himself would have won it hands down, because what had happened with Zoya was due to a deep misunderstanding and then a genuine accident, but what had happened with Khushi had always been his direct fault, infact even today, Khushi was fighting for her life, because he had failed her,yet again.
He looked at Asad as he spoke curtly - " lets just hope Zoya hasn't filed the papers, and you get the time to tear them apart and then probably spend the rest of your life making it up to her, for she will need you , now, more than ever...we are her family, I'm her brother, I'm here for her always, but you are the man she loves, the one for whom she went up against eveyrthing,she would need you..."
Asad was shocked, he had expected Arnav to react differently,but he was surprised by what he had said, but then Arnav had been surprising him for a while now with his actions so he just started telling Arnav everything, that he had felt since Zoya's accusations , the darkness that had consumed him, made him do what he had,leaving of course their intimate details out and then once he was finished,he took a long pause as he said - " and yet, i couldn't get myself to see in that one moment how much she sacrificed for me, i was so blinded by my darkness,and i was wrong, I was so wrong, now that i look at it, it isnt just because of how much a tragedy today was, or maybe yes,but as it all sunk in and the heavy price i had to pay, we lost our child, our love child, Zoya might be deeply injured, khushi is fighting for her life,i dont know what tomorrow will bring my way, but I have realised, that i was so wrong Arnav,probably it was my pride talking, for i wanted to hurt Zoya, break Zoya in every way, as deeply as hurt I was, and now that she is in the ICU ,and to see her in the accident, and from all that happened, the fight, the misunderstanding, the annulment,it feels so belittling,none of that even matters right now, for all i want is to hold Zoya , love her and never let go...and i am here for her, but i don't know if she will have me, for in my choice,i went blindly with my rage and my pride,how could i be so blinded, I talk of Love, I always felt my Love with so much conviction, then why couldn't I see,that what was just that one mistake?? one mistake when it came to love?? yes i had forgiven her for lying to me about who she was for real, once before, then why couldn't i look inside my heart, and find that light again,why couldn't i see and understand the situation she was in,but like I said, i know it was my pride , my darkness, i ruined everything, i burned all the bridges, and now i can only pray that maybe her heart is bigger than mine,and freer,maybe she can forgive me, even though i dont know if I can ever forgive myself..."
Arnav nodded, and he knew the regret and the repentance in his voice was true and genuine, he had been in a heartbreaking situation like this too, and so he just said,stating the truth,for he hadn't himself forgiven himself for the pain he had caused Khushi - " thats quite the hardest part though, easier to forgive the other, than to forgive ones own self...but have faith...the sun will rise tomorrow, and it will outlight the darkness of this tragic day and the past, together, things will get better Asad, have faith, tomorrow, will be a new day,Zoya will be better, and Khushi will be too...glad that they let Zoya sleep through,lets see what the doctors have to say in the morning...for both Zoya and Khushi..."
Asad nodded as he looked at him and he said - " I almost want to believe you, because i know faith is the only option we have..."
Arnav looked ahead, as he nodded - " oh yes, the only option that we have for now..."
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The Next Day - 9.00 AM
Zoya opened her eyes, hazily,and then she closed them again.She moved a hand on reflex to her temple,and she realised that she had the drip on her hand, and then she opened her eyes slowly,as the surroundings began to sink in, and the events of the day before came back to her, and all of a sudden she felt worry come up in her mind because, she wanted to know about Khushi,and right then she saw a nurse walk in with Dr Arvind behind her,and she tried to sit up, but she was stopped by the gesture of Dr Arvinds hand,as he said smiling at her - " easy little Zoya...", and he instructed the sister to incline the bed up, as he sat on the stool next to her and when she did, he said - " check her vitals..."
Zoya gave him a small smile, she waited in silence, she had always been so so fond of this man, he had been her fathers friend, and she heard the nurse say - " all good doctor..."
Dr Arvind smiled at the nurse, as he said - " ok then why don't you wait outside for a while, i have to talk to Zoya..."
The nurse nodded and she left.
Zoya looked at him and she asked - "Uncle, do you know if my friend Khushi is waiting outside, id like to see her..."
Dr Arvind asked - " Khushi Ahemed Khan??"
Zoya nodded.
Dr Arvind looked at her face, he didn't know how to tell her yet that the friend she was talking about was still on life support so he said - " you can see her in a while...Zoya...", and he gave her a small smile.
Zoya felt relief rush through her, as she realised that his smile meant that Khushi was fine,safe and sound, which meant that Asad and Arnav were successful in reaching her in time,and right then she felt a pang of pain in her abdomen, and she touched it in reflex, as she heard Dr Arvind ask - " a bout of spasm??"
Zoya nodded , and she looked at him confused,and she heard him say - "you know me, i always believe in complete transparency with my patients, and you are dear to me Zoya, like my daughter Roohi, so, I'm going to be completely honest with you..."
Zoya felt another spasm in her abdomen, but she looked at him and nodded as she said - " id like that, i want complete honesty too..."
Dr Arvind took a deep breathe as he said - " the spasms you experience, are normal after such a surgery, nothing to worry, will go on for a few days..."
Zoya looked at him confused - "such a surgery?? what do you mean??"
DR Arvind took a deep breathe - " you were pregnant Zoya, you were into the sixth week, after the accident, you haemorrhaged and...",he paused, as he saw her eyes widen in shock, as she went on to touch her stomach, and tears welled up in her eyes.
Zoya felt shock go through her mind, she had been pregnant???.
On reflex, her hand went on her stomach, and she immediately realised, as she spoke in a shaken voice - " I lost my baby, didn't i??"
Dr Arvind nodded - " yes, you did...it was a terrible accident Zoya..."
Zoya felt a pain seer through her being , the emotional pain that she had never felt before, she had lost her child.
Six Weeks,she calculated back,which could only mean, she had probably conceived on their wedding day,and she had lost her baby, the symbol of her and Asad's love, and she asked , in a voice full of emotion - "does he know??"
Dr Arvind - " your husband??"
Zoya remembered, that probably technically she didn't know if she could call him that anymore, but she nodded - "yes...does he know??"
Dr Arvind - "ofcourse, he knows, he had to take care of all the formalities...he has been a wreck,anyway, they all know your husband , and all your family...but thats not my worry Zoya, for i know you will heal..."
Zoya looked at him , as he looked away and she asked - " uncle, will i be able to conceive again??"
Dr Arvind looked at her - "Zoya..."
Zoya - " I want to know the truth, completely honest remember??"
Dr Arvind sighed - " well, honestly, in such cases, it was your first pregnancy,and a terrible miscarriage, i wouldn't say that its impossible, but yes chances are low,as in you may conceive but i don't know if your uterus will have the strength to hold the baby, but it isn't impossible Zoya, like i said, you body will heal, give it time,you are very young thats your advantage, give yourself the time to heal and who knows a miracle will happen..."
Zoya looked at him as she choked on her words - "so you mean, it will be no less than a miracle, if I'm pregnant again, that does narrows down my chances quite a lot, Uncle..."
Dr Arvind brushed her hair tenderly - " Im sorry Zoya..."
Zoya shifted in her bed, as she wiped her tears, and it was right then she realised that she was feeling something really different down her left thigh and leg and she looked at Dr Arvind as she asked - "why do i feel this weird thing in my leg..."
Dr Arvind looked at her - "what do you feel??"
Zoya tried to move her leg, and she felt she could move it, but not completely and she said - " I can move it a little, but the sensation its weird, its as if theirs something poking out inside of me...what happened to me, Uncle??"
Dr Arvind took his phone and he texted his nurse to bring in the neurologist and the physiotherapist.
The next thing Zoya knew was that a team of doctors had rushed in, and they started to examine her, mostly concentrating on her left leg, and she looked from one doctor to another as they exchanged glances, and then she heard the neurologist say as he touched the sole of her left feet - " do you feel anything??"
Zoya nodded, she felt a sensation, but it wasn't the same, something wasn't normal, and she just looked on confused as he examined her further ,and then he looked at Dr Arvind, as he said, giving him a small smile - " isn't as bad, as i thought it would be...the damage is significant, but not something that cannot be managed with physiotherapy, and medication, the only way we can strengthen the nerve back...but i need to run the MRI"
Zoya looked on confused, but she saw the physiotherapist walk in ,as he examined her again,and she just followed the instructions that were given to her silently.
About 15 Minutes Later -
Zoya watched the rest of the doctors leave, and Dr Arvind turned to look at her, as he sat back on the stool,and he looked at her, knowing that she had the confusion on her mind, and he heard her say - " Uncle, i don't understand a lot of medical terms that you all just discussed, but i do know, that something is terribly wrong, with my left leg, i feel weird, very weird, its not the same, its not the same...", and he caught the emotion in her voice.
Dr Arvind took a deep breathe as he said - " well, Zoya, honestly, its not as terrible as i was fearing, i was fearing a paralysis as the affect, you see a tiny piece of the glass that had pierced through your back ,damaged a part of your nerve that leads down to your left leg, but you feel something right...some sensation, thats a good thing, the neurologist will be running some scans for which they will be taking you in now...they need to see how this can be managed..."
Zoya heard in shock as she asked trying to move her leg again - " will i be able to walk on it?? will be able to walk on both my feet??"
Dr Arvind touched her head lovingly as he said - "yes, you will be able to Zoya, after you'v been through intense rehab and physiotherapy, you will be able to walk on both your feet as normally as before, i have had a similar case as this before..so i know...dont worry..."
Zoya nodded but she asked in daze - "and until then??"
Dr Arvind - " until then I'm sure ill find you a excellent tool for your assistance??"
Zoya looked at him as she asked choking on her voice - " a wheelchair????"
Dr Arvind - " no no, my dear of course not, your right leg is absolutely fine, you will probably just need a crutch to help you, and not for very long too...its all upto how determined you are, thats precisely the reason why I'm telling you all of this , because the Zoya i know, is a fighter, you are going to fight this adversity that Life has thrown your way, and you are going to fight it hard,dont let it pull you down Zoya...ok...??"
Zoya could only nod, as she asked - " how long?? how long will it take??"
Dr Arvind - "like i said, its all on how determined you are...you will need intense very intense physiotherapy, can be two years, or a year or could be months too, only time will tell...but you have to be strong ok?? you have everybody with you, your husband, your family...everything will be fine, have faith..."
Zoya asked dazed, as she saw the nurse come in and she said that she needed to take her for the MRI - "is he outside??my husband?? and my family??"
The Nurse - " yes very much, they are waiting for Dr Arvind..."
Zoya looked at him as she asked - " is there another door, you could take me out from?? i don't know if I'm ready to...i don't know if i want to see anyone right now, without having a breakdown, i need to compose myself",and she choked as tears started to fall her eyes.
Dr Arvind nodded as he said instructing the sister - " Zoya , my daughter, compose yourself, and be strong, thats really the only option you have right now,...",and then he said to the sister - "take her through the door on the other end..meanwhile ill go and talk to everyone..."
Zoya nodded, as she laid back in bed, and felt the bed recline back,as she saw the sister wheel her out through the other door, and she closed her eyes, in pain, and in misery, and in helplesslessness, as the aftermath of her accident, which happened due to her being so restless and careless, finally began to sink in her being.
...
Arnav spotted Dr Arvind step out, and he was by his side in a jiffy , just like Asad was and he asked first, this time - "i dont understand, why didn't the neurologist or the physio,tell us anything at all...hows Zoya??hows she?? is she stable??"
Dr Arvind saw everyone gather in front of him and he heard Asad ask - "can i see her??"
Dr Arvind gave a small smile as he said - " calm down and listen to me, yes, Zoya is stable, and very much awake, they'v taken her for the MRI, could be a long one, for the need to assess every minute detail, but yes from what they examined,i have good news, the damage is significant, but not as bad as id thought it to be, i was fearing much worse..."
Asad asked - " what were you fearing??"
Dr Arvind - " paralysis of her left leg..."
Arnav - "and it isn't that??"
Dr Arvind smiled - "no, it isnt, luckily, she could feel some sensation whilst we checked her...and she could also move it a little not completely though ,so probably lets wait for the MRI result, ill be able to give you complete picture then, but i can tell you with intense physiotherapy, she should be back on both her feet, but until then we need to get her a suitable crutch, my junior doctor will take care of that this evening..."
Anjali listened carefully,and she knew her sister well,so she asked - " did she ask you anything??"
Dr Arvind - "first thing out, she asked me about Khushi...but dont worry i didn't tell her about her condition, and she wanted to see Khushi, but i told her that she could of course later,and then she got a few spasms in her abdomen, which is only normal of course, but as you know i believe in complete honestly with my patient..."
Anjali heard Asad ask in shock - " you told her about the miscarriage???"
Dr Arvind nodded - "yes i did, and she also knows about the condition with her leg...i had to tell her once my team left after seeing her..."
Asad closed his eyes in agony , he could only imagine the pain Zoya must have gone through, and he wasn't there by her side, and he asked opening his eyes - " what was the need?? so soon??"
Dr Arvind kept a hand on his shoulder - " i understand, your worry, but thats precisely why i told her, the sooner the better, she's strong, she has to fight this adversity , the only way that will be possible if we be honest with her...and she doesn't need any sympathy or pity right now, what she needs is support, and i know you all will give her that..."
Arnav saw Asad nod, and Arnav asked - "how did she take it in??shes ok isn't she??"
Anjali closed her eyes as tears fell - "my poor baby..."
Dr Arvind - "well she's fine, better than i thought she would be,and they just took her in for the scan, after she is back , we will shift her out of the ICU, into the the room, but we will need her to stay here, atlas for a week from now...is that alright??"
Asad nodded as he asked - "when can i see Zoya??"
Dr Arvind - "as soon as the scan is over..."
Aad - "alright, are you going to check Khushi now?? how is she?? the nurse wouldn't tell me anything..."
Arnav flinched, and his sister eyed him to control his expression,and he did,because he understood what his sister was implying, he didn't have the freedom to express his emotions,not in this situation, because of course to the world Khushi was someone who had been engaged to someone else just a few hours before, he could not react in anyway that could make anyone wonder anything else about their association right now,he didn't want to do anything to belittle Khushi, he could blow the casket right away he knew he could but then again the consequences would have to be faced by Khushi, and she had faced enough for him,and so for her sake, he controlled his inner turmoil and masked his emotions as he asked curtly - " why doesn't your team tell us anything??whats with all this silence??"
Dr Arvind kept a hand on Arnav's shoulder - " because they are not supposed to, I am supposed too...as the doctor who is heading the case..", and then he looked at Asad as he said - " i checked her before i met Zoya, and lucky we had her on support,like i feared the breathing is very much an issue,and she's pretty much in the same condition she was in..."
Arnav felt his insides twitch and he asked curtly - " no improvement at all??"
Dr Arvind - " well's theres some for now, her pulse has improved from 45 to 48, and the nurse said that its been like that for two hours now, so lets not loose hope..."
Asad nodded,and he asked - "can is see her?? Khushi??"
Dr Arvind nodded - " yes, you can...one at a time...", and then he turned to the nurse as he said - " take him in..."
Anjali - "id like to see her too Dr..."
Dr Arvind - " you can after him, but i will only allow two people for now...we have stricter rules for the CCU.."
Anjali nodded, and she watched the nurse guide Asad in,and she turned to look at the longing on her brothers face as she said whispering into his ear- " i will distract Asad, once he is out, you can then go in and see Khushi..."
Arnav felt a gush of relief go through his system,as he nodded, and silently thanked his sister.
...
Zoya followed the instructions that were given to her, as she was shifted from the bed into the stretcher that would take her inside the MRI machine.
As she was being wheeled here, her mind had finally started to process everything that had happened.
The man put plugs in her ears as he said - " its going to be noisy in there...",and he made her hold a small remote kind of thing which had a wire attached out of it as he said - "its going to take me 30 to 40 minutes, alright, try to stay as still as you can, and press this button if you feel uncomfortable, i will stop the scan..."
Zoya nodded,and she closed her eyes, as she finally felt herself being pushed into the machine.
And then it all started to sink in, slowly.
She Had been Pregnant.
Pregnant.
She was going to be a mother,and she had miscarried in the accident.
She had been asked to stay still so she didn't move, but she had her one palm on her stomach anyway, as she felt her palm on it, raw pain seemed through her, and she fought tears from falling from her eyes.
She had lost the baby, her and Asad's first child.
Not just that,she had probably lost the chance to ever experience that beautiful emotion again.
She remembered Dr Arvinds words, a miracle could happen and her body could heal, after all she was so young.
But what were the odds?? Very low, of course.
And then ofcourse, this situation with her leg, she could sense it, she could sense the difference in her body, and she knew it would probably be very long before she could walk on both her feet without any support or help.
How could she react, when her world had fallen apart like it just had.
She had lost Asad first, the annulment, he didn't want her in her life, he had asked her to leave his house after Khushi's wedding, but of course that wasn't happening now, and she had already filed the annulment.
Then she had been in this accident, only because she had been careless, so restless and jumped the signal,and now she just had to face the aftermath of it, she had no other option, but to face the reality and the gravity of the loss, that had come her way.
Asad was gone, her baby was gone, she could probably never conceive again, she had lost her ability to walk on both her feet normally, she didn't know for how long, and the pain that she felt at that moment, only made her wonder, if she had probably lost that chance of being normal ever again.
She wanted to be strong, she wanted to fight this adversity, but how???
How did you gather the strength to get up and face the world,after you'v been hit with a blow as brutal as this?? Let alone how do you gather the strength to fight it??
Did she have that strength inside of her?? She didn't know, right now she really didn't know.
In spirit, she had always been a strong person, no storm in life had broken her spirit, but right now in this one moment, she knew, even though her spirit wasnt broken yet, she was shaken, shaken to her core of her being.
What could she do??
What did she want to do right now??
And she remembered, that her mother was awake, finally awake, and all she wanted to do was get to her, and hug her, and cry her heart out, but as her fate had decided to be cruel to her,she knew she couldn't do that too, for she couldn't stress her too, because she of course had a lot of recovery to do of her own.
She knew her family would be there for her, her brother, her sister, and the rest, everyone would be there for her.
And it was right then that his thought came back to her mind, the thought she had been fighting.
Asad.
The doctor had said, that hed been a wreck.
He knew about the miscarriage.
And she knew him well, he had always wanted children,they had always dreamed about having their own kids, their own family, little world of there own. He was probably as shaken as her right now, because no matter how the things had ended, she knew he had loved her with all his heart, the heart she had broken, and then he had broken her's.They had hurt each other in the most brutal way, was this why this had happened to them?? Was this Life's cruel joke on them , for they had both had to pay a very high price for it, the loss of their child.
And thats why just like all their other dreams, this dream had shattered too.
She knew he was probably out there, drowning in his own regret and guilt.
Just like she was drowning in her own regret, for filing the papers,that had finished everything between them.
Just like she was drowning in her own guilt for being so careless behind the wheel.
But what was the point??
Was there any point??
Ofcourse not, there wasn't.
For it was too late.
She could lie there, and wonder the if's and the buts, and question Life as to why this happened to her.
And he could probably be out there, wondering the same.
She had been able to tell the truth to them ,and she was sure they had heard the recording and her mother was also up, which only meant that the truth was out.
And so she knew, that probably Asad would also be feeling really guilty for the past too, hoping that he had given her brother the benefit of doubt all those years ago.
But what really was the point??
All this regret and guilt was something they both had to face.
For it really was too Late now.
She knew, he'd probably forgotten everything that had happened between them before she had left for the Hotel.
For in one day, Life had come crashing down around them in so many ways.
And even though deep down in her heart, she knew that it seemed right to let that love in her heart over-rule it all, for this was beyond everything, and it did seem right to a part of her to just surrender in his arms,and cry her heart out,his arms, his strong embrace that made her feel safe and treasured could probably give her the strength to look in the mirror and smile again, but she knew she couldn't.It made sense to a part of her to just surrender in front of Love, but she knew she couldn't.
Because she didn't feel the same anymore,in her being.
For in her mind, and in her heart, she felt Lost.
Lost like she had never felt ever before.
She felt lost in the pain of loss, in the pain of misery and helplessness,and she knew she had to find herself,and this was a journey she had to make alone.
Maybe thats why this had happened.
Maybe it was Lifes way of testing her off her strength and mettle.
She closed her eyes,as she fought back tears.
Zoya Singh Raizada, had been thrown off guard brutally by Life.
But she wasn't any coward, she wasn't going to stay fallen long.
She would fight back,and she would face the reality head on,that nothing in her Life was the same anymore. Her life had changed in every way possible, both emotionally and physically.
She knew that once she was out of here,Asad would be waiting to talk to her, but he hadn't wanted her in his Life before any of this,and she didn't want him to take her back because of sympathy over what had happened to her, or because of the guilt he felt.
She wouldn't have it that way, ever.She would never allow such a thing to happen.
She knew right then in that moment that she had probably lost in love forever, and a round in the game of Life, but she knew , she strongly beleived, that if she looked within she would find that strength to smile again,and she would,but she didn't want to be so harsh on herself,she had to give herself time, for she was only human, and so she took that one vulnerable moment, as she kept her eyes close,because life had given her this one rare vulnerable chance, to mourn the happy moments and memories of her love and her life.
For she knew, once she was out of this machine, nothing would ever be the same.
Nothing could ever be the same, neither in her Love, nor in her Life.
It was a brutal truth,that she had to face, the sooner , the better it would be, for even though it did feel like there was no where to go, she couldn't stay frozen in this moment forever, nor did she want to drown herself in self-pity,for she knew, even if she wanted to, she couldn't stand still,for somewhere in time, that clock was always ticking.
...
Meanwhile Simultaneously
Asad straightened the green cover and the mask that he was asked to wear,as he walked in the Critical Care Unit which was a part of the ICU, and Khushi was kept here, because she was fighting for her Life and was on life support and needed special and constant attention by the team,and he walked inside,dazed,as he came face to face with his baby sister, lying down in bed, unconsciousness, with a pipe down her throat, and various other iv drips,and monitors around her, and he watched from a far, his heart wrenched in pain, she had to get fine, nothing could happen to Khushi, nothing could happen to his little sister, and he asked the nurse who was standing next to her - " blood pressure??"
The Nurse - " still low, not as much as we'd like it to be..."
Asad - " pulse...??"
The Nurse checked the monitor as she said - " 52...its better than last night, and this morning dont loose heart...and we'v induced sedation, thats the only thing she needs right now..."
Asad fought tears as his voice cracked - " is she out of danger??"
The Nurse- " not yet...and now if you'll excuse me, i need to change her IV, we will also only allow one more person in the CCU today, you can ask them to come in ten minutes from now..."
Asad looked at her from afar, his little sister, and he prayed profusely, and he knew his mother should be the one to see Khushi, but she didn't know anything yet, and he wiped another tear of his eye, because he didn't know how to tell his mother anything, but he knew he had too.She had to know, and with that thought he made his way out.
As he got out the door Anjali di came his way as she asked and Arnav was behind her - "hows she??"
Asad composed himself as he answered- " bp is low, pulse is 52...she said you can go in ten minutes from now, changing her IV, they have induced sedation...", and right then his phone rang and he saw his mothers name flashing on the screen and he took a deep breathe as he said - "di, Zoya's scan would still be taking a while, in the time, i need to go see Ammi, she needs to know, i can't hide it from her any longer..."
Anjali nodded - " yes, you are right, go, she's with Maa...go talk to her...everyone is with Maa right now anyway"
Asad nodded at Anjali and then at Arnav,and just as he was crossing them, he heard Arnav whisper hoarsely, and he could sense the raw emotion in his voice - " Im sorry..."
Asad stopped in his tracks and he looked at Arnav,and he thought he saw raw guilt and pain in his eyes, before Arnav composed his voice as he said - " I promised you that I would bring her back safely, and I couldn't...you trusted me too, and I couldn't,she was hit before I could react, it happened so fast..I couldn't..im sorry...", and he choked on his words.
Asad understood what this was about, but he couldn't blame Arnav.It wasn't his fault,infact he had only put himself in danger for his sister, and for that he was greatful,and so he kept a hand on his shoulder as he said honestly - " Don't be Arnav...this wasn't your fault...", and then he nodded at him again and patted his shoulder as he said - " ill just be back...message me if you know when Zoya's MRI is about to get over, ill be there...i want to see her first..."
Arnav nodded,and he watched him leave,and he fought a tear that was threatening to leave his eye as his sister held his hand and she said - "Chotte...compose yourself, how are you going to be able to go in, and see Khushi..."
Arnav fought for words as he fought the emotion that was blocking his throat - " I want to, every part me wants to just see her, but di i dont know if ill be able to see her like this...i don't know, if I...shes fighting for her Life...never in my worst nightmare had i imagined something like this..."
Anjali hugged him as she said - " and you will be able to see her Chotte, you have too, be strong Chotte...see even i didn't have to do anything to distract Asad, now cmon...be strong..."
Arnav nodded as he composed himself - "the only option that i have anyway...",and he looked at his watch, only three more minutes were left until he could go in and see Khushi.
...
Arnav followed the Nurse,and she gave him a look,as she instructed him to tuck the strand of the mask behind his ear, as she said softly - " im sorry we have strict rules for the CCU...because all our patients here are very critical"
Arnav nodded,as he gulped down his emotion,and tucked the string behind his ear so that the mask snug appropriately on his face, and then he followed silently, and he gathered all his strength, he knew he would be needing it,for this was going to be the most dreaded moment of his life.
The Nurse finally turned towards the area,and halted in from of the bed,and she drew the curtains as she said - " you have two minutes...ill just be back, i need to get an injection that i need to put in her IV.."
Arnav nodded,and he watched her leave,and it was only when he was completely alone, that he could instruct himself to step ahead, and walk a little closer, and he finally registered in the sight of her.
And if one could die a million deaths, in a moment, he did, for what he saw and the affect it had on his heart and mind, and the ache with which his heart started to beat, and his breathe stopped in his throat, he knew, his own death would be better than this, why hadn't he been shot,rather than being subjected to this punishment of seeing Khushi like this,fighting for her life.
He looked at her, and tears instantly came into his eyes,for he fought the emotion, that he had never felt in all of his life.
He had fought something like this when he had seen his mother in Coma, all those years ago,but then with time he had gained the strength to deal with that situation.
But right now, in this moment as he laid his eyes on Khushi, his khushi lying down in the bed, surrounded by so many pipes, monitors, with a pipe down her throat,which he realised was the life support ventilator and her eyes were closed,because she had been sedated, and she looked so pale, so weak, so fragile, as if...as if there really was no Life inside of her, and that she was only breathing with the help of this damm ventilator.
His fingers moved on its own accord, as he touched her fragile and unconscious fingers of the hand that was within his reach,and he could only brush them softly, tenderly too scared to cause her any pain and he fought tears as he leaned into her,and kissed her on the forehead,and then whispered,controlling his tears - " its not a request, its a command,I forbid you too even think of giving up, you are going to fight this Khushi, and you are going to be absolutely fine, you are going to come back ,and then you are going to have to give a suitable explanation for the nonsensical act that you pulled out there in the farmhouse, that landed you in this mess,and then you better apologise for subjecting me to the most horrific scene of my Life, Khushi i cant see you like this, please, Khushi...punish me all you want,in any way but not like this please...id do whatever you say,but please be fine, i know my voice is reaching out to you,I know you can hear me, you can right?? you know whats it taking off me to see you like this, its killing me, don't do this to me Khushi,I love you Khushi, please...please just hang in there, and fight this damm machine, and get back...",and he finally choked on his own words and emotions,as he heard footsteps behind him,and he heard the Nurse say - "sir, you need to leave now..."
Arnav nodded,as he stepped back,and wiped the tear out of his eye,and he looked at Khushi, one last time,and he finally made his way back out the door,he had been guided in from.
He handed the mask and the green cover to the nurse before he stepped out, and his sister came upto him as she asked, holding his arm , and made him sit on the chair , and she sat next to him as she said - "Chotte..."
Arnav instantly pulled her into a hug as he whispered - " now i understood, what you meant when you would tell me, that i would meet someone one day,and without her id feel like i'd be unable to breathe,because right now I feel just like that, as if I cant breathe di, seeing Khushi like that, fighting for her Life, why am i here safe and sound, and why is she there, inside fighting for her life instead of me, i never thought i was capable of doing what I had, I mean i was ready to let her go, for her happiness,and i had, and i was ready to live lonely all my life knowing that she was happy out there somewhere,i could live with that, with her memories,because all i wanted was for her to be happy, but no di, this, this is something i cant do, i cannot exist in a world, in which she doesn't...di, this is all my fault,all my freaking fault, if i would have probably forced her into not getting engaged with Arhaan that day, none of this would have happened, she would probably hate me maybe,but atlas she would be safe...di, i love her so much,why Khushi, why did you have to put yourself in my place...why????"
Anjali hugged him for a while,because she knew he was crying his heart out and then she pulled back as she said - "and like i said before, because she loves you Chotte...compose yourself please...we need to see Zoya and then Maa too right, shed be wondering where we are..."
Arnav nodded as he tried to gather every bit of his strength to compose himself,and he asked looking at his sister - "why didn't you ever tell me this??"
Anjali - "why didn't i ever tell you what??"
Arnav looked at her as he said - "that it does take probably all you have to stay composed,even when every damm thing inside of you is breaking, that it takes all your strength to stay silent even when all you want to do is scream your lungs out and turn this whole world upside down...and i know you been through worse, for you actually did loose Sameer, how did you keep it all in di, for i feel as im going to burst..."
Anjali gave him a sad smile as she said - "because love also gives us courage, and sometimes thats what you need, sometimes all you need is that few more minutes of insane courage to hold yourself together..."
Arnav - " Its still all In the name of Love...?"
Anjali nodded as she said - " it always is, in the name of Love...and honestly iv learnt from experience that you never really know how strong you are until being strong is the only option that you have..."
...
20 Minutes later
The elevator opened, and Asad guided his mother out,as she wiped her tears and he said - "ammi, we have to be strong ok,everything will be fine, Arnav just messaged me that Zoya's scan is about to get over, so lets see her first,ok,and then ill take you to see Khushi..."
Dilshaad nodded as she walked with Asad and she said - " im fine...Asad, im fine...but why didn't you come to me yesterday itself..."
Asad looked at her as he said honestly - "ammi, i didn't want to stress you out..."
Dilshaad looked at him - "did you fear id get a heart attack??"
Asad nodded.
Dilshaad clutched his hand as she said - " my heart isn't so weak, my son...and i have faith Asad everything will be fine..."
Asad nodded,and right then he walked right towards the MRI area, and saw Arnav and Anjali standing, waiting outside.
He walked upto them ,and he saw his mother hug Anjali as she said - "Kkusum was asking for you two,and even Zoya, but we haven't told her anything yet..."
Anjali nodded - " we will see Maa, soon after this..."
Arnav - " and we will explain...because i know Zoya would want to see her now that she is awake, i would want her to be briefed before hand...".
Dilshaad put a hand on Arnav's cheek as she said - "thank you, i know you put yourself in a lot of danger for my daughter, but please don't blame yourself, it was a accident, a terrible one, but i know my Khushi, she's a fighter, just like Zoya is, everything will be ok..."
Asad looked at Arnav and he heard him say, his voice taut with emotion - " I know aunty and Zoya's scan should be over in the next minute, the nurse did say that we could speak to the radiologist..."
Asad nodded,and right then the doors opened,and they all looked up to see Zoya being wheeled out,and Asad felt his heart stop, in that one moment, as he finally laid his eyes on her, and their eyes met.
...
Zoya felt her every mental resolve starting to weaken,as her eyes finally locked with Asad's.
The intensity, of the emotion, the pain,and the love shone in his eyes,as he finally started to move towards her,she knew her brother was there, her sister was,ammi was, but she couldn't tear her eyes off his,as she knew that her eyes and her face had betrayed her mind in that one moment, as she felt herself weaken,and right then she felt him pull her into a crushing hug, right there, and she let her heart slip,and decided to let the her vulnerability have its way for now, after all it was only natural,as she finally felt her hands move,as she hugged him back,and she finally wept,crying like she had never cried before, as she finally broke down.
Asad felt her arms go around him after a few still seconds, and just when he finally felt her hug him back with so much emotion,he only hugged her tighter, to himself,and she tighten her hold on him, as she started to cry.
He didn't care,about where he was right now.
He didn't care about how everyone was watching.
All he cared was that he wanted to hold her to himself,and never let go.
He hugged her tighter, as he whispered brushing her hair tenderly - "everything will be alright Zoya, its ok...its ok..."
Zoya didn't know why , she had decided that she was going to be strong, but she didn't know why she couldn't control her tears, as she hugged him tighter and continued to cry, as she managed to say in between her sobs - " I didn't know i was...", she sobbed,but she said in between feeling extremely guilty- "i had no clue that I was pregnant...its all my fault, i jumped the signal...i...Im sorry...im so sorry..."
Asad pulled back and he kissed her forehead, and he pulled her into a crushing hug again as he said - " dont be Zoya, it is not your fault it was an accident, all that matters is that you are safe now...you scared the hell out of me...Zoya..."
Zoya hugged him back,and she just held on to him like that for a few minutes, she didn't have the courage in her heart to tell him, that she was also sorry because she knew that nothing could ever be the same again, neither in their love, nor in her Life,and so she let her emotions loose as she held on to him, feeling his heartbeats against hers.
Anjali wiped her tears as she heard Dilshaad say,walking upto them as she brushed Zoya'a hair tenderly as she kissed her forehead - " you know i cant see you cry, and your mother is awake, cmon do you want to see her like this?? after all this while..."
Zoya immediately pulled back out of Asad's embrace as she finally hugged Dilshaad,and Asad moved a little behind, as Anjali went ahead and hugged Zoya too,and then Arnav finally moved forward,as he kissed Zoya's hand and he said - " you'll be just fine..."
Zoya finally pulled her brother into a hug, as she held onto him for a while, and she finally said - " I want to see Maa..."
Arnav kissed her on the forehead and he said - " i know ofcourse, me and di and are just going to talk to her...and then you can see her..."
Right then Dr Arvind came upto them and he said looking at Asad - " iv had Zoya's suite ready,the good news like i said she isn't going to be in the ICU anymore...iv asked the staff to wheel her straight up to the room, and once the reports are ready, me and my team will come and see you..."
Arnav nodded, at everyone and then he and Anjali left ,for they had to meet their mother, and talk to her.
Dilshaad looked at Asad as she said - " why dont you go with Zoya to the room...ill just be there..."
Asad understood what she meant, and it was right then he heard Zoya ask - " Khushi, wheres Khushi?? Asad...??"
Asad masked his emotions as he said as the nurse started to wheel Zoya's bed, and he said walking along - " why dont we talk once we are in the room Zoya...",and he clutched her hand.
Zoya felt him press her hand, and she looked at his hand over hers,and the emotion it stirred up inside of her,because the gesture was the same as before ,Asad's emotion felt the same, but she really didn't feel the same anymore,but she nodded, and leaned back in her bed, in silence.
Dilshaad watched everyone leave, and it was only then she turned to Dr Arvind as she said, with tears in her eyes - " i know, Dr, my son and Anjali have seen Khushi, and you have strict rules for the CCU, but i really need to see my daughter, even if its for a minute...please..."
Dr Arvind looked at the emotion in her eyes, and the pleading voice of a mother was something he could never say a no too, so he just nodded in silence and then asked her to follow him.
...
Fate sighed, as he let out a deep breathe - "thats some consequences, they couldn't escape..."
Destiny - " No one can escape the aftermath, fate, we all know that..."
Love - "yes, but it was overwhelming..."
Fate - "yes, ofcourse, like i said, Zoya, she isn't the same anymore, just what i feared..."
Destiny gave him a sad smile - "but its still going to be out of Love, she may pretend otherwise, but we all know, the root cause of her actions will still be love..."
Love nodded - " only because she loves Asad so much, that she will push him away...thats why a part of her is going to be so happy that she filed the annulment,she doesn't want Asad to face her mess..."
Fate rolled his eyes as he asked - " oh that because she doesn't want him to suffer for her or because of her,she knows he always wanted a family,she thinks she cannot give him that probably ever...and then with her condition in the leg...she feels she's not the Zoya he fell in love with anymore...is it this??no wayyy..."
Destiny nodded - " yes way, the root cause is this, even though she's going to put up a touch act, but its a fight, she wants to fight alone..."
Love looked at them as she said - " but its ok, she will learn with time, lets just give her that, some time...its only natural cut her some slack, poor girl..."
Fate nodded - "and what about Khushi??"
Destiny - " life support for now yes, but like I said, before have faith..."
Fate looked at Love - "please tell me, once she wakes up, she's going to knock some sense into the Raizada and stop him from going on a guilt trip of his own..."
Love gave her friends a small smile - " I have a soft corner for him you know, poor chap, been through hell lately, and finally evolved into the person i knew he could be, but yes to answer you, of course yes, she's going to do just that after all, she's going to defeat the clutches of death, and then bounce back stronger,than ever before..."
Destiny smiled as she said - " with the realisation, that Life is too short, too be taken for granted...just like I wanted..."
Fate grinned as he looked at Love - " Just like we all wanted..."
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Tada guys!!!
P.S - The next update will come on friday evening or Saturday, will be up as i finish writing it!!
Edited by arnav.khushi - 9 years ago
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